The Best Science Fiction and Fantasy of the Year - Volume Eight (50 page)

"There's no way anybody could say this is my fault," Peter stammered, trying not to look at the corpses with stuff leaking out of their necks, just as Ulsa brought a plate of very crispy chicken-fried steak with some very runny eggs. "I told everybody that I didn't have any secret. They just wouldn't listen."

"Yeah, I know," Rebecca said. "Like I said, people hate you. This is why I quit my last five jobs, including that pet store gig, which I just bagged on the other day. Everybody feels entitled. I've never had a boss who didn't feel like they ought to own me. People hate realizing that the world won't just shower them with candy."

Peter looked at the crayfish heads, then at his chicken-fried steak. In the car outside, through the one window, he could see Dobbs bouncing up and down. Like Dobbs already knew he was getting that steak. Then what Rebecca had said sunk in.

"You quit the pet store job?" Peter said, looking up at her.

"Yeah. They basically wanted me to do unpaid overtime, and they were trying to start a grooming business in the back, and wanted me to help with that as well. I do not groom."

Peter couldn't imagine just quitting a job, just like that. He felt his crush on Rebecca splintering a little bit. Like he'd put her on a pedestal too fast. "So what are you going to do now?" he said. "Are you going to go to L.A. and go to barista school?"

"Maybe. The next enrollment isn't for a few months. I guess I'll see how it goes."

Peter made himself eat a little because he was starting to have a fullscale panic attack. He gestured at the tablet without looking at it. "This is going to keep happening. And they're going to keep trying to make it about me."

The radio in the diner quit playing some country song about a cheating man, and a news report about the New Jersey tragedy came on. Congress was talking about regulating magic, and there were questions about whether the makers of the spellbook the teachers had used could have some liability, even though it had five pages of disclaimers in tiny print. And there was a mention in passing of the notion that the teachers might have been influenced by the famous Clean Casting.

"What if there really was some secret and you had it?" Rebecca said. "If I were you, I'd be doing more spells and seeing if I could figure out what I did right. You could have anything you wanted. You could raise the dead and feed the hungry."

"I would never get away with it. I was really selfish and stupid that one time, and I came away with a super-strong feeling that I'd better never try my luck again."

And then Peter decided to go ahead and tell her about the spell:

"Here's what happened. I was engaged to this girl named Marga. She was amazing and artistic and creative, and she was always doing things like repainting her apartment with murals, or throwing parties where everybody pretended to be a famous assassin. And she had this cat that was always sickly. Constant vet visits and late-night emergencies. She and I moved in together. And then a few months before the wedding, she met this guy named Breck who was a therapeutic flautist, and she fell in love with him. She wound up going with him to Guatemala to provide music therapy to the victims of the big mudslide there. Leaving me heartbroken, with a sick cat. The cat just got more and more miserable and ill, pining for Marga. We were both inconsolable."

"I think maybe I can see where this is going," Rebecca said, picking at her last pancake.

"Dobbs is way happier as a dog, he gets to go out and run around," Peter said. "His pancreas seems way better, too."

"So you turned your ex-girlfriend's cat into a dog. As, like, revenge?"

"It wasn't revenge, I swear. She doesn't even know, anyway. I just… Dobbs was really unhappy, and so was I. And this seemed like it was a fresh start for both of us. But part of me felt like maybe I was doing it to get back at Marga, or like I was transforming Dobbs without his consent. And I welcomed the idea of being punished for it. So when the punishment didn't come, it just made me feel more guilty. I started to hate myself. And maybe that's why. The more I didn't get punished, the worse I felt."

"Huh." She seemed to be chewing it over for a moment. "I guess that's not the weirdest thing I've heard of people doing to their pets. I mean, at the store, there were people who shaved their pets' asses. Who does that? And your ex is the one who left her cat behind when she bailed, right? You could have taken him to the ASPCA, and they'd have put him to sleep."

And just like that, Peter had a crush on her again. Maybe even something stronger than a crush, like his kidneys were pinwheeling and the blood was leaving his head and extremities. He wanted to jump up and hug her and make a loud train-whistle sound. He hadn't realized how guilty he'd been feeling about Dobbs, until he told someone and they didn't instantly hate him.

"Do you want to go to L.A.?" Peter said.

"What, now?"

"Yeah. Now. I mean, as soon as we finish breakfast. You can try and go to that barista school, and I can get a job there. I know a guy who works in solar power financing. I'd barely even be famous by L.A. standards."

For a second, Peter felt like he was totally free. He could leave town, with the girl and the dog and whatever else he had in his car, and never look back. He could be like Marga, except that he wouldn't abandon Dobbs.

But Rebecca shook her head. Curls splashing. "Sorry. I don't think I could ever be with someone who thinks it's a good idea to run away from his problems."

"What?" And then Peter said the exact wrong thing, before he could stop himself: "But you just told me that you quit your last five jobs."

"Yes, and that's called having a spine. Quitting a job isn't the same thing as running away."

She got up, and Peter got up too. He was getting a doggie bag for the steak, and he felt as though she was cutting him loose with a pack of wolves on his tail. And then she reached out and unsmudged the corner of his mouth with her thumb, and said: "Listen. I'm going to tell you the secret to getting what you want out of life. Are you ready?
Never take any shit from anyone
."

"That's the secret? Of happiness?"

"I don't know about happiness. I told you, I'm unlucky."

She walked back toward her car, then stopped to look at Dobbs, who was bouncing up and down inside Peter's car, especially now that he could tell Peter was coming back. Dobbs' eyes were almost perfect spheres, like a Pekingese, and his tongue was sticking out of the side of his mouth, spraying bits of drool. Rebecca leaned over and stuck her hand through the window Peter had left rolled down a bit, and Dobbs licked her. She nodded at Peter, like confirming that yes, the dog was really okay, then went and got in her own car, which was even older and junkier than his.

He watched her drive away. Her radio was playing classic rock. He wasn't sure how you gave chicken-fried steak to a dog, but he figured he should fork it over while it was hot. Wouldn't you know it, as soon as he tipped it out of the bag onto the passenger seat and Dobbs started chewing on it, the steak suddenly smelled incredibly good and Peter felt a fierce hunger deep in his core. For a second, part of Peter wanted to snatch the food out of his dog's mouth.

He thought about what Rebecca had said:
Don't take any shit from anyone
. He'd heard people say stuff like that before, but it still felt like a major life philosophy. Like words to live by. He found his phone, which had like twenty messages on it, which he ignored and called Derek.

"Hey, can you do me a favor? Yeah, this is a chance to make up for telling your friend about me in the first place," he said. "Whatever, I'm over it. But can you go by my house and tell all the people camped out there that I'll do a press conference or something? At noon. I'll tell them the whole story about the spell, and answer their questions, and then they will leave me the fuck alone forever after that. Okay? Great."

After Peter hung up, he watched Dobbs eat the last bits of food. He got back in his car and drove around, trying to think of how to explain himself to everybody so they would leave him alone afterwards.

"Hey guy." Peter stroked Dobbs behind the ears when they were at a stoplight. "Are you ready for your moment in the spotlight?" In response, Dobbs extended his head, blinked, and sprayed vomit all over the inside of Peter's car. Then Dobbs sprawled in the seat, as if he'd just accomplished something awesome, and started to purr loudly. Like a jackhammer.

THE PILGRIM AND THE ANGEL

E. Lily Yu

E. Lily Yu (
elilyyu.com
) was the 2012 recipient of the John W. Campbell Award for Best New Writer and a 2012 Hugo, Nebula, and World Fantasy Award nominee. In 2012 she attended the Sewanee Writers' Conference as a Stanley Elkin Scholar, and in 2013 she attended Clarion West. Her stories have appeared in
McSweeney's
,
Clarkesworld
,
Boston Review
,
Kenyon Review Online
,
Apex
, and
The Best Science Fiction and Fantasy of the Year
. She is working on a novel, a video game, and a PhD.

T
hree days before Mr. Fareed Halawani was washed and turned to face the northeast, a beatific smile on his face, he had the unusual distinction of entertaining the angel Gabriel at the coffeeshop he operated in the unfashionable district of Moqattam in Cairo. Fareed was tipped back in his monobloc chair, watching the soccer game on television. The cigarette between his lips wobbled with disapproval at the referee's calls. Above him on the wall hung the photograph of a young man, barely eighteen, bleached to pale blue. His rolled-up prayer mat rested below. It was a quiet hour before lunch, and the coffeeshop was empty. Right as the referee held up a yellow card, a scrub-bearded man strode in.

"Peace to you, Fareed," the stranger boomed. "Arise!"

Fareed laughed and tapped out a grub of ash. "Peace to you. New to the neighborhood?"

"Not at all. I know you, Fareed," the stranger said. "You pray with devotion and give generously to the poor."

"So does my neighbor," said Fareed, "though that hasn't helped him find a husband for his big-nosed daughter. Can I get you a glass of tea?"

"The one thing you lack to perfect your faith is the hajj."

"Well, with business as slow as it is, and one thing and another…" Fareed coughed. "Truth is, may God forgive me, I'm saving up to visit my son. He's an electrician in Miami. Doesn't call home. What would you like to drink?"

"I have come to take you on hajj."

"I've got too much to do without that," Fareed said. He had quarrelled half the night with Umm Ahmed over their son, whose lengthening silence his wife interpreted as pneumonia or incarceration or death, though Fareed supposed it was simply the cheerful thoughtlessness of the young. He had washed six stacks of brown glasses caked and swirled with tea dust, his joints sour from four hours' sleep, before unrolling his shirtsleeves and sitting down to his soccer match. But for the rigorous sense of hospitality that his own father had drummed into him, nothing could have stirred him from his chair, his chewed cigarette, and the goals that Al-Ahly was piling up over Zamalek. His bones clicked as he stood. He reached for a clean glass.

But the angel spread his stippled peacock-colored wings, which trembled like paper and made the room run with light, and said again, simply, "I am taking you on hajj."

Fareed choked on his cigarette. "Now? Me? Are you crazy? I have customers to care for!"

Gabriel glanced around the deserted shop and shrugged, his wings dipping and prisming the walls. Then he vanished. The prayer mat propped against the wall fluttered open and enfolded Fareed. While he kicked and expostulated, it carried him headfirst out the door and into the clear hard sky, to the astonishment of a motorcyclist sputtering past.

"Sir! Sayyid! Are you djinn or demon?" Fareed called out. "Where are you taking me? What have I done?"

"I am taking you on hajj!" the angel said joyfully from within the rug, his voice muffled, as if by a mouthful of wool.

"If you are taking me anywhere," Fareed said, struggling against the tightening mat, "make it Miami. And you have to get me home by midnight. Umm Ahmed will worry, and I have to shut up the shop." He finally freed his arms from the grapple of the prayer mat. Below them, the countryside zoomed by, green and very distant. Fareed blanched.

"I can circle the globe as fast as thought," said Gabriel. "Of course we'll have you home by then."

"Perhaps a little slower, I have a heart condition," Fareed said, but they whistled up like a rocket, and the wind hammered the next words back into his throat.

W
hen he dared to look again, the silver trickle of the Delta flared below them. Then they were gliding over the shark tooth of the Sinai and the crinkling, inscrutable sea.

"This is really not necessary," Fareed shouted. "If I sell my shop I can buy an economy-class Emirates ticket to Jeddah tomorrow. You can send me home now."

"No need to sell your shop!" the angel said. "No need to wrestle suitcases through the airport and sit for hours with someone's knees in the small of your back. No need to worry."

"Right," Fareed said miserably.

By the time they reached the Arabian Peninsula, the dry, scouring wind had become unbearable. "Water," Fareed croaked. "Please, water."

"So spoke Ishmael in Hagar's lap," Gabriel said within the mat. "She had nothing to give him but prayers and tears. But I heard her crying out. I struck the ground with the tip of my wing, and water poured forth."

"Water!"

"Yes, water as clear and cool as glass. That was the well Zamzam. I shall take you to drink from it."

Fareed groaned a sand-scratched groan, then shut his eyes and muttered over and over the suras of the dying.

"Here we are," Gabriel said, what felt like hours later, lofting a redfaced Fareed onto a heap of sand. "That's Juhfa in the distance. Come, put on your ihram."