“Ahhh!” Emaline cried, stopping short.
Lydie started, coughing uncontrollably. “What is it?” she wheezed.
“Must've stepped on a stick or something. I'll be all right. What's wrong with you?”
Lydie made a few more barking coughs, then swallowed hard. “When you cried out, I swallowed my gum. Never mind.” Lydie shined the dying flashlight on Emaline's foot, exposing a few drops of blood. “It's not too bad, but it needs a good cleaning. Here, lean on my shoulder and we'll take it slower.” Emaline put her arm around her cousin, and they crept on.
“What's gonna happen to Daisy?” Martha knelt on a kitchen chair next to Jack while he peeled a crateful of red potatoes
over the sink. Harry was shucking corn on the porch, and Mr. and Mrs. Pool were retrieving linens upstairs. They were speaking to each other in Yiddish, so whatever they were saying, they didn't want their children to know.
Martha brushed her dark hair out of her face. “What's gonna happen to her?”
“They're gonna find her, that's what,” Jack said. He used the tip of the paring knife to dig out a particularly deep eye. “Pretty soon you'll be doing this work too, squirt,” he said, handing her another potato for the pot.
“How do you know?”
“Because we all do this work.”
“No, I mean, how do you know they're gonna find her?”
“Because. Because she didn't disappear into thin air. She got lost, and someone will find her, that's all.” He sensed her staring up at him, so he fastened his eyes on hers. “I said, someone will find her.”
“How 'bout you?”
“How 'bout me what?”
“How 'bout you find her, silly,” she said, climbing up on the counter and dangling her legs over the edge.
He let out a small laugh.
If only I could go out and look for Daisy
, he thought.
If only I wasn't accused of killing her
.
“Well, why dontcha?”
“Can't, silly. I've got to peel these potatoes.”
Martha's rightâI should be out with the search parties. After all, if Daisy vanished right after I left her in her driveway, isn't it my fault? Why didn't I wait for her to get inside her house? Or maybe I did wait. Did I watch her push open the doorâor not?
It was no use. He couldn't remember. At this point, he couldn't
distinguish between reality and wishful thinking.
“Agh,” he muttered when the knife slipped from the potato and cut a shallow crevice in his finger. He squeezed the finger with the opposite hand and watched the trickle of blood leak out. A cut on his fingering hand. Why did it have to be his fingering hand? Mr. Morse always told Jack to treat his fingers like the precious things they were. Now look what he'd doneâwith his audition only three days away.
Nothing can interfere with that, nothing. I've got to get to Syracuse. And I've got to get out of here.
“What's the matter, Jackie?” Martha asked.
“Nothing. Listen, squirt, someone will find her. I promise, all right? Now let me finish my work.”
A promise from her big brother seemed to be enough to satisfy Martha. She handed Jack a fat potato and hopped off the counter to find Mrs. Pool, leaving him with a sink full of browning vegetable skins. Dropping the knife into the sink, he watched a thick splash of blood disappear down the drain.
There was no denying one thing: regardless of when or how Daisy disappeared, he had been blamed. Accused. As good as convicted.
Why?
And, more importantly, whereâwhere would this monstrous lie about Jews using blood in their rituals lead? How many people would hear it, believe it, act on it? Does Emaline know I'm suspected of murdering her sister?
Rabbi Abrams said rumors were about as easy to unspread as butter. Was it too late already? Were the Jew-haters coalescing even now? Would word of this circulate as far as Syracuse, as far as Dean Elihu Pierson's office? Would all his
plans and years of hard work get wiped out just like that, all because of a lie?
God
, Jack thought as he pressed a dishtowel to his cut hand,
let it be over. And let my promise to Martha not be broken. Amen.
Clarisse waited for the girls to get back before heading home. “Don't disturb your mother,” she told Emaline on her way out. “She said she wants to get some rest. Lydie, you coming with me?”
“No, I'm going to stay with Em.”
“Okay, well, it's 9:30 now. I'll call at 11 to check in.”
“No, Mother. You get yourself some rest. We'll call you if there's news.”
“Well⦔
“Good night, Aunt Clarisse,” Emaline said.
As soon as Clarisse bustled out of the house, Lydie said, “C'mon, Em, let's go see your ma. If she told Mother she needs a rest that means she needs a rest from Mother, that's all.”
They headed upstairs and stopped outside Mrs. Durham's door. “I'm home,” Emaline said.
God, if I could only hear Daisy say those words.
“Come in,” she said. “It's not locked.”
Emaline winced when she saw her mother sitting up in bed, looking so pasty and frail. Even her hair seemed to have lost its color.
Like the life has been siphoned right out of her
.
“Thank heavens, it's you two,” Mrs. Durham said. “Those women kept pestering me to eat a sandwich or drink some tea, so I finally just told them I had to lie down.”
“Well, Mother was the last of them,” Lydie said, “and now she's gone too, thank goodness.”
Emaline raised an eyebrow.
“I'm just being honest,” Lydie said. “We all know she's bossy and she talks too much. Not to mention that she's a worrywart.”
“She's had hard times too,” Mrs. Durham said. “You can't blame her for being twitchy. Come here, sit with me, both of you. And bring me my rosary, would you? On the bureau.”
Emaline handed her the rosary and sat at the foot of the bed next to Lydie. Mrs. Durham stroked the beads and then let them fall onto the quilt. “Do you know what a wretched soul I am?” she asked. “I told Daisy she couldn't have her lunch today till she came back from hollering for you. She's been gone all these hours, and she doesn't even have a decent meal in her. Not even a biscuit. And wearing last year's spring coat. Barely covers her knees anymore.”
Emaline glanced at Lydie and scooted closer to her mother. “Stop that, Ma. We knew you'd be doing this, being hard on yourself for things that aren't your fault. Why don't we talk about something different? Then we can go back to fretting.”
Mrs. Durham turned her face to the window as if she expected to see Daisy bouncing up the front walk in her too-short spring coat.
“Ma, did you hear me?”
“How about you read to me? There's a book under the water pitcher. Read me something from it. Something sad.”
“Something sad? That's no good. How about somethingâ”
“No, I want something sad.”
Emaline pulled out the book and started thumbing through it.
“Your father gave me that book when you were born,”
Mrs. Durham said. “I used to read it when I was up with you at night.”
“Was I up much?”
“All the time, but I didn't mind.”
“You didn't mind being up all night?”
“Your father stayed up with me. We took turns holding you, and I'd read out loud when it wasn't my turn. If you hadn't kept us up, I'd have missed that time with him. Now read me something.”
Emaline continued scanning the pages. “Okay, how about this:
Sorrow like a ceaseless rain
Beats upon my heart.
People twist and scream in painâ
Dawn will find them still again;
This has neither wax nor wane,
Neither stop nor start.
People dress and go to town;
I sit in my chair.
All my thoughts are slow and brown:
Standing up or sitting down
Little matters, or what gown
Or what shoes I wear.”
“Brown,” Mrs. Durham said. “That's the right color. Not black, not red, not grey. Brown. You spend years thinking the worst possible tragedy has already befallen you, and then something even more dreadful happens, and all you can do is sit there.” She closed her eyes.
“Why don't you try to sleep now, Ma?”
“Sleep? I can't sleep. But you should rest. You must be exhausted. You too, Lydie.”
They couldn't deny it. They were bone-tired.
“Go,” she urged. “I need you to be rested.”
Emaline nodded, although she wasn't sure she'd ever be able to sleep again. “You'll wake us ifâ¦?”
“Of course. Now go. Find Lydie a pillow. And pull out an extra quilt if you need it.”
Victor and Gus took the table nearest the window fan, coffee cups in hand.
“Find anything out?” Gus asked.
“Only that the Pool kid and his mother are full of excuses. Contradicting themselves left and right about where they were tonight and why they didn't answer the phone this afternoon. And a big icy mitt from the lady at the end. I'm thinking it's time to check their store.”
“I made you a list of all the Jew businesses in town.” Gus pushed a folded piece of paper across the table. “Just in case the Pool place don't check out.”
Victor cracked open the paper. “One, two, threeâ¦eight. Jeezus, that's gotta be half the stores in town.”
“You should know. Your father knew. The Jews move in and take over every money-making operation in sight.”
“This could take hours.”
“It's not that big a town. These places are all on the same couple of blocks.” Gus plunked down his coffee cup and leaned forward. “Do it for your father, Victor. Do it for the man who had to drive a cab to put food on your table.”
“Bus.”
“Huh?”
“It was a bus. Anyways, I'll start with the Pool joint and go from there.”
“Wait, let me jot down their preacher's addressâAbrams. He has all the right tools for this kinda jobâI shoulda thought of that before.”
“Tools?”
“He keeps an old piano box in his backyard. I seen them Jews bringing him live chickensâthey all raise their own chickensâand he takes the birds out back to his box and comes back with them dead. Sometimes they even bring him a live cow. They walk the animal right down to his house on a rope like they own the street and they have him slaughter it. Then someone comes to pick up the cow parts with a truck.”
“No kidding?”
“It's unreal. Anyway, if you like, I can come up with a list of their home addresses too. Just in case. Just so you know you're hitting on all sixes.”