The Cold Kiss
The
Cold Kiss
The
Cold Kiss
John Rector
A Tom Doherty Associates Book
New York
Table of Contents
Title
Copyright
Dedication
Acknowledgments
Part I
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Part II
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Part III
Chapter 38
Reno
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations,
and events portrayed in this novel are either products of
the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
THE COLD KISS
Copyright © 2010 by John Rector
All rights reserved.
A Forge Book
Published by Tom Doherty Associates, LLC
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New York, NY 10010
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Forge® is a registered trademark of Tom Doherty Associates, LLC.
ISBN 978-0-7653-2643-0
First Edition: July 2010
Printed in the United States of America
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For Amy, of course
Acknowledgments
I’d like to thank my agent, Allan Guthrie, for his hard work and invaluable insight. Thanks to my U.S. editor, Eric Raab, and everyone at Tor/Forge. Thanks to my U.K. editor, Francesca Main, and everyone at Simon & Schuster. Thank you to Sean Doolittle for years of advice, encouragement, and friendship. And thank you to John Schoenfelder for getting the ball rolling. I’d also like to express my gratitude to my early readers, Eric Stark, Stephen Sommerville, Mark Edward Deloy, and Eric Smetana. Most of all, I want to thank my wife, Amy, for her love and her unwavering support, especially during those times when I forgot to tell her how much they meant to me.
Freezing was not so bad as people thought.
There were lots worse ways to die.
—Jack London
Part I
1
It was just starting to snow when we pulled off the highway and into the parking lot of the Red Oak Tavern.
There was nothing special to the place, a couple of gas pumps out front and a neon
OPEN
sign buzzing its welcome behind dirty glass. The inside was clean and warm and smelled like grease and onions, and by the time the waitress brought our coffee, I’d managed to shake the road out of my head and was beginning to feel alive again.
We sat for a while, not saying much, drinking our coffee. We were the only ones inside except for a man whispering into a pay phone on the other side of the lunch counter. I don’t think we would’ve noticed him at all if it wasn’t for his cough. The sound, wet and choking, was hard to ignore.
I did my best.
Sara didn’t.
“My grandfather had a cough like that,” she said. “Right before he died. It was terrible.”
“It doesn’t sound good.”
“When he got real bad, he’d cough and spray blood and mucus all over everything, his clothes, the furniture, the walls, everything.” She sipped her coffee. “Do you know what it’s like having to pick scabs out of your hair at night because someone coughed blood on you?”
I told her I didn’t.
“It’s not fun, believe me.”
“Probably worse for him.”
Sara looked at me then nodded. “Yeah, you’re right. It was terrible for him.” She reached for the sugar and opened three packets into her coffee then tossed the empties on the growing stack in the ashtray. “People understood and I don’t think anyone blamed him in the end, considering how much pain he was in and all.”
“Blamed him?”
“For killing himself.” She took another sip of the coffee and frowned. “You know, they say decaf tastes the same, but it doesn’t. I can tell the difference.”
“You never told me about that.”
“About what?”
“Your grandfather killing himself.”
“The cancer would’ve got him anyway,” she said. “He knew the longer he stuck around the more the insurance companies would’ve tried to screw him. I might’ve done the same thing if I was him.”
“Not me.”
“You’re not in that situation, so you don’t know.”
I started to argue then felt a dull wave of pain build behind my eyes. I looked down and pressed my fingers against the sides of my head.
“You okay?” Sara asked.
I told her I was.
“Your head?”
I nodded.
“Do you have your pills?”
“Took them already,” I said. “It’ll pass.”
“I can drive some, if you want.”
“I’ll be fine. Finish your story.”
“Not much to finish,” Sara said. “It is what it is.”
I sat back, and neither of us spoke for a long time.
The only other sound in the room was Hank Williams, far away and lonely, singing “Lovesick Blues” through hidden speakers in the ceiling. I wasn’t a big fan of country music, but there was something about Hank Williams that always put me in a good mood.
Shame how he died.
A few minutes later, the man at the pay phone slammed the receiver down then walked to the lunch counter and sat on one of the stools. He coughed, then lifted a glass of water and drank. It didn’t help, and he coughed again.
Each time he did, Sara winced.
“That poor man,” she said. “He sounds awful.”
I didn’t say anything.
Behind me, the kitchen doors opened and our waitress came out carrying two plates stacked with food.
Sara smiled. “It’s about time.”
The waitress crossed the dining room and set the plates in front of us. She asked if we needed anything else. I told her we didn’t, and she set a half-empty bottle of ketchup on the table then disappeared back into the kitchen.
I stared at my burger for a moment then closed my eyes. The pain in my head was fading, but the pills were making my stomach spin. I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to eat, so I wanted to take my time.
Sara didn’t wait. She pushed her dark hair behind her ears and reached for her burger. By the time I took my first bite, she was almost finished.
“Damn, I was starved,” she said.
I agreed, and neither of us said much as we ate.
Eventually, my stomach settled, and when I started to slow down I set what was left of my burger on the plate and said, “So, how did he do it?”
The man at the counter wheezed and coughed.
“How’d who do what?”
“Your grandfather,” I said. “How’d he kill himself?”
Sara frowned. “That’s a little morbid.”
“You don’t have to tell me.”
“I don’t mind. I’m just teasing you.” She licked the grease off her index finger and pointed it at the center of her chest and said, “Shotgun, right here. Big mess.”
“You’re kidding.”
She shook her head then picked up a bundle of fries and ran them through a pool of salted ketchup on her plate and took a bite. “My daddy said he killed himself like a man, whatever that means. My grandma said it was because he wanted an open casket at his funeral. She said if he had a weakness, it was vanity.”
“Do you miss him?”
“Not really,” she said. “I was young, and the only memory I have is being outside with him in his tomato garden. Those vines were so tall, they seemed to go up and up forever.” She looked down at her plate then picked up a few more fries. “That’s a good memory, I guess.”
I didn’t say anything else. Instead, I sat and watched her eat and tried to imagine her as a young girl standing in her grandfather’s tomato garden, safe and happy under a vaulted blue Minnesota sky.
Sara must’ve seen something in my eyes because she smiled then leaned across the table and kissed me long and soft.
Her lips tasted like fryer oil and salt.
“It’s okay, baby,” she said. “We all bounce till we break.”
Something shattered behind me and I turned.
The man at the counter was fumbling with the napkin dispenser and fighting to breathe. There was broken glass on the floor and water ran off the edge of the counter in thin streams.
The waitress came over with a dish towel and started picking up the broken glass. The man tried to speak, but every few words were broken by another long hacking string of coughs.
“You think he’s okay?” Sara asked.
I didn’t answer.
I watched him get up and reach for a green backpack on the stool next to him. He slid the strap over his shoulder then weaved his way through the empty tables toward the bathrooms in the back of the diner. He held a crumpled stack of napkins over his mouth as he walked.
“He needs a doctor,” Sara said.
“Looks that way.”
“You should go see if he’s okay.”
I ignored her and watched him until the men’s room door closed, then I picked up my burger and finished the last few bites. I could still hear the man coughing, but it was muffled and far away.
A few minutes later, the waitress came by and refilled our coffee.
Sara thanked her then said, “Is that guy okay?”
“Doesn’t sound like it,” the waitress said. “I’m just hoping he doesn’t die back there. I need to make it home to my kids before this storm hits.”
I looked out the window at the parking lot and saw our car, already covered with a thin layer of snow. The sky around it swirled thick and gray.
“How bad is it supposed to get?”
“How far you going?”
“Reno.”
The waitress clicked her tongue and said, “You might still get ahead of it if you hurry, but if I were you, I’d double back and head over to I-80.”
“Into the storm?” Sara shook her head. “This way is quicker.”
“Not if they close the road, it ain’t.” The waitress nodded toward the window. “The plows don’t make it back here until I-80 is clear. If this storm is as bad as they say, and they end up closing the highway, you might be out here for a while.”
Sara looked at me. Her eyes shone green under the plastic glare of the fluorescent lights. “What do you think?”
“What’s the quickest way to I-80?”
“About fifteen miles back,” the waitress said. “Maybe twenty.”
“That’s a long way,” Sara said. “It seems kinda crazy to turn around now, don’t you think?”
“Up to you guys,” the waitress said. “Who knows, you might be able to stay ahead of it. Maybe it’s not as bad as people are saying.”
Sara looked at me and shrugged.
I thanked the waitress then she took our plates and pushed the check across the table toward me. When she was gone, I looked out the window at the snow and the low rolling sky.
“I don’t want to go back to I-80, Nate. Do you?”
I shook my head. “It doesn’t look all that bad right now. I bet we can stay ahead of it.”
“Good.”
The man in the bathroom coughed again, harder this time, and I saw Sara tense across from me. She looked up and I knew what was coming.
“It’s not our business,” I said.
“He’s all alone out here, and he sounds really sick.”
“He’s a grown-up. He knows what’s best for him.”
“Please, Nate? Just go check on him.”
The last thing I wanted to do was talk to a complete stranger in the men’s bathroom at a roadside diner. I tried to explain this to her, but she didn’t get it. Instead, she looked at me in a way she had of looking at me, and I knew there was no point in arguing.
Besides, I’d had a few cups of coffee and we had a long drive ahead. I was going back there anyway.
I didn’t see how I could say no.
