The Complete Malazan Book of the Fallen (670 page)

The air seethed like the breath from a forge. The entire sky overhead seemed to be on fire.

The sail above them was burning, ripped through.

Another concussion, and more than half of the port rail was simply gone, pulverized wood a mist drifting away, flaring with motes of flame.

‘We're sinking!' Scillara shouted, grasping hold of the opposite rail as the
Grief
's deck tilted alarmingly.

Cargo shifted –
too many supplies – we got greedy
– making the dying craft lean further.

The wrapped corpse of Heboric rolled towards the choppy waves.

Crying out, Cutter sought to make his way towards it, but he was too far away – the cloth-wrapped form slid down into the water—

And, wailing, Chaur followed it.

‘No!' Barathol yelled. ‘
Chaur – no!
'

The mute giant's huge arms closed about the corpse, a moment before both simply slipped from sight.

 

S
ea. Bara called it sea. Warm now, wet. Was so nice. Now, sky bad, and sea bad – up there – but nice now. Here. Dark, night, night is coming, ears hurt. Ears hurt. Hurt. Bara said never breathe in sea. Need to breathe now. Oh, hurt! Breathe!

He filled his lungs, and fire burst through his chest, then…cool, calm, the spasms slowing. Darkness closed in round him, but Chaur was no longer frightened by that. The cold was gone, the heat was gone, and numbness filled his head.

He had so loved the sea.

The wrapped body in his arms pulled ever down, and the limbs that had been severed and that he had collected when Bara told him to, seemed to move about within as the canvas stretched, lost shape.

Darkness, now, inside and out. Something hot and savage tore past him, racing downward like a spear of light, and Chaur flinched. And he closed his eyes to make those things go away. The ache was finally gone from his lungs.

I sleep now.

 

Geysers of steam shooting skyward, thunderous concussions racking the air and visibly battering the sea so that it shook, trembled, and Cutter saw Barathol dive into the churning water, into Chaur's wake.
The body. Heboric – Chaur, oh gods
…

He reached Scillara's side and pulled her close, into his arms. She clutched his sodden shirt. ‘I'm so glad,' she whispered, as the
Grief
groaned and canted further onto its side.

‘About what?'

‘That I left her. Back there. I left her.'

Cutter hugged her all the tighter.

I'm sorry, Apsalar. For everything
—

Sudden buffeting winds, a sweeping shadow. He looked up and his eyes widened at the monstrous shape occluding the sky, descending—

A dragon. What now?

And then he heard shouts – and at that moment, the
Grief
seemed to explode.

Cutter found himself in the water, thrashing, panic awakened within him, like a fist closing round his heart.

 

…Reaching…reaching…

What is this sound? Where am I?

A million voices – screaming, plunging into terrible death – oh, they had travelled the dark span for so long, weightless, seeing before them that vast…emptiness. Unmindful of their arguing, their discussions, their fierce debates, it swallowed them. Utterly. Then, out, through to the other side…a net of power spreading out, something eager for mass, something that grew ever stronger, and the journey was suddenly in crazed, violent motion – a world beneath – so many lost then – and beyond it, another, this one larger—

‘
Oh, hear us, so many…annihilated. Mountains struck to dust, rock spinning away into dark, blinding clouds that scintillated in harsh sunlight – and now, this beast world that fills our vision – is this home?

‘
Have we come home?
'

Reaching
…hands of jade, dusty, raw, not yet polished into lurid brightness.
I remember…you had to die, Treach, didn't you? Before ascendancy, before true godhood. You had to die first.

Was I ever your Destriant?

Did that title ever belong to me?

Did I need to be killed?

Reaching
– these hands, these unknown, unknowable hands –
how can I answer these screams? These millions in their shattered prisons – I touched, once, fingertip to fingertip, I touched, oh…the voices
—

‘This is not salvation. We simply die. Destruction—'

‘
No, no, you fool. Home. We have come home
—'

‘
Annihilation is not salvation. Where is he? Where is our god?
'

‘
I tell you, the search ends!
'

‘
No argument there.
'

Listen to me.

‘
Who is that?
'

‘
He returns! The one outside – the brother!'

Listen to me, please. I – I'm not your brother. I'm no-one. I thought…Destriant…did I know it for certain? Have I been lied to? Destriant…well, maybe, maybe not. Maybe we all got it wrong, every one of us. Maybe even Treach got it wrong.

‘
He has lost his mind
.'

‘
Forget him – look, death, terrible death, it comes
—'

‘
Mad? So what. I'd rather listen to him than any of you. He said listen, he said that, and so I shall.
'

‘
We will all listen, idiot – we have no choice, have we?
'

Destriant.
We got it all wrong. Don't you see? All I have done…cannot be forgiven. Can never be forgiven – he's sent me back. Even Hood – he's rejected me, flung me back. But…it's slipping away, so tenuous, I am failing
—

‘
Failing, falling, what's the difference?
'

Reaching
.

‘
What?
'

My hands – do you see them? Cut loose, that's what happened. The hands…cut loose. Freed. I can't do this…but I think they can. Don't you see?

‘
Senseless words
.'

‘
No, wait
—'

Not Destriant.

Shield Anvil.

Reaching…look upon me – all of you! Reach! See my hands! See them! They're reaching – reaching out for you!

They…are…reaching…

Barathol swam down into darkness. He could see…nothing. No-one.
Chaur, oh gods, what have I done?
He continued clawing his way downward. Better he drowned as well – he could not live with this, not with that poor man-child's death on his hands – he could not—

His own breath was failing, the pressure closing in, pounding in his skull. He was blind—

A flash of emerald green below, blooming, incandescent, billowing out – and at its core –
Oh gods, wait – wait for me
—

Limp, snagged in unravelled folds of canvas, Chaur was sinking, arms out to the sides, his eyes closed, his mouth…open.

No! No, no!

From the pulsing glow, heat – such heat – Barathol fought closer, his chest ready to explode – and reached down, down—

 

A section of the aft deck floated free from what was now little more than pummelled wreckage. The firestones tore down on all sides as Cutter struggled to help Scillara clamber onto the pitching fragment. Those firestones – they were smaller than pebbles, despite the fist-sized holes they had punched through the
Grief
. Smaller than pebbles – more like grains of sand, glowing bright green, like spatters of glass, their colour changing, almost instantly, into rust red as they plummeted into the depths.

Scillara cried out.

‘Are you hit? Oh, gods – no—'

She twisted round. ‘Look! Hood take us –
look!
' And she lifted an arm, pointed as a swelling wave lifted them – pointed eastward—

Towards Otataral Island.

It had…ignited. Jade green, a glowing dome that might have spanned the entire island, writhing, lifting skyward, and, rising up through it…
hands. Of jade. Like…like Heboric's
. Rising, like trees.
Arms – huge – dozens of them
– rising, fingers spreading, green light spiralling out – from their upturned palms, from the fingers, from the veins and arteries cabling their muscled lengths – green light, slashing into the heavens like sword-blades. Those arms were too big to comprehend, reaching upward like pillars through the dome—

—as the fires filling the sky seemed to flinch…tremble…and then began to
converge
.

Above the island, above the hands of jade reaching up, through the billowing green light.

The first falling sun struck the glowing dome.

The sound was like a drum beat, on a scale to deafen the gods. Its pulse rippled through the dome's burgeoning flanks, racing outward and seeming to strip the surface of the sea, shivering through Cutter's bones, a concussion that triggered bursting agony in his ears – then another, and another as sun after sun plunged into that buckling, pocked dome. He was screaming, yet unable to hear himself. Red mist filled his eyes – he felt himself sliding from the raft, down into the foam-laden waves—

Even as an enormous clawed foot reached down, spread wide over Cutter – and Scillara, who was grasping him by an arm, seeking to drag him back onto the raft – and talons the size of scimitars closed round them both. They were lifted from the thrashing water, upward, up—

 

Reaching…yes. For me, closer, closer.

Never mind the pain.

It will not last. I promise. I know, because I remember.

No, I cannot be forgiven.

But maybe you can, maybe I can do that, if you feel it's needed – I don't know – I was the wrong one, to have touched…there in that desert. I didn't understand, and Baudin could never have guessed what would happen, how I would be marked.

Marked, yes, I see now, for this, this need.

Can you hear me? Closer – do you see the darkness? There, that is where I am.

Millions of voices, weeping, crying out, voices, filled with yearning – he could hear them—

Ah gods, who am I? I cannot remember.

Only this. The darkness that surrounds me. We, yes, all of you – we can all wait here, in this darkness.

Never mind the pain.

Wait with me. In this darkness.

And the voices, in their millions, in their vast, unbearable need, rushed towards him.

Shield Anvil, who would take their pain, for he could remember such pain.

The darkness took them, and it was then that Heboric Ghost Hands, Shield Anvil, realized a most terrible truth.

One cannot, in any real measure, remember pain.

 

Two bodies tumbling like broken dolls onto the deck. Mappo struggled towards them, even as Spite wheeled away one more time – he could feel the dragon's agony with every ragged breath she drew, and the air was foul with the reek of scorched scales and flesh.

The rain of fire had descended in a torrent all round them, wild as a hailstorm and far deadlier; yet not one particle had struck their ship – protection gifted, Mappo realized, not by Spite, nor indeed by Iskaral Pust or Mogora. No, as the High Priest's fawning, wet kisses gave proof, some power born in that damned black-eyed mule was responsible. Somehow.

The beast simply stood, unmoving and seemingly indifferent, tail flicking the absence of flies. Slowly blinking, as if half-asleep, its lips twitching every now and then.

While the world went mad around them; while it tore that other ship to pieces—

Mappo rolled the nearer figure over. Blood-smeared face, streams from the ears, the nose, the corners of the eyes – yet he knew this man. He knew him. C
rokus, the Daru. Oh, lad, what has brought you to this?

Then the young man's eyes opened. Filled with fear and apprehension.

‘Be at ease,' Mappo said, ‘you are safe now.'

The other figure, a woman, was coughing up seawater, and there was blood flowing down from her left ear to track the underside of her jaw before dripping from her chin. On her hands and knees, she lifted her head and met the Trell's gaze.

‘Are you all right?' Mappo asked.

She nodded, crawled closer to Crokus.

‘He will live,' the Trell assured her. ‘It seems we all shall live…I had not believed—'

Iskaral Pust screamed.

Pointed.

A large, scarred, black-skinned arm had appeared over the port rail, like some slithering eel, the hand grasping hard on the slick wood, the muscles straining.