Authors: Rosamunde Pilcher
Tags: #Fiction, #Fantasy, #General, #Romance, #Contemporary
At the edge of the quay a hopeful vendor had set up his ice-cream barrow, shiny white, and lettered seductively "Fred Hoskings, Cornish Ice-cream, The Best Home-made" and Virginia suddenly longed for one, and wished she had brought some money. To sit in the sunshine on such a day and lick an ice-cream seemed, all at once, the height of luxury. The more she thought about it the more desirable it seemed, and she even went through all her pockets in the hope of finding some forgotten coin, but there was nothing there. Not so much as a halfpenny.
She sat on a bollard and gazed disconsolately down on to the deck of a fishing boat where a young boy in a salt-stained smock was brewing up tea on a spirit lamp. She was trying not to think about the ice-cream when, like the answer to a prayer, a voice spoke from behind her.
"Hallo."
Virginia looked around over her shoulder, pushing her long dark hair out of her face, and saw him standing there, braced against the wind, with a package under his arm, and wearing a blue polo-necked sweater that made him look like a sailor.
She stood up. "Hallo."
"I thought it was you," said Eustace Philips, "but I couldn't be sure. What are you doing here?"
"Nothing. I mean, I just came for a walk, and I stopped to look at the boats."
"It's a lovely day."
"Yes."
His blue eyes gleamed, amused. "Where's Alice Lingard?"
"She's gone to Penzance . . . she's on a committee ..."
"So you're all alone?"
"Yes." She was wearing worn blue sneakers, blue jeans and a white cable-stitch sweater, and felt miserably convinced that her naivete was painfully obvious not only in her clothes but her lack of small-talk as well.
She looked at his package. "What are
you
doing here?"
"I came in to pick up a new rick cover. The wind last night blew the old one to ribbons."
"I expect you're going back now."
"Not immediately. How about you?"
"I'm not doing anything. Just exploring, I suppose."
"Don't you know the town?"
"I've never got this far before."
"Come along then, I'll show you the rest of it.
They began to walk back along the quay, in no hurry, their slow paces matched. He caught sight of the ice-cream barrow and stopped to talk.
"Hallo, Fred,"
The ice-cream man, resplendent in a white starched coat like a cricket umpire, turned and saw him. A smile spread across features browned and wizened as a walnut.
" 'Allo, Eustace. 'Ow are you?"
"Fine. How's yourself?"
"Oh, keeping not too bad. Don't often see you down 'ere. 'Ow are things out at Lanyon?"
"All right. Working hard." Eustace ducked his head at the barrow. "You're early out. There's nobody here yet to buy ice-creams."
"Oh well, early bird catches the worm I always say."
Eustace looked at Virginia. "Do you want an ice-cream?"
She could not think of any person who had offered her, so instantly, exactly what she wanted most.
"I'd love one, but I haven't any money."
Eustace grinned. "The biggest you've got," he said to Fred, and reached his hand into the back pocket of his trousers.
He took her the length of the wharf, up cobbled streets at whose existence she had never even guessed, through small, surprising squares, where the houses had yellow doors and window-boxes, past little courtyards filled with washing-lines and flights of stone steps where the cats lay and sunned themselves and attended to their ablutions. They came out at last on to a northern beach which lay with its face to the wind, and the long combers rolled in jade green with the sun behind them, and the air was misted with blown spume.
"When I was a boy." Eustace told her, raising his voice above the wind, "I used to come here with a surf-board. A little wooden one my uncle made me, with a face painted on the curve. But now they have these Malibu surfboards, made of fibreglass they are and they surf all year round, winter and summer."
"Isn't it cold?"
"They wear wet suits."
They came to a sea wall, curved against the wind with a wooden bench built into its angle and here Eustace, apparently deciding that they had walked far enough, settled himself, his back to the wall and his face to the sun and his long legs stretched in front of him.
Virginia, consuming the last of the mammoth ice-cream, sat beside him. He watched her, and when she had demolished the final mouthful and was wiping her fingers on the knees of her jeans he said, "Did you enjoy it?"
His face was serious but his eyes laughed at her. She didn't mind. "It was delicious. The best. You should have had one too."
"I'm too big and too old to go walking round the streets licking an ice-cream."
"I shall never be too big or too old."
"How old are you?"
"Seventeen, nearly eighteen."
"Have you left school?"
"Yes, last summer."
"What are you doing now?"
"Nothing."
"Are you going to University?"
She was flattered that he should imagine she was so clever. "Goodness, no."
"What are you going to do, then?"
Virginia wished that he had not asked.
"Well, eventually, I suppose, next winter I'll learn how to cook or do shorthand and typing or something gruesome like that. But you see my mother has this bee in her bonnet about being in London for the summer and going to all the parties and meeting all the right people and generally having a social whirl."
"I believe," said Eustace, "it's called 'Doing the Season.'"
His tone of voice made it very clear that he thought as little of the idea as she did.
"Oh, don't. It gives me the shivers."
"It's hard to believe, in this day and age, that anybody bothers any more."
"I know, it's fantastic. But they do. And my mother's one of them. She's already met some of the other mothers and had ghastly tea parties with them. She's even booked a date for a dance, but I'm going to try my hardest to talk her out of that one. Can you think of anything worse than having a coming-out dance?"
"No, I can't, but then I'm not a sweet seventeen-year-old." Virginia made a face at him. "If you feel so strongly about it why don't you dig in your toes, tell your mother you'd rather have the price of a return ticket to Australia or something?"
"I already have. At least I've tried. But you don't know my mother. She never listens to anything I say, she just says that it's so
important
to meet all the right people, and be asked to all the right parties and be seen at all the right places."
"You could try getting your father on your side."
"I haven't got a father. At least I never see him; they were divorced when I was a baby."
"I see." He added, without much heart: "Well, cheer up—who knows—you might enjoy it."
"I shall hate every moment of it."
"How do you know?"
"Because I'm useless at parties, and I get tongue-tied with strangers, and I can never think of anything to say to young men."
"You're thinking of plenty to say to me," Eustace pointed out.
"But you're different."
"How am I different?"
"Well, you're older. I mean you're not young." Eustace began to laugh and Virginia was embarrassed. "I mean you're not really young, like twenty-one or twenty-two." He was still laughing. She frowned. "How old
are
you?"
"Twenty-eight," he told her. "Twenty-nine next birthday."
"You are lucky. I wish I was twenty-eight."
"If you were," said Eustace, "you probably wouldn't be here now."
All at once it turned dark and cold. Virginia shivered, and looked up and saw that the sun had disappeared behind a large grey cloud, the vanguard of a bank of dirty weather which was blowing in from the west.
"That's it," said Eustace. "We've had the best of the day. It'll be raining by this evening." He looked at his watch. "It's nearly four o'clock, time I made for home. How are you getting back?"
"Walking, I suppose."
"Do you want a ride?"
"Have you got a car?"
"I've got a Land-Rover, parked round by the church."
"Won't I be taking you out of your way?"
"No. I can go back to Lanyon over the moor."
"Well, if you're certain ..."
Driving back to Wheal House, Virginia fell silent. But it was a natural, companionable silence, comfortable as an old shoe, and had nothing to do with being shy or unable to think of anything to say. She could not remember when she had felt so at ease with a person—and certainly never with a man whom she had known such a short time. The Land-Rover was an old one, the seats worn and dusty and there were stray scraps of straw lying about the floor and a faint smell of farmyard manure. Virginia did not find this in the least offensive—rather, she liked it because it was part of Penfolda.
She realized that she wanted, above all things, to go back there. To see the farm and the fields in daylight, to inspect the stock and be shown around, perhaps to be allowed to see the rest of the farmhouse and be asked to tea in that enviable kitchen. To be accepted.
They came up the hill out of the town, where the houses of the old residential area had all been turned into hotels, with gardens bulldozed into car parks, and glassed-in porches. There were sun-rooms and palm trees, dismal against the grey sky, and municipal flower-beds planted with straight rows of daffodils.
High above the sea, the road levelled out. Eustace changed into top gear and said, "When are you going back to London?"
"I don't know. In about a week."
"Do you want to come out to Penfolda again?"
This was the second time that day that he had offered her what she craved most. She wondered if he were psychic.
"Yes, I'd love to."
"My mother was very taken with you. Not often she sees a new face. It would be nice for her if you'd come and have a cup of tea with her."
"I'd like to come."
"How would you get out to Lanyon?" asked Eustace, his eyes on the road ahead.
"I could borrow Alice's car. I'm sure if I asked her she'd let me borrow it. I'd be very careful."
"Can you drive?"
"Of course. Otherwise I wouldn't borrow the car." She smiled at him. Not because it was meant to be a joke, but because all at once she felt so good.
"Well, I’ll tell you," said Eustace in his deliberate way. "I’ll have a word with my mother, find out which day suits her best, give you a ring on the telephone. How would that be?"
She imagined waiting for the call, having it come, hearing his voice over the wire. She almost hugged herself with pleasure.
"It would be all right."
"What's the number?"
"Porthkerris three two five."
"I'll remember that."
They had reached home. He turned into the white gates of Wheal House and roared up the drive between the hedges of escallonia.
"There you are!" He stopped with a great jerk of brakes and a splattering of gravel. "Home safely, just in time for tea."
"Thank you so much."
He leaned on the wheel, smiling at her. "That's all right."
"I mean, for everything. The ice-cream and everything."
"You're welcome." He reached across and opened the door for her. Virginia jumped down on to the gravel, and as she did so, the front door opened and Mrs. Parsons emerged, wearing a little suit of raspberry-red wool, and a white silk shirt, tied like a stock at the neck.
"Virginia!"
Virginia swung around. Her mother came across the gravel towards them, immaculate as always, but her hair, short and dark, blew casually in the wind and had obviously not been attended to that afternoon.
"Mother!"
"Where have you been?" The smile was friendly and interested.
"I thought you were at the hairdresser."
"The girl who usually does me is in bed with a cold. They offered me another girl of course, but, as she's the one who usually spends her days sweeping hair off the floor, I declined with thanks." Still smiling, she looked beyond Virginia to where Eustace waited. "And who is your friend?"
"Oh. It's Eustace Philips ..."
But now Eustace had decided to get out of the car. He jumped down on to the gravel and came around the front of the Land-Rover to be introduced. And, hating herself, Virginia saw him through her mother's eyes; the wide powerful shoulders beneath the sailor's sweater, the sun-burned face, the strong, calloused hands.
Mrs. Parsons came forward graciously. "How do you do."
"Hallo," said Eustace, meeting her eye with an unblinking blue gaze. Her hand was half-way out to shake his, but Eustace either didn't see this or chose to ignore it. Mrs. Parsons's hand dropped back to her side. Her manner became, subtly, a fraction more cool.
"Where did Virginia meet
you?"
The question was harmless, even playful.
Eustace leaned against the Land-Rover and crossed his arms. "I live out at Lanyon; farm Penfolda . . ."
"Oh, of course, the barbecue. Yes, I heard all about it. And how nice that you met up again today."
"By chance," said Eustace, firmly.
"But that makes it even nicer!" She smiled. "We're just going to have tea, Mr. Philips. Won't you join us?"
Eustace shook his head. His eyes never left her face. "I've got seventy cows waiting to be milked. I'd better be getting back ..."
"Oh, of course. I wouldn't want to keep you from your work." Her tone was that of the lady of the house dismissing the gardener, but she continued to smile.
"I wouldn't let you," said Eustace, and went to get back into the car.
"Goodbye, Virginia."
"Oh. Goodbye," said Virginia faintly. "And thank you for bringing me home." "I'll ring you up some time." "Yes, do that."
He gave a final salute with his head, then started the engine, put the Land-Rover into gear, and without a backward glance, shot away, down the drive and out of sight, leaving Virginia and her mother standing, staring after him, in a cloud of dust.
"Well!" said Mrs. Parsons, laughing, but obviously nettled.
Virginia said nothing. There did not seem to be anything to say.
"What a very basic young man! I must say, staying down here, one does meet all types. What's he going to ring you up about?"
The tone of her voice implied that Eustace Philips was something of a joke, a joke that she and Virginia shared.
"He thought perhaps I might go out to Lanyon and have tea with his mother."
"Isn't that marvellous? Pure Cold Comfort Farm." It began, very lightly, to rain. Mrs. Parsons glanced at the lowering sky and shivered. "What are we doing, standing out here in the wind? Come along, tea's waiting ..."
Virginia thought nothing of the shiver, but the next morning her mother complained of feeling unwell, she had a cold, she said, an upset stomach, she would stay indoors. As the weather was horrible nobody questioned this, and Alice laid and lit a cheerful fire in the drawing-room, and by this Mrs. Parsons reclined on the sofa, a light mohair rug over her knees.
"I shall be perfectly all right," she told Virginia, "and you and Alice must just go off and not bother about me at all."
"What do you mean, we must just go off? Where is there to go off to?"
"To Falmouth. To lunch at Pendrane." Virginia stared blankly. "Oh, darling, don't look so gormless, Mrs. Menheniot asked us ages ago. She wanted to show us the garden."
"Nobody ever told me," said Virginia, who did not want to go. It would take all day to get to Falmouth and back again and have lunch and see the boring garden. She wanted to stay here and sit by the telephone and wait for Eustace to ring.
"Well, I'm telling you now. You'll have to change. You can't go out for lunch dressed in jeans. Why not wear that pretty blue shirt I bought for you? Or the tartan kilt? I'm sure Mrs. Menheniot would be amused by your kilt."
If she had been any other sort of a mother Virginia would have asked her to listen for the telephone, to take a message. But her mother did not like Eustace. She thought him ill-mannered and uncouth, and her smiling reference to Cold Comfort Farm had put the official stamp of disapproval upon him. Since his departure his name had not been mentioned, and although, during dinner last night, Virginia had tried more than once to tell Alice and Tom about her chance encounter, her mother had always firmly overridden the conversation, interrupting if necessary, and steering it into more suitable channels. While she changed, Virginia debated what to do.
Eventually, dressed in the kilt and a canary yellow sweater, with her dark hair brushed clean and shining, she went along to the kitchen to find Mrs. Jilkes. Mrs. Jilkes was a new friend. One wet afternoon she had taught Virginia to make scones, at the same time regaling her with a great deal of gratuitous information concerning the health and longevity of Mrs. Jilkes's numerous relations.
" 'Allo, Virginia."
She was rolling pastry. Virginia took a scrap and began, absently, to eat it.
"Now, don't go eating that! You'll fill yourself up, won't have no room for your lunch."
"I wish I didn't have to go. Mrs. Jilkes, if a phone call comes through for me, would you take a message?"
Mrs. Jilkes looked coy, rolling her eyes. "Expecting a phone call are you? Some young man, is it?"
Virginia blushed. "Well, all right, yes. But you will listen, won't you?"
"Don't you worry, my love. Now, there's Mrs. Lingard calling . . . time you was off. And I'll keep an eye on your mother, and give her a little lunch on a tray."
They did not return home until half past five. Alice went at once to the drawing-room, to inquire for Rowena Parsons's health, and to tell her all that they had done and seen. Virginia had made for the stairs, but the instant the drawing-room door was safely closed, turned and sprinted down the kitchen passage.
"Mrs. Jilkes!"
"Back again, are you?"
"Was there a phone call?"
"Yes, two or three, but your mother answered them,"
"Mother?"
"Yes, she had the phone switched through to the drawing-room. You'll have to ask her if there are any messages."
Virginia went out of the kitchen, and back down the passage, across the hall and into the drawing-room. Across Alice Lingard's head, her eyes met and held her mother's cool gaze. Then Mrs. Parsons smiled.
"Darling! I've been hearing all about it. Was it fun?"
"It was all right." She waited, giving her mother the chance to tell her that the telephone call had come through.
"All right? No more? I believe Mrs. Menheniot's nephew was there?"
". . . Yes."
Already the image of the chinless young man was so blurred that she could scarcely remember his face. Perhaps Eustace would ring tomorrow. He couldn't have phoned today. Virginia knew her mother. Knew that, however much she disapproved, Mrs. Parsons would be meticulous about such social obligations as passing on telephone messages. Mothers were like that. They had to be. Because if they didn't live by the code of behaviour which they preached, then they lost all right to their children's trust. And without trust there could be no affection. And without affection, nothing.
The next day it rained. All morning, Virginia sat by the fire in the hall, pretending to read a book, and flying to answer the telephone each time it rang. It was never for her; it was never Eustace.
After lunch her mother asked her to go down to the chemist in Porthkerris to pick up a prescription. Virginia said she didn't want to go.
". . . It's pouring with rain."
"A little rain won't hurt you. Besides, the exercise will do you good. You've been sitting indoors all day, reading that silly book." "It's not a silly book
"Well, anyway, reading. Put on some Wellingtons and a raincoat and you won't even notice the rain ..."
It was no good arguing. Virginia made a resigned face and went to find her raincoat. Trudging down the road towards the town, the pavements dark and grey between the dripping trees, she tried to face up to the unthinkable possibility that Eustace was never going to ring her.
He had said that he would, certainly, but it all seemed to depend on what his mother said, when she would be free, when Virginia would be able to borrow the car and drive herself out to Lanyon.
Perhaps Mrs. Philips had changed her mind. Perhaps she had said, "Oh Eustace, I haven't got time for tea parties . . . what were you thinking of, saying she could come out here?"
Perhaps, having met Virginia's mother, Eustace had changed his own mind about Virginia. They said that if you wanted to know what sort of a wife a girl was going to turn into, you looked at her mother. Perhaps Eustace had looked and decided that he did not like what he saw. She remembered the challenge in his unblinking blue eyes, and that final bitter exchange.
"I wouldn't want to keep you from your work."
"I wouldn't let you.”
Perhaps he had forgotten to telephone. Perhaps he had had second thoughts. Or perhaps— and this was chilling—Virginia had misconstrued his friendliness, unburdened all her problems, and so aroused his sympathy. Perhaps that was all it was. That he was sorry for her.
But he said he would telephone. He said he would.
She collected the prescription and started home once more. It was still raining. Across the street from the chemist stood a call-box. It was empty. It would all be so simple. It wouldn't take a moment to look up his number, to dial. She had her purse in her pocket, with coins to pay for the call.
It's Virginia,
she would say, and make a joke of it, teasing him.
I thought you were going to ring me up!
She almost crossed the road. At the edge of the pavement she hesitated, trying to pluck up the courage to take the initiative in a situation which was beyond her.
She imagined the conversation.
"Eustace?"
"Yes."
"This is Virginia."
"Virginia?"
"Virginia Parsons."
"Oh, yes. Virginia Parsons. What do you want?"
But at this point her courage turned on its heels and fled, and Virginia never crossed the road to the telephone box, but carried on up the hill with the rain in her face and her mother's pills deep in the pocket of her waterproof coat.
As she came in through the front door of Wheal House she heard the telephone ringing, but by the time she had got her Wellingtons off the ringing had stopped, and by the time she burst into the drawing-room, her mother was just putting down the receiver.
She raised her eyebrows at her breathless daughter.
"Whatever's wrong?"
"I ... I thought it might be for me."
"No. A wrong number. Did you get my pills, darling?"
"Yes," said Virginia dully.
"Sweet of you. And the walk has done you good. I can tell. Your cheeks are quite pink again."
The next day Mrs. Parsons announced out of the blue that they must return to London.
Alice was astonished. "But, Rowena, I thought you were going to stay at least another week."
"Darling, we'd love to, but you know, we do have a very busy summer to put in, and a lot of arrangements and organization to be seen to. I don't think we can sit here enjoying ourselves for another week. Much as I would adore to."
"Well, anyway, stay over the week-end."
Yes, stay over the week-end,
Virginia prayed.
Please, please, please stay over the weekend.
But it wasn't any use. "Oh, adore to, but we must go . . . Friday at the latest I'm afraid. I'll have to see about booking seats on the train."
"Well, it seems a shame, but if you really mean it . . ."
"Yes, darling, I really do mean it"
Let him remember. Let him phone. There wouldn't be time to go out to Penfolda but at least I could say goodbye, I'd know that he'd meant it . . . perhaps I could say I'd write to him, perhaps I could give him my address.
"Darling, I wish you'd get on with your packing. Don't leave anything behind, it would be such a bore for poor Alice to have to parcel it up. Have you put your raincoat in?"
This evening. He'll ring this evening. He'll say, I am sorry but I've been away; I've been so busy I haven't had a moment; I've been ill.
"Virginia! Come and write your name in the visitors' book! There, under mine. Oh, Alice, my dear, what a wonderful holiday you've given us. Sheer delight. We've both adored it, haven't we, Virginia? Can't bear to go."
They went. Alice drove them to the station, saw them into their first-class carriage, the corner seats reserved, the porter being deferential because of Mrs. Parsons's expensive luggage.
"You'll come again soon," said Alice as Virginia leaned out of the window to kiss her.
"Yes."
"We've loved having you ..."
It was the last chance.
Tell Eustace I had to go. Tell him goodbye for me.
The whistle shrilled, the train began to move.
Ring him up when you get back.
"Goodbye, Virginia."
Send him my love. Tell him I love him.
By Truro her misery had become so obvious with sniffs and sobs and brimming tears that her mother could ignore them no longer.
"Oh, darling." She put down her newspaper. "Whatever is the matter?"
"Nothing ..." Virginia stood at the window swollen-faced, unseeing.
"But it has to be something." She put out a hand and put it, gently, on Virginia's knee. "Was it that young man?"
"Which young man?"
"The young man in the Land-Rover, Eustace Philips? Did you break your heart over him?" Virginia, weeping, could make no reply. Her mother went on, reassuring, gentle. "I wouldn't be too unhappy. It's probably the first time you've been hurt by a man, but I assure you it won't be the last. They're selfish creatures, you know."
"Eustace wasn't like that."
"Wasn't he?"
"He was kind. He was the only man I've ever really liked." She blew her nose lustily and gazed at her mother. "You didn't like him, did you?"
Mrs. Parsons was momentarily taken aback by such unusual directness. "Well . . . let's say I've never been very fond of his type."
"You mean, you didn't like him being a farmer?"
"I never said that."
"No, but that's what you mean. You only like chinless weeds like Mrs. Menheniot's nephew."
"I never met Mrs. Menheniot's nephew."
"No. But you would have liked him."
Mrs. Parsons did not reply to this at once. But after a little she said, "Forget him, Virginia. Every girl has to have one unhappy love affair before she finally meets the right man and settles down and gets married. And this summer's going to be such fun for us both. It would be a pity to spoil it, yearning for something that probably never even existed."
"Yes," said Virginia and wiped her eyes and put her sodden handkerchief away in her pocket.
"That's a good girl. Now, no more tears." And, satisfied that she had poured oil on troubled waters, Mrs. Parsons sat back in her seat and picked up the newspaper again. But presently, disquieted, disturbed by something, she lowered the paper and saw that Virginia was watching her, unblinking, an expression in her dark eyes that her mother had never seen before.
"What is it?"
Virginia said, "He said he'd phone. He promised he'd telephone me."
"Well?"
"Did he? You didn't like him, I know. Did you take the call and never tell me?"
Her mother never hesitated. "Darling! What an accusation. Of course not. You surely didn't think . . . ?"