The F-Word (35 page)

b
. thoroughly confused; mentally or emotionally ill; crazy. Also (especially
Military
) in fanciful similes.

1945
in A. Dundes & C. Pagter
Urban Folklore from Paperwork Empire
(1975) 109: The returning soldier is apt to find his opinion different from those of his civilian associates. One should call upon his reserve of etiquette and correct his acquaintances with such remarks as “I believe you have made a mistake” or “I am afraid you are in error on that.” Do NOT say “Brother, you’re really f—d up!”
1945
J. Bassett
War Journal
7: It’s no good to keep going, it’s all fucked up, it’s crazy.
1946–50
J. Jones
From Here to Eternity
537: I’ve even seen a couple of them that clean lost their head and had to actually be carried out finally they got so fucked up.
1961
J. Peacock
Valhalla
385: If he didn’t see Chebe-san he would be more fucked up than Hogan’s goat.
1965
S. Linakis
In Spring the War Ended
214: I would even go so far as to say that you’re all fucked up from the war, as they do say.
1967
J. Rechy
Numbers
138: It happened long ago, when I was fucked up!
1968
H. Ellison
Deadly Streets
103: He wasn’t a bad kid, just fucked-up.
1970
in M. J. Estren
Underground of Underground Comics
(1974) 155: Wow, man, what kind of fucked up trip are
you
on?
1973
G.C. Scott in
Penthouse
(May) 61: Fucked-up kids live in fantasy worlds anyway.
1972–76
C. Durden
No Bugles, No Drums
31: You’re fucked up like a Filipino fire drill.
1976
A. Walker
Meridian
178: I know white folks are evil and fucked up.
1978
in H. Fierstein
Torch Song Trilogy
52: And here you are, more fucked up than ever.
1984
J. McCorkle
Cheer Leader
162: You’re crazy, Jo, fucked up.
1989
“Capt. X” & Dodson
Unfriendly Skies
115: “Aw, hell” said one of the pilots, “now I’m all fucked up here.”
1992
in
Harper’s
(Jan. 1993) 23 [cartoon]: You’re too fucked up—Next patient, please.
2001
J. Gough
Juno & Juliet
i. ix. 23: Fucked-up people are paying someone money to listen to them talk about how amazingly fucked-up they are.
2008
A. Valdes-Rodriguez
Dirty Girls on Top
130: I almost wish I didn’t know how fucked up I was, because then I could just go around feeling okay and still being fucked up.

c
. deeply troubled or upset; distraught.

1948
E. Hemingway in
Selected Letters
(1981) 648: I was all fucked up when I wrote it and threw away about 100,000 words which was better than most of what I left in.
1951
American Journal of Sociology
LI 421 [refers to WWII]: We learn of soldier attitudes to authority by noting the sympathy for those who are not successful in adjusting but are “f—ed up.”…It may connote inability or inefficiency.
1962
V. Riccio & B. Slocum
All the Way Down
68: I ain’t hooked. I only use it when I feel all fucked up.
1970–71
J. Rubinstein
City Police
404: He’s so fucked up about it he’s thinkin’ of quittin’.
1966–80
J. McAleer & B. Dickson
Unit Pride
115: I was gonna change it myself but I was too fucked up at the time.
1983
P. Dexter
God’s Pocket
158: I got to have this funeral on time.… Jeanie’s all fucked up over this.
1998
Phila. drug addict, on
All Things Considered
(National Public Radio) (Mar. 4): I felt real fucked up because I didn’t want to hit [i.e., inject] her.
2004
B. Shoup
Wish You Were Here
(2008) 25: And I am fucked up. I am clearly fucked up. Even I know I ought to be over the divorce after all this time.
2007
G. Kaplan
Evil, Inc.
203: If
I’m
still fucked up about losing Sandy and Sara the way we did, can you even begin to imagine how fucked up
you
must be?… Of course, you can’t imagine because you’re still so fucked up with your grief and mourning and all that.

3
. contemptible; worthless; miserable; (
hence
) damned;
FUCKING
.

1945
in T. Shibutani
Derelicts of Company K
124: I never been in such a fucked up place in my life.
ca
1960
in R. D. Abrahams
Deep Down in Jungle
130: He throwed me a stale glass of water and flung me a fucked-up piece of meat.
1963
J. Ross
Dead Are Mine
269: And you won’t worry about Felix and all the other Felixes in the whole fucked-up Army.
1970
Playboy
(Sept.) 278: I’ve met a lot of politicians, and politicians are fucked up everywhere, and they fuck us up because we allow them to.
1970
S. Terkel
Hard Times
136: It’s the textbooks that are fucked up.
1974
V.E. Smith
Jones Men
103: Shit!…This is fucked up.
1982
D.A. Harper
Good Company
76: A half gallon of that old fucked-up wine.
1980–89
J. E. Cheshire
Home Boy
105: They’d go for your ankles and sink their fucked-up teeth right into you.
1990
“Ice Cube”
Who’s the Mack?
(rap song): Rolling in a fucked-up Lincoln…[with a] leopard interior.
1994
in C. Long
Love Awaits
95: That good-look’n, clean-look’n girl can have some good look’n, fucked up shit [
sc.
venereal disease].
2005
C. Klosterman
Killing Yourself
to Live
26: I’ll make this fucked-up decision to satisfy the statute of limitations on your fucked-up ultimatum.

4
. utterly fatigued;
FUCKED
, definition 1.

1979
D. Gram
Boulevard Nights
93: I’m tired man. Fuckin’ fucked up.
1998
Poker player in N.Y.C.: I’ve gotta go home, I’m so tired.… I’m too fucked up to play any more.

fuckee
¹
or
fucky
noun

(used in pidgin English, or the imitation thereof, in various constructions referring to sexual intercourse). Often as
fuckee fuckee
. In
fuckee-suckee
, a combination of oral and vaginal intercourse.

a
1866
E. Sellon
Ups & Downs of Life
(1987) ii. 43: For make fuckee business, sahib, that girl who is splashing the other one would be too much good.
1946
V. Sheean
This House against This House
118: The only Arab women I ever saw to speak to always said to me, “Fuckee, Fuckee, fitty cents.”
1960
H. Miller
Nexus
(1965) viii. 171: No tickee no fuckee, buy me, take me, squeeze me.
1975
Ribald
(Sydney, Australia) (Nov. 13) 7: Newcomers visiting
Ribald
’s offices often get all bug-eyed about the fuckee-suckee pix lying around the place.
1987
S. Kubrick et al.
Full Metal Jacket
(film): Do you want number one fuckee?
1998
J. Stewart
Naked Pictures of Famous People
: Their father [was]…shacked up in some Backwater Indonesian Fuckee Suckee bar.
2003
A. Martinez
I’ll be Damned if I Die in Oakland
147: One bored fat lady reclined under a large sign that read, Fuckee Fuckee.

fuckee
²
noun

1
. a person who plays the recipient role in copulation.
Jocular
.

1881
Amatory Experiences Surgeon
i. 11: My double position of fucker and fuckee soon drove me almost mad with delight.
ca
1890
My Secret Life
VI. xv. 312: She was altogether a choice morsel for those who like a woman full sized.… She was a most voluptuous fuckee.
ca
1938
in C. Barkley
Sex Cartoons
118: The fuckee does a handstand while the fucker simply drops it in.
1979
D. Riepe
Owl Flies by Day
ii. 29: The attractive assistants were looking into the face of the lady receiving the male offering. Both arms of the fuckee were gracefully stretched out.
1995
Village
Voice
(N.Y.C.) (Feb. 14) 38: Early flashes of fiery pain in the fuckee as well as surprise soft bendings of the fucker make ass-fucking in any position a [complex] negotiation.
1995
Village Voice
(N.Y.C.) (Nov. 28) 73: Vidal also wants to make quite sure we understand that in his many sexual exploits he’s always been the fucker, never the fuckee.
2007
J. Sandford
Dark of the Moon
167: When he was a teenager, there were locker-room fantasy stories…of guys getting the farmer’s daughter up in the hayloft… In what Virgil assumed was nothing more than an effort at verisimilitude, the alleged fuckee warned Virgil against hay cuts, or hay rash.

2
. the victim of malicious treatment.
Jocular
.

1971
S/Sgt., U.S. Army, Fort Campbell, Kentucky: I am one big ugly fucker and I am always on the lookout for fuckees! You
don’t
want to be one of them!
1973
T. Pynchon
Gravity’s Rainbow
559: Fuck not with the Kid, lest instead of fucker thou become fuckee.
1980
W. Sherman
Times Square
23: You’re either the fuckee, the fucker, or you’re not in any kind of business.
1983
W. N. Rowe
Clapp’s Rock
105: He considers Newfoundland to have gone from eldest ugly step-daughter of the British Empire to youngest fuckee of the Canadian Federation, without getting so much as a kiss during the transition.
1986
R. B. Merkin
Zombie Jamboree
44: They’d rather be fuckers than fuckees.
1991
Inside Media
(Dec. 18) 1: Lee Wolfman, in speaking of back-end cash blending, often referred to BMC [a marketing company] as the “fucker” and to its clients as the “fuckees.”
1996
N.Y. Observer
(Jan. 8) 4: Behold the…smug shifting the blame from society’s fuckers to its fuckees.
1996
Village Voice
(N.Y.C.) (May 14) (“Choices”) 1: Belzer’s politics rise off his don’t-fuck-with-me stand. Most of the time, identifying with potential fuckees, he sprays a democratic vitriol that’s bracing in stand-up.
2006
S. Kinzer
Overthrow
187: Kennecott and Anaconda were not awarded a cent. “We used to be the fucker,” one of Anaconda’s lawyers lamented. “Now we’re the fuckee.”

fuckee
or
fucky
verb

(used in pidgin English, or the imitation thereof, in various constructions referring to sexual intercourse).

ca
1890
My Secret Life
X. xiv. 331: The women had learnt a few English words explanatory of copulation—“Me fuckee prick” said one.
1963
H.S. Thompson
Letter
(Apr. 29) in
Proud Highway
(1997) 379: The filthy
whore in the laundry said we can go out to the
“campo”
(country) and fuckee-fuckee. If I ever hear that phrase again I am going to break teeth.
1982
N. L. M. Petesch
Duncan’s Colony
167: Take me, joe. Fuckee plenny backside.
1996
S. Zeeland
Muscular Marine
66: Mama-san give you money back if you not wanna go fuckie.
2003
M. Gruber
Tropic of Night
84: When you start fuckee?… You likee orgasms? You let boy touch-em titties?

fuck-else
noun

nothing else.

1978
W. Groom
Better Times Than These
33: You mean you got fuck-else to worry about than something happened sixty years ago?
1988
D. Caute
Fatima’s Scarf
259: Call Hikmat.… There’s fuck-else to do in this dump.
a
1990
in J. F. Tuso
Singing the Vietnam Blues
140: Though my chances were nil there was fuck else to do,/But head for the Black with our whole fuckin’s crew!

fucker
noun

1
. a person, usually a man, who copulates, especially promiscuously.

1598
J. Florio
Worlde of Wordes
137/1:
Fottitore,
a iaper, a sarder, a swiver, a fucker, an occupier.
1598
J. Florio
Worlde of Wordes
137/1:
Fottitrice
, a woman fucker, swiver, sarder, or iaper.
1866
Romance of Lust
275: She grew madly lewd, called me her own dear delightful fucker.
1882
Boudoir
239: Such a prince of f—kers as he is.
1889
Capt. C. Devereaux
Venus in India
124: I have known so many instances of girls marrying against their wills…yet become quite happy women simply and solely because their husbands turned out to be first-class fuckers.
1928
D. H. Lawrence
Lady Chatterley’s Lover
xviii. 334: I’m not just my lady’s fucker, after all.
1963
C. Bukowski
Letter
(Dec. 7) in
Screams from Balcony: Selected Letters
(1998) 96: I got the idea that Henry Miller the ALL-KNOWING didn’t know much more about fucking than to talk about it, and that’s the way most non-fuckers are.
1978
L. Kramer
Faggots
117: He…quietly… exited through the hall and living room and foyer…, past the islands and inlets and peninsulas of fuckers and suckers and kissers and talkers.
1994
E. McNamee
Resurrection Man
(1998) i. 12: At the start it was all Jesus, Victor, I could eat you with salt. Her big slow voice. Come on, you big
fucker. I’m dying for a fuck. Take you home and fuck you bendy.
1998
M. Merlis
Arrow’s Flight
292: That rhythm: it used to mean they were one body, Philoctetes and some anonymous fucker on top of him, pulsing together with one life.
2005
L. McNeil & J. Osborne
Other Hollywood
191: Harry wasn’t a good actor. If he was, they would’ve given him a piece of the pornos. But he couldn’t carry them. Harry wasn’t a great actor—but he was a great fucker.