The Family Fortune (11 page)

We burst into the house with only as many packages as Winnie wanted Charlie to know about, but since he wasn't home yet, we smuggled everything else inside and hid it with the rest of Winnie's secret stash in the basement next to the laundry room. If you moved the lint-filled wastebasket and the dirty mops, if you had the fortitude to get past the dust bunnies and fallen sheets of fabric softener, there was a secret closet.

“I keep the mess here on purpose,” Winnie said as she moved the trash basket to the side. “Voilà!” She pushed open a hidden door and we stepped in. The walk-in closet looked like it was meant to house out-of-season sports equipment and clothes. In
stead of old parkas and ski boots, the closet was filled, floor to ceiling, with new things, many of them not even out of their boxes and bags. Winnie added her purchases to the sweaters, ceramic vases, purses, shoes, children's clothes, and toys.

“If you see anything you want, just take it,” Winnie said. “Sometimes when I'm depressed I come down here and just pick something. I bring it upstairs and mingle it with the rest of our things. Charlie never notices.”

“But what do you need all this stuff for?” I asked.

“Security, I guess. Whenever I need something new, it's always here.” She paused and looked at me. “You won't tell?” she asked.

“Of course not.” I knew she was trying to get closer to me by sharing her secret, and I would never betray that trust.

“Do you see anything you like?” she asked.

“I get confused when I see too many things at once. That's why I hate shopping,” I said.

“Hate shopping?” She said it as if hating shopping was not only implausible but also ridiculous. She walked over to one corner of the closet and pulled out a bag from Neiman Marcus. There was a dress inside and she removed it with a flourish.

It was a wool dress, long with three-quarter-length sleeves, a dress you could wear on a winter evening with tights and ballet slippers.

“This would look good on you,” she said. “And God knows you could use a few new things. It looks like you haven't bought anything in years.”

I liked the dress, though I had never pictured myself in puce. The garage door opened and Winnie jumped. “He's home.” We sneaked out of the closet, closed the door, replaced the trash and cleaning supplies, and rushed upstairs.

Charlie kissed Winnie on the cheek.

“How was your day, dear?” he said. I stood off to the side—single women guests must give couples their private moments.

“Wonderful,” she said. “I can't wait to do a little disco.” She twirled in a bad imitation of John Travolta in
Saturday Night Fever
.

“Where are the boys?” Charlie asked.

“Ariel took them out to play,” Winnie said.

Winnie was assuming that Ariel had taken them out to play. All she knew for sure was that they weren't here when we came home and their jackets were gone from the front hall closet.

“It's getting late.” Charlie looked out the window where dusk was falling.

“Don't worry, you can trust Ariel as much as you trust me.”

I handed Charlie a short glass of scotch. He thanked me, but he was distracted. I had the uncomfortable notion that he didn't trust Winnie even as much as he trusted Ariel, and Ariel wasn't even the regular babysitter.

“Jane, what's different about you?” Charlie asked.

“She got her hair cut, Charlie. I mean, how could you not notice?” Winnie asked.

“I did notice. Very nice, Jane.”

“Thank you, Charlie.” I felt self-conscious, a little like a prize poodle just after a grooming.

“I have to go upstairs and change,” Winnie said.

“I'll be up in a few,” Charlie said.

“Did you find a place for Max?” I asked.

“We looked at a lot of houses, but we didn't see anything he really liked.”

I picked up the tea things and started to put them away. Just as I put the last cup into the dishwasher, the door opened and the boys charged in with Ariel.

“I'm sorry we are so late, Mr. Maple,” Ariel said. “We went to play in the park and lost track of time. I'll take the boys up and get them changed into warm things.”

Trey sneezed. I picked him up and wiped his nose with a tissue. “Got the sniffles?”

He sneezed again. His face was all flushed, but it was probably from playing outside. I kissed his forehead. He was a little warm, but that
wasn't how I knew he was sick. It was that he sat, docile, in my arms while Theo galloped up the stairs.

After I tucked Trey into bed, I found a thermometer in the bathroom and we played a game to see how long he could keep it under his tongue. Theo came in and told Trey to stop being such a baby, but after looking at him for a few minutes and finding him so pathetic, he went downstairs and asked Ariel to make some lemon tea. Theo carried it up carefully in an oversize mug.

Trey had a temperature of 102, which wasn't anything to be really worried about. Kids get temperatures, but it would definitely hamper the evening's activities. I was sure that Winnie wouldn't want to leave him.

“We'll have to stay home,” Charlie said to Winnie when she came downstairs dressed to go out.

“It's only a slight fever,” she said.

“You don't have to stay,” I said.

“It's just that I've really been looking forward to this,” Winnie said.

“We were only invited last night,” Charlie said.

“Well, I've been looking forward to it all day.”

Winnie was wearing a rather matronly outfit for a disco. A sweater set, her usual, but in an effort to be hip she had squeezed into a straight black skirt that did nothing to conceal her little round belly.

“Ariel can stay. I already arranged it so Jane could come,” Winnie said.

“Ariel is the one who took Trey out for so long that he got sick,” Charlie said.

“Don't be so dramatic, Charlie. Kids get colds. It happens. I don't see why Jane should stay. Trey will probably sleep through the night. He won't even know we're gone.”

“I want to stay,” I said.

Staying with Trey was far from a burden; it was such a lucky break that if I were a different kind of person, I would have introduced the germ into the family myself.

“I'll stay home,” Charlie said.

“You absolutely will not,” Winnie said. “Max is coming and God knows he doesn't want to be there without you. Your sisters are charming, but even that has its limits.”

“He'll be fine without me,” Charlie said.

“If you were being honest with yourself, you'd have to admit that your sisters may not have the stuff to entertain Max, but you just idolize those two and frankly I never saw what they did to deserve it.”

“Your point?” Charlie asked.

“Forget it.”

“I don't want to forget it,” Charlie said. “I want to know what you think is wrong with my sisters.”

“There's nothing wrong with them,” Winnie said.

“I think you're jealous of them.”

“Jealous!” Winnie raised her voice. “What on earth of?”

“They have everything in front of them. They aren't saddled with a husband and a family.”

“I don't consider myself old and I'm sorry you do. But if I'm old, then you are, too, and if you think I consider you and the boys a burden, then you should look again. Yes, I've made some of my choices already, but I'm happy with them.”

As they put on their coats I heard Charlie say to Winnie, “I don't think you're old, honey. Besides, grace is far more important than age.”

That was very nice of him to say, since there wasn't anything especially graceful about Winnie.

The next morning, after checking on Trey, who was much better, Winnie sat with me in the breakfast nook and told me all about the night before. Tweedledee and Tweedledumber, as she sometimes called the Wheaton girls, made a big hit with Max. She couldn't tell which of them Max preferred, but it was probably Lindsay. After all, they had the writing thing in common. She said this as if Lindsay's “writing” were on a par with Max's.

“This guy named Buddy showed up. He was Heather's high school boyfriend and he obviously hasn't given up on her. Buddy is at Harvard
and I think Heather likes him, but it's hard to tell with somebody like Max around. Buddy's not the best-looking boy in the world. He's got one of those pug Irish noses like Kevin Bacon.”

Winnie said that Max danced with everyone, showing no favorites, but he did dance with Lindsay twice, and one of those dances was a slow one.

I stood up to get another cup of coffee.

“I'll have one, too,” Winnie said.

The Maples were having a tree-trimming party. I liked being part of the Maple family, but Max kept turning up, and every time he did, it threw off my equilibrium—what was left of it.

I left the house before the party, claiming that I had business with Evan Bentley regarding the literary magazine.

“What business could you possibly be doing tonight?” Winnie complained. “It's Friday.”

“We just have to get some things nailed down before Christmas,” I said.

“I never realized, Jane, just how much work you do for this magazine. I'm actually very impressed.”

Winnie was making Christmas tree decorations with pushpins and Styrofoam and she was hurrying to finish the one she was making for Marion.

“It's not a magazine,” I said. “It's a literary journal.”

“What's the difference?” Winnie asked.

“A literary journal is—I don't know—it has a different purpose,” I said.

“And what is that?” Winnie asked.

“To promote literature.”

Charlie looked up from his paper and licked the corner of his lip.

“Well,” Charlie said, “you'll be missed.”

“Yes, of course,” Winnie said, and returned to poking colored pins into a Styrofoam ball.

It was a pleasure to get into my own car, to set the radio to NPR and listen to
All Things Considered.
Someday soon when they thanked their corporate sponsors and the charitable trusts, the Fortune Family Foundation would be among them. With the help of the bankers, I'd been earmarking money for years, and in the near future there would be enough to make an endowment.

When I finally found a place to park in Harvard Square, I stepped out of the underground lot and into a pre-Christmas flurry. Christmas lights blinked in greens and reds in the trees around the square and car horns blared in the dusk. It was four-thirty and soon everyone would be rushing home.

A skinny Salvation Army Santa rang a bell outside the Harvard Coop and I dropped several bills into the receptacle that stood beside him.

“Merry Christmas,” he said.

“And to you,” I answered, and smiled. I always liked Christmas and New England winters, especially evenings when the air was so crisp it felt like it might break from the sky like an icicle from a tree.

I went into the Harvard Coop to look for a gift for the Bentleys. I settled on a book of photography that showed writers in their natural habitats—like animals. Max was in the book. The caption might have
read: “A native of suburban Boston, this exotic beast has found a home in the industrial-style lofts of Tribeca located in downtown New York City. Tribeca attracts some of the most successful of his species.” Instead, it just said: “Max Wellman, Tribeca Loft.”

With gift in hand, I walked toward the Bentleys' house. Bentley's wife, Melody, answered the enormous oak door. She took a brief look at me, then pulled me into her ample chest. She smelled of wet clay. She always smelled of wet clay. When Bentley had finally gotten married, he hadn't chosen from his plethora of worshipful students. Instead, he had chosen a woman he met at a party, a woman several years older than he was, a woman who had retired at forty after making her money in fashions for plus-size women. Bentley called it “fashion for fatties.”

“Darling, you look horrible,” Melody said.

“Thanks,” I said.

“I didn't mean it like that. Well, you know what I mean.”

I didn't know really, except perhaps that the stress was beginning to show. Melody led me into the kitchen, where Bentley was grinding coffee beans. Since he had given up drinking, he'd become a coffee connoisseur. He gave coffee the same attention he once gave to his brand of scotch.

He asked if I'd prefer Kona, French roast, or a special Brazilian blend.

“I wouldn't know one from the other,” I said.

“Jeez, Jane,” Bentley said, “you don't look too well. Are you sick?” He looked closely at my face, which was, as usual, devoid of makeup. Melody offered me a plate of Christmas cookies. I took two and sat in a bentwood chair at their pine table.

“I'm not sick,” I said. “I'm perfectly well.”

“I like your new haircut, Jane,” Melody said. “Evan, you didn't say anything about Jane's new haircut.” Melody always looked polished. She wore a flowing artistic shirt and slim pants. She was one of those women who always knew how to do the best with what they had, probably a necessity in her former business. Her brown helmet of hair was straight and smooth, and to the untrained eye it looked as if she wasn't wearing makeup. Because of Miranda, my eye was trained. What I was looking at
in Melody was not the lack of makeup, but rather the skillful application of it.

Bentley put a cup of coffee in front of me. “Nice haircut,” he said. “Try the Kona.”

The coffee tasted like sludge. I added several inches of cream from a pitcher on the table.

“He's back,” I said. I used an ominous voice and tried to be funny, but it was lost on them. Everything I said or did was lost on someone these days.

“Who's back?” Bentley asked.

“Max Wellman,” I said. “I already told you that his sister and her husband ended up renting our house. Bad enough. But it turns out he was a college friend of my brother-in-law's. Charlie—the brother-in-law—is helping him find a house, some perfect place for him and some nymphet to settle down.” I took a bite of the cookie in my hand. It was a homemade Christmas cookie, but it was shaped like a Star of David. Melody was Jewish. I think she forgot to add sugar to the batter, but it would have been rude to spit it out, so I kept eating.

“Is that the Max Wellman you're so jealous of?” Melody asked Bentley.

“I never said I was jealous of him,” Bentley said.

“You did too. You said he stole the girl you wanted.” Bentley turned toward the sink, and when he turned back his face had the flush of a sunburn.

For a few months after Max left, Bentley and I had dated, or I suppose you could call it that. I always thought he was too old for me, and besides, if Max still resided in my heart all these years later, you can only imagine how many rooms he inhabited then. The real difference between my dates with Bentley and our meetings in connection with the
Review
was that on our dates Bentley paid. He kissed me a few times, drunkenly. I hadn't liked the taste of him and his kisses were too wet.

“It wasn't just the girl,” Melody said. “I think if Evan were to admit it, he'd like to have the career Max has.” Melody sat heavily in the chair beside me.

Bentley had broken out of his writer's slump after the
Review
started
to get him attention. He had written two more novels, both to critical acclaim, but neither of them had made much money. It wasn't that he needed money, but if you took money as a sign of the world's appreciation, the world hadn't valued him enough.

Melody sipped her coffee. She took it black, which was either a sign of true love or of a complete absence of taste buds.

“Who wouldn't envy Max Wellman?” Bentley asked. “That hardly makes me unique among writers. Anyway, things always work out for the best. If I got that girl, I wouldn't be here with you.”

Though the words were kind, the tone was not. He probably wasn't thrilled to have Melody hanging out his dirty laundry in front of me. And what was more awkward was that she didn't realize that the girl she was talking about, the memory of Bentley's she had to expose in order to save herself from its shadow, was me.

I didn't know that I'd become a piece of Bentley's mythology. He never acted unhappy after I told him I'd rather that we remain friends, yet he had created a story, an imaginary lost love, a struggle between himself and Max Wellman for the love of a woman. The truth was that Max was long gone by the time I started to date Bentley.

This lost love of his was all in his head, a part of the stories we create about ourselves that become our histories. After we tell our stories enough times, they become true for us, and maybe that's all that matters. I had done it with Max, written the role of jilted lover, then played it with the finesse of a Shakespearean actor. Perhaps my suffering was my own creation just like Bentley's was his.

“It's hard to watch him move on with his life,” I said.

“When you haven't moved on with yours?” Bentley asked.

“I have,” I said, though I didn't feel like I had.

“She certainly has,” Melody said. “Look at the work of the foundation. You told me that when you started on it, no one had ever even heard of it. Now, there isn't a bookstore or newsstand in Boston and probably other cities, too, that doesn't carry the
Euphemia Review.
Because of Jane, you get asked to speak all the time.”

“I would hope that it has something to do with my books,” Bentley said.

“Of course it does,” I said, but we both knew that on the strength of his books alone, Bentley would not have the career he had today.

“So what's Jack Reilly like?” Bentley asked. He knew how important it was for me to discover a new talent, especially now.

“I haven't found him yet.”

“I guess you'll have to move on to the next one,” Bentley said.

“I can't.”

“Why not?”

“Because he's the next great thing.”

“And you know this how?”

“From the story.”

“It's a good story, Jane. A very good story, but it's just a story.”

“I'm going to find him,” I said.

“I've never heard of a writer applying for a fellowship, then disappearing. There must be something off about him. Maybe he's a criminal. Maybe he's in jail.”

This would fit my fantasies about the man from Lynn, the city of sin. But even if he was in jail, he could still be my next great discovery. Literary inmates were all the rage.

“He's not in jail,” I said.

“Give it the holidays and then move on. That's my suggestion,” Bentley said.

“Evan, you're so practical. Sometimes too practical for an artist. Can't you see that Jane is passionate about this?” Melody asked.

“Passion is something best kept locked up,” Bentley said. He had put his passion in a cage when he left the bottle behind. Sometimes I missed the old Bentley, the one who sneaked into a room off the kitchen during a literary lunch at the Ritz and took a torch to an ice sculpture of Jane Austen's head. And although his writing had matured and the reviewers liked it, the verve, the humor of that first book, his first great success, never came again.

“I think he's fallen for Charlie's sister Lindsay,” I said. Until I had said it out loud like that, I had kept myself from believing it. I wanted someone, anyone, to come rushing in and say, “No, that's not true.”

“Who? Jack Reilly?”

“Max Wellman.”

“That's that, then,” Bentley said. “Give it up. Sometimes you have to give things up, Jane.”

He looked at me with pity, as if I were now, only at this late stage, having to learn the hard lessons of life.

“Come and see my new sculpture,” Melody said.

She took me into her workroom. She pulled a wet rag off a lump of clay to reveal the bust of a man.

“It's very bad, isn't it?” she asked.

“It captures him,” I said, though I wasn't sure who it was. I hoped that the bust was supposed to be either Bentley or some other recognizable figure.

“You think?” she asked.

“Absolutely.”

If it was Bentley and if she had, indeed, captured him, I wondered what the implications of that were. Do we all try to capture the people we love, either in clay, with words, or even just in our imaginations?

We returned to the kitchen. Bentley had made a fire in the brick fireplace and we sat in front of it with our legs stretched out. Melody and I drank snifters of brandy and Bentley held his perpetual coffee cup.

It began to snow, so rather than go back to Winnie's, I decided to stay in the Bentleys' guest room. Melody gave me one of Bentley's oversize T-shirts to sleep in. I felt a bit like a fraud now, knowing that I was a part of a history he remembered so differently than I did. Down the hall the two of them were in bed, chatting the way I imagined couples did before they went to sleep.

I stood by the window and looked out. The flakes got bigger and bigger under the street lamps. I watched for a long time until the street was covered with fresh snow.