Authors: Kiera Cass
We followed him into a small room. There was a bed shoved into one corner and a tiny stand next to it. It looked like a carafe of milk and some bread was waiting, and my stomach roared just from seeing food. A thin rug had been placed neatly in the middle of the floor, and a few shelves lined the door-side wall.
“I know it's not much, but you'll be safe here. I'm sorry I can't do better.”
Carter shook his head. “How can you be apologizing to us? Our lives were supposed to end hours ago; but we're alive, together, and we have a home.” He and Maxon shared a look. “I know that what I did was technically treason, but it had nothing to do with a lack of respect for you.”
“I know.”
“Good. So when I say that no one in this kingdom will ever be as loyal to you as me, I hope you believe it.” Carter winced as he finished speaking and fell into the prince.
“Let's get you to the bed.” I moved under his other shoulder, and Maxon and I laid him on his stomach. He took up most of the bed, and I knew I'd need to sleep on the rug tonight.
“A nurse will come check on you in the morning,” Maxon explained. “You can have a few days of rest, and you should stay in here as much as you can during that time. In three or four days, I'll have you put on the official work orders, and someone from the kitchen will give you something to do. I don't know what your exact jobs will be, but just do your best at whatever you're asked.
“I'll check on you as often as I can. For now, no one will know you're here. Not the guards, not the Elite, not even your families. You will interact with a small group of people on the palace staff, and the chances of them recognizing you are slim. Still, from now on your names are Mallory and Carson. This is the only way I can protect you.”
I looked up at him, thinking that if I could hand choose a husband for my best friend, it'd be him.
“You've done so much for us. Thank you.”
“I wish it was more. I am going to try to get some of your personal items if I can. Beyond that, is there anything I can give you? If it's within reason, I promise I'll try.”
“One thing,” Carter said tiredly. “When you get a chance, can you find us a preacher?”
It took a second for me to understand the intention behind that request, and the moment I did, my eyes filled with happy tears.
“Sorry,” he added. “I know that's not the most romantic proposal.”
“Yes, all the same,” I murmured.
I watched his eyes get wet, and I temporarily forgot Maxon was even in the room until he spoke up.
“It'd be my pleasure. I'm not sure how long that will take, but I'll make it happen.” He pulled the medicines from upstairs out of his pocket, setting them beside the food. “Use the salve again tonight, and rest as much as you can. The nurse will see to anything else tomorrow.”
I nodded. “I'll take care of us.”
Maxon backed out of the room, smiling as he went.
“Do you want some food, fiancé?” I asked.
Carter grinned. “Oh, thank you, fiancée, but I'm actually kind of tired.”
“All right, fiancé. Why don't you sleep for a bit?”
“I'd sleep better if my fiancée was with me.”
And then, forgetting I'd been hungry at all, I wiggled my way onto the tiny bed, half hanging off the edge and half squashed beneath Carter. It was shocking how easily I found sleep.
I
FLEXED MY HANDS OVER
and over. They had finally healed, but sometimes when I had a long day, my palms swelled and throbbed. Even my little ring was pulled too tight tonight. I could see where it was fraying on one side and made a mental note to ask Carter for a new one tomorrow. I'd lost count of how many twine bands we'd gone through, but it meant a lot to me to have that symbol on my hand.
Picking up the scraper again, I scooped the loose flour off the table and into the trash. A few other members of the kitchen staff were scrubbing floors or putting away ingredients. Everything for breakfast was prepped, and soon we could sleep.
I inhaled sharply as a set of hands wrapped around my waist. “Hello, wife,” Carter said, kissing my cheek. “Are you still working?” He smelled like his job: cut grass and
sunshine. I had been sure he would be stuck in the stablesâsomewhere he would be hidden away from the eyes of the kingâjust as I'd been buried in the kitchen. Instead, he was walking around with dozens of other groundskeepers, hiding in plain sight. He came in at night with the outdoors hanging on him, and for a moment, it was like I'd been outside, too.
I sighed. “I'm almost done. After I tidy up here I'll come to bed.”
He nuzzled his nose into my neck. “Don't overdo it. I could rub your hands if you want.”
“That'd be perfect,” I crooned. I still loved my end-of-the-day hand massagesâmaybe more so now that they were given to me by Carterâbut if my day ended well after bedtime, it was a luxury I typically went without.
Sometimes my thoughts got stuck on memories of my days as a lady. How nice it had been to be adored; how proud my family was; how beautiful I felt. It was difficult to go from being constantly served to being the one constantly serving; still, I knew things could be much, much worse.
I tried to keep the smile on my face, but he saw through it.
“What's wrong, Marlee? You've seemed down lately,” he whispered, still holding me.
“I really miss my parents, especially now that Christmas is so close. I keep wondering how they're doing. If I feel this sad without them, how are they managing without me?” I pressed my lips together, as if I could mash the worry out of them. “And I know it's probably silly to care about this, but
we won't be able to exchange gifts. What could I give you? A loaf of bread?”
“I'd love a loaf of bread!”
I giggled at his enthusiasm. “But I wouldn't even be able to use my own flour to make you one. It'd be stealing.”
He kissed my cheek. “True. Besides, the last time I stole something, it was pretty big, and I got more than I deserved, and I'm already happy with what I have.”
“You didn't steal me. I'm not a teapot.”
“Hmm,” he said. “Maybe you stole me. Because I distinctly remember belonging to myself once, but now I'm all yours.”
I smiled. “I love you.”
“I love you, too. Don't worry. I know it's a difficult season, but this isn't forever. And we have a lot to be grateful for this year.”
“We do. I'm sorry I'm so down today. I just feelâ”
“Mallory!” I turned at the sound of my new name. “Where's Mallory?” a guard asked, coming into the kitchen. He was with a girl I'd never seen before.
I swallowed before answering. “Here.”
“Come, please.”
His voice was urgent, but the fact that he said please made me less frightened than I would have been otherwise. Each day I fretted more and more that someone would tell the king Carter and I were living secretly in his home. I knew that if that ever happened, the caning would seem like a prize instead of a punishment.
I kissed Carter's cheek. “I'll be right back.”
As I passed the girl she gripped my hand. “Thank you. I'll just wait here for you.”
My forehead scrunched in confusion. “Okay.”
“We're all counting on absolute secrecy,” the guard said as he led me down the hall.
“Of course,” I answered, though I still didn't understand.
We turned down the officers' wing, and I became even more confused. Someone of my rank shouldn't be allowed in this part of the palace. The doors were all closed except for one, where another officer was standing just outside. His face was calm, but his eyes were worried.
“Just do your best,” someone said from inside the room. I knew that voice.
I pulled myself around the threshold and took in the scene. America was lying on a bed, blood streaming out of her arm while her head maid, Anne, inspected the wound and the prince and these two guards watched on.
Anne, not breaking her gaze, barked orders back to the guards. “Someone get some boiling water. We should have antiseptic in the kit, but I want water, too.”
“I'll get it,” I offered.
America's face perked up, and she met my gaze. “Marlee.” She started crying, and I could see she was losing her battle with the pain.
“I'll be right back, America. Hold tight!” I dashed to the kitchen, grabbing towels out of the cupboard. There was
water already boiling in a pot, thank goodness, so I poured some in a pitcher. “Cimmy, you're gonna want to top off this pot,” I called in a rush, moving too quickly for her to protest.
Then I made my way to the spirits. The best liquor was kept close to the king, but sometimes we used brandy in recipes. I'd mastered a brandy pork chop, a chicken with brandy sauce, and a brandyâwhipped cream for desserts. I grabbed a bottle, hoping it would help.
I knew a thing or two about pain.
I came back to Anne lacing thread through a needle and America trying to control her breathing. I put the water and towels behind Anne and walked over to the bed with the bottle.
“For the pain,” I explained, lifting America's head to help her drink. She attempted to swallow but coughed up more than she actually drank. “Try again.”
I sat beside her, steering clear of her injured arm, and tipped the bottle again to her lips. She did a little bit better that time. After she swallowed, she gazed up at me. “I'm so glad you're here.”
My heart broke to see her look so scared, even though she was safe now. I didn't know what she'd been through, but I was going to do my best to make it better. “I'll always be here for you, America. You know that.” I smiled at her and brushed a lock of hair away from her forehead. “What in the world were you doing?”
I could see the debate in her eyes about answering. “It
seemed like a good idea” was all she said.
I tilted my head. “America, you are full of nothing but bad ideas,” I said, trying not to laugh. “Great intentions but awful ideas.”
She pursed her lips as if to say she knew exactly what I was talking about.
“How soundproof are these walls?” Anne asked the guards. This must be their room.
“Pretty good,” one answered. “Don't hear too much this deep in the palace.”
Anne nodded. “Good. Okay, I need everyone in the hall. Miss Marlee,” she continued. It had been so long since anyone besides Carter had used my real name that I wanted to cry. I didn't realize how much my name meant to me. “I'm going to need some space, but you can stay.”
“I'll keep out of your way, Anne,” I promised.
The boys backed into the hallway, and Anne took over. As she spoke to America and prepared to stitch her up, I couldn't help but be impressed with how calm she was. I'd always liked America's maids, especially Lucy, because she was so, so sweet. But this made me see Anne in a whole new light. It seemed unfortunate that someone who was so capable in a crisis couldn't do more than be a lady's maid.
Finally Anne began to clean out the wound, which I still couldn't identify. America screamed into the towel in her mouth, and though I hated to do it, I knew I had to pin her down to keep her still. I climbed on top of her, focusing most of my effort on keeping her one arm straight.
“Thank you,” Anne mumbled, pulling out a tiny black speck with some tweezers. Was that dirt? Pavement? Thank goodness Anne was thorough. The air alone could leave America with a nasty infection, but it was clear that Anne wasn't going to let that happen.
America screamed again, and I shushed her. “It'll be over soon, America,” I said, thinking of the things Maxon had told me before I was caned and the words Carter had spoken as it was happening. “Think of something happy. Think about your family.”
I could see she was trying, but it clearly wasn't working. She was in too much pain. So I gave her more brandy and continued to give her sips until Anne was finished.
When it was all over, I wondered if America would even remember any of this. After Anne wrapped the wound in a bandage, she and I stood back and watched America sing a children's Christmas song while drawing imaginary pictures on the wall with her finger.
Anne and I grinned at her sloppy movements. “Does anyone know where the puppies even
are
?” America asked. “Why are they so far away?”
We covered our mouths, laughing so hard we were crying. The danger had passed, America was taken care of, and in her head there was a puppy emergency.
“Let's maybe keep this to ourselves,” Anne suggested.
“Yes, I think so.” I sighed. “What do you think happened to her?”
Anne tensed up. “I can't begin to even guess what they
were doing, but I can tell you for sure, that was a gunshot wound.”
“Gunshot?” I exclaimed.
Anne nodded. “A few inches to the left and she could have died.”
I looked down at America, who was now poking her cheeks with her fingers, seemingly just so she could see how it felt.
“Thank goodness she's all right.”
“Even if she wasn't my lady, I think I'd still want her to be princess. I don't know what I'd have done if we lost her.” Anne spoke not simply as a servant but as a subject. I knew exactly what she meant.
I nodded. “I'm glad she had you tonight. I'll go get the boys to take her back to her room.” I crouched beside America. “Hey, I'm going now. But you try not to break yourself again, all right?”
She nodded sluggishly. “Yes, ma'am.”
She definitely wouldn't remember this.
The guard who had come for me was standing at the end of the hall, keeping watch. The other guard was sitting on the floor just outside the room, fidgeting with his hands while Maxon paced.
“Well?” the prince asked.
“She's doing better. Anne took care of everything, and America is . . . Well, she had a lot of the brandy, so she's a little out of it.” The lyrics of her Christmas song trilled
through my head and I giggled. “You can go in now.”
The guard on the floor was up in a flash, Maxon right behind him. I wanted to stop them, ask questions, but now probably wasn't the time.
I wearily walked back to our room, crashing now that the adrenaline had faded. As I approached, I saw Carter sitting in the hall outside our door.
“Oh! You didn't have to wait up for me,” I said quietly, hoping not to disturb anyone else.
“I put her on our bed,” he said, “so I decided I'd wait out here.”
“Put who on our bed?”
“The girl from the kitchen. The one who was with the guard.”
“Oh, right.” I sat next to him. “What did she want with me?”
“It sounds like you're training her. Her name is Paige, and based on the story she just told me, tonight was a
really
interesting night.”
“What do you mean?”
He lowered his voice even further. “She was a prostitute. She said America found her and brought her here. So the prince and America were outside of the palace tonight. Do you have any idea why?”
I shook my head. “All I know is, I was just helping Anne stitch up America's gunshot wound.”
Carter's shocked expression mirrored my own. “What
could they have done to put themselves in such danger?”
I yawned. “I don't know. But I have a feeling it was an effort to do good.”
While running into prostitutes and shoot-outs didn't sound entirely wholesome, if there was one thing I knew about Maxon, it was that he always strove to do what was right.
“Come on,” Carter said. “You can sleep next to Paige. And I'll sleep on the floor.”
“Nope. Where you go, I go,” I replied. I needed to be beside him tonight. So much was going through my head, and I knew he was my only safe place.
I remembered thinking America was foolish for being upset with Maxon over my caning, but it made sense now. Even though he had my utmost respect, I couldn't help feeling a little angry with him for letting her get hurt. For the first time I was able to see my caning through her eyes. I knew then just how much I loved her, and how much she must love me. If she felt half the worry I felt tonight, it was more than enough.
It'd been a week and a half, and nothing felt quite normal yet. Everywhere I went, all the conversations still revolved around the attack. I was one of the lucky few. While others were ruthlessly murdered throughout the palace, Carter and I were safely tucked away in our room. He had been outside tending to the grounds when he heard gunshots, and the instant he realized what was happening, he raced into the
kitchen and grabbed me, and we ran to our room. I helped him push our bed against the door, and we lay on it, adding to the weight.
I trembled in his arms as the hours passed, terrified the rebels would find us and wondering if there was any way they would show us mercy. I kept asking Carter if we should have tried to escape from the palace grounds, but he was insistent that we were safer staying put.
“You didn't see what I saw, Marlee. I don't think we would have made it.”
So we'd waited, straining to hear the sounds of enemies and relieved when friends finally came down the hall, knocking on doors. It was a strange thing to think about, but when we'd gone into that room, Clarkson was the king, and when we came out, it was Maxon.