The Golem of Paris (13 page)

“Have you eaten?” she asked.

“Go away.”

In his blurry periphery, he saw her mopping up vomit, draining the pasta.

“Where do you keep your olive oil? I won’t put in too much. Never mind, got it.”

She eased down beside him, propping him up with one arm while she twirled spaghetti on a fork. “Eat,” she said.

“You don’t exist,” he said.

“Eat.”

He choked down a few bites before vomiting again, avoiding the mattress but speckling her shoes.

He croaked a laugh.

“Don’t be an asshole,” she said.

“I give the orders,” he said.

“You weren’t in today,” she said. “Someone had to take charge.”

“Go to hell.”

“I thought about it. I said to myself, ‘Something’s up, here. He doesn’t seem like one of those lazy shits you so often find running the show at DPJ.’ Then I thought about your father, who you went to visit yesterday. And I wondered, ‘Why would he do that? It must be serious, if he’s going to run off in the middle of a busy investigation.’ I asked Dédé. I figured he’d know. He loves you, you know; you’re like a father to him.”

Breton felt sick again in a different way.

“‘What’s wrong with Capitaine Breton’s father? Is he ill?’ ‘No, no, you must be mistaken, his father died years ago.’

“Then I thought about your bloody nose and how you reek of pot. I thought maybe there was harder stuff, too. Nobody is going to tell me that, of course, they don’t trust me, certainly not Dédé Vallot. I can only guess what you’ve been saying about me behind my back. I poked around in your records. Surprise! You’re clean as a choirboy. I wondered if you had been in treatment but managed to keep it quiet. I called my partner at the BC and had him ping you in the CPAM database,” she said. “Voilà.”

With a groan, he pushed away the forkful of spaghetti headed his
way, detaching himself from her embrace and rolling over, mindful of the pump.

“At least I don’t have to arrest you,” she said.

She got up and began walking around the room, toeing sodden clothes. “Although I should do it anyway, you live like a pig. What do you pay for this shithole? Not more than six hundred, I hope.”

She knelt beside him. “They really don’t know? Nobody on the whole team? How did you keep it from them for so long?”

“You should be looking for the killer,” he said. “Not harassing me.”

“The only explanation I can come up with is that they must be very dense. I met you two weeks ago and I knew immediately something was off. But if you ask me, it’s not fair of you to lie to them. They deserve better.
Beurk
, it stinks like a reggae concert in here.”

She pried up a window. Cold air howled in. Breton gasped.

“Fuck off,” he shouted, or tried to shout. He sounded so small.

“Poor Théo,” she said. “Do you want to know my good news? Maybe you’ll feel better after you hear it. I spoke to a uniform supplier in Oberkampf. Six months ago, they sold a batch of those very maid’s outfits to the Russian embassy. Do you know where that is?”

He knew.

“It’s on Boulevard Lannes,” she said. “Right over the road from the Bois de Boulogne. Under a kilometer from where the bodies were found.”

She bent over, stroked his shoulder. “You really should stay in bed tomorrow. You’re not well enough to come in. Don’t worry. I have everything under control.”

T
he buzzer sounded as Jacob entered 7-Eleven.

“Did you get my message?” he asked.

“What message,” Henry said. He looked fried.

“That car, it’s stolen. If it shows up again, you need to call it in, stat.”

“It was here last night,” Henry said. “It drove through the parking lot. In one side and out the other.”

“Did you get a look at the guys?”

“I told my father we need a gun. He’s too fucking cheap.”

“Listen to me. I need you to be smart about this.” Jacob paused. “Henry?”

“Yeah.”

“I’m going to call over to West L.A. patrol and let them know there’s a stolen vehicle floating around here. I can’t promise they’ll be here if the car shows up again, but it’s a step we can take to get them focused on this area. But you have to promise me you won’t do anything dumb.”

The clerk stared through the storefront. The green Mazda’s spot
was taken up by a benign-looking station wagon without anyone at the wheel. It was nine-thirty a.m.

Jacob asked, “You go off shift soon?”

“Half hour.”

“Go home, get some rest, try to relax.”

Henry nodded reluctantly. “You need anything? A hot dog, or . . . It’s on me.”

Jacob considered where he was headed next. “Beer wouldn’t hurt.”

•   •   •

M
OST
S
ATURDAYS
, he avoided going out in the morning, when the streets of Pico-Robertson were crowded with young families bound for synagogue. He dreaded running into an old classmate, the pitying looks.

He wondered for the umpteenth time if he should move. His relationship with his father was what had kept him around, and that was gone.

But he’d tried to leave before. It hadn’t taken. The most important lesson of his disastrous marriages was that he couldn’t feel at home, here or anywhere.

He was an unbeliever who spoke the language of belief. Having clawed his way out of the bubble, he’d gotten stuck to its exterior, condemned to slide around its shimmering surface, gazing in at a way of life he’d rejected.

He left the 7-Eleven. Most of the foot traffic was headed toward Pico Boulevard, and Jacob fought upstream against a righteous tide of double strollers. Sam Lev eschewed the larger congregations, which he considered too political, too much about keeping up with the Katzes. Instead he favored a prayer quorum that convened in the
grungy basement of a commercial building owned by Abe Teitelbaum. It was an austere place: ocher lino, folding chairs, only a plywood Torah ark to distinguish it from a small bingo hall.

Growing up, Jacob had been the youngest congregant by decades, and he remembered the atmosphere as more or less tolerable, depending on the odors seeping in from the upstairs tenants. The good era was a caterer (roast beef, lemon meringue pie). Bad were the beauty salon (peroxide, acetone, burritos) and the pet groomer (wet spaniel). In any event, he remained keenly aware that his peers were elsewhere, at the big
shuls.
Swapping rumors and Bazooka Joe gum and checking out girls.

Now he loitered beneath a bus stop, drinking beer and watching the entrance to his father’s
shul
from fifty yards away, waiting for the service to wrap up.

He was into his third tallboy when Sam emerged arm in arm with Abe. The two of them schmoozed on the sidewalk for a bit. Then Abe put on his fedora and crossed Robertson, headed back toward his triple-lot Beverlywood home.

Sam unfolded a white-tipped cane.

Jacob’s chest knotted up.
That
was new. While he knew perfectly well that his father’s deteriorating eyesight had nothing to do with their breach, the guilt reared up regardless.

He cracked open another beer, trailing as Sam tapped his way homeward, jogging to close the gap as they neared the building.

“Abba.”

Sam stopped and turned slowly. The picture he presented from up close was shabby: untrimmed gray beard, caved cheeks, drooping eyes, flaking lips.

Before he could speak, Jacob said, “Let me be clear. I’m not here
to make up or to console you. I need information. If you can give me that, great. If not, I’ll go.”

Sam sagged. But he nodded.

They stepped onto the abraded concrete patio fronting Sam’s apartment. While his father felt for his keys, Jacob stashed the last two beers behind a dead potted plant. For later.

•   •   •

T
HE INTERIOR WAS CLOSE
AS
EVER
, dust saturating the air between the boxes of books that defined his father’s world. It gave Jacob a pang to see the dining table preset for a meager Sabbath lunch. Challah rolls like the ones Jacob brought his mother, tap water and grape juice in foam cups, a solitary paper napkin folded into a decorative triangle. The plastic place setting included a coffee spoon that would go unused.

A mistake, coming here. Jacob could feel his resolve weakening.

He begged himself to remember: his father had lied.

Sam said, “Can I offer you something to eat?”

“No, thanks. You go ahead, though.”

Sam recited the
kiddush
. Jacob resisted the reflex to answer amen.

As his father hobbled to the kitchen to wash his hands, Jacob took his customary seat at the table. His heart was threatening to explode.

He said, “I’m sorry to barge in on you like this.”

You’re not sorry. You’ve done nothing wrong.

Sam reappeared with a tub of tuna fish. He made the blessing on the challah, tore off a chunk, and dipped it in salt and ate. “I’m just happy to be near you.”

“Don’t do that,” Jacob said.

Sam appeared genuinely perplexed. “What did I do?”

Ignoring him, Jacob said, “I’ve been to see Ima
.
”

“I know. It means a lot to—”

“Stop.”

Sam flinched.

Jacob exhaled in a tight stream. He stood up. “It’s stifling in here.”

In the kitchen, he pried up the window sash and stuck his head out. He’d consumed enough alcohol to feel edgy, not nearly enough to round that edge off.

He checked the refrigerator for wine.

The damn thing was bare.

“When was the last time Nigel brought you food?” he called.

“Wednesday, I think.”

Jacob puckered with resentment, reading his father’s poor condition as an act, orchestrated to pluck at a son’s conscience.

That wasn’t fair. Sam hadn’t known he was coming.

Fuck
fair.

He came back to the dining room, putting a seat between them.

“How do you know Divya Das?” he said.

“I don’t,” Sam said.

“Bullshit. When she visited me in the hospital, you recognized her. I saw it.”

“I’ve never spoken to her, other than that day,” Sam said.

“Please, please don’t bullshit me.
Please.
”

“I’m not,” Sam said. “I don’t know her, specifically.”

“What’s that mean, specifically?”

Sam got up from the table.

“Where are you going?”

“One second.”

Sam bushwhacked to the far corner of the living room. Jacob heard him shifting boxes. Upon return, Sam had swapped his dark
glasses for his magnifying spectacles, and he took advantage of the moment to get closer, sitting next to Jacob and sliding him a decaying hardcover.

“Bear in mind that this is an old copy,” Sam said.

The book was thick as a dictionary, its cover unmarked.

Jacob flipped to the title page.

Dorot shel Beinonim.

The Generations of the Middle Ones.

If it was a sacred text, it was unlike any he had seen.

No scripture. No commentary. Just spiderwebbed diagrams, inked by hand on thick vellum. Alien characters filled the first twenty or thirty pages before giving way to Sanskrit, Hebrew, Greek, Arabic, Latin, Cyrillic, pictographs.

Jacob pointed to an unfamiliar script. “What is that?”

“Ge’ez. From Ethiopia.”

“Abba.”

Sam looked up, his eyes ludicrously enlarged. “What?”

“You can see.”

“Enough.”

“You’re walking around with a cane.”

“Drivers pay better attention when they think you’re blind.”

Jacob shook his head, went back to reading.

There was a system. That much he could tell. He jumped ahead ten pages at a time, groping at comprehension. Dotted lines, wavy lines, broken lines, lines that ran to nowhere: he was looking at the relationships between husbands and wives, parents and children, siblings. Where a line touched the margins, a number appeared. He could turn to the corresponding page and find its continuation.

It would be possible, he realized, to tear out all the pages and piece them together.

Creating a single, enormous family tree.

The final entry, before the pages went blank, was in his father’s handwriting.

“For your mother’s sake, I tried to keep track of them,” Sam said.

Jacob shut the book. He felt the beginnings of a migraine. “Keep track of who?”

“You won’t believe me. It’s just a theory, anyway.”

“Humor me.”

Sam sighed. He went back into the stacks, returning with several more books.

The first was familiar enough to Jacob: the Bible.

Sam opened to the sixth chapter of Genesis, reading aloud in the original Hebrew.

“‘And it was when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born to them, the sons of Elohim saw the daughters of men, that they were good, and they took them as wives. And God said, “My spirit will not judge in man forever, for that he is also flesh. His days will be a hundred and twenty years.” The fallen ones were on the earth in those days, and also after that, when the sons of Elohim came to the daughters of men, and they bore to them.’”

He stopped reading and looked up.

“That’s it?” Jacob asked.

“‘The sons of Elohim.’ ‘The fallen ones.’ Surely you’ve wondered what those things mean.”

“I’ve wondered.”

“And? What’s your interpretation?”

“My interpretation,” Jacob said, “is that it’s a myth, written a long time ago by guys sitting around a campfire who smelled like sheep and believed in magic.”

Sam shrugged. “Fine.”

“
You
were the one who told me that.”

“I said it was a myth?”

“You said—I can’t believe you don’t remember this. I came to you and asked how it was possible that God had a hand. For smiting. You remember what you said?”

“That it was a metaphor, I assume.”

“Yeah. A metaphor. Which is a very hard concept for a six-year-old to grasp, by the way. You got me in a shitload of trouble at school.”

For the first time, Sam smiled.

“‘Elohim’ means ‘judges,’” Jacob said. “It’s saying there were powerful men and they took the best women for themselves. It’s no different nowadays.”

“You know very well that’s not the primary meaning.”

“If you’re going to tell me it means ‘gods’—”

“I’m telling you that you have to look at the context,” Sam said. “Not Elohim. ‘Sons of Elohim.’ As a phrase that has its own distinct definition. It’s like what Mark Twain said about the difference between ‘lightning’ and ‘lightning bug.’”

“You don’t think you’re being kind of literal?”

“Quite the opposite,” Sam said. “You know who the sons of Elohim are. I know you know. We learned it, together.”

Jacob knew.

Angels
.

“If you’ll bear with me,” Sam said, reaching for a second book, “I’d like to show you some other sources—”

Jacob held up a hand to stop him.

“That’s fine,” Sam said. “We can look at it later.”

“I don’t need to look at it.”

“I don’t know why you’re getting upset at me, Jacob. You asked me a question. I’m attempting to answer comprehensively. I told you you weren’t going to believe me.”

“What’s upsetting to me is that
you
believe it.”

Sam said nothing.

“Divya Das is a doctor,” Jacob said.

“And so she is.”

“She works for the Coroner.”

“Yes, she does.”

“Mike Mallick is a cop.”

“Yes, he is.”

That Sam had not asked
who’s Mike Mallick
unsettled Jacob.

He plowed on: “Mel Subach is a cop. Paul Schott is a cop. These are people with jobs. They have houses and cars and kids.”

“People can be more than one thing,” Sam said.

“They’re still
people
.”

“I’m not disputing that,” Sam said. “In a sense.” His voice was hypnotic, indifferent: he didn’t care if Jacob believed him. “That’s what the ‘
Beinonim
’ in
Dorot shel Beinonim
refers to: they’re not exclusively one or the other. They’re both.”

“Angel-human hybrids.” Jacob heard himself laughing, trying far too hard.

Sam was unfazed. “The verse itself says it. ‘The sons of Elohim came to the daughters of men, and they bore to them.’ Listen. Listen to this.”

He was reaching for another book,
The Dead Sea Scrolls of Qumran
.

“You can read me quotes all day long,” Jacob said. “That doesn’t make it true.”

Sam cleared his throat, took a sip of water. “Part of the problem
is that these topics, by their very nature, tend to attract a certain kind of person, given to superstition and speculation. The literature is cluttered with misinformation.”

“But you know better.”

“My ideas have been cobbled together over years. But I’ve noticed patterns, yes.”

“Such as.”

“Obviously, they’re extremely tall,” Sam said. “A common alternative translation for ‘fallen ones’ is ‘giants.’”

“Obviously.”

“They don’t eat, or very sparingly.”

“Giant anorexics. Gotcha. Anything else?”

“They’re goal-oriented, but they have limited power over the affairs of men. Mostly they work through pressure and intimidation.”

“So, giant, anorexic middle management,” Jacob said.

“They refuse to enter a synagogue.”

“Hey, maybe I’m one of them.”

“Not possible. I’m not, and neither is your mother.”

“That’s, that’s, wow, a really huge weight off my shoulders. Thanks.”