Authors: Susan Elizabeth Phillips
“
There’s the door! You want to leave? Go ahead! If you don’t care, neither do I.
” The veins on Temple’s slim neck popped, and her perfectly glossed mouth formed a snarl. “
Get on the boat and off the island. Let everybody see what a loser you are.
”
The woman was openly crying now, but Temple continued to berate her. It was painful to watch. Even more painful to imagine what kind of desperation would drive someone to let herself be subjected to this kind of abuse.
The woman’s tears only fueled Temple’s scorn. “
Boo hoo. This is what you’ve done all your life. Cry about your problems instead of fixing them. Go on! Get off the island! There are thousands of people waiting to take your place.
”
“No!”
the woman cried. “
I can do it. I can do this.
”
“Then do it!”
Temple hit the pause button as the woman began frantically pummeling a punching bag. Lucy didn’t believe self-loathing was the best form of motivation, but Temple thought differently. “Irene ran her first half marathon four months after we taped that episode,” she said proudly. “By the time I was done with her, she’d lost over a hundred pounds.”
Lucy wondered how many of those hundred pounds Irene had been able to keep off without Temple around to scream in her face.
“God, she looked amazing.” Temple turned off the television and stood, wincing slightly as she straightened. “The critics are always putting me down. They’ll compare me to trainers like Jillian Michaels—say she has a heart and I don’t. I have a heart. A big one. But you don’t help people by coddling them, and I’ll match my results against hers any day.” She jerked her head toward the stairs. “I’m going to do some upper body work. From the looks of those arms, you should join me.”
The face of the sobbing woman flashed through Lucy’s mind. “It’s not a good time for me.”
Temple’s lip curled. “There’s never a good time for you, is there, Lucy? You can always find a reason not to take care of yourself.”
“I take care of myself.” Maybe it was Temple’s intimidating glare, or it could have been the second chili dog, but she didn’t sound convincing. “I exercise,” she said in a firmer voice. “I don’t love to, but I do it.”
Temple crossed her arms over her chest like a prison warden. “What kind of exercise?”
“Push-ups. Some crunches. I walk a lot. Sometimes I run.”
“Sometimes doesn’t cut it.”
“In the winter, I go to the gym.” Three times a week, if she was lucky. More often twice. But hardly a week went by that she didn’t get there at least once.
Temple flicked her hand toward Lucy’s body as if it were spoiled meat. “Are you really satisfied with the results you’re getting?”
Lucy thought about it. “I sort of am.”
“You’re lying to yourself.”
“I don’t think so. Would I like to be a little firmer? What woman wouldn’t? But I keep at it. A little here, a little there. Do I obsess about it? Not really.”
“Every woman in this country obsesses about her body. You can’t live in our society without obsessing.”
It occurred to Lucy that she was so screwed up about so many other things—what she owed her family, what she owed herself, and how she was supposed to balance the two—that she didn’t have time for serious body-image issues. “I’m not into heavy workouts. I guess I have my own exercise philosophy. The ‘Good Enough’ approach.”
Temple looked as though Lucy had cockroaches crawling over her, and even though Lucy knew it was useless to explain, she gave it a try. “I believe exercise is important, but I’m not training for a triathlon, just for general fitness. And when I make exercise drudgery, I stop altogether.”
“You should force yourself.”
“I’m pretty happy being weak-willed.” Lucy considered suggesting that Temple might not be quite so miserable if she tried a little more of the “Good Enough” approach. The Evil Queen’s weight gain couldn’t be accidental, and the social worker inside Lucy wondered what had happened to make Temple lose that iron self-control.
But Temple couldn’t comprehend Lucy’s laid-back attitude, and Lucy took advantage of her temporary speechlessness to switch the subject. “I have a twelve-year-old friend who tends to pop up here uninvited.”
Temple’s eyes widened in alarm. “That can’t happen.”
“Without an electric fence surrounding the property, it’ll be hard to keep him out. I told him I have a girlfriend visiting, so if he shows up, he won’t think it’s strange that you’re here.”
“You don’t understand! No one can see me!”
“I doubt that he’s part of your fan base.”
“Panda!” Temple screeched. “Panda, get in here.”
Panda took all kinds of time wandering in.
Temple jabbed her hand at Lucy. “I can’t deal with this now. Take care of it!” She stormed out and pounded up the stairs two at a time.
Instead of addressing the subject at hand, Panda gazed around at the living room. “What happened to my furniture?”
“What furniture?”
“The furniture that used to be in here.”
“Describe it.”
“What do you mean, ‘describe it’?”
She narrowed her eyes at him. “Describe the furniture that used to be in here.”
“A couch. Some chairs. Where is it?”
“What color was the couch?”
He gritted his teeth. “It was a couch. It was couch-colored. What did you do with it?”
“If you told me what it looked like,” she said with exaggerated patience, “I might remember.”
“It looked like a couch!” he exclaimed.
“You don’t remember,” she said triumphantly. “You don’t have a clue what anything in this room looked like. What anything in this house looks like. None of this means anything to you.”
A muscle ticked in his jaw. “I know I had a couch and now it’s gone.”
“It’s not gone. It’s in the sunroom. Along with some chairs and a couple of other things you wouldn’t recognize. You don’t care about this house, and you don’t deserve it.”
“Tough. It’s mine. And I want my pig back.”
That stopped her. “Your pig?”
“The pig that was in the kitchen.”
“That ugly pig with the waiter’s apron and the missing ear?”
“The ear isn’t missing. It’s only chipped.”
That stunned her. “You remember the chip in that stupid pig’s ear, but you don’t know what color your couch is?”
“I’m more into the ceramic arts.”
“Panda!” Temple shrieked from upstairs. “Come spot me.”
Viper gazed toward the stairs. “It’s fascinating,” she said, “how well you’ve adapted to being Temple Renshaw’s bitch.”
He stalked toward the hallway. “That pig had better be back where it was the next time I walk in the kitchen, or you’ll never see your food again.”
“Your pig is ugly!” she shouted after him.
“So’s your mother,” he shot back, which made her furious. Not really at him. More at herself. Because she almost laughed.
B
REE WAS CLOSING THE FARM
stand for the night when the white pickup slowed, then stopped. The lettering across the door read
JENSEN
’
S HERB FARM
.
It was nearly dark, and she’d just finished packing up the last of her unsold honey in the cardboard carton she’d propped in the wheelbarrow. She’d been up since before six, trying to finish weeding Myra’s overgrown garden, she’d forgotten to eat again, and she was bone-tired. Still, there were a few good things about today. She’d sold eighteen jars of honey along with some strawberries and asparagus that had survived the neglect. She also almost had a friend, not that she believed someone as famous as Lucy would ever be a real friend, but still, it was nice.
Toby had done his customary disappearing act, but as the truck door opened, he came racing down the drive. “
Big Mike!
”
She barely avoided dropping the jars as Mike Moody climbed out. After such a grueling day, this was too much. She still couldn’t quite reconcile his current good looks with the fat, acne-faced teenager she remembered. If she didn’t know better, she’d have pegged him as an amiable soccer dad instead of a crass, loudmouth sneak.
He grinned and waved at Toby. “Hey, kid. I brought you something.”
“What?” Toby cried as Mike walked around to the back of the truck.
“What do you think?” Mike swung down the tailgate and, in a single effortless motion, pulled off a shiny silver mountain bike.
Classic Mike Moody. She knew exactly how this would play out.
Toby stared at the bike as if it would disappear the moment he looked away. She wanted to forbid him to take it, but of course she couldn’t. Mike’s ambush had made that impossible.
Toby’s voice grew small, uncertain, unable to comprehend that something so wonderful was happening to him. “For me?”
Bree blinked her eyes against a sting of tears. He’d received a gift he hadn’t needed to fight for. A gift she couldn’t have given him.
As Toby reached out to touch the handlebars, Bree understood what Toby couldn’t. The bike wasn’t being offered out of affection but as a way for Mike to horn in where he didn’t belong. He’d done the same thing when they were kids. Shown up with bags of Skittles and Lemonheads—entrance tickets to the group that wanted to exclude him.
“Brand-new,” Mike said. “I saw it when I was on the mainland yesterday and thought to myself, now who could use a great bike like that? Only one name came to mind.”
“Me,” Toby said on a long, soft breath. His lips were parted, his eyes so focused on the bike that nothing else existed. He looked exactly as David used to look when something he regarded as amazing happened. She ached with the pain of remembrance.
Mike pulled some tools from the truck bed and they worked together—man to man—to adjust the seat height. She was so angry she felt sick. She wanted to be the one giving David’s son a bicycle. She wanted to be the one who made Toby’s world brighter, not this master manipulator with his overpowering cologne, designer logos, and oily charm.
Toby mounted the bike. As his spindly legs found the pedals, Mike pointed down the drive. “It’s too dark to ride on the road tonight. Give it a spin in the driveway, then try it out on the path in the woods.”
“Thanks, Mike. Thanks a lot!” Toby took off.
Mike still hadn’t acknowledged her. Only after he’d slammed the tailgate did he look in her direction. She turned away and stacked the last of the honey into a carton.
“I brought you something, too, Bree,” he said from behind her. “To help with your business.”
“I don’t want anything.” She grabbed the wheelbarrow and began pushing it through the scrubby grass. She needed to fix the doors on the storage shed behind the farm stand so she didn’t have to keep hauling everything back and forth twice a day.
“You don’t know what it is.”
“And I don’t care.” The front wheel caught in a rut, the honey jars rattled, and she barely prevented it all from overturning.
“You don’t believe in second chances, do you, Bree?”
As a kid, he’d always been whiny when anyone challenged him, but now his voice had a calmness she didn’t like. “What I believe is that a leopard doesn’t change its spots.” She struggled to get the wheel out of the rut. “I want you to stop using Toby to try to get to me.”
He pushed her aside, took the handles, and steered the wheelbarrow toward the driveway. “Myra said your ex-husband left you for an eighteen-year-old.”
Scott’s supposed soul mate was nineteen, but correcting him wouldn’t exactly help her save face. “That’s what happens when you marry the wrong man,” she said.
He stopped the wheelbarrow. “You don’t still believe David was the right one, do you?”
He was a lot more perceptive than he used to be, and anger coursed through her. “I won’t talk to you about David.”
“He never would have married you. You intimidated him.”
Despite Mike’s surface changes, he was as clueless as ever. David, with his blazing intellect and boundless self-confidence, had never been intimidated by anyone, let alone an ordinary girl like herself.
“The WASP princess and the kid from the ghetto …” He slipped his thumb under the gold bracelet on his wrist. Either he’d forgotten to put on his cologne or he’d taken her criticism seriously because he smelled like peppermint gum. “David was fascinated by you, but that’s all it ever was.”
Her hand itched to slap him. “Stop acting like you knew him.”
“Who do you think he talked to after he married Star and settled on the island?”
“You want me to believe you were David’s confidant? After what you did?”
“Living in the past is never a great idea,” he said, with an air of compassion she didn’t believe for a moment. “It makes things harder than they need to be. I can help you.”
“The only way you can do that is to leave me alone.” She abandoned the wheelbarrow and strode toward the house.
“You’re barely hanging on,” he said, not raising his voice. “What are you going to do when the tourists leave?”
“Get off the island like everybody else.”
“And go where?”
Nowhere. Her brothers loved her, but they didn’t want her living with them—not by herself and definitely not with a twelve-year-old boy tagging along. She had no place to go, something Mike seemed to know.
She could hear him coming closer, his even stride so much more confident than her fast, furious steps. “You’re going to need a friend here,” he said as she reached the front step. “Myra’s gone. David and Star are dead. And you don’t seem to have a long list of pals.”
Not ones she could count on. After Scott left, her friends’ so-called support had been nothing more than thinly disguised attempts to learn the juicy details of her breakup. She spun around to confront him. “I hope you’re enjoying your revenge. You have money and a successful business. I don’t have either one. I’m sure that makes you incredibly happy.”
He pulled on a solemn expression. “Would it make you happy to see somebody you once cared about in trouble?”
She thought of David and Star, how they’d hurt her, how fiercely she’d hated them, and how much she missed them. Pushing their images away, she focused on Scott and his nineteen-year-old hottie. “You bet I would.”