The Guns of Easter (4 page)

THE NEW IDEAS ABOUT HIS FATHER
drove all the good feelings out of Jimmy’s head. After Mick left he tried to start his thinking game again, but it was no use. All that he could think about was Da, going off to a war that he didn’t believe in, in a uniform he despised, so that his family could have some money. This was the simple reality, not just for Da but for many others. Only his own foolish dreams of glory had kept Jimmy from seeing the truth before.

He tried to hide his misery from Ma when she got back with the washing. She could see that there was something wrong, but she decided not to pry. He must, she thought, be thinking about that poor old man yesterday.

Lily Conway had not been as surprised as her brother and son to hear that Paddy Doyle had joined the army. He was an honourable man and a good husband. He’d tried in every way to provide for his family, but the small world of Dublin had kept him from doing it. Now he was taking the only way out. Her own husband had done the same thing. She hadn’t liked it, but people like them didn’t have many choices. Lily could see no dishonour in it. If she’d heard Paddy Doyle calling himself a hypocrite she’d have been shocked.

Almost a week passed with Jimmy in the same awful mood. He didn’t go out, just sat staring out the window. It began to get on Ma’s nerves. She’d tried more than once to talk to him, to find out what was wrong, but got no good from the attempts.

In the course of that week she hadn’t talked to her brother Mick. Ella called twice, but that was little cause for rejoicing. Ella was so wrapped up in her own troubles now that she hardly even listened when anyone else spoke. She just wanted her own complaining to be heard.

Alice Doyle recovered from her fever. It had already been breaking on the day Lily collected the laundry, otherwise she wouldn’t have let the two girls up to
Doyles’ at all. These fevers were always around in the cramped and dirty conditions of the slums. They went through the underfed children like wildfire, and always killed a few as they went. There was hardly a household she knew that hadn’t had a dead child at some time; her own family had, she knew, been very lucky.

It was Mick who brought the change in Jimmy in the end, hard though that was to credit. Mick always wanted to help, and he did try his best; but he never knew how, and always seemed to get things wrong. This time though he came up trumps, and with a few words transformed her son from the moping nuisance he’d become into the most radiant boy in Dublin.

It happened exactly a week after the affair of the Gorgeous Wrecks. The day started like any other recent one, with the girls squabbling and Jimmy sitting looking at the floor. Lily Conway, beset with worries of her own that she tried to hide from the children, was counting her coppers to see whether there was enough money for an ounce of tea and a loaf of bread.

She stopped in the middle of counting and looked at the three children, the light of her life. She thought of her husband, and wondered where he was at that exact moment. Then she made herself stop thinking about him, as she always did, because at this exact moment he might be dying or terribly injured.

The door opened and Mick sailed in. He was wearing
the huge smile that everyone liked. When he walked into a room smiling like that the whole place seemed to light up.

Lily was delighted to see him in this mood. Though he hadn’t called during the week, she’d seen him in the street a couple of times; but he’d looked every bit as miserable as Jimmy, and she hadn’t stopped to talk. She’d felt she had enough miserable people to deal with, and was having problems coping herself.

Now all that seemed to have changed. Mick came in smiling and whistling.

‘Howya, Lil?’ he said. ‘And how are my dear nieces?’

The girls ran over and hugged him. Jimmy, though, barely reacted. Mick escaped the girls and went over to the rocking chair.

‘I say, old fellow,’ he said to Jimmy in a mock English accent, ‘have I got news for you.’

Jimmy looked up at him moodily. What news could Mick have? Nothing good, certainly. Jimmy said nothing.

‘You never mind that sulky young fella,’ Ma said. ‘We want to know, even if he doesn’t.’

‘I’ll tell you so,’ said Mick. ‘Though it concerns Jimmy more than the rest of you. The thing is, I’ve got some work at the end of next week.’

Jimmy shrugged. That was hardly very exciting.

‘Do you remember,’ said Mick, ‘when I was working in the stables in the brewery?’

‘Of course,’ Ma said.

‘Jim?’ Mick said. ‘You remember the day that I took you to work with me?’

Jimmy grunted.

‘Do you remember a man there by the name of Tandy? He was very taken with you.’

‘That was the man that said you should work with horses all the time,’ Jimmy said. ‘He gave me sixpence.’ It was the sort of thing that you’d remember.

‘The very man,’ Mick said. ‘Well, I met Mr Tandy the other day, and he said he could give me a couple of days’ work.’

‘Grand,’ said Jimmy. ‘Good for you.’

‘At Fairyhouse,’ said Mick.

Jimmy looked at him.

‘For the races,’ Mick said.

Jimmy straightened in his seat.

‘And he said,’ went on Mick, ‘that I should bring along that bright nephew of mine to help me. “I’m sure,” he said, “the chiseler’d like to see the horses.” ‘

Jimmy’s mouth dropped open. ‘Oh Mick,’ he said. ‘Are you codding?’

It didn’t seem possible for Mick’s smile to get any bigger. ‘It’s true all right, young Jimmy,’ he said. ‘That’s if you want to go.’

From her seat by the table Ma watched the transformation in Jimmy. His face lit up instantly, like the
sun coming out from behind a cloud. The miserable thoughts of the last week were driven away. Nothing else could have had such an instant effect. Fairyhouse was special – so special that the thought of really going there left no room in Jimmy’s head for anything else at all.

In his mind’s eye Jimmy saw himself already at the races, helping Mick in the stables, chatting to jockeys and to the rich men who owned the winning horses.

Not one of the boys Jimmy knew had ever actually been to Fairyhouse. Paddy Doyle had gone there once, years and years ago. Tommy Doyle still boasted of the fact, and described all his father had seen as if he’d seen it himself. That was all very well … but to go there yourself! That was like a story that Jimmy might invent in the thinking game. No, though: even Jimmy would never let his imagination go that far. It was one thing to dream of killing dragons, but it was unthinkable that anyone would ever ask you to go to Fairyhouse for the races.

‘Well?’ he heard Mick asking, as though from far away. Mick’s voice sounded amused. ‘Do you want to go or not?’

He must know how foolish the question was. Of course Jimmy wanted to go! Already he could imagine the scene in his mind’s eye. The races were on Easter Monday – in a week’s time. Dublin would be awful then, closed for the holiday. The Spring Show would be starting, but that would be miles away in Ballsbridge, and it would be mostly farmers and country people who came to see it. All the city
people who could get away would be gone, and any who could afford it would be heading for the races.

Fairyhouse would be packed with all the grandest people. Jimmy would see all the great gentlemen, and the army officers in their best dress uniforms, strolling with their ladies on their arms. They would be the kind of people who lived in big houses, with five rooms for each person instead of five people to each room. They would have servants to do all their work for them. They would eat strange foods that these servants prepared for them, in special rooms that were kept only to eat in.

Jimmy knew that there really were people who lived like this, though he wasn’t clear about the details of their lives. He only knew that they were magnificent and rich. When they joined the army they became officers and rode horses, and gave orders to ordinary men like Da. They were better than people like Jimmy and his family, in some strange way that Jimmy could never quite understand. Sometimes he even thought that it was simply a case of their having more money; but he always felt that there was something vaguely sinful about thinking this, and mentioned it to no-one.

Whatever the case might be, there was no doubt that Fairyhouse would be crammed with such glamorous people. Jimmy would see them all, and maybe some of them would even talk to him. When he got back afterwards, the other boys would beg him to tell them all
about it. He’d be a hero then, a boy who’d had a great adventure. His friends would boast to other boys about him. These other boys would look at him in awe, thinking how normal he looked for someone who’d had such great adventures. Meanwhile Jimmy, the soul of modesty, would try his best to act like just another human being, though inside himself he’d be burning with pride.

Jimmy was so excited that he almost forgot to breathe. It would all be grand, better than walking behind fifty regimental bands at once.

‘If you think you’ll be up to the journey,’ Mick said mockingly, ‘we’ll be leaving on Saturday evening, and we won’t be back maybe till Tuesday.’

Up to the journey? Jimmy blinked at his uncle’s smiling face. Did Mick think he’d fall asleep on the way? Why, Jimmy doubted that he’d get any sleep at all for the next week.

He stammered a quick acceptance. He couldn’t express his gratitude properly. It was just too big for words. The girls played with their dolls on the floor. Ma sat smiling.

Suddenly Jimmy couldn’t contain his joy for another second. It seemed to burst out of him. He gave a great whoop of happiness that made the adults laugh and made his sisters stare at him in fright. Still whooping, Jimmy jumped from the chair and ran out of the room. Behind him he heard his mother laughing, delighted with her only son’s delight, glad after this tiresome week to have her son back again.

IT WAS MORE THAN A WEEK LATER
. It was, to be exact, just before noon on Easter Monday. And in all Dublin – in all the world, maybe – there was no more miserable creature than Jimmy Conway.

He walked in Sackville Street with heavy steps like a man on his way to jail. In
Sackville Street
: that is to say, in Dublin city, and not in Fairyhouse. The impossible had happened: Mick had let him down. His uncle had ruined his life.

Mick had called around on Friday evening, looking very upset. When Jimmy smiled at him he looked even worse. He took Ma aside and whispered to her. She became very angry.

‘Oh no you don’t,’ she hissed out loud to Mick. ‘You can tell him yourself.’

Something in her voice chilled Jimmy’s heart. When he looked at Mick’s face his expression told Jimmy that something terrible had happened. And there was only one thing that it could be, and it was a thing that Jimmy didn’t even want to think about.

‘Jim, lad,’ Mick stammered. ‘Jimmy, I …’

But Jimmy was already shaking his head, willing this new problem to go away. Mick wasn’t going to Fairyhouse. Something very important had come up. He was very sorry. He knew, he said, how Jimmy must feel.

‘Do you, though?’ asked Ma. Jimmy had never heard her sound so angry. ‘Do you really understand how high you had that child’s hopes? What can be so important, Mick?’

But Mick, who looked almost as upset as Jimmy felt, just shook his head. ‘I can’t talk about it,’ he said.

The ice in Ma’s voice changed to fire. ‘Is this some political nonsense?’ she demanded.

Mick said nothing, but his silence seemed only to confirm her suspicions.

‘Mick,’ she said, ‘you’re worse than mad – you’re cruel. What good has any of that rubbish ever brought anyone? And now look at Jimmy! You’ve destroyed that boy.’

Jimmy just stood there. He could feel himself start to shake. Surely Mick wouldn’t let him down because of the union or the Citizen Army? Mick had no faith in causes any more; he’d said so himself.

Mick looked helplessly from his sister to his nephew. ‘I’m sorry,’ he said. He was almost crying. ‘I can’t say anything more now.’

He turned around suddenly and walked out. Ma followed him to the door and called angrily down the
shabby hallway after him: ‘May God forgive you, Mick Healy, for destroying a young boy’s hopes. May God forgive you, because I don’t think Jimmy will be able to. I know I won’t.’

Jimmy was too shattered even to cry. It wasn’t just missing the races, terrible though that was. But he’d spent days telling everyone about it. All the boys had been impressed and humbled. Older boys, who’d normally not bother talking to a kid like Jimmy, had come to ask him respectfully if the story was true. For a week he’d been the hero of the neighbourhood. And what would everyone think of him now? They’d think he was a liar.

Jimmy spent the rest of the weekend hiding at home, sitting in his mother’s chair and staring into the empty fireplace. He couldn’t even play his thinking game. If he looked at the face of the old clock now all he saw in his mind was the faces of other boys jeering at him, calling him a braggart and a liar.

By the weekend even Ma’s sympathy had started to turn to annoyance. Sarah had got sick on Saturday. She had a fever, and there was no money for a doctor. Ma sat up with her till late on Saturday night and then all night on Sunday, when the fever was at its worst. This morning Ma was exhausted, and the sight of Jimmy sitting there whitefaced, healthy and grieving in the chair was too much for her tired nerves.

‘I can’t look at you there any more with that long face
on you,’ she said, her voice cracking. ‘Go out and play. Go out and let me get some peace.’

If she’d sounded angry he might have pleaded or cried, but her voice just sounded more tired and sad than Jimmy could ever remember. It frightened him. He took his cap and went out.

At first he thought he would run away and hide, but that was pointless. He couldn’t hide forever. His friends would think he was at Fairyhouse now. Sooner or later someone would see him, and then it would all come out. He’d be revealed as a boaster and a liar. He’d never again be able to hold up his head in their company. His life was ruined, and there was no way of avoiding it.

So Jimmy, for more than an hour now, had been walking in Sackville Street waiting for the inevitable. As time passed, and he met nobody he knew, he started almost to wish that the inevitable would hurry up and arrive. Even the jeering, when it came, could be no worse than this waiting.

Normally on a Monday Sackville Street would be full of passing traffic: carts and carriages, horsemen and motor cars, cyclists and lorries. But this was Easter Monday and today it was drab and half empty, and few fashionable people were to be seen. They had better ways to spend the holiday.

It was a fine spring morning, but Jimmy didn’t notice. He was walking blindly, not caring where he was going.
He was heading down the street past Nelson’s Pillar when he almost bumped into a small knot of people who had stopped short in front of him.

‘There they are,’ sneered a haggard old woman in a black shawl. ‘The great heroes! The Kaiser’s friends!’ Her voice dripped with sarcasm.

Jimmy stood at the corner of Henry Street, just beyond the Post Office. Following the old woman’s glare, he saw them coming out of Abbey Street – Volunteers, lots of them. And the Citizen Army men were with them! Was that why Mick had betrayed him, for a stupid march? Surely it couldn’t be true. You couldn’t give up Fairyhouse for a march with a let-on army!

As he too glared at the oncoming men, Jimmy became aware of a strange air about this particular parade. There were a lot of men marching, Volunteers and Citizen Army men together. Behind them trundled an odd collection of slow-moving vehicles – Jimmy noticed a cab, some carts, and a sporty-looking motor car. Men and vehicles were heavily loaded with guns and other equipment. Other traffic paused to let the procession pass as it swung out into Sackville Street.

It was the three men leading the procession who drew Jimmy’s eyes. Although they walked just in front of the main body, something set them apart. It was as if they were walking in a world of their own, as blind to the real world around them as Jimmy had been.

He knew two of the men by sight. In the middle was James Connolly, the trade unionist. The headquarters of his union were down by the river in Liberty Hall, quite close to Jimmy’s house. Everyone in the slums knew Connolly. His fight for workers’ rights had made him a hero to many of the poor. He walked along now in the dark green uniform of the Citizen Army, his thick moustache bristling.

On either side of Connolly strode two men in the lighter green uniform of the Volunteers. One of them was a tall, thin young man wearing glasses. Around his throat was what looked like a bandage. The man looked unwell. He was almost staggering as he marched up the street, but Jimmy was struck by the look of pride and triumph on his pale, haughty face.

The third man Jimmy recognised as Mr Pearse, a schoolteacher who often addressed political meetings. He would speak fiercely about violence and bloodshed and death, and many people regarded him as the greatest lunatic of all the so-called Sinn Féiners – a would-be hero who in his school out in Rathfarnham taught middle-class boys to worship bloodshed and mythical heroes from Ireland’s savage past. Yet his face too, like Connolly’s, like the face of the sickly young man beside them, was odd now, set in grave lines yet somehow peaceful and happy. It was almost as though the three men were surrounded by a light that came from inside them, that had nothing to
do with the real Dublin that they were walking through.

It was unusual to see Connolly and his Citizen Army marching with Pearse and the Volunteers. The two groups didn’t really get on. Jimmy looked beyond the three men, at the column still emerging from Abbey Street. They must all be coming from Liberty Hall. Jimmy searched the faces, looking for Mick. There was no sign of him.

The last of the men turned into Sackville Street now, but still Mick wasn’t among them. Then, at the very end, came two men with no uniforms. One was a handsome man leaning heavily on a stick, limping. Beside him was an old man with grey, receding hair and a big moustache. Wasn’t that the old man who kept the tobacco shop at the top of Sackville Street – Mr Clarke?

What odd people the Sinn Féin leaders were: old Clarke, then the crippled man, the sick-looking young man with the bandaged throat, and Pearse with his fixed stare, and then Connolly like a stocky little bulldog with bandy legs. Yet today they looked different. They looked – yes, that was it – they looked like soldiers, real soldiers, going out to fight for a cause.

Behind the marching men now Jimmy saw some boys of his own age trailing along, laughing and shouting. Jeering the men, Jimmy knew, though this time the marchers were ignoring them completely. The people around him too were making comments.

‘Where are they off to now, I wonder?’ said the old woman in the shawl.

‘They look like they’re going camping,’ laughed a man in a bowler hat. ‘Maybe they’re off to visit their friends in Germany, to collect their wages.’

Some people said that the Volunteers were paid by the Kaiser, though Jimmy had never believed it. He’d heard that the Kaiser was mad and evil, but he couldn’t believe he would be foolish enough to pay good money to groups like the Volunteers.

Jimmy was looking at the boys who were following the march. He recognised some of his friends. They’d soon pass the place where he stood. It was the moment he’d been dreading, and now it was here he was afraid. Should he turn and run down Henry Street? But something kept him standing there, something that had nothing to do with shame or fear. His eyes moved from the boys back to the marchers, and especially to the three men who led them.

The three leaders came level with the General Post Office, only a few yards from Jimmy. As he watched, Connolly called the column to a halt behind them. The men stopped untidily, some of them bumping into each other. Someone tittered. Then the street seemed to grow suddenly still. Jimmy heard an Angelus bell ringing, and mutterings around him, but his attention was fixed on Connolly.

The trade union man drew himself up to his full height. His face was flushed, but still it wore that air of certainty. He looked, Jimmy thought, as if his own inevitable moment had come. But what was going to happen? A speech? A demonstration?

Connolly shouted. Jimmy felt his mouth drop open as Connolly’s words reached his ears.

‘Left turn!’ Connolly was saying. ‘To the GPO –
charge
!’

For a moment even the Volunteers seemed stunned. Then someone else shouted: ‘Take the GPO!’

Wild yells broke from the column. The men raced in a ragged charge for the doors of the Post Office.

‘Lord save us!’ said the old woman. Her voice sounded dry and frightened. ‘What do the bowseys think they’re doin’?’

Nobody answered her. The other onlookers were as shocked as she was herself.