Read The Heresy of Dr Dee Online
Authors: Phil Rickman
I said to Vaughan, ‘What happened down there?’
‘I don’t know.’ He clearly was shaken. ‘That is, I’m not sure. I think… I think there might be something dead down there. The smell. Might just be a sheep,
but I… It don’t feel right in any way.’
He went to soothe the stallion, putting his hands on it, I’d swear, in search of warmth and life, but the horse sheered away from him. I looked down towards the river.
‘I’ll go,’ I said. ‘Find out.’
‘Leave it, John,’ Thomas Jones said. ‘We’re better moving to higher ground, where we can see anyone coming. If Dudley’s only been missing since this morning,
it’s not likely that—’
‘His body will yet stink? That rather depends, doesn’t it?’
I knew not what it depended on, but must needs be sure. And I was weary of unexplained fears and shadowplay, nature’s marked cards and loaded dice. Before I could think better of it, I was
scrabbling down the way Vaughan had come, over short turf which suggested the sheep had been here in profusion in daylight hours. The sheep which fled at sunset.
Divers trees sprang up around me, from half-grown saplings to old oaks with bloated, cankered boles and branches like fingers with the gnarling sickness. The river was no longer to be seen
– too close, or the bank had been raised up against winter floods.
You might conclude that, on this hard moon-flayed night, I was not fully in my mind, and maybe I wasn’t. I’d experienced this in Glastonbury and other places where Christianity and
old magic were interwoven – the air unsteady and full of sparks, and sometimes you thought you could hear it like the hum of bees or, indeed, smell it in a sudden rank, richness of earth.
… you’re one of us more than you know, John Dee.
I wondered now, if my tad’s evocation of Wales – the men bent like thorn trees, their skin scoured – had not simply been intended to keep me away from here, plant some deep
revulsion inside me. Maybe some dark memory had lived inside him and the last thing he wanted was for his son to become
one of us
.
But now I was here, whether by destiny or conspiracy, an educated man grown weary of the pinches and taunts, the mists and flickerings. I wove between the trees, looking for the river, recalling
my own drawing of the valley, a place given form by ancient ritual. But the river was hidden now by the earth, of a sudden, rising before me, all humped like a deathbed.
How our night-minds ever find the most sinister of likeness. It was only raised earth, an upturned bowl. Made bigger by enclosing shadows than it had looked by day, and the trees growing out of
it turned into a conference of witches, one of them long-dead, naked boughs clawing for the moon. But it wasn’t the tree that stank.
In the windless night, it seemed as if the smell was all over the tump. A raw essence of decay, of corrupted flesh, sharp and hideously sweet. Stephen Price and Pedr Morgan had secretly buried a
new corpse here, which by now would indeed be in a ripe condition, but…
buried.
Under the moon’s lamp, I rounded the tump to where they’d dug and was driven back, as if struck, by a reek so insidiously putrid that I felt as if my own body were rotting in its
blast. Was sent reeling away, a hand cupped over my nose, my feet slithering and…
Christ…
A blow – a battlefield blow. A bright, ripping pain in the back of my head had me tumbling, flung around and thrown down, my stricken head jouncing from the bole of the tree behind me,
legs slithering into a bed of twiggery and stony soil.
I lay for long moments, benumbed, the night in spasm around me. I must simply have backed hard into a tree with a low and knobbled branch which had scored my skull and put me down. But it had
felt like an act of violence.
Reaching up a hand, I hissed in pain on finding a flap of peeled flesh, warm blood flooding through my fingers, my hair already thick with it.
Embedded in tree roots, I stared through the pain into a blackness, as if into the cave where the children of Mat met –
entrance so narrow that only one man at a time might pass
through.
And the devil. The hole gaped at me like an open mouth, and its breath was foul. No escape from the stench of bloating flesh from… not a cave…
…but it
was
an orifice in the tump’s flank, where none had been when I was here before. When I opened my mouth to call out for Thomas Jones and Vaughan, something at once
rushed in, foul as returning vomit.
How can I tell you this? How can I describe the horror of closing my mouth on a mess of putrid flesh? Trying to retch, but finding no breath for it. Beginning to choke, the panic throwing me on
my back amidst bone-hard roots, knowing full well that, although my throat and gut were tight with revulsion, there was
nothing
in my mouth.
Nothing anywhere. No air. The moon gone, darkness absolute.
Know that I
like
darkness. Nights when I can lie on my back, and planets and stars are laid out for me in strings and clusters like an intricate garden whose patterns I know with an
intimacy as if I’d cultivated them myself.
This was a solid darkness, like stilled smoke. Should I have formed a prayer, holding it inside me, or inscribed a protective pentagram on the air? We don’t think, even those of us
who’ve pored for years over the Cabala and ascended, if only in our minds, the angelic stairways. In cold life, magic has a tendency to shrink back into the books. In the struggle against
hungry death, we fall back on the physical.
With the running blood pooling on my face, I pushed against the roots, dug my boots into soft earth, coming up very slowly, my back against the tree. But my body felt too heavy, and I was aware
of something pulling me back.
Fighting it, cold sweat welling from my skin to join the blood, but it was too much for me and I slid back into the gleefully crackling leaves, and felt a presence, a nearness, an active
resentment
fast hardening into hatred as I realised I must needs go into the hole.
XLVIII
A
LOG THE
size of a side of mutton was in slumber in the ingle at Nant-y-groes. I bent over the meagre glow from its underside, needing bodily heat more
than ever I could remember. But Stephen Price was a farmer and wouldn’t even think to awaken his fire before morning.
‘Not that I sleep much these nights,’ he said. ‘Three or four hours, then I’ll awake and get dressed, have a bite to eat, and then mabbe doze till dawn, if I can. And
tonight, with this Gethin let loose…’
‘You know about this?’
‘The whole country knows of it by now.’
I looked around. The moon was a wavering lamp in the poor, blued glass of a deep-hewn window. I could hear Clarys the housekeeper clattering somewhere. In the brightness of pain, my thoughts
were voiced, fast as arrows.
‘Where’s your wife? Why do I never see your wife?’
Price shuffled uncomfortably on his stool.
‘Gone.’
‘I’m… very sorry to hear that.’
‘To Monaughty farm. To stay with my brother’s family.’
I’d thought he’d meant dead.
A quiet woman
, Anna Ceddol had said.
Sits before the kitchen fire, goes out to listen to the priest on a Sunday and then goes home and
worries.
Well, I was glad she wasn’t dead, but why had she gone to stay at another farm, not even two miles away?
Stephen Price was asking me if I wanted to lie down. I shook my head… but slowly, the pain scraping ceaselessly at my head like a wind-driven bough against a window. I’d bathed it
in the holy well and again with well-water in the yard at Nant-y-groes. The good housekeeper, Clarys, had applied a nettle balm, but it had begun to bleed again.
‘I’ll recover,’ I said.
Looked like you were rehearsing alone for some Christmas play
, Thomas Jones had said, shaken.
Pretending the other actors were there all around. Frit the hell out of me, boy.
‘I did not mean for this to happen,’ Price said. ‘I didn’t think it would happen to you.’
He hadn’t even asked why I, accompanied by two others, had come this night to Brynglas, seeming only grateful that I was attempting, in my way, to uncover what was wrong here. And if he
hadn’t
thought
that anything would happen to me he seemed not unhappy that something had.
‘Didn’t think such things could happen to me either,’ I said dully.
And had once been foolish enough to think that if they ever did I’d feel…
favoured
? Maybe one day I’d be far enough removed from it to consider the science, but not
now, when I felt as if my very soul had been snatched out and left to go cold.
Could not smother another spasm of shivering, and at last Stephen Price pulled down an iron poker from the wall and raised the log until a flame came tonguing through.
‘I… was not as forthright with you,’ he said stiffly, as I might’ve been. Never told you nothing wrong, but could’ve told you more.’
There was a clopping of hooves from the yard outside. The horses still were edgy, frit and sweating. I’d asked if we might leave all three at Nant-y-groes for a while, to calm down while
we considered our situation. And so Vaughan and Thomas Jones had followed Price’s sons to the stables. Leaving us alone, Price and me.
We’d moved on, widely skirting the tump and the marshy ground. Leading the horses, at last, through the oak wood and up to Pilleth church.
Jones and I had waited in the trees while Vaughan crept up alone to the church, where it took him not long to establish that the building and surrounds were deserted. He said later that
he’d stifled a cry when, on peering around the wall of the tower, he’d encountered the stone virgin on her plinth, her face so tainted that she seemed to sneer into his eyes. I think he
meant to pray to her and could not.
But at least the cold virgin was alone, so we came down from the hill the more direct way, veering from the path only once, so that I might be sure that the door and shutters of the Bryn were
closed tight against invasion.
At first despondent over our failure to find Dudley, I was briefly lit by a small hope that we’d been wildly wrong and that he was back in Presteigne in some other whore’s bed.
But that light soon went out.
‘Thing was, I was affeared she’d die.’
‘Your wife?’
I looked blearily at Price, my hair and face stiff with dried blood.
‘Couldn’t sleep, would not eat. Would not go out, not even in daylight. Gone thin as a rib. Sent her down to Monaughty farm to be cared for by my brother’s wife. Mabbe she
won’t be back. It’s all different down there, see. Not much more’n a mile, but it lies easy.’
‘A monastery farm.’
‘A safer air. She never liked this house, or this valley, that’s what it come down to. Couldn’t wait to move to Monaughty where there’d be more company. More
company… and less company.’
He looked down at the fire, shaking his head.
‘Wanted me to spend more money on the building work, finish the extension at Monaughty, so we could go. It led to much quarrelling at first. I was glad to get away to London, truth be
told. You know what women are like, think you’re tight with money, don’t understand what you gotter spend keeping your ground in good heart, and…’
He looked up, stricken, his face all creased.
‘Truth of it is,
I
never want to go to Monaughty. Two brothers, one farm, divers sons, it don’t work. Stephen Price of Pilleth, that’s me. Was gonner make Meredith an
offer for this house.’
‘It’s all your land down here?’
‘Most of it. But no house. Joan was all, “Oh thank God it’s only rented. We can be out of yere.” We’d signed for the place for two years. I thought to… mend
things, somehow. Thought mabbe ole Walter, the priest, could change it for us. When we first come, if my wife or anybody seen anything, we’d send for Walter. And sometimes Marged, the wise
woman. Mother Marged and Walter the priest… they had an understanding.’
‘What did they think was the problem here?’
‘Never listened much to ole Marged, it was all mumbles and spells. Father Walter, he’d say that, if you had the Sight, living yere you’d ever need the Saviour’s
protection.’