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Authors: T. Greenwood

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Discussion Questions
1.
Discuss the role that hunger plays in this novel. Of what significance is the title? How does it relate to the Mason family and their summer spent on the lake?
2.
As Sam struggles to overcome writer’s block, he creates Billy, a fictional character involved in Ancel Keys’s “Great Starvation Experiment” conducted during World War II, which was designed to study the effects of starvation and the most effective methods of refeeding a starved population. How does Sam relate to Billy? What does this suggest about the creative process?
3.
How does Sam’s struggle with writer’s block relate to his sexual impotence?
4.
What is Mena’s role in this family, and how does it change with Franny’s death? Explore her relationship with Sam and her attraction to Jake. What does she need in order to heal?
5.
How does Mena and Sam’s marriage compare to the other marriages in the novel? How are they the same as or different from Effie and Devin and Monty and Lauren? What can they learn from both couples?
6.
Discuss the role of food in this novel.
7.
Saving Finn from self-destruction is the supposed reason that Sam moves his family to Vermont for the summer. Do you think that Finn needs saving? Why or why not? Do you think they could have arrived at the same place if they had stayed in California?
8.
Alice is, in many ways, a surrogate for Franny. Do you think that the Masons get a second chance with Alice? Discuss Finn’s relationship with both Franny and Alice.
9.
Finn claims to smoke pot to help him sleep at night. Do you believe that’s the real reason? Is he smoking as a way to deal with Franny’s death, or as normal teenage rebellion? If he hadn’t turned to marijuana to cope, would Sam have still moved the family to Lake Gormlaith?
10.
Dale Edwards is, for all intents and purposes,
stalking
Sam. What is driving her? What does she hope to get from Sam? What is
she
hungry for? Does she get the nourishment she needs?
11.
At the center of the novel is Franny, though she has already died by the time the novel opens. What do you know about Franny? How do you explain what happened to her, given her family background? Is her family culpable in her death? And are they able, in the end, to forgive themselves and one another?
12.
Do you think that Mena and Sam chose to let Franny pursue her dreams at whatever cost? Were they better or worse parents for not getting in the way of her ambitions? Was there a point where they should have?
13.
If you were a member of the Mason family, how would you have dealt with Franny’s eating disorder? Do you think you would have noticed it before it was too late? Have you known anyone with an eating disorder? Discuss how it informed your reading of
The Hungry Season
.
14.
How do you feel about Dale? How do Sam and Mena feel about her, after everything that happened? What did they learn from her? What was her role in their grieving process and their reunion?
15.
Have you read or seen a production of
Fool for Love,
the Sam Shepard play in which Mena stars? Does the onstage relationship between Eddie and May mirror Sam and Mena’s? How does Mena’s participation in the play influence her marriage?
16.
Consider all of the characters separately: Sam, Mena, Finn, Alice, and Dale. With whom do you most identify? Why?
W
INTER
K
urt is suddenly aware of the way the snow looks like something living, like something with a purpose. He has always thought of snow as simply
falling
from the sky, at mercy to gravity. But now, as he marches out across the snow-covered field behind the house, his rifle drawn and aimed at the back of his only son’s head, he sees that it is intent in its falling. Resolute, determined, even calculated in its descent.
Trevor is three feet ahead of him, trudging through the snow, bare hands shoved into his pockets, head bowed in deference to the blistering assault. It is midnight, but the sky is opaque and bright. It is only December, but it has been snowing for two days straight; they are up to their shins in it. Trevor is not wearing a coat, hat, or gloves. He is in jeans and the navy chamois shirt he had on when Kurt dragged him from his room into the mudroom, where he had allowed him to put on his boots before pushing him through the door into this cold, white night.
As they pass the unmarked boundary between their property and their neighbors’, Trevor hits a deep patch of snow and sinks in up to his knees. If you didn’t know better, you might think he was praying, only genuflecting to the falling snow.
As Trevor struggles to move forward, he glances over his shoulder at his father. For years, the arch of his brow, the thick dimple in his chin, the boyish smirk have been like reflections in a mirror held up to Kurt’s own boyhood. This used to make him swell a bit with proprietary pride. But now these similarities seem to mock him, accuse him.
You made this,
they say.
You are this
.
“Dad,” Trevor says, but Kurt can’t hear. It’s as though his head is full of snow—cold, thick, numb. “Daddy.” Snot has frozen in two slow paths from nose to lip. His eyes are swollen.
Trevor is thirteen, and he looks exactly like Kurt did at thirteen. He is the same height, the same weight. He has identical ears, the same bent pinkie finger, Kurt’s slight overbite and white-blond hair.
When they finally get to the top of the hill where Kurt used to take Trevor sledding when he was a little boy, to the place where the entire world shimmers then disappears in the valley below, Kurt says, “Stop.”
The sound of his voice is like ice breaking. Like springtime at Joe’s Pond when the ice goes out. The crack, the shift, the signal that the thaw has begun. But Kurt knows that this is a weakness he cannot afford. He must stay solid, frozen, numb. There cannot be any cracks, any fissures in this ice.
They are far enough away now from the house where, on any other night, they would be sleeping. But the house is empty. There is no one to hear the gunshots.
“Turn around,” Kurt says.
Trevor turns to face him again. But this time, it’s not the face of a child he sees. Nor is it the face of the monster he has turned into. Instead, his hair is covered in a thin layer of white, and Kurt can see the old man each of them might one day become.
Trevor puts his hands up, as if his palms might be enough to protect him. “Don’t, Daddy,” he pleads.
At this, Kurt lowers his rifle, turning his gaze from his son to the sky. He watches the shards of ice, the intricate, gorgeous filaments, as they continue to fall. And he thinks of the news footage he saw right after the attacks on the World Trade Center, before the media realized what they were showing—the men who broke windows, climbed ledges, and leapt to their deaths. The
falling
men, the men forced to choose one kind of death over another.
Kurt looks back at Trevor, who is crying now, tears and snot freezing upon impact with the air. He lifts his gun to his shoulder again, and the snow makes a lens of ice as he peers down the sight.
L
AST
S
PRING
I
t started with a gift.
The box was blue, the same color blue as the eggs Trevor found up in the eaves of the shed earlier that morning, the color of crushed-up sky. Mrs. D. gave it to him after the bell rang and almost everybody else had already packed up their stuff and headed out the door. He was messing around in his backpack, worrying about where he was going to sit at lunch, and didn’t know that she was trying to get his attention. But then she touched his arm, real soft, with her talcum-powder hands and said, “Trevor dear, can you wait just a minute, please? I have something for you.”
Mrs. D. was the art teacher at Trevor’s school. A lot of kids were creeped out by her; some of the younger ones even thought that she was a witch or something. She did look a little bit like a witch, with the small hump underneath her moth-hole-riddled green sweater, with the threadbare black wig she wore. She smelled dusty and old too, like wet books. Some kids cackled whenever she turned her back, called her Nanny McPhee, but Trevor liked Mrs. D. So what if she was old and strange? She was a good artist, a good teacher. The fruit she drew always looked like fruit: bananas and apples and a pomegranate, its seeds spilling out all over the table like the insides of the buck that Trevor’s dad shot last year. Plus, Mrs. D. was always giving him things to bring home—a box of waxy oil pastels, some tubes of acrylic paint that she was about to throw away. One time she gave him a set of colored pencils that weren’t even opened yet. Besides, Trevor liked being in the art room. He loved the smell of paint and paste, the dusty, musty scent of it all. He liked the way the canvases looked like boys leaning against the brick walls. He liked the paint-splattered floors, the rough wooden worktables, the high ceilings, and the quiet. It was almost like being in a library here; and when the doors closed behind him, he felt suddenly secure, sheltered, at peace.
He opened the box and pulled out a camera. A
real
camera, heavy and black with a glass lens: the old-fashioned kind. For the last few weeks, they’d been doing a unit on photography, and this camera was like the ones each student was allowed to sign out, but this one was brand-new.
“Have you ever had your own camera before?” she asked.
He shook his head.
He thought of the slide show she’d shown them last week.
Ansel Adams,
that was the landscape guy. Some old lady who took pictures of flowers. But Trevor had liked the picture of people, the
portraits,
best. Faces. Mrs. D. had explained that photographers could be artists, that a good photographer uses the light to make ordinary or even ugly things beautiful. He thought about the kind of pictures he might take, about the faces he knew.
“The school will probably do away with the darkroom eventually. Move everything to digital. But for now, I can still teach you how to develop the film. How to make prints.” Her head shook back and forth like a bobblehead doll, her voice made of tissue paper. “I want to see the world the way you see it, Trevor.”
He wasn’t sure why Mrs. D. took such an interest in him. He wasn’t a good artist. Not like Angie McDonald in his class, whose paintings always looked like what they were supposed to. The things he drew never matched what was inside his head. He couldn’t get what was up there on the page, and he wasn’t sure anybody would want to see that anyway. But since sixth grade, Mrs. D. had looked at him like she saw someone special inside there. Nobody had ever looked at him like that before.
He’d been thinking a lot lately about the way people looked at him. He’d grown so much since last year, he barely recognized himself in the mirror. He’d outgrown every pair of pants, every pair of shoes he owned. He felt like the Incredible Hulk, busting out of his own clothes. Kids had always been mean to him, teased him, but now the same kids moved away when he walked down the halls at school, pretending like he wasn’t there but still making sure to get out of his way. His teachers, except for Mrs. D., now looked at him like he was one of the bad kids. Like
he
was the troublemaker. His mother looked at him with sad eyes mostly, though he knew she was trying not to. If pity were a picture, it would be a picture of his mother. His dad’s face was full of worry too, though he tried not to show it. His little sister, Gracy, was the only one who didn’t look at him with some shade of disgust or disappointment. But she was only five; what did she know?
“Thanks,” he said and took the camera from Mrs. D. and turned it over in his hands, excited to give it a try. He peered through the viewfinder and twisted the lens only to focus in on Jolyn Forchette, who was jealous and smelled like green beans, scowling at him from across the room. He crammed the camera into the backpack with the math homework he hadn’t turned in and a banana that had been sitting in there so long it had turned brown and soft.
“It’s already loaded,” Mrs. D. said. “Just shoot.”
 
He forgot about the camera as he made his way to the cafeteria for lunch. As the sea of students parted for him, liquid and flowing, whispering and sneering, he kept his head down, his gaze at the floor. He tried to make himself invisible, though that’s nearly impossible when you’re six feet tall in the seventh grade and you wear a size ten shoe. Still, he tried his best to disappear. But then as he made his way past a group of snickering and pointing seventh-grade girls, he started to feel that bad metal feeling.
Corroded.
That was the only way to describe it. Like his insides were rusted out, like one of his dad’s cars at the yard. He could even taste it sometimes way back in his throat. He tried to swallow it down hard, but the metallic taste lingered on his tongue, made the insides of his cheeks itch.
He tried to ignore them and went to a table near the hot lunch line. He only had $1.50, which didn’t go far in the à la carte line. The few times he’d tried to get a decent meal there, he’d wound up starving by the end of the day, his stomach roiling and furious. Only losers got hot lunch, but at least the hot lunches filled him up. He threw his backpack down into a chair and grabbed a tray. That was the other good thing about hot lunch; there wasn’t a wait, so there would actually be enough time to eat after he got back to his table.
Spaghetti. That meant there would be bread too and those electric orange cubes of cheese. Gray-green broccoli and chocolate pudding with skin on top. He was hungry. His mom had made eggs and bacon and hash for breakfast, but he felt hollow now. His body burned through fuel faster than his dad’s pickup.
He pushed the brown plastic tray along the metal rollers and he watched as a group of seventh-grade guys went right to the table where his backpack was. He grabbed a carton of chocolate milk from the bin filled with ice and glanced over at the table, hoping they’d notice his pack and go somewhere else.
“Here you go,” the lunch lady said, handing him a sloppy plate of spaghetti. He took a pair of tongs and grabbed a clump of cheese cubes and three spongy slices of garlic bread.
The guys didn’t seem to notice Trevor’s backpack holding his place. They were all sitting at the table, laughing and eating their à la carte burgers and French fries. Trevor shoved the money at the hot lunch cashier and made his way over to the table.
“Fee Fi Fo Fum,”
said one of the kids.
“That’s my backpack,” Trevor said softly.
“That’s my backpack,”
mimicked the kid in a girly voice. He had red hair that covered one eye like a comma. Ethan Sweeney. Of course.
Trevor reached for his backpack but Mike Wheelock, with his greasy black hair and a Patriots jersey, grabbed it first.
“Hey, freakshow, what do you keep in here? Body parts? I bet he’s got some dead chick’s head stuffed in here,” he said, laughing.
“Just give it,” Trevor said.
Mike started to unzip the backpack and stuck his head in to inspect.
“Ew, what’s that smell?” he said, jerking his head back.
The banana
.
The other guys leaned over to see inside. And suddenly Trevor felt the metal turning into quicksilver, mercury rushing through his veins.
“What’s this?” the Sweeney kid asked, reaching in and grabbing the camera from Mrs. D.
“I said,
give it,
” Trevor said. He thought about Mrs. D., picking out the camera and paying for it out of her own pocket. He thought about what the kid might do to it.
“Give it, give it,”
Ethan mocked, his voice high and sharp.
Normally, Trevor just tried to ignore these guys, but lately, he couldn’t seem to control himself. It was like this new body of his, these new hands, had a mind of their own. So the next thing Trevor knew, the tray of spaghetti was flying onto the floor and his fists were swinging, though they connected with nothing but air. The whole cafeteria erupted, the chanting starting small and growing bigger, like a heartbeat.
Fight, fight, fight.
His eyes stung and his mouth flooded with the taste of metal. But before he had the satisfaction of his fist making contact with Ethan’s face, someone was yanking his collar hard, choking him. He shook his head like a dog on a chain, and the hands let go, making him stumble backward.
“All right, that’s enough. Break it up,” Mr. Douglas, the janitor, said.
Trevor blinked hard and when his eyes focused again, he noticed the way the sunlight was shining through the cafeteria window, casting his own shadow, enormous and dark on the filthy cafeteria floor. And he thought about the gift from Mrs. D. About the camera. About how he might capture this picture: his own terrifying silhouette and all of the other kids’ faces staring at him with something between fascination and horror.

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