The Imposter (4 page)

To many in the church, perhaps most, Freeman Glick was only facing reality and helping to preserve the church for a new century. That's certainly how it appeared, and she hoped he was setting the right path for the church. She doubted it, but she hoped so. But the one thing she knew for certain was that David Stoltzfus must not give up.

David.

A year ago, after hearing David Stoltzfus's very first sermon, she knew she was a goner. He preached in a way she
had never heard anyone preach. His words stirred something inside her, something she couldn't explain. She only knew he made her want to lean closer to God. And she knew David Stoltzfus had a grip on her heart like a balled fist.

Each church Sunday, Birdy tried to sit on the far side of the bench so she could look at David from the side. Actually, she liked looking at him from any angle. Although heaven help her if he ever knew, if anyone ever knew, what was in her heart. Loving David Stoltzfus was something she kept carefully guarded.

How handsome he was! David was lean, not even a hint of paunch hung over his pants. His skin was tanned but not bronze, leathery but in a good way, the complexion of a man who spent time outdoors. His hair, like his beard, was ginger, a color that made his warm brown eyes look even warmer.

This was the man she had been longing for her entire life, despite the fact that thirteen years separated them, or that she wasn't exactly the type of woman for whom men swooned. She was taller than nearly all of them.

Birdy was thirty-one years old. She had no prospects of marriage, nor any hope of such on the horizon. And she had accepted that. What was it Freeman always said about her? “Liked by all but loved by none.”

Her mother, gone ten years now, had tried to encourage her only daughter to be more graceful, more feminine. To improve her posture by walking around the house with a book on her head, to move with more poise, to practice her conversational skills. Birdy had tried so hard to please her mother, but to no avail. Years passed by without any suitors and she saw her mother's mouth and eyes etch with shame and disappointment.

No, Birdy had no grand illusions that David would ever think twice about her.

Sooner or later, some lucky woman would capture David's heart. He was everything: kind, intelligent, wise, attractive, a wonderful father. However, until such a woman appeared on the scene and stole his heart, Birdy was content with the interaction she and David did have, however awkward those encounters always seemed to be. And they were. On her best days, she was clumsy. Around David, she was thoroughly uncoordinated. He flustered her.

As she turned down the road that led to the schoolhouse, she pondered how to make this teaching situation a win-win. That was always her aim in every circumstance—to find the bright side of every situation. Such an attitude annoyed her brothers, but Birdy was used to people reacting that way to her. Levi was embarrassed by her relentless good spirits. He would say with a silencing sneer, “Where water is deepest, it is stillest.” But there were things you couldn't help. She had been born cheerful.

She'd gone a full two blocks before a wonderful thought occurred to her. As teacher, she would be involved in the lives of David's younger children—Ruthie, Molly, and the twins, Emily and Lydie. As their teacher, she might have extra opportunities to see and interact with David. It might be as close as she could ever get to him.

An iridescent bubble of happiness engulfed her, and she nearly laughed aloud.

David got home later from a hospital visitation than he'd planned. The horse had picked up a stone in her shoe. He
was able to dig it out, but the horse kept favoring one leg and so he decided to come home on foot, leading her by the reins, though rain had begun. He removed her harness, washed her down, curried her, fed her, and checked her leg again to make sure it wasn't swelling.

He'd barely made it home before the full force of the storm hit. Rain pounded on the barn roof, noisy and furious. He pushed the buggy into an upright position against the barn wall, his mind still on Ephraim Yoder in the hospital.

A week ago, Ephraim had been stacking fresh hay in his haymow, slipped, and fallen headfirst onto the concrete floor of the barn. His son, Noah, had found him, lying unconscious, his neck broken, and ran over a mile to get help.

In the emergency room of the hospital, Ephraim was placed on a ventilator with a machine doing the breathing for him. But his mind was clear and he could now communicate short words at a time. He was just hanging on, one day at a time right now, but the future, David knew, and Ephraim knew, was bleak.

Ephraim's wife, Sadie, wanted David to read Scripture to him, so he did, staying much longer than he intended. After Ephraim dozed off, he stared at the broken man.

When David's wife, Anna, had died, it had been quick. One moment she was driving the buggy home after picking up Katrina, and the next moment a pickup truck had rear-ended the buggy. He was told she'd died before the ambulance had arrived. He prayed it was so, that Anna never suffered agony or even knew what was happening.

Ephraim knew exactly what had happened to him, and the resignation in his eyes made David want to weep. Ephraim and Sadie had a son to raise who was about the same age as
his Ruthie, a boy on the cusp of leaving childhood. It wasn't fair. But it was.

God's ways are not our
ways.

He knew that. He believed that. But it was hard, so hard, to understand the ways of God.

He slid open the barn door and peered out into a storm that flung lightning bolts like arrows. The warm yellow light from the house beckoned, but he paused to stare at the dark sky.

How Anna would love to see this thunderstorm. She had relished thunder and lightning storms. A quick clutch of emotion seized his throat, and he looked away, overcome by a wild sense of loss.

No, he thought. Anna had left him, but she'd gone to God. His wife knew a better life now, the eternal life, warm and safe in God's kingdom and the glory of heaven. It was selfish of him to miss her so much. And to be perfectly honest, he felt a little envious of her. There were moments, like tonight, as he sat by Ephraim's bedside, that he felt tired of trying to navigate through life. More toils, more troubles. The words of King Solomon echoed in his head: “I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind.” Sometimes, going to God seemed far more appealing than the trouble that this world had to offer.

But who was he to question the mysterious will of God? Anna was gone but he was here. If only for the sake of their children, he had to find the courage to keeping moving forward in life.

The emptiness was there, but he would fill it. With mornings full of the flurry of breakfast and lunch making and seeing his daughters off to school. With days spent at the
store, where he would cross paths with nearly everyone in the church. And nights when he'd sit at the kitchen table and spread his Bible and books out to prepare for Sunday church.

David pushed away from the barn door and ran to the house. He yanked off his slicker and tossed it on the porch bench, then made himself smile as he stepped into the warmth of the kitchen. Jesse looked up from the table. “Hey, Dad. There's some dinner left for you in the oven. Molly cooked tonight. Not sure what it was, but I ate an hour ago and so far I'm not stricken with food poisoning.”

“Thanks. That's a solid recommendation.” As he passed by his son, he gently ruffled Jesse's hair. Sixteen years old. Where had the years gone? “Are the girls asleep? School starts tomorrow.”

“Yup. They're excited. They want you to take them. They're worried about the new teacher.”

“Birdy? But they know her.”

“Not as a teacher. They were crazy about Teacher Danny.”

David scooped a large amount of casserole on a plate and sat down next to Jesse. He bowed his head for a long moment, thanking God for the gift of this day, for so many things to be grateful for—Katrina agreeing so readily to stay with Thelma. In fact, almost surprisingly eager to leave home. When he suggested that she give it a little thought, she said firmly, “Dad, I'm not a little girl anymore. I'm a grown woman.” He knew that all too well. He reined in his thoughts, circling back to giving thanks for this day. For Jesse's homecoming. For the timing of the start of school tomorrow—so that his four daughters would have a place to be while he devoted more time to the running of the store.

Jesse was waiting for him to lift his head. “Just so you know—the girls are going to try to talk you into going to the old school.”

“So they can stay with Danny Riehl.”

Jesse winked. “Excellent deduction.”

“We've needed a new school for a long time.”

“Even if everyone under the age of eighteen is running off for greener pastures?”

David's fork stopped in midair. “Where did you hear that?”

“From Aunt Nancy. Sounds like your sermon convinced cousin Peter to leave the straight and narrow life.”

He grimaced. “That wasn't the point of the sermon.”

“Aunt Nancy saw it differently, especially after Peter wrote that he was leaving for Colorado to try his hand as a cowboy.”

David's nephew Peter had been living with his family for the last six months to help manage the store—happily, David thought, up until that Sunday morning sermon. At breakfast the next morning, Peter announced it was time for him to move on. And what could David say to stop him? Peter was twenty-one, nearly grown. David leaned back in his chair. “Jesse, is that why you've come home? Did Nancy ask you to leave?”

Jesse seemed suddenly very interested in a stain on the tablecloth. “She didn't call you?”

“No. But I haven't checked messages in a few days.”

Jesse brightened with relief. “Let's just say that I might have worn out my welcome.”

What did that mean? David wasn't sure he wanted to know more . . . at least, not tonight. Changing the subject, he said, “Well, you've come home at just the right time. I need you to take over Katrina's hours at the store while she's helping
Thelma. With both Peter and Katrina gone, the store's a little shorthanded.”

Jesse made a scrunched up face. “Well, Dad, you see, I have discovered that I'm not the indoor type. I need to be outside, allowing fresh air to fill my cranium.”

“You want to farm?” David's property was only five acres and not tillable, nearly vertical. But Amos Lapp had a large farm and was always looking for an extra hand.

“Oh no! No, no, no. Not farming. I ruled that out this summer at Aunt Nancy's. Hopefully, I have mucked out my last pigsty.”

“I see.” David tried not to let his face show his exasperation. He had been hoping that the time in Ohio this summer would have given Jesse some much needed focus. “So what
would
you like to do?”

“Spare yourself that worry, Dad.” Jesse stretched his arms over his head. “I will figure it out soon enough. For starters, Jimmy Fisher and I are going fishing tomorrow morning. Early.”

David pushed himself upright, the front legs of the chair hitting the floor with a soft thud. “I have a better idea. I'm going to talk to Hank Lapp about taking you on as a buggy repairman.”

Jesse's jaw dropped wide open. “Buggies?” His voice rose an octave. “Me?”

“Why not? Stoney Ridge needs another buggy repairman. Hank means well, but he's as slow as molasses in the middle of January.”

“That's because he's too busy helping you find a wife.” Jesse jammed a finger at a letter in the
Budget
, sitting in the middle of the table.

“What are you talking about?” David reached for the paper and nearly spilled his glass of water. He read through Hank's scribe letter. Hank was begging—begging!—for a wife for David.

How
dare
Hank do such a thing! Why, David must be the laughingstock of Stoney Ridge. He jammed his fist down on the paper and felt the pressures of the day overwhelm him. He tossed the paper into the rubbish bin. And that was when he realized Jesse had slipped away, unnoticed.

Everyone thought that because Katrina Stoltzfus was the oldest in the family, she was a plucky girl, but in truth, she wasn't as confident as everyone assumed. In fact, she had the temperament of a turtle. Whatever dread, fright, or bump appeared in her path, she wanted nothing more than to drop in her tracks and hide. That's what she was doing now, at Thelma's. Hiding. Under the guise of helping Thelma.

Thelma's shoulder
was
in a sling, and it was unfortunate that it was her right arm, but the woman had more energy than men half her age.

Take now, for example.

Thelma was walking the perimeter of her property—over a mile long—something she did every morning, rain or shine. She strode along the barn, the greenhouse, and the henhouse, checking the hens to make sure the pen hadn't been raided overnight. She eyed the fences and rounded the beehives, then headed back along the vegetable garden. “Keeps me healthy and vibrant,” she told Katrina, and offered her a standing invitation to come along.

“Maybe tomorrow,” Katrina had said, but she doubted it. She was profoundly exhausted, as if she'd had the stomach flu for a week or hauled hay for three days straight. Like she could sleep for two solid days. She wondered if she should go see the doctor and have her anemia tested, like her father had been encouraging her to do. She felt just like she did after the accident when she had lost so much blood. It took weeks before she felt as if she had some get-up-and-go again.

No, it took John's arrival into her life to bring her energy back. And now he was gone and so was her get-up-and-go. She knew she was depressed. Not sad, not blue or wistful, not filled with regrets or the fury of a scorned woman, but truly down-and-out depressed.

A breeze came through the window, fluttering a faded curtain so threadbare that it was hardly cloth anymore. Katrina watched it sail up, up, up and fall back, the light pouring through it, tiny holes showing along the hem. The movement made her dizzy, and she closed her eyes.

What must it be like for Thelma to walk the same mile path, day in and day out? At some point, wouldn't she stop seeing it? She could guess Thelma's response, knowing her as she did. Thelma would say that God had made her a steward of this particular patch of land, and it was her privilege to care for it well until the day the Lord had in mind for her to toddle off this mossy earth.

Moss. What a strange “crop.” Yet in a way, Katrina thought it was pretty resourceful of Thelma to think of it. She and Elmo had lived on this hilltop all their married life. They'd had one son, who had died before he was twenty. Elmo had a harness repair business that ended when he passed unexpectedly. Thelma didn't want to move—she loved this hill
and its beautiful views—and had to figure out some kind of livelihood. So . . . moss gathering, growing, and selling it was.

In a way, a good way, Katrina envied Thelma. She was a woman who faced facts: She was a widow left without resources, she needed to find a way to earn a living or go live with her nephew, and she loved her land. She knew who she was and what she wanted out of life. Katrina envied her faith too. Rock solid. So unlike her own faith that seemed as wispy and insubstantial as that threadbare curtain on the window.

Katrina knew she had always been considered to be a little restless. Scatterbrained. Her mother used to call her capricious, which sounded a little better. Countless half-done projects at home bore witness to that. A half-finished quilt, an almost finished crocheted afghan, a pile of barely begun knitted scarfs. She started things with great enthusiasm, which quickly wore off. She dabbled at different jobs but nothing held her interest for long. Usually, she ended up back at work in her father's store.

She wondered why her father had seemed concerned about Thelma's new farmhand. There wasn't anything particularly threatening about Andy Miller, at least nothing she could put her finger on, and she was looking for a reason,
something
, to dislike about him. So far, she found nothing. If anything, he was very mother-hen-ish toward Thelma. At supper last night, he encouraged her to eat more, rest more, to let him worry about the moss fields. And that it was high time, he thought, to get a good dog to do the fence checking and keep the moss free of marauding raccoons.

Dogs.
Dogs!
She sat up in bed. Yesterday, Katrina had left a telephone message for John, boldly and quickly, asking if he happened to have any border collies available—she knew he
did, he always did—because someone in her church needed one right away. She felt proud of the way her voice sounded on the machine. Short and to the point.

Surely John must have gotten her phone message by now. Maybe he'd already answered back! Maybe his voice was just waiting for her on that machine in the shanty. “Yes, Katrina,” she could hear him say in his beautiful baritone voice. “I've got a dog waiting for you. My heart is waiting for you too.”

She jumped out of bed, dressed in a flash, and dashed down to the phone shanty.

The morning wind brought the mulchy odor of wet earth into the kitchen to mix with the smells of hot starch and steam. Ruthie's eyebrows were knit together in a frown as she ironed her prayer covering, the iron hissing as it glided over the dampened cambric cap. She had added so much starch that David thought he could hear it crackle.

So many times over the years he had watched Ruthie like this, from afar. He wondered what thoughts were running through her fourteen-year-old mind to make her look so serious. Such a somber child. Of all his daughters, Ruthie was the one who most resembled his wife, Anna. It was more than the same strawberry blonde hair and green eyes with the thick dark lashes and the high cheekbones. Her laugh, especially, was the sound of her mother's. But when had he last heard her laugh?

Because Ruthie had Anna's fair and delicate looks, people always assumed on meeting her that that she would have a mild, amiable way about her, but they were wrong. She had always been a girl who guarded her thoughts, who didn't
reveal herself much, but when she did, it was worth the wait. Anna used to say that getting Ruthie to talk took an investment of time.

Once, Ruthie was silent for an entire buggy ride to and from town, and as they pulled into the driveway, she asked Anna, “Mom, have you ever had something happen . . . done some small thing and it ended up changing your life?”

Anna had reported the conversation to David, stunned by the question from a then-twelve-year-old child. She said she didn't even know how to respond. What could Ruthie be referring to? The twins ran out to meet them at the buggy and the moment passed. Anna told David that she was going to try to find out what Ruthie meant, if it took her all summer and dozens of buggy rides . . . but the next week, it was too late. A small, everyday thing had occurred—Anna had gone to pick up a daughter in the rain—and the buggy was rear-ended by a truck. Anna was gone, and their lives were changed.

But that was then, and this was now. And today was the first day of school.

David walked his daughters down the road to the new schoolhouse. Ruthie had her nose in a book, eleven-year-old Molly was eating an apple, twins Lydie and Emily were about to explode with nervous excitement. He was in a hurry to drop the girls off at school so that he could get over to see Hank Lapp before the day got away from him, like Jesse had. The boy left to go fishing with Jimmy Fisher before David rose from bed.

Birdy was waiting on the schoolhouse steps, eager and anxious, watering flowerpots with a clay pitcher. “Good morning, girls. You're the first to arrive. The first to see the
brand-new schoolhouse. So you can be the first to choose your cubby and hook.”

Wise woman, David thought. Even Ruthie showed a spark of interest with that kind of welcome. She strode toward the schoolhouse door and her three sisters followed behind her, like a duck and her ducklings.

David felt apprehensive over the whole notion of Birdy being tapped to teach. For one thing, she had never taught school a day in her life. For another, it would take only one awkward mishap to make a laughingstock of her among the big boys, with Luke Schrock as the ringleader. He was their neighbor at the Inn at Eagle Hill, and David had enough interactions with Luke to know he was tough enough to drive a nail through a butterfly. If he could find a way to brand Birdy as ridiculous, it would be a long year ahead with Luke leading the clump of older boys.

But . . . whatever his concerns, it was too late now.

“Hello, David. A day like this is so
good
, don't you find it so?”

David took in the view of the hills in the distance, the diffuse light of the cloudy day. “Yes. I suppose you're right. I was so busy getting the girls ready for school that I hadn't noticed.”

Birdy sent him a sympathetic look . . . or was it pity? She had probably read Hank's letter too. Did everyone pity him? Good grief, did his life look that pitiable?

“Well, you obviously did a fine job. You're the first to arrive and your lovely daughters look fresh as daisies.”

How did a person stay so cheerful all the time? David realized he had never seen Birdy without a smile on her face, a ready laugh. What a happy thing she was, all that shine
to her. It was almost as if she sensed he was thinking about her, because her cheeks reddened and she abruptly returned to watering the plants but ended up knocking over a pot of marigolds on the first step. The little yellow flowers tumbled out on the ground. “Oh, clumsy me. So sorry!”

He started to help clean up but remembered knocking heads recently with her at the house and thought better of it. “Birdy, before I go, I wanted to give you a tip about how to know which twin is which. Emily has—”

“Oh, but I know,” she said, scooping up soil to repot the marigold. “A little scar near her eyebrow. Lydie's front two teeth are missing and she speaks with a whistle.”

“Yes,” David said, surprised and impressed. “Yes, that's it exactly.” A sound of children's shouts approaching from different directions made him look around. “Sounds of the thundering herd, soon to arrive. I'll be off, then.” He stepped off the porch and watched as running children converged on the schoolhouse. “You'll have your hands full with this mob.”

“Dad! Wait!”

David jerked his head around to see Molly standing at the open door of the schoolhouse, a look of sheer panic on her face. “You forgot to make our lunches!”

After a quick return trip home to pack and then deliver four lunches back to the schoolhouse, David hurried over to Windmill Farms to find Hank waiting at the end of the driveway with a fishing pole in his hand. “Any chance you're headed to Blue Lake Pond to meet up with Jimmy and Jesse?”

“I am!”

“I think they've already gone.”

“Dadgummit! Did they go without me? They were supposed to come get me at seven.”

“They might've, and kept on going. It's half past eight.”

Hank took out his pocket watch and shook it, then peered at the watch face. “Blast. Musta broke again.”

“Hank, there's something I need to talk to you about.”

Hank went still. “If it's about the
Budget
letter, I only put it in there because the girls at the store, they've been talking about how much you need a woman.”

Good grief! How mortifying. David lifted a hand to stop his defense. The least said about that
Budget
letter, the better. “That's not why I've come to see you. I need a favor.”

“But that's exactly what I was trying to do for you! A favor.” Hank's eyes looked hurt. At least, the good eye did.

“I know your intentions were good, Hank, but the next time you feel an inclination to try your hand at matchmaking, please stop yourself.” He leaned his back on the fence and folded his arms across his chest. “My son Jesse returned from Ohio a few days ago. He's a bright boy. Probably too smart for his own good. Gets bored very quickly. He needs a challenge and farm work causes his mind to yawn and sneak off elsewhere.”