The Lamp of the Wicked (66 page)

She stared at them, helpless.

‘I thought I wouldn’t have anything to do with Roddy Lodge ever again. But then another friend, a detective from Hereford, said Roddy remembered me from that night and wanted to speak to me. Well, that never happened, in the end – he’d acquired a solicitor, who didn’t want him to speak to me or anybody else, and yet allowed him to make a very wide-ranging confession. I gather a few of you know him – Mr Nye? Ryan Nye?’

She looked at Chris Cody. He’d taken off his leather cap. His once-shaven head had grown into a tight, light-brown bristle.

‘Yeah, we… we figured Lodge ought to have a brief.’ He looked a lot younger, somehow: a street kid, the tearaway who’d discovered a massively lucrative talent. ‘We’d used Ryan when

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we was buying the chapel off of Roddy. We put work his way when we can.’

‘
You
sent him to represent Roddy?’

‘We… yeah. We figured he needed a brief.’

Merrily nodded. ‘Mr Nye stopped me talking to Roddy, and I was glad. We’re trying to build a spirit of honesty here, so, yes – shamefully – I was glad I didn’t have to talk to a monster. I knew he
was
a monster, because I’d seen his bedroom, plastered with pictures of famous women, all dead, with parts of nude pin-ups added. Obscene, degrading, sick. A monster – my mate, the detective, wanted to dig up every Efflapure in the county, fully expecting bodies underneath some of them, and I’m thinking, yes, it’s possible.’

She wondered where Frannie Bliss was now. How he’d react when Gomer told him about Melanie. The sensible thing would be to call Headquarters, which meant she and Huw didn’t have much time. And with a eucharist to organize…

‘And then the next night, Roddy wanted to come home, so they brought him back. He’d confessed to three murders – all the murders that my friend, the detective, had put it to him that he’d done. Why was he so keen to confess, to come back here and show the police where he’d buried the bodies? Had Mr Nye told him it was for the best? Why would Mr Nye tell him that?’

She looked at Chris Cody, who looked perturbed.

‘Well, Mr Nye isn’t here, so we can’t get any enlightenment there. But there
was
another good reason why Roddy Lodge found Hereford Police Headquarters – with its mass of equipment, its radio transmitters and especially its almost subterranean interview rooms – an unbearable place to be. Because Roddy had become electrically hypersensitive. He had to get out of there and he didn’t care what it took.’

Merrily moved out in front of the lectern, feeling more confident.

‘But there
was
more to it than electrical pollution; there had to be.’

She talked about Roddy’s childhood, his isolation in an all-male household, his manufacture of a series of mother substitutes, the peculiar comfort he found in the realm of the dead – nothing essentially morbid in it, a way of coping, a world he felt he could control.

‘Can we say he was psychic? Can we say he actually began to see the dead? Had he developed what some people like to call mediumistic faculties? Sam would say he was simply the victim of hallucinations, caused by the effects of force fields on the brain. All I know is that it was something he was allowed to grow up with, something that was never discussed.’

She didn’t look at Tony Lodge; this wasn’t an inquisition. Tony Lodge didn’t say anything.

‘We do know that Roddy was becoming disturbed by his condition, because he went to see the doctor. Who, like most GPs, seems to have believed in neither psychic powers nor EH. And who referred him to the Rector. Who gave him some advice which was… well meant.’

Ingrid Sollars made a small, contemptuous noise.

‘In fact, there seems to have been only one person with whom Roddy Lodge was able to discuss his condition. And that was Melanie Pullman, a girl who was also experiencing problems of an apparently psychic nature… which Sam believes to have been a result of living
very
close to power lines and other signals. I’ve had access to some background on Melanie Pullman. On balance, the evidence of some electrical stimulation of parts of the brain does seem, in her case, to be the most persuasive explanation. But Melanie’s not… here to discuss it.’

Merrily heard the muffled clunk of the door latch and saw figures moving in the shadows. Gomer. And Frannie Bliss. Nobody else.

‘My feeling is that Melanie was good for Roddy. The evidence is that they had a close relationship. She was probably his first real girlfriend. There was nobody else in Roddy’s life at that time – as far as I can tell.’

‘It’s true.’ Cherry Lodge was leaning over the prayer-book shelf. Her face was flushed. ‘He was never any kind of a ladies’ man. He wasn’t smooth and he wasn’t that bright, if you want the truth. Never a girlfriend when he was young – Tony’ll tell you.
Tell them
.’

Tony grunted. ‘Embarrassed him, women did, when he was at home. Afterwards, he embarrassed
us
, all the tales. And the sports car. Nobody in our family ever had a sports car.’

‘What changed?’ Merrily said. ‘What made him… in a woman we call it promiscuous, but in a man it’s “a bit of a lad”. I mean, when he was with Melanie he wasn’t like that, was he?’

‘She was a nice girl,’ Tony said. ‘Quiet. Nice-looking – I never knew what she saw in him.’

‘A soulmate, perhaps?’

‘Then why did he… ?’ He turned his face away.

Merrily said quickly, ‘Sam Hall found out about Melanie and tried to help her – with some success, I think. And Melanie, in turn, tried to help Roddy. Maybe she encouraged him to go to the same alternative practitioner who’d given her a device to wear around her neck to ward off electromagnetism. But Roddy didn’t want to know. I wonder why not?’

Frannie Bliss slid into a pew halfway down the nave, where the shadows began. ‘I think we both know that, don’t we, Merrily?’

She nodded as the other heads turned. ‘What’s happening, Frannie?’

‘Nothing special,’ Bliss said coolly. ‘Thought I’d see how things’ve changed in the so-called Church of England before I made any kind of move.’

Merrily saw Piers Connor-Crewe bounce a disdainful glance from Bliss to her. ‘You two lovers or something? I think we should be told.’

‘Uncalled for, Piers,’ Fergus Young snapped.

‘Fergus, I’m so
tired
of these shallow, nit-picking people. Why do we even
care
about the mental state of the waste of space in that box? As for this bloody little woman trying to find a new role for the ailing Church in some sort of spiritual- criminal profiling…’

Merrily said, ‘What did Lynsey Davies say about Roddy Lodge, Piers? Did
she
think he was a waste of space? I suspect not.’

‘Get off my back, Mrs Watkins.’

‘I think Lynsey found him
extremely
interesting. Because of what he was – i.e. someone apparently in day-to-day contact with the dead… of whom
he had no fear whatsoever
. And because he was the owner of Underhowle Baptist chapel. Which for her had become a kind of shrine.’

She looked at Huw, but he didn’t react. The angel was almost burning in her hand.

‘There was a problem, of course: Roddy had a steady girlfriend, with whom he had a lot in common. And Melanie, who seems to have suffered for years from EH, was suddenly – thanks to Sam – discovering a possible cause. And a possible solution.’

She looked at Sam, guessing that she was reaching a conclusion he’d come to several minutes ago. He left his pew and went to stand in the aisle, slowly punching a fist into a palm.

‘She was trying to persuade Roddy to go to the same alternative practitioner, to understand what she was now convinced was the real nature of the problem. Maybe she would’ve succeeded. Maybe she’d have helped him, if…’ She opened her hand and let the angel dangle on its broken chain. ‘
If
…’

‘If Lynsey Davies hadn’t killed her first,’ Sam said.

Merrily looked down at her prayer book. ‘Or persuaded someone else to do it?’

‘A
H YES,’ MOIRA
Cairns said, like she’d just remembered something vaguely distasteful. ‘Hi, Jane.’

‘I don’t understand.’ Jane stepped away from the box office, dismayed. ‘This woman says Lol’s gone.’

Cairns was looking smaller and somehow younger in jeans and this big Hebridean sweater, her hair tied up, the make-up washed off.

‘Aye,’ she said. ‘He had to leave.’

Leave?
The big star gone off with some major international promoter, some record company exec. Goodbye to the old life. Hello hotel rooms, hello groupies.

Jane bit her lip, feeling isolated among the crowd in the foyer, probably the only one of them who was here alone and now would leave alone. Come to support Lol, and he’d triumphed and gone. She’d twice called Mum’s mobile to tell her about that call from Jenny Box, if she didn’t already know about it. Nothing – switched off.

‘I said
I
’d run you home,’ Cairns said, autographing the sleeve of an old vinyl album some sad git had brought along. ‘Sorry about the shaky bit,’ she said to the sad git. ‘Must be ma age.’

‘You look younger than ever,’ the sad git said, going off, and Cairns blew him a kiss.

Jane looked down at the poisoned blade of betrayal. ‘
What?
’ Give me five minutes, OK?’ Cairns said. Jane said tightly. ‘I can get a bus.’ Of course, there was no late bus to Ledwardine midweek, and

she caught herself making swift glances to either side. Maybe Eirion? He must still be around. He couldn’t
really
have dumped her. Just because she’d come on like somebody spoiled and bitchy. He wasn’t like that. He loved her.

Or what she used to be. He’d loved what she
used to be
. Eirion would have come here to see Lol and Moira, no reason to seek out Jane. It was
over
.

‘Or I can get a taxi. I’ve got enough money.’

Moira pulled a bunch of keys from her jeans and tossed them at Jane. ‘Grey BMW, right down by the bottom entrance. I’ll be there in about five minutes. I just have to see Prof, OK?’

And she turned and walked off, the smug bitch, leaving Jane standing there, holding the keys.

Jane spun away, with a semi-sob, and walked out of the building into the squally air, gulping it in. Looked up in despair at the night over Hereford, saw a faded cluster of stars, small holes in worn denim. Gas balls in a barren universe.

None of them wanted to know her now, not Eirion, not even Lol. She was spoiled and peevish and stupid; she was
negative
. She’d grown up a negative person in a negative world, this floating cyst of dying matter about which everything was known. A world that had peaked some time ago, and all scientists were doing about it was shrinking it more rapidly, while finding ways of keeping you alive longer so that you could go on and on being crapped on.

Halfway across the car park, seeing a couple of guys in their twenties watching her, she caught herself actually starting to think of the several individuals who would be twisted with guilt for the rest of their lives when she was found raped and murdered behind one of the warehouses off the Holmer Road or just killed, in a cursory way by some heroin addict, for her mobile.

In the end, she just found Moira’s BMW and let herself in and locked the doors to keep out the junkies and the rapists.

Then she made another fruitless attempt to call Mum and tell her about Jenny Driscoll, who had been so anxious to see her before the funeral on Friday, possibly because of something this guy Humphries had turned up in Underhowle. But the funeral had happened. It was all over. Mum should be home now.

Should be home
.

Jane rang home, and listened to all the messages again, ending with
Dear God, he’s coming back
.

Like Gareth Box was some kind of rapist/slasher.

Poor Driscoll. She wasn’t crass and superficial, just damaged. And likeable, really, another emotional refugee, although it was still hard to know how much of what she said you could seriously believe. The angel stuff:
I’m not claiming to be Bernadette. I don’t care whether anyone believes me
. And then:
I saw it, Jane. And she was beautiful
. Was that the final confirmation that Mum
was
the angel?

Yet nothing sexual – could you believe that? You certainly believed it when she said it last night; you grabbed it gratefully, squeezed it to your bosom:
Oh thank you, thank you
. But now? How did you feel about Jenny Driscoll, with hindsight?

Jane said, ‘
Oh God
.’

God who did not exist, who just served now as an all-purpose expression for dismay, confusion, exasperation, contempt – and fear.

By now, any semblance of a service had evaporated. There were eleven people and a corpse under the ice-cream lights, and no reason for anyone to be here any more, not even the corpse.

Yet nobody was trying to leave.

Merrily saw Frannie Bliss placing himself next to the church door, needing to contain everybody while he worked it all out, examining the cards in his hand, rearranging them, wondering which ones to throw away.

It was like this: if Lynsey Davies
had
killed Melanie Pullman, it threw up a new and plausible motive for Roddy to have killed Lynsey, a – God forbid –
normal
motive.

Arguably, a hot-blooded killing: Lodge had discovered that this warped and dangerous woman had murdered his girlfriend. The kind of killing, then, for which – had he lived to appear in court – he might well have ended up with no more than a couple of years in prison.

If
Lynsey Davies was the only one he’d done.
If
the serial killing was something happening only in the dark mind of Lynsey Davies.

Did you confess just to get it over, to get the police off your back, the heat from your brain?
Merrily put her hands either side of the pine coffin, just where Roddy’s head would be, cooled at last. She saw him scaling that pylon, gripping the steel skeleton of his personal tormentor, swinging up into the rigid, spindly arms of Kali the Destroyer, with the killer candles in her fingers.