The Lies That Bind (33 page)

Unable to hear any more of their travel conversation, I grabbed hold of Karalee’s hand. “Let’s go see who else won the auction prizes.”

“Okay,” she said cheerfully.

I snagged a glass of champagne from a passing waiter’s tray and stared blindly at the list of auction winners.

So, Derek would leave tomorrow.

I took a long, stiff swallow of the bubbly liquid. I’d known from day one that he would go eventually, and I’d been determined from the start to stay strong. I could handle this. I would smile and wish him a safe flight home, back to where he belonged. And then I would go on with my life. I had friends, a great job, a wonderful family.

I would miss him, of course, but I would survive. It might be touch and go for a little while because, after all, I’d grown rather used to having him around. We’d become close. Very close. Not close enough, but I liked him a lot. I suppose you could say I liked him more than any man I’d ever known before.

But still, he was a dangerous habit I would have to break myself of. It should be simple enough. After all, he was geographically undesirable, to say the least. Thousands of miles and an ocean separated us and nothing could change that. I’d cured myself of bad habits before. I could do it again. And I would. Eventually.

Karalee drifted off to talk to others and I sipped my champagne alone.

“There you are, Brooklyn.”

I turned to greet Cynthia Hardesty.

“I’m in total shock about timid little Alice,” she admitted. “But I have to tell you, I still won’t mourn Layla too much.”

“I understand,” I said. And I was right there with her, but I wasn’t going to say it out loud.

With the party still in high gear, rumors were flying. The police had tried to be subtle, but with the catfight between Alice and Minka and the gunshot and the police interviews going on, it wasn’t surprising that word had gotten out about what had gone down in the back room.

She continued, “We’ve already told Naomi we want her to be the acting director for the next three months.”

“Good.”

“We’ll see how she does. Then we’ll make our final decision. I have a feeling she’ll do just fine.”

“I think you’re right,” I said, and meant it. Naomi had been a pill but she’d also been under duress. Maybe with Layla gone and Alice dragged off to jail, Naomi would have a chance to shine.

“See you in class tomorrow,” Cynthia said, and turned to greet another friend.

Wow, class was tomorrow night already? It felt like an age had passed since I’d been in the classroom. But now I figured teaching might be one good way I could fill my time for the foreseeable future. Maybe I could sign on to do classes every night. Then I might not feel Derek’s absence quite as keenly.

Ned walked up and lifted his chin in greeting. “Huh.”

“Hey, Ned, how’s it going?”

He stared across the room at one of the police officers who had taken Alice away. “She was bad.”

I was watching Alice, so Ned’s words took a moment to sink in. “Wait, were you talking about Alice when you said that before?”

“Huh.”

“Alice? Not Layla?”

He shuffled his feet, nervous now that I’d raised my voice.

“You couldn’t just say her name?” I chided. “It might’ve saved us all a lot of trouble.”

“Huh,” he said, and his mouth curved up. “You’re smart.”

I rolled my eyes. Yeah, I was real smart. “See you around, Ned.”

Before he could wander off, I heard, “Meow.”

I looked down and saw Baba the cat, another creature who
saw things
. Guess he wasn’t talking, either.

“Hey, buddy, there you are,” Ned said. “I was wondering where you ran off to. You hungry? Me, too.” He reached down and picked up the cat, who nuzzled his neck ecstatically.

“Yeah, you’re my friend, aren’t you?” Ned held the cat up in the air and stared at him. “ ’Specially when you’re looking to get fed.”

“Meow.”

“Come on, then. Let’s go chow down.” He clutched the cat close and lifted one hand in farewell to me, then wandered off down the hall.

I walked away, shaking my head. Ned talked to the cat more than he talked to humans. Maybe he was on to something.

“I was looking for you,” Derek said, wrapping his arm around my waist. I pressed myself against his solid chest and felt the soft leather of his jacket against my cheek. His uniquely masculine scent filled my senses. I breathed in deeply before breaking contact.

“Ready to go?” I asked brightly, determined not to be an idiot in front of him. I would make our last evening together a cheery one. I refused to cry, to make a scene, to make him uncomfortable. I would wish him well and let him go. End of story. Piece of cake.

We walked toward the front door and I glanced around, desperate for conversation starters. Why did I feel so lame, all of a sudden?

“Are you packed?” I asked.

“No.”

“Oh. Did you get something to eat?”

“No.”

“Did you want to go by your hotel?” I asked.

“No.”

“Okay. Well, all righty then.”

He pushed the door open and I stepped outside, directly into the path of a frigid evening breeze. The fog had rolled in over the water and dusk shrouded the city in shadows. I shuddered and he pulled me closer as we walked to the Bentley.

I rested my head against his shoulder and tried to sound casual. “Just when I’m getting used to having you around, it’s time for you to leave.”

“Are you?”

“Am I what?”

“Getting used to having me around?”

“Well, yes.” I patted his chest. “But I couldn’t help overhearing your conversation with Gunther. I know you’re leaving tomorrow.”

“Oh, you do?”

“Yes, that’s why I was asking if you were all packed.”

“Ah.” He studied my face and asked, “How do you feel about my leaving?”

He had to ask? I took a deep breath, then tried for a tone of casual friendliness. “I’ll miss you, of course, but I know you have to get back. You have a business to run, and I’m sure your family must miss you.”

“Yes, I’m sure they miss me terribly.”

“And the people at your company must miss you, too.”

His lips twisted in a smile. “I have no doubt all eight hundred and twelve of them miss me every day.”

“There you go.” What a brave little thing I was. Then I realized what he’d said and my jaw dropped. “Wait. You have over eight hundred employees?”

He shrugged. “Security is in high demand.”

“I guess.”

He studied me as he pulled a small thin case from his inside pocket. “Let me give you my business card so we can be sure to keep in touch.”

Now, why did he have to go and say that? I felt my throat close up completely, which caused my eyes to water. It was just a physical reaction to the weather. Nothing more.

“I’d like that,” I whispered, hating that my voice trembled. I slipped his card into my pants pocket, then looked away, not able to make eye contact, unwilling to make more of a fool of myself than I already had.

“Yes, I’d like that, too,” he said.

I cleared my throat. “I remember when you first arrived, you said you’d tried to stay away, so I’ll understand if you do this time.”

“You’ll understand if I do.”

I knew my smile was wobbly but I forced myself to continue. “Stay away, I mean. It’s hard to stay in touch when there’s such a distance separating us, but if you do happen to come through town sometime, it would be lovely to see you again.”

Could I have sounded more lame? Tears were blurring my eyes but I blamed it on the cold air.

“Would it?”

“Yes, it would.” I turned away to dab my eyes.

He took my chin in his hand to steer me back to look at him. “Are you all right?”

I sniffled, then shook away this maudlin nonsense and smiled tightly. “The cold is making my eyes water. No big deal. So, it’s your last evening in town. Anything special you’d like to do?”

“A few things,” he admitted, still watching me. “But, Brooklyn, I’m not pleased by the way you brushed off my suggestion that we keep in touch. You didn’t even look at my new business card, and I’ll have you know I paid a pretty penny for them.”

Disappointed, I glared at him. “You’re annoyed with me because I didn’t look at your business card?”

“Well, yes. You shoved it in your pocket without giving it a proper glance. I’m quite put out.”

I stopped in my tracks. Was he trying to pick a fight with me? “You’re kidding, right?”

“Read the damn card, Brooklyn.”

“For God’s sake.” Frustrated, I brushed away angry tears. My heart was breaking and he wanted me to read his stupid business card? Selfish man! I pulled the card out and forced myself to study it. My eyes widened and I read it again. “Is this . . . are you . . . is this some kind of cruel joke?”

“Hell, no, it’s not a joke.” He yanked open the Bentley’s passenger door, then blocked my way into the car. “Why would I joke about this? Those cards are damned expensive. Top-quality stock, engraved by the Queen’s own royal stationers. Cost me an arm and a leg, but it was worth it, I think. And you ask if it’s a joke? It most certainly is not a—”

“Shut up,” I whispered, and planted my lips on his.

“Rude wench,” he muttered against my mouth.

I laughed. I must’ve dropped his extremely expensive hand-engraved card as I wrapped my arms around his neck, but that was okay. I’d already memorized the Nob Hill address that would serve as the new San Francisco headquarters for Stone Security.

“You asked if there was something special I’d like to do tonight,” he said. “There is.”

“What’s that?” I asked.

“You,” he murmured.

Delighted, I smiled up at him. “Then let’s go home.”

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See
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