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The Love of My Life

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the love of my life
Louise Douglas
is a journalist and lives near Bristol with her three children.
The Love of My Life
is her first novel.
‘A passionate and enduring love story which has unexpectedly captured my heart . . . An outstanding debut, written with assured confidence . . . lingering and haunting . . . likely to set tongues wagging on the book club circuit’
Bookseller
choice from Kate Bradley, BCA
louise
douglas
the love
of my
life
PAN BOOKS

 

First published 2008 by Macmillan

First published in paperback 2009 by Pan Books

This electronic edition published 2009 by Pan Books
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ISBN 978-0-330-50907-7 in Adobe Reader format
ISBN 978-0-330-50906-0 in Adobe Digital Editions format
ISBN 978-0-330-50908-4 in Mobipocket format

Copyright © Louise Douglas 2008

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Contents
one
two
three
four
five
six
seven
eight
nine
ten
eleven
twelve
thirteen
fourteen
fifteen
sixteen
seventeen
eighteen
nineteen
twenty
twenty-one
twenty-two
twenty-three
twenty-four
twenty-five
twenty-six
twenty-seven
twenty-eight
twenty-nine
thirty
thirty-one
thirty-two
thirty-three
thirty-four
thirty-five
thirty-six
thirty-seven
thirty-eight
thirty-nine
forty
forty-one
forty-two
forty-three
forty-four
forty-five
forty-six
forty-seven
forty-eight
forty-nine
fifty
fifty-one
fifty-two
fifty-three
fifty-four
fifty-five
fifty-six
fifty-seven
fifty-eight
fifty-nine
sixty

 

for my family and friends, with love

 

acknowledgements
I will always be grateful to Marianne, who read the manuscript and liked it enough to become my agent, to Vicki, and to Pat, who has held my hand throughout. You’ve been wonderful, thank you. Also heartfelt thanks to Josephine and Kate for their kindness and wisdom along the way. Finally, thank you to the team at Pan Macmillan: Trisha, Fiona, who designed the cover, and especially Imogen, my editor, who thought of the title and suggested many improvements. Working with you has been a privilege and a complete pleasure.

 

prologue

 

I shall never go back to Watersford.

It is where my husband Luca lies buried, but I won’t go there again.

Luca’s family has won. Angela and Nathalie have found a way to keep us apart. It is what they have wanted for years and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forgive them for that.

There is no way to atone for what I’ve done, either. There is no way back to how we were before, no way to make things better. We shall all just have to learn to live with ourselves and the consequences of our actions.

After the truth about the Felicone family came out on that stormy summer evening, I never wanted to see any of them again. So I left the restaurant and got into my car which was parked outside and drove through the night to my sister Lynnette’s house in London. Lynnette loves me. She didn’t ask why I had arrived on her doorstep at three o’clock in the morning with mascara all over my face. She didn’t ask why I had turned up without a suitcase or even a toothbrush. She gave me a mug of milky hot chocolate to drink while she made up the bed in the spare room, found a pair of pyjamas for me to wear, tucked me between the clean sheets like a child, and left me to sleep.

If I had been born five hundred years ago, I would have been sent to see out my days in a convent. Today, the convent isn’t an option but Lynnette still believes in the principle of redemption. Now I am feeling stronger, she has brought Sean’s old laptop up to the bedroom and told me to write down everything that happened. She believes that once I’ve done that, I will be able to put the whole affair behind me. I don’t know if she’s right, but I have nothing else to do.

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