The Magnolia Affair (23 page)

“I could think of worse things.” He smiled.

“Pax, tell me we can take Corinne.” He had a way of distracting me. I could feel the fight in me waning as he heated my body with his tongue and hands.

“Audrey, tell me we can try for a baby.”

And there it was. A negotiation. A trade. One child in exchange for another. Although, it didn’t feel that way when he was canvassing my body with kisses. I didn’t see it when he was telling me how much he wanted me to be the mother of his children. I didn’t recognize the play he had just made.

The next day, at my yearly exam, I had my IUD removed. I called Becky and told her the terms of the adoption. Either way, Pax and I were going to be parents.

I
wasn’t comfortable speaking in front of large crowds. Children were a different story. I smiled at the little faces gathered at my feet. Today was my first press event reading to a group of kindergarten students in Greenville. It was the first of a statewide reading tour I agreed to do.

I wasn’t cut out for impassioned speeches or hosting ladies luncheons. Pax said there were other ways to play up my strengths. There was always a blogger and photographer from the campaign with me wherever my public appearances were, but today the back of the class was filled with newspaper and TV journalists from the local affiliates.

I smelled the crayons and the chalk. Watched the fluorescent lights flicker overhead. Noticed the teacher had arranged the children’s desks into pods. The bell rang and I cleared my mind. I couldn’t let the past creep back in. Not now.

I cleared my throat and grinned at my audience. “Who wants to hear about the little girl who met a leprechaun?” I asked.

All their hands went up in the air.

“This is one of my favorites. Let’s all turn up our listening ears.” I waited for them to grab the imaginary cranks on their ears.

I opened the first page. “Once upon a time, there was a little girl named Caliope.”

After the story, I posed with the students and the teachers. I signed a few autographs and smiled when the teachers asked if they could post pictures of us together. It was what Pax wanted—the teacher vote.

My security escort walked me back to the bus in the school parking lot. I told him I was going to lie down until the next stop. I shuffled to the bedroom and latched the flimsy lock on the door.

I peeled the silk jacket off my shoulders and stepped out of the skirt. I would never have worn something like this to teach in. It would have been ruined by the end of the day, coated in finger paint or mud from the playground.

The school tour was set for the next month. Somewhere between fundraising, stumping, and interviews, Pax was going to meet me on the tour. I felt the bus jerk forward and I sprawled across the bed, wondering if we would ever share it. So far, we seemed to be circling opposite ends of the state.

I crawled into bed, pulling a sheet to my waist. They were the highest thread-count Todd could find. Campaign money draped over my hip. My phone buzzed, and I pulled it off the nightstand.

“Hey.”

“How did it go? I got a few of the pictures from Todd on my phone.” Pax sounded excited. “I want these everywhere. On every station. Every newspaper in the state.”

Did I tell him the sadness had consumed me for a second? That I almost wanted to sink into my old routines and wallow in it?

“It was great. They loved the story about the leprechaun.” I sat up, pulling my knees to my chest.

“Looks like they loved you. It’s exactly what people need to see.”

“I’m glad I could help.” I rolled on my back and stared at the ceiling.

“I know you’ve got the school tour, but would you be up for a dinner tomorrow night?”

“What kind of dinner?”

“It’s black tie. It’s being thrown by one of my biggest supporters. You remember, Montgomery Porter, don’t you?”

I had met the Porters at a golf tournament over the summer. His wife was the kind of woman who never aged. Flawless skin, hair, and nails. I had felt dowdy and drab next to her, and she was easily twenty years older than me.

“Of course. I know who he is.”

“Good. So, it’s black-tie. You need something sexy, but don’t overdo it. This group isn’t that liberal.”

“I don’t have any clothes like that with me. I’m on the bus, Pax.” The closet was stocked with press appearance wardrobe, and I had crammed in yoga pants in the dresser.

“Stop somewhere. You need something stunning.”

I huffed. “It’s not that easy. I’m traveling across the state. I don’t even know where a mall is and I’m on a bus.”

“God, Audrey. Can’t you just take care of this for me? Never mind. I’ll call Todd. He can shop for you. Just show up in a damn dress and a smile.”

I told myself it was the pressure from the campaign, the hundreds of people asking him for things, demanding his time and energy.

“Pax…I-I…” I never made him mad. “I’m sorry. I can figure it out.”

“Good.” I heard someone interrupt him in the background.

“I’ll text you the information. Have someone drive you there.”

“Where is it? I don’t even know what city?”

He groaned. “I said I’ll text it.”

“Ok,” I replied meekly. I had done something to set him off.

“I’ll call you later.”

He was busy. He was overwhelmed. He was important. I tried to resume my nap, but all I could think about was how I had disappointed Pax.

The dress was deep purple. So deep, it almost appeared black if you didn’t study it. I thanked the driver as he pulled up in front of the country club. I had to drive two hours from the last school stop to meet Paxton in Beaufort.

He greeted me at the top of the stairs, nodding as dinner guests walked past him.

“You look gorgeous.” He kissed me on the cheek and guided me inside, his hand pressing on my lower back.

“You’re ok with the dress?”

“It’s perfect on you. You’re perfect.” He growled in my ear.

The hair on my arms stood up, my heart raced. “I don’t like how our call ended yesterday, Pax.”

“I know. I know.” He hung his head. “I’m under a lot of pressure and I took it out on you. That wasn’t fair. Forgive me?” His eyes pierced through the hurt I had been feeling.

I nodded.

“Do you think we could do some appearances together? I’m getting kind of lonely on that bus. I don’t think it’s good for us to spend so much time apart.”

He held the dining room door for me.

“I’ll see what we can work out. I miss you too.” He grinned at one of the contributors. “We’ve got to get in there. They’re expecting me to speak before dinner.”

I smiled. I knew he wouldn’t let me be alone.

“And what about after the dinner?” I followed him to the table draped in white linen at the front of the ballroom.

He turned to whisper in my ear. “I was going to fly out tonight. I have a breakfast in Greenville in the morning.” I pretended to stick out my bottom lip. “But I think I can have Todd rearrange my morning. I need you tonight.”

The words made my skin prickle. “And I guess we can’t skip this dinner?”

Montgomery and Chantal Porter walked up to us, and I took a slight step back from Paxton.

“Paxton. Audrey. So good to see you two tonight.” Mrs. Porter planted a kiss in the air next to my cheek.

“You too, Mrs. Porter. It’s a beautiful dinner.” I turned to her husband as he clasped my hand.

“Monty, again I can’t thank you enough for all that you’ve done for my campaign.” Pax slapped the man on the back with gusto.

The highest-paying donor smiled, showing more gum than teeth. “Son, it’s my pleasure. We’re going to do what we can to have the right man in office. It’s about time this state took center stage.”

“Audrey, what a beautiful dress.” Chantal looked me over.

“Thank you. I just bought it. I’ve been on the road the past few days with the campaign.”

“Well, it suits you perfectly, dear. Come, let’s let the men talk.” She latched onto my elbow.

Pax shrugged at me and mouthed “thank you” while I followed her out of the back of the dining room and into a sitting room across the hall. She closed the door behind us.

“Monty has told me how hard you’ve been working on the campaign trail. I saw a little bit of your school footage last night. Paxton must be pleased with you.” She motioned for me to sit.

The upholstery on the love seat was thick tapestry, woven with hunting scenes. I folded my dress around me. “Yes, I think he’s happy with how the campaign is going. Contributions like the one you and your husband have made mean the world to us.”

“That’s nice to hear. We know Paxton is going to make an excellent governor. He’ll represent us well in Columbia.”

I nodded and smiled. I felt as if she was hinting at more than my husband’s brilliant political mind.

“I wanted to have a moment in private with you. Discuss a few things.”

“Certainly, Mrs. Porter. What’s on your mind?” I could hear the band playing through the wooden doors. I didn’t want to miss Pax’s speech.

She tapped my knee. “We’ve been members of this club a long time. My father gave us a membership as a wedding gift. He was a founding member.”

“How generous of him.”

“He was a generous man. Monty is a lot like him, but my husband and I don’t always see eye to eye on everything.”