The Mango Season (24 page)

It hadn’t been quite nice’n easy as the hair-coloring commercial promised. It had been a nightmare. Saroj quickly forgot her guarantee to Devi that she wouldn’t enter Devi’s house using the spare key and did exactly that. The first time was with a box of
ladoos
.

Devi was shocked to see her mother in the dining area putting a box of
ladoos
on the table while Devi struggled to cover herself with a towel and hold on to a baseball bat, convinced that someone had broken in while she was in the shower.

When asked why she didn’t just ring the doorbell, Saroj spluttered something about having done that and then, having not gotten a response and seeing the driveway empty, using her key.

Devi reminded Saroj that she had a garage and therefore didn’t park her car in the driveway. Saroj just held up the
ladoos
and asked peevishly, “So, you don’t want the
ladoos
?”

Devi sighed and said it was okay this one time, but who was she kidding, the visits soon became a habit. Sometimes Devi would come home and there would be new Indian food items in her fridge and a long message from her mother on her answering machine explaining why Saroj just had to use her set of keys to put the perishable food in the fridge.

So it would have been prudent of Devi to have set the deadbolt from the inside that morning to prevent an unwanted visitor. However, new food hadn’t appeared in her fridge for a whole month and Devi didn’t think of her mother’s trespassing ways.

Devi sat down at the edge of the claw-foot bathtub, one of the reasons why she’d wanted to rent the house despite the exorbitant price the landlord was asking. She turned the delicate, antique brass water faucet, her fingers caressing the water as the thick drops fell. After a steady stream of cold water poured into the tub, wet heat began to stroke her hand. Deciding that the temperature was right, she rose and realized how insane it was to ensure the temperature of the water was right when she was going to do what she was going to do. How did it matter?

She tightened her robe one more time as her glance fell on the beautiful ivory-handled knife she’d purchased in Chinatown several years ago. She bought it because it looked fancy and was expensive. She’d accepted her first real job offer with her first start-up and they were paying well. She wanted to buy herself something silly, something expensive, and the ivory-handled knife caught her eye for all those reasons. At the time she would’ve never thought how handy it could be, how the sharpness that surprised and annoyed her would work to her advantage.

“Am I sure?” she asked herself and waited for a resonating answer in her mind.

She stood in front of the floor-length mirror, loosened her robe, and let it fall. Naked, she saw the small bulge of her tummy, her slight breasts, a constant cause of embarrassment, her curly, dark pubic hair that grew at a rapid rate, another cause of embarrassment.

“This is me,” she said out loud and removed the elastic band that held her shoulder-length hair in place. “I’m ready,” she told herself with a small smile.

Compared to all that had slipped away like a chimera through her fingers, losing her life didn’t seem too monumental. She sucked back the tears that were ready to fall on her cheeks. She wasn’t going to cry. This was the right thing, the only thing, and she wasn’t going to let any doubt enter her through those tears.

She dropped lavender bath beads inside the tub with some self-amusement. How would it matter how the bathwater smelled when soon, it would smell and look like blood? The thought and the realization that blood would be everywhere allowed nausea to creep in. She battled against it, just as she had the tears.

She lay down in the tub and took a deep breath before dipping her head in. The water soothed her, relaxed her, and she floated for a while, her mind empty of thought, her hearty empty of emotions. She held her breath for as long as she could under the water and then, when oxygen became vital, she pulled herself out.

Slowly, she rested against the bottom of the tub and raised both her hands up. They were wet and slick. She picked up the knife from the edge of the bathtub.

She ran her left thumb over the blade and felt the instant tearing of skin, gushing of blood. Carelessly, she washed the blood away in the lavender water.

She lifted her right hand and looked at the wrist carefully. This was the last time she would see it like this, unmarked. This was the last time for everything.

With the precision she’d always been known for, Devi took the knife in her left hand and slowly made a deep vertical cut on her right wrist, tearing open the vein that would lead her to death.

Two things happened after the Devi “incident,” as everyone in the Veturi household started calling it:

1. Devi completely stopped talking.
   
2. Devi started cooking.
   

Two things she did with such intensity and consistency that it drove her already shaken family up the wall.

AMULYA MALLADI has a bachelor’s degree in engineering and a master’s degree in journalism. Born and raised in India, she lived in the United States for several years before moving to Denmark, where she now lives on the island of Mors with her husband and sons. You can contact her at
www.amulyamalladi.com
.

The Mango Season
is a work of fiction. Names,
places, and incidents either are products of the author’s
imagination or are used fictitiously.

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Copyright © 2003 by Amulya Malladi

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