The One Addicted (16 page)

Give and take?

I unwrap the box and hold the bud to my nose, inhaling its powerful perfume, the colour almost black this time. Then quickly replace it within the box. I’d have to ask reception for a vase so I could use it in my bedroom during our stay.
Seven Roses. He was certainly living up to his word to make our time together special.

I spend the next fifteen minutes or so, taking photographs of the rooms, for our portfolio. Before texting Seb to advise him it was time for Finn’s bath. Then I nip for a quick shower myself, start a bubble bath running for my boy and wait for them to return.
 

*****

I take a gulp from my mug of tea, before helping Finn butter and cut his toast into triangles. We’d come down to breakfast early this morning, as my boy couldn’t contain his excitement any longer. Today he was going fishing.
    
You’d also not been able to sleep, knowing that only a few doors away Sebastian lay naked and sexy and just within reach but unattainable due, to your motherly duties.
    
My mind flickers back to last night - it had been lovely. We’d had an entertaining and civilised dinner amongst great friends and one boisterous little boy, well two if you include Colin, with a sumptuous five-course meal and flowing drinks, in surroundings that were fit for an episode of Downton Abbey. Seb and I had shared plenty of knowing looks across the table and fingers brushing as we reached for glasses, all under the shadowy glow of candlelight and by 9.30pm Finn was exhausted and asleep with his head in my lap. Sebastian, recognising this had just gently picked him up and carried him back up to our room, like it was an everyday occurrence. We’d left the others too it, Abby winking at me as we closed the door behind us, promising to meet up early for our activities the next morning.

Once Finn had been settled I’d immediately said my goodnights to Seb. If I’d allowed him to stay any longer, we’d have been making love on the floor, whilst my son slept soundly in the bed next to us and it just didn’t feel right. Sebastian was a total gentleman and although left with glazed sexy eyes and an evident erection, he promised to adhere to my wishes. We’d sent several texts over the ensuing hours, which made me blush now, just thinking of their content and with hindsight, I wish I had just bobbed on, right then and there with him in the bathroom - maybe that would have meant I’d have slept for more than a few broken minutes – would have appeased the constant ache I have between my thighs for him.
    
I snap out of my thoughts and glance briefly around the hotel restaurant, where the array of food on offer is immense and we are spoilt for choice, with a selection of hot croissants, figs with yoghurt, smoked salmon and scrambled egg, muesli, the choice was endless. Finn is in his element, but I am experiencing a wave of nausea … again. It seems to happen every time I am about to eat; come to think about it, mornings weren’t too good or tea times. I wonder if I need to pay a visit the doctor, the last time I felt like this I had anaemia, maybe I need to start re-taking iron supplements?
    
“A breakfast of champions!”
    
A voice behind me brings me back to the present and I catch Finn’s nose wrinkle, a tell so similar to mine I’m alerted to the fact that the voice belongs to someone Finn is not all that impressed with; the boy has great gut instincts. I’m continuing to try but this person is just a Dufus.
    
“Morning, Chris - sleep well?”
    
“Could have slept better, Lulu, much better for reasons you and I both know but there’s always tonight.”
    
With a cheesy wink he heads over to the breakfast buffet and I shudder. Dufus! Kids, and little ears - not that Finn would understand his meaning - but is the man totally unaware of his douchebagness, if that’s even a word?
I raise my brows saucily at Finn who is frowning in Chris’ direction, whilst shovelling pancakes into his mouth and whisper across the table, “Ignore him, poppet - he’s ok really.”
    
“Nah ahh. He wants to go on a date with you, Mummy and I’m not happy with that at all - I like Sub.”
    
What the hell?
 
God this kid is switched on - although I don’t think Chris wants to date me at all; maybe have a one-nighter to get one-up on Sebastian, but in a three year old’s world that means ‘
date’
.
     
“Don’t be silly, Finn and of course you like
Sub
he’s your God-father and he adores you.” I watch as Finn’s tightly folded arms relax slightly and his pout lessens enough for me to pop a blueberry inside, which makes him beam. “There he is - my handsome boy. You looking forward to going fishing, baby?”
    
“Yeah! It’s going to be awesome. Sub says he has a pole for me and everything and Nathan’s coming with us too.”
    
“Did I hear my name being mentioned? Morning, Lu, dude - ready to be the Fisher King?”
    
Nathan’s mouth is full so I answer for him “He’s been ready since 6am this morning, Uncle Na.”
    
“Ok then. So, Mummy could do with a Nana nap could she?”
    
“Hey! I’m not that old but I must admit I’m tired this morning - I didn’t sleep well last night at all.”
    
“You should have called my room and I’d have been happy to
supply
you with something to help you sleep.” Chris returns to our large round table and pulls a chair out, taking a seat with a devil-may care attitude about him.
    
I share a look of horror with Nathan who is about to rescue me when the man that was the real reason I was awake half the night makes his entrance; cool and sexy in battered jeans, black t-shirt and white converse trainers - suddenly I’m ravenous.
    
“Lucia knows which room to call Chris, in the event she needs tiring out.” I can see the twinkle in his eyes however, he obviously thinks he’s walked in on Chris teasing me - I wish it was just teasing and didn’t carry that permanent stench of cheese.
    
“So, Fisherman Finn are you ready to catch what we are having for tea?”
    
“I can’t wait.”
    
“He can’t - it’s true - I’ve just been telling Na, he’s been awake for a while, he’s so excited.”
    
“You should have knocked on my door. I’ve not slept well and been awake since 4am.”
    
“Seems to be a common story…” Nathan mutters.
    
“I had breakfast earlier so if you want to grab some warm clothes, your wellies and meet me in the foyer in ten minutes, Finn, Nathan and I will show you how its done - you’ll be a man in no time.”
    
Finn squishes Seb’s leg as he excuses himself and I stand to follow. The one thing I want to do is walk into Sebastian’s arms openly and raise my lips to his. To say good morning and feel his morning glory against my tummy, but I hold back. “I’ll go get him organised and see you guys in a bit.”
    
I don’t turn to see if I’m being watched but I know I am, I can feel his eyes lingering on my behind and I add an extra wiggle. We’ve just reached our bedroom door when I sense we’re not alone. I can smell him; feel him. I
need
him. I run the card key swiftly through the mechanism and click the handle open. “Finnster, you head inside and grab your things and I’ll be in in a minute.”
 
I hang back and two seconds later, the door closes and he comes from the shadows, his mouth on me; tongue slipping inside and leisurely twisting with mine. Ah bliss.
“Jeez, Lu, I’ve needed to do this since we left one another last night. I haven’t slept a wink!” His hand reaches to grasp my butt and the other feeds through my hair, binding my head in place and pressing my body against his firmly.
    
I can feel his morning glory now, hard and searching and God I want him. “I want you!”
    
“I want you too, baby!” he growls into my mouth, leaving my swollen lips to plant a trail of soft wet licks along my neck and behind my ear and reality booms with clanging bells.
    
“No - I push against him. “We can’t do this here - God, I want to but Finn’s only next door. Seb… Seb… seriously.”
    
His chuckles are contagious as we catch our breath like rampant hormonal teenagers in the hallway. We head into the room, where Finn is zipping up his coat with a grin. “Sub was kissing my Mum!”
    
Oh crap!
    
I look at Seb and he winks back at me, entirely in control as usual. “I was, dude. Are you Ok with that?”
    
Finn puts his hat on, and shrugs complacently before replying. “Ninni said it’s about time anyway. It’s fine with me but are we still going fishing?”
    
“Of course, dude. Say bye to your Ma and let’s go find Nathan. We need to go be hunters and gatherers.”
    
“Bye guys - be good.”
    
“What you going to do in the meantime?”
    
“Abs, Suzie and I have a hot date with the Spa - then we’ll meet you for our surprise activity Finny?”
    
“Cool! I love surprises what is it?”
    
I chuckle. “It wouldn’t be a surprise if I told you. Now off you go boys and have some fun.”
    
What I really wanted to say to both of them in unison was
love you both
but I couldn’t - this new relationship trial thing and amalgamating it with Finn was tougher than I’d imagined.

*****

I text Abby, grab my swimsuit, and bag and then head downstairs and to the rear of the hotel, where the new relaxation suite had recently been re-modelled. It housed a swimming pool, sauna, Jacuzzi and beauty rooms, which included massage, reflexology, hot stones treatments and seaweed body wraps. It all sounded fabulous but I’m not really in the mood for anyone’s touch but Sebastian’s.
   
“Hey you - sorry I’m late I ordered room service and had breakfast in bed, seeing as Nathan was up early. These Silver boys are certainly early risers.”
   
“I know, but at least you had yours in your bed with you and could enjoy the early morning rise.”
   
“I did thank you very much - sorry, lovely did you find it tough having him so near yet so far?” her giggles are contagious.
   
“Stop it - I did! Its ridiculous - I had my beautiful little boy sleeping next to me all cherubic and precious and all that I’ve needed for well…
forever
and all I could think was how nice would it be if Seb was in the bed with us? Not even to be shagging in it? Just to be a
family
.”
   
“So why didn’t you?”
   
“Er - because its far too soon, that’s why, Abigail.”
   
“For who? You or Finn?”
   
“Finn of course.”
I think.
   
“Look I’m not a Mum so I can’t really be the best advisor here but when it feels right you’ll just go with the flow. You and Seb seem to be easing back into things nicely though Hun. You still doing the whole one month proposition thingiemebobby?”
   
“Kind of! It’s not really a proposition and we’ve both told each other we love one another but yes, we’ve agreed to try things for a month - I’m giving him the month to prove to me that he really wants this, and I’m giving myself the month to trust in us. One thing I do know Abs is we are stronger together than apart and that should count for something shouldn’t it?”
   
“Definitely, babe - that is everything.
 
Wow - deep for Saturday morning, come on let’s get our treatments booked in so we can meet the guys.”
   
“Sounds like a plan. All I want is a bit of a swim and maybe a manicure I don’t think Suzie’s joining us? Doesn’t look like it anyhow?”
   
“She’s already in there - she’s gone for the full pregnancy package and Gino too apparently!”
   
We both laugh in unison; he’s
so
metro-sexual.