The Picture Of Dorian Gray (23 page)

He loosened his hold and reeled back. ‘My God! my God!’ he cried, ‘and I would have murdered you!’

Dorian Gray drew a long breath. ‘You have been on the brink of committing a terrible crime, my man,’ he said, looking at him sternly.

‘Let this be a warning to you not to take vengeance into your own hands.’

‘Forgive me, sir,’ muttered James Vane. ‘I was deceived. A chance word I heard in that damned den set me on the wrong track.’

‘You had better go home, and put that pistol away, or you may get into trouble,’ said Dorian, turning on his heel, and going slowly down the street.

James Vane stood on the pavement in horror. He was trembling from head to foot. After a little while a black shadow that had been creeping along the dripping wall, moved out into the light and came close to him with stealthy footsteps. He felt a hand laid on his arm and looked round with a start. It was one of the women who had been drinking at the bar.

‘Why didn’t you kill him?’ she hissed out, putting her haggard face quite close to his. ‘I knew you were following him when you rushed out from Daly’s. You fool! You should have killed him. He has lots of money, and he’s as bad as bad.’

‘He is not the man I am looking for,’ he answered, ‘and I want no man’s money. I want a man’s life. The man whose life I want must be nearly forty now. This one is little more than a boy. Thank God, I have not got his blood upon my hands.’

The woman gave a bitter laugh. ‘Little more than a boy!’ she sneered. ‘Why, man, it’s nigh on eighteen years since Prince Charming made me what I am.’

‘You lie!’ cried James Vane.

She raised her hand up to heaven. ‘Before God I am telling the truth,’ she cried.

‘Before God?’

‘Strike me dumb if it ain’t so. He is the worst one that comes here. They say he has sold himself to the devil for a pretty face. It’s nigh on eighteen years since I met him. He hasn’t changed much since then. I have though,’ she added, with a sickly leer.

‘You swear this?’

‘I swear it,’ came in hoarse echo from her flat mouth. ‘But don’t give me away to him,’ she whined; ‘I am afraid of him. Let me have some money for my night’s lodging.’

He broke from her with an oath, and rushed to the corner of the street, but Dorian Gray had disappeared. When he looked back, the woman had vanished also.

A week later Dorian Gray was sitting in the conservatory at Selby Royal talking to the pretty Duchess of Monmouth, who with her husband, a jaded-looking man of sixty, was amongst his guests. It was tea-time, and the mellow light of the huge lace-covered lamp that stood on the table lit up the delicate china and hammered silver of the service at which the Duchess was presiding. Her white hands were moving daintily among the cups, and her full red lips were smiling at something that Dorian had whispered to her. Lord Henry was lying back in a silk-draped wicker chair looking at them. On a peach-coloured divan sat Lady Narborough pretending to listen to the Duke’s description of the last Brazilian beetle that he had added to his collection. Three young men in elaborate smoking-suits were handing tea-cakes to some of the women. The house-party consisted of twelve people, and there were more expected to arrive on the next day.

‘What are you two talking about?’ said Lord Henry, strolling over to the table, and putting his cup down. ‘I hope Dorian has told you about my plan for rechristening everything, Gladys. It is a delightful idea.’

‘But I don’t want to be rechristened, Harry,’ rejoined the Duchess, looking up at him with her wonderful eyes. ‘I am quite satisfied with my own name, and I am sure Mr Gray should be satisfied with his.’

‘My dear Gladys, I would not alter either name for the world. They are both perfect. I was thinking chiefly of flowers. Yesterday I cut an orchid, for my buttonhole. It was a marvellous spotted thing, as effective as the seven deadly sins. In a thoughtless moment I asked one of the gardeners that it was called. He told me it was a fine
specimen of
Robinsoniana
, or something dreadful of that kind. It is a sad truth, but we have lost the faculty of giving lovely names to things. Names are everything. I never quarrel with actions. My one quarrel is with words. That is the reason I hate vulgar realism in literature. The man who could call a spade a spade should be compelled to use one. It is the only thing he is fit for.’

‘Then what should we call you, Harry?’ she asked.

‘His name is Prince Paradox,’ said Dorian.

‘I recognize him in a flash,’ exclaimed the Duchess.

‘I won’t hear of it,’ laughed Lord Henry, sinking into a chair. ‘From a label there is no escape! I refuse the title.’

‘Royalties may not abdicate,’ fell as a warning from pretty lips.

‘You wish me to defend my throne, then?’

‘Yes.’

‘I give the truths of to-morrow.’

‘I prefer the mistakes of to-day,’ she answered.

‘You disarm me, Gladys,’ he cried, catching the wilfulness of her mood.

‘Of your shield, Harry: not of your spear.’

‘I never tilt against Beauty,’ he said, with a wave of his hand.

‘That is your error, Harry, believe me. You value beauty far too much.’

‘How can you say that? I admit that I think that it is better to be beautiful than to be good. But on the other hand no one is more ready than I am to acknowledge that it is better to be good than to be ugly.’

‘Ugliness is one of the seven deadly sins, then?’ cried the Duchess. ‘What becomes of your simile about the orchid?’

‘Ugliness is one of the seven deadly virtues, Gladys. You, as a good Tory, must not underrate them. Beer, the Bible, and the seven deadly virtues have made our England what she is.’

‘You don’t like your country, then?’ she asked.

‘I live in it.’

‘That you may censure it the better.’

‘Would you have me take the verdict of Europe on it?’ he inquired.

‘What do they say of us.’

‘That Tartuffe
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has emigrated to England and opened a shop.’

‘Is that yours, Harry?’

‘I give it to you.’

‘I could not use it. It is too true.’

‘You need not be afraid. Our countrymen never recognize a description.’

‘They are practical.’

‘They are more cunning than practical. When they make up their ledger, they balance stupidity by wealth, and vice by hypocrisy.’

‘Still, we have done great things.’

‘Great things have been thrust on us, Gladys.’

‘We have carried their burden.’

‘Only as far as the Stock Exchange.’

She shook her head. ‘I believe in the race,’ she cried.

‘It represents the survival of the pushing.’

‘It has development.’

‘Decay fascinates me more.’

‘What of Art?’ she asked.

‘It is a malady.’
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‘Love?’

‘An illusion.’

‘Religion?’

‘The fashionable substitute for Belief.’

‘You are a sceptic.’

‘Never! Scepticism is the beginning of Faith.’

‘What are you?’

‘To define is to limit.’

‘Give me a clue.’

‘Threads snap. You would lose your way in the labyrinth.’

‘You bewilder me. Let us talk of some one else.’

‘Our host is a delightful topic. Years ago he was christened Prince Charming.’

‘Ah! don’t remind me of that,’ cried Dorian Gray.

‘Our host is rather horrid this evening,’ answered the Duchess, colouring. ‘I believe he thinks that Monmouth married me on purely scientific principles as the best specimen he could find of a modern butterfly.’

‘Well, I hope he won’t stick pins into you, Duchess,’ laughed Dorian.

‘Oh! my maid does that already, Mr Gray, when she is annoyed with me.’

‘And what does she get annoyed with you about, Duchess?’

‘For the most trivial things, Mr Gray, I assure you. Usually because I come in at ten minutes to nine and tell her that I must be dressed by half-past eight.’

‘How unreasonable of her! You should give her warning.’

‘I daren’t, Mr Gray. Why, she invents hats for me. You remember the one I wore at Lady Hilstone’s garden-party? You don’t, but it is nice of you to pretend that you do. Well, she made it out of nothing. All good hats are made out of nothing.’

‘Like all good reputations, Gladys,’ interrupted Lord Henry. ‘Every effect that one produces gives one an enemy. To be popular one must be a mediocrity.’

‘Not with women,’ said the Duchess, shaking her head; ‘and women rule the world. I assure you we can’t bear mediocrities. We women, as some one says, love with our ears, just as you men love with your eyes, if you ever love at all.’

‘It seems to me that we never do anything else,’ murmured Dorian.

‘Ah! then, you never really love, Mr Gray,’ answered the Duchess, with mock sadness.

‘My dear Gladys!’ cried Lord Henry. ‘How can you say that? Romance lives by repetition, and repetition converts an appetite into an art. Besides, each time that one loves is the only time one has ever loved. Difference of object does not alter singleness of passion. It merely intensifies it. We can have in life but one great experience at best, and the secret of life is to reproduce that experience as often as possible.’

‘Even when one has been wounded by it, Harry?’ asked the Duchess, after a pause.

‘Especially when one has been wounded by it,’ answered Lord Henry.

The Duchess turned and looked at Dorian Gray with a curious expression in her eyes. ‘What do you say to that, Mr Gray?’ she inquired.

Dorian hesitated for a moment. Then he threw his head back and laughed. ‘I always agree with Harry, Duchess.’

‘Even when he is wrong?’

‘Harry is never wrong, Duchess.’

‘And does his philosophy make you happy?’

‘I have never searched for happiness. Who wants happiness? I have searched for pleasure.’

‘And found it, Mr Gray?’

‘Often. Too often.’

The Duchess sighed. ‘I am searching for peace,’ she said, ‘and if I don’t go and dress, I shall have none this evening.’

‘Let me get you some orchids, Duchess,’ cried Dorian, starting to his feet, and walking down the conservatory.

‘You are flirting disgracefully with him,’ said Lord Henry to his cousin. ‘You had better take care. He is very fascinating.’

‘If he were not, there would be no battle.’

‘Greek meets Greek, then?’

‘I am on the side of the Trojans. They fought for a woman.’

‘They were defeated.’

‘There are worse things than capture,’ she answered.

‘You gallop with a loose rein.’

‘Pace gives life,’ was the
riposte
.

‘I shall write it in my diary to-night.’

‘What?’

‘That a burnt child loves the fire.’

‘I am not even singed. My wings are untouched.’

‘You use them for everything, except flight.’

‘Courage has passed from men to women. It is a new experience for us.’

‘You have a rival.’

‘Who?’

He laughed. ‘Lady Narborough,’ he whispered. ‘She perfectly adores him.’

‘You fill me with apprehension. The appeal to Antiquity is fatal to us who are romanticists.’

‘Romanticists! You have all the methods of science.’

‘Men have educated us.’

‘But not explained you.’

‘Describe us as a sex,’ was her challenge.

‘Sphynxes without secrets.’

She looked at him, smiling. ‘How long Mr Gray is!’ she said. ‘Let us go and help him. I have not yet told him the colour of my frock.’

‘Ah! you must suit your frock to his flowers, Gladys.’

‘That would be a premature surrender.’

‘Romantic Art begins with its climax.’

‘I must keep an opportunity for retreat.’

‘In the Parthian manner?’
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‘They found safety in the desert. I could not do that.’

‘Women are not always allowed a choice,’ he answered, but hardly had he finished the sentence before from the far end of the conservatory came a stifled groan, followed by the dull sound of a heavy fall. Everybody started up. The Duchess stood motionless in horror. And with fear in his eyes Lord Henry rushed through the flapping palms, to find Dorian Gray lying face downwards on the tiled floor in a death-like swoon.

He was carried at once into the blue drawing-room, and laid upon one of the sofas. After a short time he came to himself, and looked round with a dazed expression.

‘What has happened?’ he asked. ‘Oh! I remember. Am I safe here, Harry?’ He began to tremble.

‘My dear Dorian,’ answered Lord Henry, ‘you merely fainted. That was all. You must have overtired yourself. You had better not come down to dinner. I will take your place.’

‘No, I will come down,’ he said, struggling to his feet. ‘I would rather come down. I must not be alone.’

He went to his room and dressed. There was a wild recklessness of gaiety in his manner as he sat at table, but now and then a thrill of terror ran through him when he remembered that, pressed against the window of the conservatory, like a white handkerchief, he had seen the face of James Vane watching him.

The next day he did not leave the house, and, indeed, spent most of the time in his own room, sick with a wild terror of dying, and yet indifferent to life itself. The consciousness of being hunted, snared, tracked down, had begun to dominate him. If the tapestry did but tremble in the wind, he shook. The dead leaves that were blown against the leaded panes seemed to him like his own wasted resolutions and wild regrets. When he closed his eyes, he saw again the sailor’s face peering through the mist-stained glass, and horror seemed once more to lay its hand upon his heart.

But perhaps it had been only his fancy that had called vengeance out of the night, and set the hideous shapes of punishment before him. Actual life was chaos, but there was something terribly logical in the imagination. It was the imagination that set remorse to dog the feet of sin. It was the imagination that made each crime bear its misshapen brood. In the common world of fact the wicked were not punished, nor the good rewarded. Success was given to the strong, failure thrust upon the weak. That was all. Besides, had any stranger been prowling round the house he would have been seen by the servants or the keepers. Had any footmarks been found on the flower-beds, the gardeners would have reported it. Yes: it had been merely fancy. Sibyl Vane’s brother had not come back to kill him. He had sailed away in his ship to founder in some winter sea. From him, at any rate, he was safe. Why, the man did not know who he was, could not know who he was. The mask of youth had saved him.

And yet if it had been merely an illusion, how terrible it was to think that conscience could raise such fearful phantoms, and give them
visible form, and make them move before one! What sort of life would his be if, day and night, shadows of his crime were to peer at him from silent corners, to mock him from secret places, to whisper in his ear as he sat at the feast, to wake him with icy fingers as he lay asleep! As the thought crept through his brain, he grew pale with terror, and the air seemed to him to have become suddenly colder. Oh! in what a wild hour of madness he had killed his friend! How ghastly the mere memory of the scene! He saw it all again. Each hideous detail came back to him with added horror. Out of the black cave of Time, terrible and swathed in scarlet, rose the image of his sin. When Lord Henry came in at six o’clock, he found him crying as one whose heart will break.

It was not till the third day that he ventured to go out. There was something in the clear, pine-scented air of that winter morning that seemed to bring him back his joyousness and his ardour for life. But it was not merely the physical conditions of environment that had caused the change. His own nature had revolted against the excess of anguish that had sought to maim and mar the perfection of its calm. With subtle and finely-wrought temperaments it is always so. Their strong passions must either bruise or bend. They either slay the man, or themselves die. Shallow sorrows and shallow loves live on. The loves and sorrows that are great are destroyed by their own plenitude. Besides, he had convinced himself that he had been the victim of a terror-stricken imagination, and looked back now on his fears with something of pity and not a little of contempt.

After breakfast he walked with the Duchess for an hour in the garden, and then drove across the park to join the shooting-party. The crisp frost lay like salt upon the grass. The sky was an inverted cup of blue metal. A thin film of ice bordered the flat reed-grown lake.

At the corner of the pine-wood he caught sight of Sir Geoffrey Clouston, the Duchess’s brother, jerking two spent cartridges out of his gun. He jumped from the cart, and having told the groom to take the mare home, made his way towards his guest through the withered bracken and rough undergrowth.

‘Have you had good sport, Geoffrey?’ he asked.

‘Not very good, Dorian. I think most of the birds have gone to the
open. I dare say it will be better after lunch, when we get to new ground.’

Dorian strolled along by his side. The keen aromatic air, the brown and red lights that glimmered in the wood, the hoarse cries of the beaters ringing out from time to time, and the sharp snaps of the guns that followed, fascinated him, and filled him with a sense of delightful freedom. He was dominated by the carelessness of happiness, by the high indifference of joy.

Suddenly from a lumpy tussock of old grass, some twenty yards in front of them, with black-tipped ears erect, and long hinder limbs throwing it forward, started a hare. It bolted for a thicket of alders. Sir Geoffrey put his gun to his shoulder, but there was something in the animal’s grace of movement that strangely charmed Dorian Gray, and he cried out at once, ‘Don’t shoot it, Geoffrey. Let it live.’

‘What nonsense, Dorian!’ laughed his companion, and as the hare bounded into the thicket he fired. There were two cries heard, the cry of a hare in pain, which is dreadful, the cry of a man in agony, which is worse.

‘Good heavens! I have hit a beater!’ exclaimed Sir Geoffrey. ‘What an ass the man was to get in front of the guns! Stop shooting there!’ he called out at the top of his voice. ‘A man is hurt.’

The head-keeper came running up with a stick in his hand.

‘Where, sir? Where is he?’ he shouted. At the same time the firing ceased along the line.

‘Here,’ answered Sir Geoffrey, angrily, hurrying towards the thicket. ‘Why on earth don’t you keep your men back? Spoiled my shooting for the day.’

Dorian watched them as they plunged into the alder-clump, brushing the lithe, swinging branches aside. In a few moments they emerged, dragging a body after them into the sunlight. He turned away in horror. It seemed to him that misfortune followed wherever he went. He heard Sir Geoffrey ask if the man was really dead, and the affirmative answer of the keeper. The wood seemed to him to have become suddenly alive with faces. There was the trampling of myriad feet, and the low buzz of voices. A great copper-breasted pheasant came beating through the boughs overhead.

After a few moments, that were to him, in his perturbed state, like endless hours of pain, he felt a hand laid on his shoulder. He started, and looked round.

‘Dorian,’ said Lord Henry, ‘I had better tell them that the shooting is stopped for to-day. It would not look well to go on.’

‘I wish it were stopped for ever, Harry,’ he answered, bitterly. ‘The whole thing is hideous and cruel. Is the man…?’

He could not finish the sentence.

‘I am afraid so,’ rejoined Lord Henry. ‘He got the whole charge of shot in his chest. He must have died almost instantaneously. Come; let us go home.’

They walked side by side in the direction of the avenue for nearly fifty yards without speaking. Then Dorian looked at Lord Henry, and said, with a heavy sigh, ‘It is a bad omen, Harry, a very bad omen.’

‘What is?’ asked Lord Henry. ‘Oh! this accident, I suppose. My dear fellow, it can’t be helped. It was the man’s own fault. Why did he get in front of the guns? Besides, it is nothing to us. It is rather awkward for Geoffrey, of course. It does not do to pepper beaters. It makes people think that one is a wild shot. And Geoffrey is not; he shoots very straight. But there is no use talking about the matter.’

Dorian shook his head. ‘It is a bad omen, Harry. I feel as if something horrible were going to happen to some of us. To myself, perhaps,’ he added, passing his hand over his eyes, with a gesture of pain.

The elder man laughed. ‘The only horrible thing in the world is
ennui
,
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Dorian. That is the one sin for which there is no forgiveness. But we are not likely to suffer from it, unless these fellows keep chattering about this thing at dinner. I must tell them that the subject is to be tabooed. As for omens, there is no such thing as an omen. Destiny does not send us heralds. She is too wise or too cruel for that. Besides, what on earth could happen to you, Dorian? You have everything in the world that a man can want. There is no one who would not be delighted to change places with you.’

‘There is no one with whom I would not change places, Harry. Don’t laugh like that. I am telling you the truth. The wretched peasant who has just died is better off than I am. I have no terror of Death. It
is the coming of Death that terrifies me. Its monstrous wings seem to wheel in the leaden air around me. Good heavens! don’t you see a man moving behind the trees there, watching me, waiting for me?’

Lord Henry looked in the direction in which the trembling gloved hand was pointing. ‘Yes,’ he said, smiling, ‘I see the gardener waiting for you. I suppose he wants to ask you what flowers you wish to have on the table to-night. How absurdly nervous you are, my dear fellow! You must come and see my doctor, when we get back to town.’

Dorian heaved a sigh of relief as he saw the gardener approaching. The man touched his hat, glanced for a moment at Lord Henry in a hesitating manner, and then produced a letter, which he handed to his master. ‘Her Grace told me to wait for an answer,’ he murmured.

Dorian put the letter into his pocket. ‘Tell her Grace that I am coming in,’ he said, coldly. The man turned round, and went rapidly in the direction of the house.

‘How fond women are of doing dangerous things!’ laughed Lord Henry. ‘It is one of the qualities in them that I admire most. A woman will flirt with anybody in the world as long as other people are looking on.’

‘How fond you are of saying dangerous things, Harry! In the present instance you are quite astray. I like the Duchess very much, but I don’t love her.’

‘And the Duchess loves you very much, but she likes you less, so you are excellently matched.’

‘You are talking scandal, Harry, and there is never any basis for scandal.’

‘The basis of every scandal is an immoral certainty,’ said Lord Henry, lighting a cigarette.

‘You would sacrifice anybody, Harry, for the sake of an epigram.’

‘The world goes to the altar of its own accord,’ was the answer.

‘I wish I could love,’ cried Dorian Gray, with a deep note of pathos in his voice. ‘But I seem to have lost the passion, and forgotten the desire. I am too much concentrated on myself. My own personality has become a burden to me. I want to escape, to go away, to forget. It was silly of me to come down here at all. I think I shall send a wire to Harvey to have the yacht got ready. On a yacht one is safe.’

‘Safe from what, Dorian? You are in some trouble. Why not tell me what it is? You know I would help you.’

‘I can’t tell you, Harry,’ he answered, sadly. ‘And I dare say it is only a fancy of mine. This unfortunate accident has upset me. I have a horrible presentiment that something of the kind may happen to me.’

‘What nonsense!’

‘I hope it is, but I can’t help feeling it. Ah! here is the Duchess, looking like Artemis
²
in a tailor-made gown. You see we have come back, Duchess.’

‘I have heard all about it, Mr Gray,’ she answered. ‘Poor Geoffrey is terribly upset. And it seems that you asked him not to shoot the hare. How curious!’

‘Yes, it was very curious. I don’t know what made me say it. Some whim, I suppose. It looked the loveliest of little live things. But I am sorry they told you about the man. It is a hideous subject.’

‘It is an annoying subject,’ broke in Lord Henry. ‘It has no psychological value at all. Now if Geoffrey had done the thing on purpose, how interesting he would be! I should like to know some one who had committed a real murder.’

‘How horrid of you, Harry!’ cried the Duchess. ‘Isn’t it, Mr Gray? Harry, Mr Gray is ill again. He is going to faint.’

Dorian drew himself up with an effort, and smiled. ‘It is nothing, Duchess,’ he murmured; ‘my nerves are dreadfully out of order. That is all. I am afraid I walked too far this morning. I didn’t hear what Harry said. Was it very bad? You must tell me some other time. I think I must go and lie down. You will excuse me, won’t you?’

They had reached the great flight of steps that led from the conservatory on to the terrace. As the glass door closed behind Dorian, Lord Henry turned and looked at the Duchess with his slumberous eyes. ‘Are you very much in love with him?’ he asked.

She did not answer for some time, but stood gazing at the landscape. ‘I wish I knew,’ she said at last.

He shook his head. ‘Knowledge would be fatal. It is the uncertainty that charms one. A mist makes things wonderful.’

‘One may lose one’s way.’

‘All ways end at the same point, my dear Gladys.’

‘What is that?’

‘Disillusion.’

‘It was my
début
in life,’ she sighed.

‘It came to you crowned.’

‘I am tired of strawberry leaves.’
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‘They become you.’

‘Only in public.’

‘You would miss them,’ said Lord Henry.

‘I will not part with a petal.’

‘Monmouth has ears.’

‘Old age is dull of hearing.’

‘Has he never been jealous?’

‘I wish he had been.’

He glanced about as if in search of something. ‘What are you looking for?’ she inquired.

‘The button from your foil,’ he answered. ‘You have dropped it.’

She laughed. ‘I have still the mask.’

‘It makes your eyes lovelier,’ was his reply.

She laughed again. Her teeth showed like white seeds in a scarlet fruit.

Upstairs, in his own room, Dorian Gray was lying on a sofa, with terror in every tingling fibre of his body. Life had suddenly become too hideous a burden for him to bear. The dreadful death of the unlucky beater, shot in the thicket like a wild animal, had seemed to him to prefigure death for himself also. He had nearly swooned at what Lord Henry had said in a chance mood of cynical jesting.

At five o’clock he rang his bell for his servant and gave him orders to pack his things for the night-express to town, and to have the brougham at the door by eight-thirty. He was determined not to sleep another night at Selby Royal. It was an ill-omened place. Death walked there in the sunlight. The grass of the forest had been spotted with blood.

Then he wrote a note to Lord Henry, telling him that he was going up to town to consult his doctor, and asking him to entertain his guests in his absence. As he was putting it into the envelope, a knock came to the door, and his valet informed him that the head-keeper wished
to see him. He frowned, and bit his lip. ‘Send him in,’ he muttered, after some moments’ hesitation.