The Roy Stories (24 page)

 

Black Space

“Isn't that terrible? Roy, did you hear that just now on the radio?”

“I wasn't really listening Mom. I'm reading the story of Ferdinand Magellan. Did you know there's a cloud named after him that's a black space in the Milky Way? What happened?”

“They found two cut-up bodies in suitcases in the left-luggage department in the railway station in New Orleans.”

“Do they know who put them there?”

“The attendant told police it was a heavyset, middle-aged white woman who wore glasses and a black raincoat with what looked like orange paint stains on it.”

“It's raining now. When it rains in Louisiana, everything gets fuzzy.”

“What do you mean, things get fuzzy?”

“The drops are wobbly on the windows and that makes shapes outside weird.”

“People are capable of anything, baby, you know that? The problem is you can never really know who you're dealing with, like this woman who chopped up those bodies.”

“Were they children?”

“Who? The corpses in the suitcases?”

“Uh-huh.”

“No, honey, I'm sure they were adults.”

“But the crazy lady who did it is loose.”

“They'll get her, Roy, don't worry. Maybe not right away, but they will.”

“Do you think it's easy to kill someone, Mom?”

“What a strange question to ask. I don't know. I suppose for some people it is.”

“Could you do it?”

“Maybe with a gun if I were being threatened. I've never really thought about it.”

“Could you cut up a body like she did?”

“Roy, stop it. Of course not. Let's talk about something else. Are you hungry? We can stop in Manchac and get fried catfish at Middendorf's.”

“I wonder if she wrapped the body parts up so blood didn't go everywhere.”

“Please, baby. I'm sorry I mentioned it.”

“Remember the shrunken head Uncle Jack brought back from New Guinea?”

“How could I forget?”

“Somebody had to chop it off before it got shrunk. Or do you think the whole body was shrunk first?”

“Roy, that's enough.”

“I bet that attendant was really surprised when he saw what was inside those suitcases.”

“They must have begun to smell badly so the attendant got suspicious. I think he called the police, though, and they opened the suitcases.”

“Do you think the woman is still in New Orleans?”

“Baby, how would I know? Maybe she just took a train and beat it out of town. I'm sure she did. She's probably in Phoenix, Arizona, by now.”

“Nobody really has control over anybody else, do they?”

“A lot of people don't have control over themselves, that's how a horrible thing like this can happen. Now stop thinking about it. Think about horses, Roy, how beautiful they are when they run.”

“Mom, you won't leave me alone tonight, okay?”

“No, baby, I won't go out tonight. I promise.”

 

Fear and Desire

“I don't like when the sky gets dark so early.”

“That's what happens in the winter, Roy. The days are a lot shorter and colder because our side of the planet is farther away from the sun.”

“The trees look beautiful without leaves, don't they, Mom?”

“I like when it's sunny and cold. It makes my skin feel so good. We'll stop soon, baby, in Door County. I'm a little tired.”

“I think I dream better in winter.”

“Maybe because you sleep more.”

“Mom, what do you think of dreams?”

“What do I think of them?”

“Yeah. I mean, what are they? Are they real?”

“Sure, they're real. Sometimes you find out things in dreams that you can't any other way.”

“Like what?”

“Some experts think dreams are wishes. You dream about what you really want to happen.”

“Once I dreamed that I was running in a forest and wolves were chasing me. There was a real big red wolf that caught me in deep snow and started eating one of my legs. Then I woke up. I didn't want that to happen.”

“Maybe it meant something else. Also, dreams depend on what's happening around you at the time. Dreams are full of symbols.”

“What's a symbol?”

“Something that represents something else, like the red wolf in your dream. The red wolf was a symbol of a fear or desire.”

“I was afraid of the wolf because I didn't want him to bite me.”

“Do you remember anything else about the dream?”

“The red wolf didn't have any eyes, only dark holes where his eyes were supposed to be.”

“This sounds like a case for Sigmund Freud.”

“Is he a detective?”

“No, baby, he was a doctor who studied dreams and wrote about them.”

“If I'd had a gun I would have shot that wolf.”

“It's not always so easy to get rid of something that's chasing you, because it's inside your own mind.”

“You mean the red wolf is hiding in my brain?”

“Don't worry, Roy, the wolf won't bother you again. You woke up before he could hurt you.”

“The sky's all dark now. Mom, is desire bad or good?”

“It can be either, depending on what it is and why a person desires something.”

“A person can't decide not to dream.”

“No, baby, dreams either come or they don't. We'll stay at the Ojibway Inn. Remember that motel with the Indian chief on the sign?”

“I bet everybody has scary dreams sometimes.”

“Of course they do.”

“I hope the red wolf is chasing somebody else now.”

 

God's Tornado

“Oh, Roy, I just love this song. I'll turn it up.”

“What is it?”

“‘Java Jive' by the Ink Spots. Listen: ‘I love java sweet and hot, whoops Mr. Moto, I'm a coffee pot.'”

“That's crazy, Mom. What's it mean?”

“‘I love the java and the java loves me.' It's just a silly little song that was popular when I was a girl. Coffee's called java because coffee beans come from there.”

“Where?”

“The island of Java, near Borneo.”

“Borneo's where the wild men are.”

“It's part of Indonesia. Coffee wakes you up, makes you feel jivey, you know, jumpy.”

“Who's Mr. Moto?”

“Peter Lorre played him in the movies. He was a Japanese detective.”

“Why is he in the song?”

“I don't have the faintest, baby. I guess just because he was a popular character at the time, before the war.”

“Look, Mom, there's tree branches all over the road.”

“Sit back, honey, I don't want you to bump your head.”

“There must have been a big windstorm.”

“This part of the country is called Tornado Alley. I don't know why people would live here, especially in trailers. It's always the trailers that get destroyed by tornadoes.”

“Where were we when a tornado made all those rocks fall on our car?”

“Kansas. Wasn't that terrible? There were hundreds of dents on the roof and the hood, and we had to get a new windshield.”

“Where does weather come from?”

“From everywhere, baby. The wind starts blowing in the middle of the Arabian Sea or the South China Sea or somewhere, and stirs up the waves. Pretty soon there's a storm and clouds form and the planet rotates and spins so the rain or snow works its way around and melts or hardens depending on the temperature.”

“Does the temperature depend on how close you are to heaven or hell?”

“No, Roy, heaven and hell have nothing to do with the weather. What matters most is where a place is in relation to the equator.”

“I know where that is. It's a line around the globe.”

“The nearer to the equator, the hotter it is.”

“I think hell must be on the equator, Mom. The ground opens up like a big grave and when the planet turns all the bad people fall in.”

“How do good people get to heaven?”

“A whirly wind called God's Tornado comes and picks them up and takes them there. People disappear all the time after a tornado.”

“And what about purgatory, the place where people are that God hasn't decided about yet?”

“I think they wait on the planet until God or the Devil chooses them.”

“Are they kept in any particular place?”

“I'm not sure. Maybe they just stay where they are, and they don't even know they're waiting.”

“I don't know if you know it, baby, but what you say makes perfect sense. I wish I could write down some of these things, or we had a tape recorder to keep them.”

“Don't worry, Mom, I've got a good memory. I won't forget anything.”

 

Sad
Stories
of the
Death of Kings

 

The Age of Fable

Roy read a story about a tribe of female warriors who interrupted the conflict between the Greeks and the Trojans in their quest for males to assist in the propagation of their race. These women called themselves Amazons and were led by Penthesilea, who, as had the rest of the tribe, severed her right breast in order to more swiftly and easily draw back her bow. The most exciting part of the story, Roy thought, was the Amazon queen's confrontation with the champion of the Greeks, Achilles, whose ferocity in battle attracted Penthesilea as no man ever had before. For the first time she encountered a man whom she could consider her equal.

The idea of a tribe of brave, vicious, single-breasted women was almost beyond the comprehension of Roy's eleven-year-old mind. He drew pictures of the Amazons as he imagined them: naked, tall and lean, their long hair tied back with leather thongs.

Roy asked his grandfather if he'd ever read this story.

“Sure,” said Pops, “it's in
The Iliad
, by Homer.”

“That's right,” Roy said. “I kind of found it by accident on a table at the library. Do you think there really ever was a tribe of savage women like that?”

“I don't think savage is the correct word for them, Roy. They knew what they were doing. The Amazons wanted to be independent of men, the problem being that they needed men to impregnate them in order to keep their race from dying out.”

“But they only wanted girls, right?”

Pops nodded.

“Then what did they do with boy babies?”

“Killed at birth,” Pops said. “Drowned them or slit their throats.”

“It's just a story, though, isn't it?” Roy asked. “Homer made it all up.”

“Yes,” said Pops, “but there's a lot of truth to it. Even today many Chinese drown their female babies because they think they're worth less than men.”

“But they need girls to keep China going.”

“They don't drown all of 'em.”

After talking to Pops, Roy walked over to the park to see if anybody was playing ball. Halfway there it started to rain, so Roy ducked under a canopy in front of the entrance to an apartment building. A very tall, sturdily built blonde lady wearing a thin black coat came out of the building. She stopped under a canopy and looked at the rain, which was falling hard.

“Damn!” she said. “Now it'll be a bitch to get a cab.”

She turned around and walked back into the building without glancing at Roy. He waited under the canopy for a few more minutes until the rain let up a little, then ran back to his house.

Pops was sitting in the kitchen eating a chopped chicken liver sandwich and drinking a beer.

“I thought you were going to the park to play ball,” he said.

“There won't be a game. Maybe I'll go when it stops raining.”

Roy opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of milk.

“What's the leader of the Amazons called?” he asked.

“A virago,” said Pops.

“Is that the same as queen?”

“You need a king to have a queen, Roy. No, a virago is a termagant.”

“Termagant? That sounds like an insect.”

Pops bit into his sandwich.

“It means a big, tough woman,” he said, as he chewed.

“I guess the Chinese don't want any of them,” said Roy.

“Probably not,” Pops said. “Close the refrigerator door.”

 

The Great Failure

Roy was puzzled by the last words spoken by the dying father to his daughter at the end of the movie
The Great Failure
: “It is far more difficult to forget than to remember. How much happier I might have been had I sooner understood this simple fact.”

Roy was nine years old when he saw
The Great Failure
at the Uptown theater with Jimmy Boyle. It was part of a double bill with
Taza, Son of Cochise
, the movie he and Boyle had gone to see, where Rock Hudson plays the Apache chief's kid who joins up with the renegade Geronimo.

“Rock must've spent a lot of time lyin' around his swimming pool in Beverly Hills to get that good a roastin',” said Jimmy Boyle.

“They rub grease on his skin to turn it dark,” Roy said. “That way he doesn't get burned.”

“He still don't look like an Indian,” said Jimmy. “He looks like an actor with a Hollywood tan. Rocky Graziano looks more like an Indian than Rock Hudson.”

Both Boyle and Roy were shivering in the late December wind as they walked home.

“And he don't talk like one, neither,” Jimmy added.

“Mrs. Sweeney, the librarian at Clinton, doesn't sound like an Indian either,” said Roy, “and she is an Indian.”

“Oh yeah? What tribe?”

“Navajo. She told us she grew up on a reservation in New Mexico.”

“No shit. How'd she get to Chicago?”

“Went to a college for Indians in Kansas, then got a job here.”

“Her skin stay dark even in the winter?” asked Jimmy.

“Yeah.”

“She ever talk Navajo?”

Roy shook his head. “Not at school. Maybe at home she does.”

That night Roy thought more about what the dying father said at the end of
The Great Failure
. His daughter in the movie was about the same age as Roy and Roy wondered if she was supposed to have understood what her father meant about it being tougher to forget things than remember them. Roy remembered everything; he could read or see or hear something and it stayed in his brain and when he needed to recall it, or even sometimes when he didn't try to recall it, he could. Roy assumed it would always be this way, which was why he was curious about what the father said about being happy. Things happened and either they were good or bad and depending on what they were a person was happy or sad.

Before he fell asleep, Roy decided that the father thought he was a failure even though he had been a rich lawyer who had become governor of his state and run for president of the United States. He hadn't failed because he lost the presidential election but because he hadn't spent enough time with his wife and daughter and made them unhappy. His wife had committed suicide by jumping off a bridge into a raging river during a thunderstorm and was swept away and drowned; and his daughter liked to tear the arms and legs off of her dolls.

The family in
The Great Failure
lived in a mansion in New York and had servants and a big car. Taza, the son of Cochise, lived in a teepee in a desert, rode a buckskin horse bareback and spent most of his time fighting against the U.S. cavalry. Taza was not puzzled but he was not happy, either. Roy was almost always happiest when he was alone. Neither the father nor Taza were ever really alone, so maybe that had something to do with it.