The Satanist (27 page)

‘And what did he say?’

‘That he did not, as he had never interested himself in Yoga.’

Mary’s glance wavered. ‘How very strange!’

Barney’s smile held no hint of accusation, and he replied:
‘Not necessarily. He may not have thought me a good Yoga subject. He did say, though, that he was in touch with occultists who had passed a higher degree of initiation than any I was likely to meet at Mrs. Wardeel’s, and that he might, perhaps, sometime introduce me to some of them. But he thought that before we talked of the matter further, it would be a good thing if I acquired a better background knowledge of the occult by continuing to attend the lectures at Mrs. W.’s for another month or so.’

‘I see; and do you intend to do that?’

‘Certainly; if he insists on it. But, as I am pretty good at selling myself, I hope to persuade him to adopt a more forthcoming attitude next week. Let’s forget all this now, though, and talk of something else. To be honest, too, I had no time to get a snack before going to the meeting, so I’m absolutely famished.’

The table was already laid. Glad to drop the subject, Mary told him to sit down at it, and harried into her kitchenette. For a first course, as the weather had turned cold, she had heated up some tomato soup, to which she now added a good dollop of cream. As she did so she thought first how decent it was of Barney to have refrained from tackling her about Ratnadatta’s having denied all knowledge of Yoga, and then of the way that the Indian had stalled him off.

She felt very glad that Ratnadatta had, otherwise he might have sounded Barney out over a dinner next Saturday then, perhaps, have taken him on to the Temple and given him a sight from the balcony of what went on there. A fortnight ago, with the idea of leading Barney to believe that she was a bold and sophisticated woman, she had starred to tell him about what she had seen herself; only the spilling of the wine had caused her afterwards to insist that she had been fooling, and now she was very glad about that, because her attitude towards him had undergone a subtle change. She knew she would be ashamed if he found out that she really had let Ratnadatta take her to such a party and, instead of breaking with him, still refused to give any
promise that she would not go with him to the Temple again.

But soon such thoughts were driven from her mind by Barney’s gay, inconsequent chatter, as they tucked in to the good things she had provided for their supper and shared another bottle of the excellent Hock. Afterwards they sat down side by side on the sofa and she felt sure that, as she had kissed him on Saturday, this evening he would display no ultra chivalrous scruples about being in her flat, but soon start making love to her.

She had meant him to from the beginning and now, her original motive temporarily forgotten, she knew that she wanted him to. But, on a typical feminine impulse to postpone the moment a little longer, she lit a cigarette and asked: ‘What was the lecture about this evening?’

‘The Vedas,’ he replied, ‘and how Theosophy ties up with the sacred writings of the Hindus. I can’t say that it gave me a yen to take up the study of Indian mythology as a hobby, but at least it made more sense than they gave us last week about old Koot Hoomi and the Master the Count. The second part of the show was a bit of a flop, though. They put a large table in the middle of the room and six people and a medium sat round it. Then they set about receiving spirit messages by table rapping. It was a slow and dreary business, and only one came through that was of any interest.’

‘And what was that?’ she asked.

Turning his head he looked straight into her eyes, and said: ‘Some big shot up on the astral plane wanted to know why you hadn’t reported for duty.’

Mary jumped to her feet; her mouth fell open, her blue eyes went round with terror, and she cried, ‘No, Barney; no! You don’t mean it!’

He had got the type of reaction he had played for, but far more strongly than he had expected. Standing up, he exclaimed: ‘Hi, steady on! Of course not.
I
was only fooling.’

‘Oh, thank God for that!’ she gasped. ‘Thank God for
that! You gave me a most awful fright.’ Next moment her mouth began to tremble and she burst into tears.

Swiftly he gathered her into his arms, and made little comforting noises while for several minutes she sobbed upon his chest. Then, when her sobs eased a little, he said: ‘My sweet, I’m terribly sorry that I scared you so badly, but I had to know the truth. You’ve given yourself away now, and you really must come clean with me. You’ve got in deeper than I thought, and…’

‘No… really,’ she sniffled. ‘I haven’t seen Ratnadatta recently. I swear I haven’t. Not since I promised you I wouldn’t.’

‘Well, that’s some comfort. But tonight he blew wide open your story about Yoga being his game. It’s nothing of the kind, and you had started to tell me about it that night at the Hungaria when we spilt the wine. That’s the truth, isn’t it?’

‘Yes,’ she murmured tearfully.

He kissed her on the forehead, then said, with a frown: ‘You’re a darling, Margot, and what puzzles me is how a decent girl like you could even contemplate taking part in such beastliness.’

‘I… I have a very good reason.’

‘Tell me what it is?’

‘No, please don’t ask me.’

‘Is it something to do with your past?’

‘Yes.’

‘All right, then. Don’t treat me as though I were a starryeyed youth who’d never heard the facts of life. At times everyone does things they are ashamed of afterwards. I don’t give a damn what you’ve done.’

‘It’s nothing I am ashamed of.’

‘Then why on earth won’t you tell me what it is?’

‘I can’t. Really I can’t. If I did you might insist on trying to help me.’

‘All the more reason to go ahead.’

‘No. I’m not going to let you run into danger, just
because I’ve been fool enough to bite off more than I can chew.’

‘Margot, you must tell me! You’ve got yourself in the hell of a mess. It’s as clear as daylight that you’re scared stiff of something. I love you, my dear, and…’

She suddenly lifted her face to his and, her eyes still misty with tears, cried, ‘Do you mean that?’

For a second Barney was a little taken aback. He enjoyed his life as a bachelor and did not want to put it into her head that he was on the verge of proposing to her; so he replied with a smile, ‘Wanting to protect someone is one of the first symptoms, isn’t it? If so, I’ve got it. And I’m determined to free you from the cause of your terror. But I can’t fight your battle if you leave me in the dark. That’s why you must tell me how you got drawn in to this thing.’

‘Well … all right, then. I’ll give you my reason for leading Ratnadatta on until he took me to his Temple. But nothing more. Nothing. You understand? It was because I hoped it might lead to my being avenged on someone.’

Barney gave her a surprised look. ‘Really! I shouldn’t have thought you were a vindictive sort of girl. Of course, when a hurt has had lasting consequences, wanting to get one’s own back is very natural. Still, what you tell me surprises me all the more because I thought you had become a believer in Reincarnation.’

‘I have. But I don’t see what that’s got to do with it.’

‘Then you can’t have consciously taken in one of its principal teachings. As I understand it, every evil deed has to be paid for either in this or some future life. There is no escaping that, but payment may be made in one of two ways. Either the injured party exercises his right to return tit for tat or, failing that, Karma takes the form of appearing to have some natural cause – like a brick falling on the head of a chap who at some time in the past had hit someone on the head with a hammer. That someone could have hit him back and, providing the blow was no harder, not
received a bad mark. But progress to a higher state can be made only by learning forgiveness, and refusing to take such opportunities. If you are still running around with a tomahawk, you’re not going to stand much chance of getting yourself promoted from one of the lower forms in this vale of tears.’

They were still standing in front of the fireplace, he with one arm about her, and she looking down. Now she raised her head, and said: ‘I suppose you are right. I heard it all, of course; but, somehow, I failed to apply it to myself.’

‘You will, though, won’t you?’ he urged. ‘Please Margot. Give up this idea of seeking revenge.’

Suddenly she began to laugh. She was still wrought up and her laughter held a slightly hysterical note. It had just occurred to her that, although completely ignorant of the fact, Barney was also implying that she should give up her plan for being revenged on him and that, if she did, in some future life as a young girl, someone would put him in the family way.

Taking her by the shoulders, he gave her a quick shake and said, sharply: ‘Stop that! This is nothing to laugh about.’

She stopped and shook her head. ‘I’m sorry. It was just a thought that crossed my mind. You would laugh, too, if I told you. But no, perhaps you wouldn’t; and, anyway, I won’t.’ Fishing out her handkerchief she blew her nose, and went on more calmly. ‘You are quite right, my dear. I must try to forget past wrongs.’

‘That’s better. Then you’ll have no cause for seeing Ratnadatta again, ever. You have no definite date with him, have you?’

‘No; er … not exactly. He was going to let me know when he would take me to the Temple for my next step towards initiation. But he said that might not be for some time.’

‘If he does, you must let me know, and I’ll deal with him. But I want your solemn promise that you’ll have
nothing further to do with him or any other of these Satanists.’

She sighed, then gave him a wan smile. ‘Very well. I’ll give up the project I’d set my mind on. But … but say he comes here and tries to force me into going with him? Like all these people he can call to his aid supernatural power. I’m sure of that. Perhaps I won’t be able to resist him.’

Barney thought for a moment, then he said: ‘You were brought up as a Catholic, weren’t you?’

‘Yes.’ She sighed again. ‘But for
a
long time past I haven’t been a practising one.’

‘No matter. I’ll bet you’ve still got a crucifix somewhere about the place.’

She nodded. ‘Yes, I would never have parted with it.’

‘All right, then. Keep it with you from now on. Carry it in your bag wherever you go. If Ratnadatta comes here, or waylays you in the street, produce it. I know little enough about this sort of thing, but I’m certain that the sight of a crucifix scares the pants off any Satanist. Hold it in front of his face, and tell him to get back to the Devil.’

‘Oh, Barney, what a comfort to me you are,’ she murmured, throwing an arm about his neck. Their mouths met in their first really long, rich kiss. As it ended he picked her up, laid her on the sofa, knelt down beside her, and said:

‘You are rewarding me for something I’ve not yet done. But you must know that I’m crazy about you, and I’d be crazier still if I refused to accept a little payment in advance.’

‘It’s not payment,’ she breathed. ‘It’s just because I like you. I can’t help it’

Half an hour went by in what seemed to them only a few minutes; then the clock on the mantelpiece chimed twelve. Gently releasing herself from his embrace she said: ‘Barney, you must go. By modern standards no one seems to bother much about what goes on up to midnight; but if someone in the house saw you leaving my flat much after that they’d think the worst.’

Reluctantly he stood up, and grinned at her. ‘I’ve never
yet wanted less to say “goodnight” to anyone. But needs must, if it’s a matter of your reputation.’

‘When will I see you again?’ she asked.

He thought for a moment, and mentally cursed the fact that on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday evenings he was committed to Branch meetings which it would be neglecting his job to cut. ‘I’m afraid not until Saturday. We might go to the Berkeley again. Anyhow I’ll call for you, in a black tie, at half-past-seven.’

‘Can’t we meet before that?’

‘I’m sorry, but for the next three evenings I’ve engagements I can’t very well wriggle out of. But what about lunch? Are you free tomorrow?’

‘No. I have to take part in a dress show at a big store down in Croydon. And I’ve another in the West End on Friday, which would put lunch out of the question. But Thursday would be all right.’

He shook his head. ‘Stymied again. That’s the one day I have to be out of London. I have to run down to Birmingham to interest some travel agents there in trips to Kenya.’

Inwardly she winced. That at such a moment he should have brought up again the Kenya background, which she felt certain was false, as an excuse not to give her lunch, affected her as badly as if he had hit her. She began to wonder how he meant to spend his evenings.

Quite unconscious that this cover for a visit he had arranged to pay to Dagenham, with two Communist officials who were going down to meet local Comrades there, had caused her such distress, Barney prepared to depart. That her ‘goodnight’ kiss was only lukewarm he put down to her being emotionally exhausted. With a cheerful admonition to keep her chin up and be looking her most beautiful when he called for her on Saturday evening, he left her and tiptoed down the stairs.

On the three evenings that followed he duly played his part at Branch meetings as a disgruntled worker out to seize on any pretext to make trouble. One of the pay-offs that
he received from time to time as a result of this bellicose attitude came to him in a pub, while he was drinking there with some of his Communist contacts, just before closing time on the Friday night. Feeling that it was of sufficient importance to call for reporting without delay, he looked in at the office on Saturday morning.

After a short wait, Verney had him shown in, told him to sit down, and said: ‘Well, young feller. Saturday’s an unusual day for you to call. What’s cooking?’

‘I’m afraid that the C.G.T. election is going to be rigged, Sir,’ he announced with a frown.

The Colonel gave him a sharp glance. ‘Got any proof of that?’

‘No; it’s a tip I was given last night after a meeting in Hammersmith. One of my Red buddies had one over the odds and became confidential. He told me that if I wanted to make a bit of easy money I could do it by laying bets that Tom Ruddy would not top the poll for General Secretary. I played doubtful, but he swore he wouldn’t let a pal like me down, and that it was a cert; only I must keep it under my hat and not get people talking by making bigger bets than a pound or two with any one person.’