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“Give me an example of what you mean.”

A dreary cloud settled on Quoyle. “Well, Bunny doesn't like the color of the house. That dark green.” That sounded idiotic. It was what had happened in the kitchen. He could overlook the rest. The stewed cod and the squidburger came. Quoyle bit at the squidburger as though at wrist ropes.

“The nightmares, for one thing. And the way she cries and yells over nothing. At six, six and a half, a kid shouldn't behave like that. You remember how she thought she saw a dog the first day we came to the house? Scared stiff of a white dog with red eyes? How we looked and looked and never saw a track nor trace?” Quoyle's voice roughened. He'd give anything to be away. Yet plowed on.

“Yes, of course I remember.” The fork scraping away on the aunt's dish, kitchen heat, the din of knives, swelling laughter. “There was another white dog adventure couple weeks ago. You know that little white stone I had on my garden rock? If you squinted at it it looked like a dog's head? She come pounding on the door, yelling her head off. I thought something terrible'd happened. Couldn't get her to stop yelling and tell me what was the matter. At last she holds out her hand. There's a tiny cut on one finger, tiny, about a quarter of an inch long. One drop of blood. I put a bandage on it and she calmed down. Wouldn't say how she got the cut. But a couple days later she says to me that she threw away ‘the dog-face stone' and it bit her. She says it was a dog bite on her finger.”

The aunt laughed to show it wasn't anything to have a fit about.

“That's what I
mean
. She imagines these things.” Quoyle had swallowed the squidburger. He was stifled. The aunt was making nothing out of something, sliding away from things that needed to be said. The people behind him were listening. He could feel their attention. Whispered. “Look, I'm concerned. I really am. Worried
sick, in fact. Saturday morning when you went to pick up your package? We just came in to make lunch. I was going to heat up some soup. Sunshine was struggling with her boots—you know she wants to take her own boots off. Bunny was getting out the box of crackers for the soup, she was opening the box and the waxed paper inside was crackling when all of a sudden she stops. She stares at the door. She starts to cry. Aunt, I swear she was scared to death. She says, ‘Daddy, the dog is scratching on the door. Lock the door!' Then she starts to scream. Sunshine, sitting there with one boot in her hands, holding her breath. I should have opened the door to show her there was nothing there, but instead I locked it. You know why? Because I was afraid there
might
be something there. The force of her fear was that strong.”

“Tch,” said the aunt.

“Yes,” said Quoyle. “And the minute I locked it she stopped screaming and picked up the cracker box and took out two crackers. Cool as a cucumber. Now tell me that's normal. I'd like to hear it. As it is I'm wondering if she shouldn't go to a child psychologist. Or somebody.”

“You know, Nephew, I wouldn't rush to do that. I'd give it some time. There's other possibilities. What I'm getting at is maybe she is sensitive in a way the rest of us aren't. Tuned in to things we don't get. There's people here like that.” Looked sidewise at Quoyle to see how he took that. That his daughter might glimpse things beyond static reality.

But Quoyle didn't believe in strange genius. Feared that loss, the wretchedness of childhood, his own failure to love her enough had damaged Bunny.

“Why don't you just wait, Nephew. See how it goes. She starts school in September. Three months is a long time for a child. I agree with you that she's different, you might say she is a bit strange sometimes, but you know, we're all different though we may pretend otherwise. We're all strange inside. We learn how to disguise our differentness as we grow up. Bunny doesn't do that yet.”

Quoyle exhaled, slid his hand over his chin. A feeling they weren't talking about Bunny at all. But who, then? The conversation burned off like fog in sunlight.

The aunt ate her fish, a tangle of bones on the side of the plate that the waitress called the devil's nail clippings.

Walked back to the shop. As they came along the sidewalk, through the window he saw the part in Mrs. Bangs's black hair as she bent over a chair seat prying out tacks with a ripping chisel.

“So,” the aunt said. “It was good to talk about this. It's a shame, but I've got to stay in late tonight. We've got to tack off the banquettes. We've got to be done with the lot by next Tuesday, finished and installed. If you'll pick up the girls. And don't worry about Bunny. She's still a little girl.”

But that had not stopped Guy. She had been Bunny's age the first time.

“Yes,” said Quoyle, lightened and rived by a few seconds of happiness. Well, he would wait and see. Anything could happen. “Will you have supper in town or shall we have something for you?”

“Oh I'll just get a bite here. You go ahead. You'll need to get some milk and more ice for the cooler. Don't get all fussed over nothing.”

“I won't,” said Quoyle, “good-bye,” leaning toward the aunt's soft cheek, faintly scented with avocado oil soap. She meant well. But knew nothing about children and the anguish they suffered.

16

Beety's Kitchen

“The housewife's needs are multifarious but most of her requirements are not peculiar and most of what she requires is to be found in the general classifications.”

THE ASHLEY BOOK OF KNOTS

A FINE part of Quoyle's day came when he picked up his daughters at Dennis and Beety's house. His part in life seemed richer, he became more of a father, at the same time could expose true feelings which were often of yearning.

The hill tilting toward the water, the straggled pickets and then Dennis's aquamarine house with a picture window toward the street. Quoyle pulled pens from his shirt, put them on the dashboard before he went in. For pens got in the way. The door opened into the kitchen. Quoyle stepped around and over children. In the living room, under a tinted photograph of two stout women lolling in ferns, Dennis slouched on leopard-print sofa cushions, watched the fishery news. On each side of him crocheted pillows in rainbows and squares. Carpenter at Home.

The house was hot, smelled of baking bread. But Quoyle loved this stifling yeast-heat, the chatter and child-yelp above the din of the television. Sometimes tears glazed the scene, he felt as though Dennis and Beety were his secret parents although Dennis was his age and Beety was younger.

Dennis barely looked away from the screen but shouted at the kitchen.

“Make us some tea, mother.”

The water faucet gushed into the kettle. A smaller kettle steamed on the white stove. Beety swept at the kitchen table with the side of her hand, set out a loaf of bread. Winnie, the oldest Buggit child, got a stack of plates. As Quoyle sat down Bunny threw herself at him as though he had just arrived from a long, dangerous voyage, hugged, rammed her head against him. Nothing wrong with her. Nothing. Sunshine playing spider with Murchie Buggit, her fingers creeping up his arm, saying tickle, tickle.

Sitting at the kitchen table with children in his lap, eating bread and yellow bakeapple jam, Quoyle nodded, listened. Dennis was deliberate with the day's news, Beety had the crazy stories that branched off into others without ever finishing.

The tablecloth was printed with a design of trumpets and soap bubbles. Dennis said he was disgusted; his buddy Carl had driven into a construction trench across the road up Bone Hill. He was in hospital with a broken neck. Beety put saucers of canned apricots in front of the children. Bunny lifted her spoon, put it down.

“Seems like he's marked. He's the one had a fright, eight, nine years ago. Turned his hair snow-white in a month. He was out fishing, see, with his brother near the Cauldron, and see this limp old thing lying in the water. He thought it was a ghost net, you know, broke loose and come up to the surface. So to it they goes, he gives a poke with his hook, and dear Lord in the morning, this great big tentacle comes up out of the water—” Dennis held his arm above his head, hand curved and menacing, “and seizes him. Seizes him around the arm. He says you never felt such strength. Well, lucky for him he wasn't alone. His brother grabs up the knife he was using to cut cod and commences sawing at that gripping tentacle, all muscle and the suckers clamped tight enough
to leave terrible marks. But he cut it through and got the motor started, his heart half out of his mouth expecting to feel the other tentacles coming down on his shoulder. They was out of there. The university paid them money for that cut-off tentacle. And now he busts his neck going into a ditch in the road. What's the point!”

Bunny down and whispering to Beety, getting the bacon from the refrigerator to show Quoyle. The famous bacon from the pig that Dennis had killed. Quoyle widened his eyes and raised his brows to show Bunny he was deeply impressed. But listened to Dennis.

“I never learned nothing about fishing from Dad. He loves fishing—but he loves it for himself. He tried to keep me away from it, tried to keep all of us off the water. It had the effect, see, of Jesson getting in with Uncle Gordon's crowd, and me just wanting to be on the water. Oh, I wanted to be a carpenter, right enough, but I wanted to fish, too,” he went on dreamily. “Proper thing. There's something to it you can't describe, something like opening a present every time you haul up the net. You never know what's going to be in it, if it will make you rich or put you under the red line, sculpins or dogfish. So I wanted to fish. Because the Buggits are all water dogs, you know. All of us. Even the girls. Marge is a sailboat instructor in Ontario. Eva's the social director for a cruise ship. Oh, you can't keep us off the boats. But Dad tried his damndest.”

“He was afraid for you.”

“Yes, that. And it's like he knows something, like he knows something about the Buggits and the sea. Dad's got the gift. He knew when Jesson's boat went down, just like he knew where to go to find me when the
Polar Grinder
was damaged. I'll never forget the time with poor Jesson. You know, Jesson was Mumma's favorite. Always was, from the day he was born.”

Quoyle knew how that was.

“Very sudden Dad got up from the table. He'd been sitting there beside the shortwave radio, we's all sitting there, and he said ‘Jesson's gone,' and went across the road to his shop—where the
Gammy Bird
office is now—and stayed there by himself all night.
There was the northern lights that night, so beautiful you couldn't believe it, these colored strings shooting out, it was like a web. And in the morning there was these—well, like silver threads was on everything, rigging, houses, telephone wires. Had to come from the northern lights. And mother said it was Jesson's doing as he was in passage from his earthly body.”

“After Jesson, he started the paper, right?”

“About right. But you know, Dad don't really run
Gammy Bird,
Tert Card does. The paper is there, you know, and he started it, he decides more or less what goes in it. But he'll phone in, make up some story about being sick, then go out fishing. Everybody knows what he's doing.”

“Oh, he runs it,” said Quoyle. “Tert Card dances his tune, I think.”

“Eat your apricots, Bunny,” said Beety, gathering empty saucers.

But Bunny whispered to Quoyle, “Apricots look like little teeny-weeny behinds, Dad. Little fairies' bottoms. I don't want to eat them.” And sniveled.

While Dennis talked, a short, wrinkled man came to the doorway, leaned against the frame. He looked like a piece of driftwood, but for his mauve face. Wore a shirt spattered with hibiscus flowers the size of pancakes. Beety gave him a mug of tea, slathered marg on bread which the old man swallowed in one go.

“Alfred!” said Dennis. “Skipper Alfred, come on and sit down. This here is Quoyle, works at the paper. Comes back with Agnis Hamm to the old house on Quoyle's point.”

“Yis,” said the old man. “I remembers the Quoyles and their trouble. They was a savage pack. In the olden days they say Quoyles nailed a man to a tree by ‘is ears, cut off ‘is nose for the scent of blood to draw the nippers and flies that devoured ‘im alive. Gone now, except for the odd man, Nolan, down along Capsize Cove. I never thought a one of the others would come back, and here there's four of them, though one's a Hamm and the other three never set foot on the island of Newfoundland. But the one I come to see is the carpenter maid.”

Dennis pointed at Bunny.

“So, you're the maid was goin' to put on the roof with your little hammer.”

“I was going to help Daddy,” whispered Bunny.

“Right enough. 'Tis very few that helps their fathers nowadays, lad or maid. So I've brought you a bit of encouragement, like.” He handed Bunny a small brass square, the marks worn but still visible.