Authors: Suzanne Leal
âWhat happens when we are forced to leave what we love? Our life's work, our marriage, our homeland?
The Teacher's Secret
is a delicately woven tapestry of interlinking stories that reveal the ordinary struggles of decent people in the small town of Brindle. Built of richly conceived charactersâteachers, mothers, wivesâit draws you in to the web of relationships in and around a little public school, its dramas, crises and victories, as people navigate their own and bear witness to each other's struggles. It is a story of rupture and repair, about the betrayals of the past, and what happens when the systems and institutions we trust to guide our lives fail the humans within them. This is a big-hearted book about a small community and how small acts of kindness and courage, and the willingness to face the truth, restore the human spirit to a sense of new belonging.' JOANNE FEDLER
Also by Suzanne Leal
âUtterly engrossing and moving . . . An exquisitely poised and intelligent unveiling of secrets; a book honouring the hidden, the intimate and the painfully unresolved.' G
âA book that looms closer with every page . . . By the end, you start seeing the characters on the street, and you hear their voices in your sleep.' M
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters and incidents are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
The extracts from Roald Dahl's
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
on pages 225, 226 and 227 are reproduced with the kind permission of the Roald Dahl Literary Estate LLP and the Penguin Group.
First published in 2016
Copyright Â© Suzanne Leal 2016
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for my parents, Barry and Roslyn Leal
for my husband, David Barrow
His eyes spring open and, in the minutes before the alarm rings, he thinks about the day ahead. He looks forward to the first day of term the way the kids look forward to the first day of holidaysâwith a jump of excitement.
Beside him, Michelle is still sleeping. He smiles as he looks across at her. In sleep, there's something that takes away all the years so that she seems little more than a girl. He's a lucky man, that's for sure. He only needs to look at her to remember that.
When the alarm rings, she stirs. Drawing a deep breath, she moves her head and, with the brush of her hand, pushes a lock of hair from her face. She rubs her eyes before, very slowly, she opens them.
âGood morning, sweetheart,' he says softly.
It takes her a moment to focus. âHello,' she says, her voice thick with sleep. âWhat's the time?'
âTen past seven, love.'
âAlready?' She yawns. âCan't be.'
While she stretches, he gets himself dressed. Today he chooses his orange shirt, because it's cheerful, teams it with a pair of long trousers and his Rockports and he's done.
In the kitchen, he works his way through a bowl of cornflakes, drinks a couple of mouthfuls of tea and heads for the bathroom. As always, it's a surprise to see himself in the mirror: a figure on the way to becoming an old man. There's even silver in his moustache these days.
All in all, though, it's been a good life; a fortunate life, even. He's not saying it's been plain sailing, that's not what he means. And certainly, there are things he'd have changed if he'd had the choice.
Like being a dad.
Because he'd have liked that. It's one of the things he'd have most liked.
The kids at school, they're pretty upfront with the questions. âSir,' they'll sayâespecially the new ones; the ones that don't know him so wellââhow many kids have you got, sir?
Mostly, he'll just shake his head and play it straight. âNo kids,' he'll say. Other times, he'll make a zero out of his thumb and index finger and hold it up. âZero,' he'll say. âI have zero kids and one dog.' That normally works a treat. It always does when you add a dog into the mix. Because in the end, nine out of ten kids are more interested in dogs than babies.
Sometimes, though, he'll squat down and crook a finger to draw the kid close. âYou know how many kids I've got?' he'll whisper. âHundreds.'
Michelle isn't so good on the questions. Of course she tries; she says all the things he's heard other people sayâother people like him and Michelle, people without kids.
It's a full-time job
just looking after Terry.
That's his cue to look a bit guilty and hopeless, like he's owning up to it: that she's right, he's the reason why. Truth is, they tried and they tried: the natural way, the medical way. Nothing worked. For a while, they spoke about adopting, but in the end nothing came of it. Strange to admit it now, but he can't quite remember what happened: whether it all got too complicated with the forms and the procedures and the waiting and what have you, or whether, in the end, they just got tired of it and called it a day. It's all a long time ago.
And now's not the time to be thinking about it anyway; now's the time to get going. But first he pops back into the bedroom, a fresh cup of tea in his hand. It's part of the morning ritual: he gets up and gets himself ready, then makes Michelle a cuppa to have in bed. And although her eyes are closed again when he comes in, her lips curve in a smile as soon as he puts the cup down on her bedside table, a soft chink of ceramic on the wooden coaster. âYou all ready?' she asks, her voice throaty.
âAll ready,' he says. âFunny, though, to think of the year without Diane.'
Eyes open now, Michelle gives a stretch. âThey'll have a ball, the two of them,' she says, stifling a yawn. âA year travelling the world. What's not to like about that? I'd do it in a flash.' She sits up and reaches for the tea. âI still think you should have put your hand up for the job.'
It's not the first time they've had this discussion. âIt's not my thing, love,' he tells her again. âYou know that. When have I ever fancied myself as head honcho?'
âThey'd have given it to you, you know that, don't you? I mean, you are the assistant principal. Diane said you would have been a shoo-in.'
He dismisses this with a grunt. âElsie's reading now,' he says. âGot to make sure she doesn't forget how.'
He finds himself whistling as he drives. As usual, there's no traffic. It's one of the things he likes about living in Jinda. Because it's at the tip of the peninsula, it's a bit like living at the end of a railway line: everyone else gets off first so you end up with the carriage to yourself. It's a tranquil place to be. And it's by the water, which he loves. From their balcony, they look straight across the bay to the shipyards and the loading docks. At night, it's a picture, with everything lit up and bouncing and sparkling off the water.
There's only one road out of Jinda. It starts small but eventually fans out into the three lanes that head straight for the city, which is why there are so many commuters living in Jinda. Terry's just glad he's not one of them: all that traffic and hoo-ha in the morning and the crowds of people spilling out onto the footpath once you're there. It's not for him. Even Raleighâonly a fifteen-minute drive from Jindaâis getting too busy for him these days. That's where Michelle works, three days a week, as the receptionist in the medical practice.
Terry works in Brindle, which is just before Raleigh, and if he takes the direct routeâstraight along the main road, then right at the lightsâhe can be at the school in less than ten minutes. He prefers the scenic route, though, so he turns off earlier, just before the jail, and heads down towards the water. When they first arrived, it used to give him the heebie-jeebies, having a jail so close byâand a big one too, so big it was almost a little suburb in itselfâbut Michelle never minded. At least it kept the house prices down, she'd say. Otherwise what chance would they have had of buying a place
so close to the water? And as for the odd escapee: what sort of idiot would hang around in Brindle or Jinda rather than hop-skipping it as far away as they could?