Read The Texas Billionaire's Baby Online
Authors: Karen Rose Smith
Logan let out a sigh and ran a hand through his hair. “I thought kids learned to roll over, sit up, crawl and walk instinctively. I never expected Daniel to have problems with those things.”
“He might be slower talking, too—sometimes preemies are. But you can encourage him in that area, also. The more verbal he becomes, the sooner he’ll talk. He already understands more than you think he does. If you bring him what he wants or needs without him asking, there won’t be any reason for him to ask.”
“So his
not
walking yet isn’t a permanent problem?”
“In my opinion, I don’t think it is. In a few weeks, we’ll know better.”
“In a few weeks, he’ll be walking?”
“I didn’t say that. Children have their own timetable. But I’ll set up a program where we’ll strengthen his muscles, encourage him and motivate him.”
Logan made a sudden decision before he thought better of it. “You’ll be able to come here to do it?”
Her eyes widened in surprise. “I thought just the evaluation would be here.”
“I’ll pay double. It will save me time running back and forth to your practice in Lubbock.”
She thought about it. “I suppose one of my therapists—”
He cut in, “Aren’t
you
the most qualified?”
“Yes, but…”
“Then I want
you
to handle his care.” Logan couldn’t believe he was inviting Gina back into his home. Judging by her silence, she was just as surprised. But he had to do what was best for Daniel. On the other hand, if he was honest with himself, he also had to admit he wanted to see the woman she’d become…if she felt regrets for leaving the way she had and turning her back on him.
Why did he even care?
He cared because when he looked at her…his body responded as it had when he was in his twenties. He resented that fact. He’d been happily married. He still missed the woman who had given her life for their son. Any reaction to Gina came from the past and he had to douse it. Daniel was his only focus now.
When Gina’s gaze met his, he saw emotion flicker there. He thought he saw the corner of her lip quiver. That used to happen when she was upset or nervous. He was sure she was going to refuse his offer.
Instead, she straightened her back and didn’t look away. “I can handle some of Daniel’s treatment here, but I’ll need him at Baby Grows for sessions, too. I can’t start a program without you agreeing to that.”
There was a bit of steel in her tone and an assertiveness she’d lacked as a teenager. She’d obviously grown into a strong woman.
Just as Amy was strong,
an inner voice reminded him. Just as Amy had been unbending in her determination to keep Daniel safe.
“How often?”
“That depends on my schedule. I can commit to one evening a week.”
“That’s fine.” He thought about his busy May schedule…watching Gina with Daniel even on a limited basis…and added, “When I can’t be here, Hannah will be.”
“Logan, you need to participate in the program I set up. That’s important to Daniel.”
Something about his name on her lips shook him a little. It cracked the vault of memories he’d carefully sealed and buried. “All right, I’ll make sure I’m available. Is there anything else you need from me right now?”
She looked as if she was debating with herself but finally answered, “No.”
“Daniel and I have a routine at bedtime. I don’t want to disrupt that. Hannah will see you out.”
The room had become stifling with them both in it. Memories seemed to dance between them, muddling the past with the present. He needed to hold his son and forget about what had happened so long ago.
He headed for the doorway.
“Logan?”
When he turned to face Gina again, she looked vulnerable. He almost crossed the room, almost gave in to the instinct to reassure her that everything would be all right, as he might have once done.
Now he kept silent.
Appearing flustered for a moment, she finally said, “Call me tomorrow to set up an appointment.” She took a card from her pocket, covered the distance between them, and handed it to him. “All my numbers are on there. If you can’t reach me at Baby Grows, you can reach me on my cell phone or at home.”
His fingers grazed hers as he took the card, and he willed his body not to record the brief contact. His voice became rough as he responded, “Thanks.”
Then he left Gina in Daniel’s playroom and breathed a deep sigh of relief.
On Saturday morning, Gina sat in the small parlor off the living room in the old Victorian house in Sagebrush, tapping her foot, too edgy to admire the chintz material on the love seat, the dragonfly Tiffany lamp sitting on the corner of the library table she and her housemate, Raina, used as a desk. Her heart practically tripped over itself as she waited for Logan to answer his cell phone. She had to change the appointment the two of them had set up for Daniel a few days ago. It just couldn’t be helped.
“Barnes,” he answered in a clipped voice and she heard machinery in the background.
“Logan, it’s Gina.”
“Hold on a minute,” he said to her. “I need to move into an area where I can hear you.”
She guessed he was at the denim factory the Barnes family had owned and operated for decades.
Finally he said, “Okay, I’m in my office. What’s up?”
Anyone listening in would think they knew each other…would think maybe they were friends again. Friends. Could they even come close to that?
“Logan, I need to change Daniel’s appointment. Can we switch it from Monday night to Wednesday night?”
He was quiet for a few moments, then responded, “Gina, if you don’t have time to do this, maybe I
should
find someone else.”
They were going to have to clear the air at some point and bring everything out into the open…what had happened since she’d left. Not even her parents knew she’d been raped during her first year at college. But now just wasn’t the right time to go into it with Logan.
“I’d like to help Daniel if I can, but Family Tree set up a meeting for all its practitioners on Monday evening. There are budget and billing concerns and the decision to have the meeting was made just last night. It’s not something I can opt out of.”
The only sound she heard was her pulse in her temples, then Logan’s deep baritone, a little lower and huskier now. It affected her the way it always had, making her nerve endings come alive.
“I see. I shouldn’t have jumped to the conclusion you didn’t want to treat Daniel. But in our situation—”
“I don’t run from clients who need me.”
“No, but you might run from
me
.”
Because she had run once before. She couldn’t get into that over the phone. “So will Wednesday at six work for you?” she asked, ignoring his comment.
After a pause, he agreed, “It will work. We’ll see how Daniel responds at that time of evening. If you think the
appointments need to be during the day, I’ll take off work if I have to.”
“You’re there now?”
“Yes. A malfunction with one of the machines.”
“Is it unusual for you to be there on a Saturday?”
“Not really. If we have orders, we cut the material. That’s the only way to stay ahead these days. Fortunately, denim is as popular as it ever was, all different grades, old ways of making it and new.”
They could talk about his business or…she could say what was in her heart.
“Logan, the other night…I wanted to tell you how sorry I am about your wife.”
“Thank you.” His voice was strained.
“Sometime maybe you can tell me about it. That might help me with Daniel.”
“You have his medical records. You know he was premature. That’s all you need.”
She shouldn’t have said anything because he wasn’t going to give an inch with her…even after all these years. He wasn’t going to tell her what his life was about, except for Daniel. Maybe she’d feel the same way if she’d lost her spouse.
“I didn’t mean to pry. Really. But children are little sponges. Emotions play into their physical development.”
She could hear Logan blow out a breath. “If there’s anything that I think will help Daniel, I’ll tell you. I’ll see you at six on Wednesday.”
“Six on Wednesday,” she repeated. She thought she heard him murmur, “Goodbye, Gina,” but she couldn’t be sure.
When she said goodbye, he was no longer there.
T
he following Tuesday evening, Gina stirred the pot of soup then tasted it. She wrinkled her nose. Why didn’t her minestrone ever taste like her mother’s?
She was replacing the lid when she heard the front door slam. Raina called, “I’m home. What smells so good?”
“Soup. And I stopped for a loaf of bread to go with it. Are you hungry?”
“For
your
soup? Yes.”
Raina Greystone Gibson entered the kitchen. She was a beautiful woman with a Cheyenne heritage. Her hair was long, flowing past her shoulders. Usually she wore a headband or clipped it back in a low ponytail the way it was tonight. It appeared black until she stood in the sun and chestnut highlights gleamed. Gina had liked Raina, a pediatric ear, nose and throat doctor, immedi
ately when she’d met her at Family Tree. She’d learned that Raina had returned to Sagebrush from New York City, where her husband, a firefighter, had been killed on September 11.
“Is Lily still joining us?” Gina asked, hoping the fertility specialist also practicing at Family Tree hadn’t been held up.
“Yes, I told her she could drive over with me, but she had errands to run first. She’ll be here in a little while. She was glad we invited her for dinner since Troy had a meeting. I’m not sure how she’ll handle it when he’s deployed to the Middle East.”
This summer Lily’s husband, Troy, a member of the Texas Army National Guard, would be deployed for pre-mission training. Lily couldn’t even think about later in the summer when he’d be gone.
“The support group for military families will help her and so will we.”
Raina went to the cupboard and began removing dishes she could use to set the table. “Speaking of support, I really enjoyed dinner with your family on Sunday.”
Gina removed the lid from the soup once more and stirred. “My mom said you’re invited again this week. Everyone liked you. Especially my nephew Evan. I think he has a crush on you.”
Raina laughed. “Since he’s twelve, give him a week and he’ll have a crush on someone else.”
Shortly after Raina had moved in with Gina, she’d admitted she didn’t date. She’d also confided she intended never to marry again. She understood loving and losing better than most.
Maybe that was what prompted Gina to ask, “Do you know Logan Barnes?”
After closing the cupboard, Raina glanced at Gina. “
The
Logan Barnes? The CEO of Barnes Denim? The mover and shaker who dines with the governor and owns real estate from San Diego to Sydney…the man who set up a charitable foundation to fund cancer research?” She’d listed some of his accomplishments as if to say that
everyone,
especially in the state of Texas, had heard of him.
“That would be the one,” Gina confirmed.
“We don’t exactly move in the same circles,” Raina said, flashing Gina a grin. “Why?”
“I met Logan the month I graduated from high school. His father hired me to work in the stables on the estate. Logan and I…well, we connected that summer.”
Raina took the dishes to the table. “How seriously?”
Gina remembered Logan’s mother’s antique locket that he’d given her after they’d made love for the first time. She’d returned it when she’d said goodbye. “He wanted me to stay and marry him, but I left and went to college,” Gina explained as simply as she could. “I ran into him this week and…it’s obvious he’s still angry with me.”
Now Raina studied Gina. “Does it matter to you? That he’s angry?”
If
that
wasn’t a perceptive question. “Yes, I guess it does. After all these years, I thought maybe he’d think of me less harshly.”
“Was college the only reason you broke up with him?”
One of the qualities Gina admired most about Raina was her ability to see deeply into any situation.
“Lots of reasons.” She thought about Logan’s father, his warning that he’d disinherit Logan if she got too
serious about him. She recalled her parents’ advice and her older sister Josie’s practical admonition not to marry too young—because
she’d
had to. “I had a full scholarship,” Gina explained to Raina. “No one in our family had graduated from college. But mainly Logan’s father had his own ideas about who Logan should marry. I was too insecure to stay and fight for our love. I didn’t think I had a chance. I thought about coming back and marrying him after I got to college, but then something happened that changed my life and I was on a different track.”
“Changed your life?”
Even though Gina and Raina had only known each other a few months, Raina was fast becoming a trusted friend. Gina considered telling her about the date rape that had occurred two months into her first college semester.
The doorbell rang.
“That must be Lily,” Raina said, halting their conversation with a concerned look.
“It’s okay,” Gina assured her. “We can talk about it another time.”
Raina nodded. “Any time you want to.”
When the doorbell rang again, Raina crossed the kitchen to the living room, unaware of what Gina had been about to disclose.
Moments later, Gina heard Lily’s voice. As she entered the kitchen, Gina smiled broadly at the bubbly blonde who seemed to bring sunshine with her whenever she stepped into the room.
Lily held a bag in her arms and set it on the island counter.
“I told you you didn’t have to bring anything,” Gina protested.
“I didn’t bring much. Just a couple of deli salads
and…” She produced half of a chocolate cake with peanut-butter icing. “I thought we needed a little decadence.”
Gina didn’t know when she’d last felt decadent.
“Thank you,” she said, meaning it, glad she’d taken the time to get to know Lily at a practitioners’ cocktail party at the Family Tree. Lily’s specialty practice enabled women to conceive. She was upbeat, always ready with a smile and a hug.
Lily glanced around the kitchen to the patio beyond. “You two are lucky to have found this place. It’s a great house.”
“It’s big, but it’s cozy, too,” Raina assured her. “It kind of wraps itself around you. When I first walked into the foyer to consider living here with Gina, it felt like home. It’s hard to explain.”
“You
have
heard the rumor about it, haven’t you?” Lily asked.
“What rumor?” both women returned.
“Well, since Tessa Rossi, Emily Madison and Francesca Fitzgerald all lived here and have now gotten married, the rumor is that any woman who lives here will find true love.”
“I like the rumor,” Gina said. “But I think it’s wishful thinking.”
“Maybe for me,” Raina decided. “But what about
you?”
Lily looked from one woman to the other. “What don’t I know…besides the obvious million things?”
Gina felt heat creep into her cheeks. “I…ran into someone I used to date before I left Sagebrush for college.”
“There’s a story there.” Lily’s blue eyes twinkled.
“There certainly is,” Gina agreed. “But it will keep.
Bring over those soup dishes and we’ll start our meal with minestrone.”
“An old family recipe?” Lily asked hopefully, apparently aware Gina wanted to change the topic. “One that you can share?”
“Well, I can share it. Just don’t ever tell my mother that I put canned tomatoes in the pot. She’d be horrified.”
Gina focused on the soup recipe and the meal she was about to share with her two friends, sure she could prevent herself from thinking about Logan and Daniel.
Couldn’t she?
Logan never expected to be in this position…in his house with Gina playing with his son in the family room. His and Amy’s son.
On Wednesday evening, Gina encouraged Daniel to fall onto the ball that was just his size. She’d brought a mat along, too, so if he tumbled off, he wouldn’t hurt himself.
“Come on, Daniel. Let’s rock back and forth.” She was holding his hands as he lay over the ball and pushed with his feet.
Logan knew they weren’t actually playing. They were working. But Daniel would never suspect that, not from the way Gina interacted with him.
“We never use this room,” Logan said to himself, but it must have been loud enough for Gina to hear.
“Why not? It’s a beautiful room.”
She was right. It was. The carpet was plush and an ocean-blue. The draperies were thick. The furniture was a mixture of tan and gray and blue-green, cushiony and comfortable. If he ever wanted to watch a game on the huge flat-screen TV, he’d feel as if he were in the middle of it.
Something Logan couldn’t define urged him to be honest with Gina. “My wife redecorated this room. I thought we’d be playing on the floor with Daniel, watching kid videos with him on the TV.”
After their gazes held for a long moment, Gina broke eye contact and let Daniel roll off the ball. She tussled with him a couple of minutes, making him laugh, then she let him sit with a few toys just to see what he would do.
“Would you rather I move Daniel into his playroom? I’d like him out of his comfort zone so he’ll have to go a distance to get to wherever he wants.”
“The room’s here,” Logan responded offhandedly. “We might as well use it.”
Their gazes locked again, and he saw something on Gina’s face that stabbed at his heart. Was it regret? Was it guilt?
He almost moved closer to her, anything to relieve the tension that had pulled between them from the moment she’d walked back into his life.
The tension was abruptly broken when Hannah came rushing into the room. “That reporter’s here again, Logan. He wants to do a story on you for the Style section of the Sunday paper. What should I tell him?”
“I’ll take care of it,” Logan assured her and strode out of the room, glad for the interruption, glad to escape the web of emotion that seemed to surround him whenever Gina was within arm’s reach.
After Logan left the family room, Hannah declared, “He doesn’t like publicity, so that makes reporters want to come after him even more.”
Before Gina could think better of it, she said, “If I
remember correctly, Logan’s father didn’t like publicity, either.”
Hannah shot her a quizzical look. “You knew Elliot Barnes?”
“I can’t say I
knew
him. He was my employer one summer.”
Watching Daniel play with the toys Gina had given him, Hannah sat on the sofa. “Oh, I see. The two men are as different as night and day, though. Mr. Barnes, senior, didn’t want publicity because he just didn’t want to be bothered. After his stroke, he became quite a recluse. Little by little, he turned everything over to Logan. Now Logan, on the other hand, doesn’t want publicity because he thinks it’s foolish and should be saved for something important—like the charities he backs—not a dinner he’s giving or an event he’s attending. But reporters always want to know all about his life. That’s when Logan clams up.”
Gina hadn’t known Elliot Barnes had suffered a stroke. Had it been severe? She was about to ask Hannah when Daniel crawled to the housekeeper and pleaded, “Up?”
She looked down at him with a fond smile. “Oh, no. I’m not picking you up. Those are the new rules.”
Gina laughed. “I’ll bet they are. That smile of his and those green eyes could melt any heart.”
Daniel tugged on Hannah’s slacks.
“I gave him quite a workout,” Gina relented. “I think we’re finished for today.”
“We’ve gotten an official okay,” Hannah said to Daniel as she stooped over and lifted him. “Time for your supper.” She glanced at the balls, blocks and the push toy Gina had brought along. “Do you need help gathering all that?”
“Oh, no. You take care of Daniel. I’ll be fine.”
After Hannah left the room with the toddler, Gina began collecting what she’d brought. She’d been strung tight ever since she’d entered the house. Usually when she was working with a child, that baby was her main focus. Daniel
had
been her focus, but she’d also been aware of Logan watching her…aware of Logan. There was a vibrating energy connecting them, like a live wire. She didn’t know how to break it, deflect it or let it burn out.
When Logan reentered the room, he’d rolled up his white shirtsleeves and opened the first few buttons of his shirt. He looked strong. Totally male. Absolutely sexy.
She swallowed hard, realizing how much she was still attracted to him. “Trouble?” she asked, just to say something.
“No. Just an eager journalism student wanting to make a name for himself.”
Gina moved toward the corner of the mat she’d opened on the plush carpeting to give extra padding. As she folded it, Logan came to help her. They practically brushed shoulders. Both jerked away.
She knew she had to do something about the awkwardness between them. “Logan, I don’t have to be the one who helps Daniel.”
Logan rubbed his hand up and down the back of his neck. “No, I suppose you don’t. But he obviously relates well to you. I don’t want to mess with that. Hannah’s been the only woman in his life since he was born.”
“What happened?” Gina asked softly.
Logan’s green gaze was penetrating as he studied her, trying to decipher why she wanted to know.
Finally he answered, “One day Amy and I were on
top of the world, the next an earthquake destroyed everything we thought we were building.”
As if he knew he was being cryptic, he sat on the sofa, studied the carpet for a few moments, then met Gina’s gaze. Something in his eyes drew her to him and she lowered herself beside him, though not too close.
When he started talking, Gina knew he didn’t discuss this often because his voice was strained.
“Amy was ecstatic when she discovered she was pregnant,” he began. “We’d been married a few years, and we both wanted kids. She’d been working hard at her career—she was a real estate agent and intended to keep selling properties after our baby was born. But soon after she learned she was pregnant, she had symptoms that sent us to a neurologist and then a neurosurgeon. She had a brain tumor.”
Gina desperately wanted to reach out to Logan, to touch his arm. Yet she couldn’t. She had no right. “I’m so sorry.” She was. She’d never wanted anything but happiness for him. That was why she’d left.
Logan didn’t seem to hear her. He stared across the room and explained, “Her doctor wanted to treat the cancer aggressively, but Amy wouldn’t let him do surgery or put anything in her body that could damage Daniel. She decided if she survived the pregnancy, she’d have treatment after our baby was born. But that day never came. She had a stroke at thirty-two weeks. The doctors performed a C-section and she died shortly after.”