Read The Train to Paris Online
Authors: Sebastian Hampson
Tags: #Fiction, #Literary, #Fiction literary
âOh yes,' I said. âWhat was she doing, in those days?'
âThe same as always,' he said, as though it was one of the first things that I should have known about her. âNothing. She has no occupation. Surely you know that.'
âNo. I haven't known her very long.'
âThen we shouldn't be talking about her.' He said this without a shade of levity. âYou should ask her about it.'
âHonestly, I have. She doesn't give much away.'
âThen neither do I.' He drank the last of his wine and patted me on the shoulder. âSorry, young man, but I must go and fill my glass. I wish you all the best.'
He disappeared into the crowd. It had felt as though some sordid secret was on the edge of his thin lips. Ãlodie's circle had closed around her.
I was about to pour myself another drink when I felt a hand pat roughly on my back. It was Fanshawe. He was smiling mindlessly, unsteady on his feet. He must have been ostracised by everyone elseâI could think of no other reason he would want to talk with me.
âHow are you, Arthur?' I asked. âGood party?'
âI don't know, Lawson.' His voice was a low rumble. âNone of these people speaks the Queen's. I thought that everybody spoke English these days.'
I suspected a number of people did speak English, but simply did not wish to speak it to Fanshawe.
âThat girl is something all right,' he said.
I had never thought of Ãlodie as a girl, although now I thought it was an appropriate description of her.
âShe is. Did you meet in London?'
âWho? Ãlodie? No. I met her through Marcel. Did business with him years ago. I've never seen her in London.'
âSo what do you know about her?'
âNot much. Just that she had some sort of a falling out with the husband recently. It's no secret. We all know, but
she
doesn't know that
we
know. That's why Marcel isn't here. They organised this party weeks ago. Something happened in the interim, she isn't wearing a ring.' He narrowed his eyes after he had said this, as though realising that he had made a terrible mistake. âBut I shouldn't be telling you this, Lawson. You ask her about it.'
âI have. She won't tell me anything.'
Fanshawe waggled a finger. âTread carefully, Lawson. She is dangerous. You know, in my darkest hours, I have considered her.' He swayed and struggled to regain his balance. âBut I shouldn't be telling you that either. Between us men, you know?'
âSure.' I wasn't interested in Fanshawe's fixations. I was more intrigued that she attracted this attention in the first place. It had never occurred to me that others might be similarly enchanted by Ãlodie's familiarity and her ability to light up a room with a word.
I disappeared before Fanshawe could continue. It was dawning on me that this party was open to anybody and everybody. The number of guests had grown to a swell and the wine was running out. Ãlodie showed no signs of worry. She was holding court as though she were royalty.
The champagne was gone. I put my flute to one side, and tried to find a proper wine glass. There was a liquor cabinet in the living area, and some of the guests had already made their way into it. Large amounts of Highland single malt and cognac had been poured into cut crystal brandy glasses.
I gave up trying to find a clean glass and took a used one from the side table. I filled the glass from a bottle of Pétrus that must have come from the cellar. The label was covered in dust. I checked the vintage: 1971. It was clear nowâif it had not been from the outsetâthat Ãlodie was about to get herself into a lot of trouble.
I tried to imagine a scenario where we ran off somewhere together, a place like Capri or Corfu, where she would never run into any of her old friends, and where I could finally find out who she really was.
Why was I at this party? There was no purpose for it. Ãlodie was no less cruel than she had been, and whatever had happened between her and Marcel was neither my business nor something I cared to know. There was something beyond this mess, waiting for me on the other side of town, and it did not involve Ãlodie.
I prepared to leave. Ãlodie wanted me to be her clown, and I had played my part. I went to find her and say a final goodbye. Perhaps she would realise how despicably she had behaved, if I made things as curt as possible. But her lustrous head of hair and her silky red lips were nowhere to be seen. She was not in the reception area, or in the kitchen or the living area.
I was about to abandon all hope and leave anyway when I caught a glimpse of her shining sequins over by the front door. She left her glass of champagne on the sideboard. I found her eye, as she was about to step outside and pull the door closed behind her. She gave me an intense stare that lingered for a second before it melted into nothing.
I decided to follow her. But before I could feel my way through the crowd, I heard the crash of breaking glass from behind me, accompanied by a gasp. I turned around to see Fanshawe staggering against the kitchen island. He had dropped the bottle of Pétrus, and it appeared that a shard of the broken glass had lodged in his wife's leg. The gasp ascended to a scream. The blood was running out onto the white tiles. I pushed past the shocked bystanders towards the front door.
22
I took the staircase
to the ground floor. The stairwell was narrow, and I stumbled around the tight corners. Ãlodie was closing the door to the lobby behind her. I called out. She ignored me, and kept walking. I pursued her out onto the street. The steely noises of the party were ringing in my ears.
âWait,' I said as I caught up with her. âWhere are you going?'
âAway,' she said. âI've had enough of those people.'
âCan I come with you?'
âYou should be up there enjoying yourself, Lawrence. Go back.'
She was on the verge of tears. I could tell she was trying to hide it from me. She stopped walking and held a hand to her forehead. I tried to put my arm around her, but she shrugged me off.
âWhy are you leaving your own party?' I asked. âYou'll get in a lot of trouble.'
âI hope so. Marcel will be enraged when he gets in tomorrow morning.'
Her eyes were glassy and large, which made her look like an exotic insect.
âSo this party had nothing to do with me,' I said, trying to keep my anger and humiliation contained. âIt was a way of getting back at your husband.'
âOh darling. You really do paint things so simplistically.'
She had her handbag but not a coat, and she was now shivering. I took my jacket off and hung it over her shoulders.
âTell me, then,' I said. I wanted to shake the truth out of her.
She started to walk down the street. âCome along,' she said. âWe don't want to be around when the neighbours call the police.'
She produced another cigarette, and tried to light it without the jacket falling off. I took the lighter and did it for her.
âLook,' she said, âI only want to enjoy my last night here.'
âThat's your definition of enjoyment?'
âI needed to do it. He deserves a shock, after the way he has treated me.'
âHow has he treated you?'
âCan't you see that I have no desire to talk about it? The situation is very delicate, and you would not understand any of it.' She raised her eyes to her bright apartment window. âNone of those people wanted to see me. They turned up for Marcel.'
âThey are your friends, aren't they?'
âI don't know anymore.' She drew on the cigarette and tried to hide a cough. âI am nothing without Marcel. He gives me a purpose in life. Nobody else can offer that.'
It was as though her compliment had doubled back on itself.
âSo you're going to let that horde destroy his house? And you won't accept any consequences?'
With a scoff, she turned to the stacks of rubbish bags on the curb. They were wet from the snowfall, and beads of precipitation clung to the shiny black plastic.
âI want to go somewhere fabulous,' she said. âBut I want to be alone. You should go home, Lawrence. We've done enough for each other today, haven't we?'
âYou're not getting away that easily, Ãlodie. You have to go back up there. Fanshawe smashed a bottle of wine and embedded broken glass in his wife's leg.'
This news cheered Ãlodie up. âTypical Arthur. This is part of the fun. Don't worry so much about it. They deserve whatever they get.'
âWhy?'
As soon as I asked the question I understood. She would never tell me what I wanted to know if I asked for it.
âAll right,' I said. âAll right. I want you to tell me the truth. And we aren't going anywhere fabulous. We're taking the métro to the Left Bank, and I'm showing you somewhere real. You need some reality.'
âHow funny. At least you have learnt something from me.'
âWhat?'
âYou have asserted yourself, at last.' Her voice had become lighter but her expression remained dark. The street lamp illuminated half of her face. âVery well, darling. This is your birthday treat. Take me anywhere.'
âJust like that?'
âYes. Take it or leave it.'
I couldn't leave her alone in this state. I reminded myself of the last time I had tried to walk away from her. It would be unfair on both of us if I were to let that happen again. At least there was no swimming pool for her to jump into.
âNo more of this indecisiveness, Lawrence,' she said. âOr I will go somewhere fabulous, on my own, and I will drink myself to oblivion.'
âFine,' I said. âCome with me. But you have to tell me the truth.'
âI will make no such promise.'
She set off in the direction of the Champs-Ãlysées. The traffic sounded faint, despite it being only a few blocks away. The Rue Lord Byron could have been a country lane. The clack of Ãlodie's heels reverberated around the old buildings. I tried to match it with my own shoes, and failed.
âDid you enjoy yourself?' she asked, as if the thought had just occurred to her.
âI did. They are interesting people.'
âI'm glad you think so.'
âObviously none of them is as interesting as you. And that isn't necessarily a compliment.'
âBut darling, the thing is that I am not half as interesting as you think.'
We rounded a corner to the avenue. The trees were decked with garlands of electric blue lights, and these melded with the neon advertising to create a hypnotic tunnel. Ãlodie moved in and out of the shadows.
We took the métro to Saint-Germain-des-Prés, and this time Ãlodie did not give a word of protest. I wanted to ask her more questionsâabout the party and the Italian fashion designers and Arthur Fanshaweâbut I persisted with the belief that I would learn more if I left them unasked. The carriage was quiet and we were able to sit together. A gypsy band came through and asked us for money, and she glowered at them. She was out of place on the métro in her cocktail dress and her glinting jewellery. I waited patiently for her to talk.
âSo where are you taking me, silly boy?' she said once we were on the Boulevard Saint-Germain.
âIt's a surprise,' I said. âYou like surprises, don't you?'
âSometimes. So long as it isn't some rat-infested, Irish-theme pub filled with loutish expatriates.'
âWhat if it was?'
The cafés were empty and preparing to close. Noise came only from the traffic. Young men from the suburbs rode along the boulevard with their windows down and bass up, as though they were on a freeway in Los Angeles.
âThen I would take a taxi over to the Crillon and book myself a room,' she said at last. âWould you try to stop me?'
âNo. I can't stop you.'
âAnd nor should you. I don't need to be stopped.'
She said this bleakly. It was more of a confession than a defiant statement. I led the way across the road, testing Ãlodie's method. I walked in front of the oncoming traffic and, miraculously, it stopped. I gave off a passable imitation of her way of walking, gliding past the glaring headlamps as though I had no concern for anything. This time she was the one struggling to catch up.
It was the same bar Ethan had introduced me to, near to the Odéon theatre, with a rusting metal façade that would have been inconspicuous to most people. It was where the Shakespeare and Company bookshop used to be, in the days of Hemingway and Joyce. Decades of posters and advertisements ran across the frontage. Ãlodie stopped and stared at the bar.
âOh no,' she said. âYou must be joking. I cannot go in there.'
âThis isn't the surprise,' I said. âTrust me. It will be fun. Isn't that what you always say? Besides, you're all for having new experiences, aren't you?'
âThis feels like a very old experience to me.'
She might have been preparing to run. She held her arms out wide and kept shifting her weight from one foot to the other. But then her attention returned to me, as did a sense of engagement and affection.
âAll right,' she said. âBut it had better be a damned good surprise.'
I held the door open for her, allowing the noise to seep through to the street. She hesitated before finally she threw up her arms and walked through.
I was glad for the warmth. The bar wasn't much, and Ãlodie was overdressed. I ordered a carafe of sangria, while she took a corner table beneath theatre posters.
La Gardeuse
d'Oies
was the only play that I recognisedâI had read it in school. It was illustrated in an old Belle Ãpoque style, with flourishes in the typeface and a dramatic sketch of the scene in which the girl combs her golden hair by the pond.
âThis is certainly unique,' Ãlodie said, on the edge of her seat. âThe sangria had better be good.'
âIt's the best.'
âHow did you find out about this hovel?'