The Tudor Rose (41 page)

“I do not deny that you may be half Plantagenet,” she conceded. And because the scent of the lime tree was so languorous and life had been so hard—because she took such pleasure in his looks and the time she dare stay with him was so short—Elizabeth let the peace of the moment steal over her. With an almost drowsy gesture she patted the bench beside her invitingly and when he sat down she leaned against him. “I am glad you have this garden and not some horrible cell,” she murmured.

“The King's kindness has been—incomprehensible,” he said. “I hope he is kind to you?”

“Kind?” Thoughtfully Elizabeth stirred the little pebbles of the path with the point of her shoe. “Yes. If you call it kind never to be rough—nor inconsiderate about my comfort. He never forgets to buy me anything he promises—nor what he paid for it. He makes notes of everything I am to do in his little day-book.”

“How horrible!”

“It probably helps to make up for all the years when he wasn't important enough to arrange even his own life.”

“What a way to talk about your husband!” laughed her companion.

“How should I talk about him?” asked Elizabeth, rousing herself to look up at him.

“One does not analyse a person one loves. One just loves them as they are.”

“But I did not say I loved him,” said Elizabeth, and her head went back comfortably against his shoulder.

“Have you no other lover?” he asked after a moment or two. “Surely anyone as beautiful as you—”

It was not the first time the idea had occurred to her. She wiggled the point of her shoe and looked down at it consideringly. “Would a woman dare to, who was married to Henry?”

“I suppose not. His mercy is so much more terrible than Uncle Richard's ruthlessness. But for a woman who is made for love as you are—”

“I try to fill my life,” Elizabeth said. “I have my children. And there are so many pleasant and amusing things—”

“Which would be so much more than pleasant or amusing shared.”

“Ah!” The shadow of the great Abbey was creeping over the grass, passing as inexorably as one's most precious hours. In a few minutes the bells would be ringing for Matins, and she had promised to go then. She felt her companion's arm slide warm and comforting behind her along the back of the seat, and suddenly, inexplicably, she found herself telling him things of which she had never spoken even to her sisters or to her confessor. “There is nothing that we really share, except our formal strutting through a reign of history—towards that grand tomb which Henry is preparing in Westminster. Have you seen it?”

He shook his head.

“Even our coming together physically is—routine. Though we had to marry—to graft the Tudor roses—it should not be, should it?”

“It should be a losing of oneself to find ecstasy. A fire, a completion, a fusing of flesh and spirit. Human comfort—yet the moon and the stars.”

“As it is with you and your Kate?”

“Yes.”

“And even though you are separated—though she may lose you for all time—she has had that ecstasy. She is richer than I,” sighed Elizabeth.

“My poor Bess!”

She thought that his lips touched her hair. Even though she did not really believe in him—even though young Dickon was dead—it was sweet to hear him say her name much as Dickon might have said it. Unutterably sweet to let herself
pretend
to believe—for the space of these few minutes which were left. “It is so hard to know that life is passing. That I am thirty-five. That I have beauty and the capacity for passion. And that neither in marriage nor illicitly have I lived through one single night in the arms of a lover. There are women who accept my kind of marriage meekly, I suppose; and men who think we have no desires. Or never think of us at all. Oh, I know that I should strive after patience and righteousness. And if I strive hard enough I may even attain a small heavenly crown,” she finished, with a little shaky laugh. “But never in this life shall I have known—the moon and the stars!”

“I suppose that women in convents who take vows—” he began, seeking for some way in which to comfort her. But her interruption was sharp with bitterness.

“They are not nightly reminded of what might have been—and then frustrated,” she said.

He withdrew his arm from the bench and leaned forward, grinding fist in palm as though, in his almost feminine sensitivity, he endured some part of her raging against the way life had cheated her. “Odd that such men are so often respected—that there are such different kinds of brutality!” he muttered incoherently.

Elizabeth sat up very straight and stared at him. “Why do you say that? Whom have you heard say it before?” she demanded.

His surprise was patent, and the question brought them both back to the commonplace. “No one, so far as I know. But it is true, is it not?”

“Yes, yes,” she agreed, with hurried self-consciousness. “But I do not know what made me speak of such things. And above all to you.”

He was smiling again, his charming, casual smile. “Because you are not likely to see me again,” he suggested. “And so it will not matter.”

“Yet I came to question you—not to talk about myself.”

“It may ease you to have found someone to whom you
could
speak of it—just once.”

“Because we speak the same language.”

“Then why do you find it so difficult to believe me to be Dickon?” he asked.

“It is not difficult. It might be desperately easy if one had no common sense. And if the King had not disproved it.” Elizabeth was quick to forestall any protest with a question of her own. “Why do you sometimes talk as if you might soon die?”

He shrugged and turned away. “I do not want to. I love life. But I am a restless sort of person,” he said lightly. And even as he spoke the great Abbey bell began to ring.

Elizabeth, a creature of kept promises, stood up immediately; but it was difficult to go. “I have always worn this,” she said challengingly, drawing the miniature of her brother from the bosom of her dress. “Surely if you claim to be the Duke you must have something which belonged to our father?”

“When a terrified child with his brother's screams still in his ears is carried from the scene of murder and put into a swaying boat he does not stop to collect his childhood treasures,” he told her grimly.

“No, of course not. It was foolish of me to ask. And I really knew that James of Scotland had tried to prove you with the same question, and that you could produce nothing.”

The young man's hand went again to his wallet. “Only these,” he said, holding out a few pieces of a printer's type. “And they scarcely seemed worth showing to a realistic King like James.”

With a little cry Elizabeth was bending over his open palm, turning them about. “Dickon!” she cried. “They are Master Caxton's. See, they have the impress.”

“They must have been in the pocket of the old coat they bundled me into that night. I suppose I kept them—sentimentally—or as a kind of mascot.”

“Of course. You were building a castle with them on the King's table. Don't you remember that day when—” Elizabeth stopped abruptly. This time she had the sense not to give him a clue.

For her it would always be the day when the Dauphin jilted her. But Dickon had been too young to realize. Breathlessly, alternating between hope and fear, she waited for him to say eagerly, “Of course! That day when we younger ones played weddings in the garden. And I brought in the big book and found you sitting crying in the King's chair. And I asked you why, if it were not particularly comfortable, so many people wanted to sit in it.”

But he just stood there looking at her. Either he could not or would not supply the all-important words. And why had he not produced the little blocks of wood before? She had looked up quickly—quickly enough, she fancied, to catch the triumphant quirk of an eyebrow. And then she remembered. “How clever of you!” she said, in a voice low with anger. “But, of course, Caxton was with Margaret of Burgundy before ever he came to us. You might have picked them up anywhere—as a novelty. And a while back, when I was fool enough to mention them, you felt in your wallet to make sure they were there.”

She walked swiftly away from him, her head held high. She was not even aware that he followed her. When she reached the garden gate she detached the heavy old key from the chatelaine swinging against her skirts and let herself out. The ordinary world looked desirable enough in the June sunshine. She could hear excited voices from somewhere in the direction of the Palace and guessed that the escaped falcon had been found. Simnel had probably beguiled the impostor's guards into joining in the chase. Neither of them was in sight. Elizabeth put the key back in the outside of the lock, paused for as long as it takes to make a sudden, crazy decision, and then went on her way. “Madam, you have forgotten to lock the gate!” a gay voice called after her. He must be standing at the little grille, watching her go up the Palace path. Was he mocking her because he knew that she could not find it in her heart to go back and lock it? How dared he stake such an undreamed-of chance of liberty upon the assurance of his charm? Most men would have profited in silence by a woman's whim of kindness, not given her a chance to change her mind. Or was he actually warning her, at his own expense? Giving her a chance to undo such dangerous foolishness? In any case she was sorry she had taunted him with cowardice. For he had proved himself to be sensitive and kind. And in a world where there were so many different kinds of brutality, might there not be different kinds of courage?

P
ERKIN WARBECK'S ESCAPE was a nine days' wonder. Why should he have wanted to escape at all, people asked, when he had little further hope of raising a following and was at least reasonably safe? Everybody about the Palace precincts had been concerned all morning about the King's lost falcon, and it was not until they took Perkin his midday meal that his negligent warders found that a much more important prey had escaped.

The Queen's ladies rushed to tell her the news, and in their excitement about the doings of a man whose strange adventures had for so long intrigued everybody they chattered so much that they scarcely noticed how little the Queen herself said. And it was not surprising, of course, that deaf old Mattie, who knew all her secrets, should make no remark at all. And soon the arrival of Katherine Gordon made them start discussing it all over again.

“What will they
do
?” Perkin's wife asked distractedly.

“The King has closed all the ports,” they told her.

“And even if he had not, do not raise your hopes that your husband will get any more following abroad,” Elizabeth warned her.

“He might get back to Scotland?” the girl suggested hopefully.

Elizabeth put down the book of devotions she was pre tending to read. She was sane now, freed from the spell. Cured, she supposed. “Scotland, Flanders, France—what difference does it make?” she asked wearily. “As soon as he left each of them the King, in his wisdom, made friendly alliances with each country so that they could never invite him back. Do you suppose that your Cousin James would risk for an adventurer's sake his own marriage with our daughter?”

But Elizabeth's own hopes were still divided. She wished that Perkin would get clean away and never trouble them again. Yet so long as he lived and was at liberty Henry's anxiety would be as it was before. Anxiety which had prematurely aged him. Elizabeth had acted upon the spur of the moment, and now that she had time for reflection she was afraid of the enormity of the thing she had done; afraid both for herself and for the King's head falconer. Yet, strangely enough, not even the guards were called to account; and when she next saw Henry he looked neither angry nor unduly worried. He even went hawking in Richmond Park the very next day—perhaps in order to show his subjects of how small consequence the matter was. But during the weeks which followed Elizabeth often caught him watching her with that thin-lipped, mirthless smile which gave him what old Mattie so disrespectfully called his cat-and-mouse expression. And recalling what her daughter had said about his looking down from his anteroom window, Elizabeth began to wonder if he could possibly have seen her leaving the garden that day.

Torn by a variety of emotions, she was glad of the distraction afforded by their removal to Richmond. It had given her something fresh to think about and less time to see the strained anxiety in Katherine Gordon's eyes. “If he can get abroad and make some sort of life for himself, however humble, I would live with him,” the poor girl kept saying. “Do you suppose, Madam, that the King would let me?”