The Twilight Saga: The Official Illustrated Guide (74 page)
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Authors: Stephenie Meyer
Tags: #Juvenile Nonfiction, #Love & Romance, #Literary Criticism & Collections, #Juvenile Fiction, #Contemporary, #Fantasy & Magic, #Fiction, #Romance, #General
I remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother. I realized now that all I really wanted was a claim on him. It didn’t feel brotherly when he held me like this. It just felt nice—warm and comforting and familiar. Safe. Jacob was a safe harbor.
I could stake a claim. I had that much within my power.
I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.
DIDO, “WHITE FLAG”
Chapter 20
I’d never seen anything more beautiful—even as I ran, gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.
HOOBASTANK, “THE REASON”
Edward’s perspective
Chapter 23
“I only left you in the first place because I wanted you to have a chance at a normal, happy, human life. I could see what I was doing to you—keeping you constantly on the edge of danger, taking you away from the world you belonged in, risking your life every moment I was with you. So I had to try. I had to do something, and it seemed like leaving was the only way. If I hadn’t thought you would be better off, I could have never made myself leave. I’m much too selfish. Only you could be more important than what I wanted… what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you, and I know I’ll never be strong enough to leave again.”
ELBOW, “MEXICAN STANDOFF”
Jacob’s perspective
Chapter 1
“What part of ‘mortal enemies’ is too complicated for you…?”
COLDPLAY, “CLOCKS”
Chapter 1
“I thought the timing was still undecided,” Edward reminded me softly. “You might enjoy a semester or two of college. There are a lot of human experiences you’ve never had.”
“I’ll get to those afterward.”
“They won’t be
human
experiences afterward. You don’t get a second chance at humanity, Bella.”
BLUE OCTOBER, “OVERWEIGHT” [RADIO EDIT]
Jacob’s perspective
“If Jacob hadn’t helped me… I’m not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.”
Chapter 1
“Please just listen for a minute. This is so much more important than some whim to drop in on an old friend. Jacob is in pain.” My voice distorted around the word. “I can’t not try to help him—I can’t give up on him now, when he needs me. Just because he’s not human all the time… Well, he was there for me when I was… not so human myself. You don’t know what it was like…. ” I hesitated. Edward’s arms were rigid around me; his hands were in fists now, the tendons standing out. “If Jacob hadn’t helped me… I’m not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.”
KEANE, “HAMBURG SONG”
Jacob’s perspective
Chapter 3
Jacob dropped the antagonistic façade completely. It was like he’d forgotten Edward was there, or at least he was determined to act that way. “I miss you every day, Bella. It’s not the same without you.”
THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS, “STAB MY BACK”
Jacob’s perspective
Chapter 8
“Don’t worry about me,” he insisted, smiling with deliberate cheer, too brightly. “I know what I’m doing. Just tell me if I’m upsetting you.”
MUSE, “THE SMALL PRINT”
Jacob’s perspective
Chapter 8
“Will you never forgive me, Jacob?” I whispered. As soon as I said the words, I wished I hadn’t. I didn’t want to hear his answer.
“You won’t be Bella anymore,” he told me. “My friend won’t exist. There’ll be no one to forgive.”
THE KILLERS, “MR. BRIGHTSIDE”
Edward’s perspective
Chapter 10
As I turned away from him, I thought I saw a flash of something in his eyes that I wasn’t supposed to see. I couldn’t tell for sure what it was exactly. Worry, maybe. For a second I thought it was panic. But I was probably just making something out of nothing, as usual.
Chapter 22
“The jealousy… it has to be eating at you. You can’t be as sure of yourself as you seem. Unless you have no emotions at all.”
“Of course it is,” Edward agreed, no longer amused. “Right now it’s so bad that I can barely control my voice. Of course, it’s even worse when she’s away from me, with you, and I can’t see her.”
“Do you think about it all the time?” Jacob whispered. “Does it make it hard to concentrate when she’s not with you?”
“Yes and no,” Edward said; he seemed determined to answer honestly. “My mind doesn’t work quite the same as yours. I can think of many more things at one time. Of course, that means that
I’m always able to think of you, always able to wonder if that’s where her mind is, when she’s quiet and thoughtful.”
MUSE, “NEWBORN”
Chapter 13
“Benito had created an army of newborn vampires. He was the first one to think of it, and, in the beginning, he was unstoppable. Very young vampires are volatile, wild, and almost impossible to control. One newborn can be reasoned with, taught to restrain himself, but ten, fifteen together are a nightmare.”
THE MAGIC NUMBERS, “LOVE ME LIKE YOU”
Jacob’s and Edward’s perspectives
Chapter 15
“One more thing,” Edward said slowly. “I’ll be fighting for her, too. You should know that. I’m not taking anything for granted, and I’ll be fighting twice as hard as you will.”
“Good,” Jacob growled. “It’s no fun beating someone who forfeits.”
“She is mine.” Edward’s low voice was suddenly dark, not as composed as before. “I didn’t say I would fight fair.”
“Neither did I.”
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL, “VINDICATED”
Jacob’s perspective
Chapter 21
He laughed with me, and then his eyes were sad. “When are you finally going to figure out that you’re in love with me, too?”
“Leave it to you to ruin the moment.”
“I’m not saying you don’t love him. I’m not stupid. But it’s possible to love more than one person at a time, Bella. I’ve seen it in action.”
MUSE, “HYSTERIA”
Chapter 23
My brain disconnected from my body, and I was kissing him back. Against all reason, my lips were moving with his in strange, confusing ways they’d never moved before—because I didn’t have to be careful with Jacob, and he certainly wasn’t being careful with me.
My fingers tightened in his hair, but I was pulling him closer now.
He was everywhere. The piercing sunlight turned my eyelids red, and the color fit, matched the heat. The heat was everywhere. I couldn’t see or hear or feel anything that wasn’t Jacob.
“The most solid example of songs on the playlists being the ones that shaped the book was when I was working on Eclipse. I was in the car with my sister listening to ‘Hysteria’ by Muse—we were out of town and I had my Absolution CD because I don’t travel without it. We were listening to ‘Hysteria’ and the kiss scene between Bella and Jacob choreographed itself in my mind, down to the number of steps. I can hear him in the beat as he’s walking toward her. The scene is not everybody’s favorite, but I certainly enjoy it.”
—Stephenie
ALANIS MORISSETTE, “UNINVITED”
Chapter 23
Jacob was right. He’d been right all along. He was more than just my friend. That’s why it was so impossible to tell him goodbye—because I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I ever had.
PLACEBO, “INFRA-RED”
Edward’s perspective
Chapter 24
“Don’t go, Victoria,” he murmured in that same hypnotic tone as before. “You’ll never get another chance like this.”
She showed her teeth and hissed at him, but she seemed unable to move farther away from me.
“You can always run later,” Edward purred. “Plenty of time for that.”
MUSE, “YES PLEASE”
Bree’s perspective
Chapter 25
After a second of fruitless searching, my gaze crept back to the young female vampire. She was still watching me, her eyes half-mad.
I met the girl’s stare for a long moment. Chin-length dark hair framed her face, which was alabaster pale. It was hard to tell if her features were beautiful, twisted as they were by rage and thirst. The feral red eyes were dominant—hard to look away from. She glared at me viciously, shuddering and writhing every few seconds.
BRAND NEW, “THE BOY WHO BLOCKED HIS OWN SHOT”
Jacob’s perspective
Chapter 26
“You know that story in the Bible?” Jacob asked suddenly, still reading the blank ceiling. “The one with the king and the two women fighting over the baby?”
“Sure. King Solomon.”
“That’s right. King Solomon,” he repeated. “And he said, cut the kid in half… but it was only a test. Just to see who would give up their share to protect it.”
“Yeah, I remember.”
He looked back at my face. “I’m not going to cut you in half anymore, Bella.”
& 17. TRAVIS, “LUV” AND MUSE, “BLACKOUT”
Jacob’s and Bella’s perspectives
Chapter 26
With a sigh, he turned his cheek toward me.
I leaned in and kissed his face softly. “Love you, Jacob.”
He laughed lightly. “Love you more.”
He watched me walk out of his room with an unfathomable expression in his black eyes.
OK GO, “IT’S A DISASTER”
Chapter 27
My hindsight seemed unbearably clear tonight. I could see every mistake I’d made, every bit of harm I’d done, the small
things and the big things. Each pain I’d caused Jacob, each wound I’d given Edward, stacked up into neat piles that I could not ignore or deny.
And I realized that I’d been wrong all along about the magnets. It had not been Edward and Jacob that I’d been trying to force together, it was the two parts of myself, Edward’s Bella and Jacob’s Bella. But they could not exist together, and I never should have tried.
