Authors: Carla Neggers
“Lucyâ”
“You're hiding something, Redwing. You're not here just because someone shot a hole in my dining room window. So, what is it? What do you know that I don't know?”
“I don't like to talk on the phone with someone breathing down my neck.”
“I don't, either.”
“You didn't know I was there.”
“If you don't want to use my phone and have me listen in, you should have brought your own.”
She yanked at a browned, soggy hollyhock blossom, and the plant, which she hadn't staked and was already leaning too far forward, fell. She tore it up and flung it onto the driveway. It lay there like a dead animal.
Sebastian watched her without comment. The man worked on her nerves, got to her senses, made her feel on edge and half-crazy, as if she couldn't think straightâor could think
too
straight. Everything seemed more alive, more energized when he was around. Even deadheading her damn flowers. There were no half-measures with him. No
peace.
“You're a goddamn liar,” she said and marched back to the barn.
He didn't follow her. She kicked a wastebasket and stormed over to a side window, one she'd added in her renovations. He was already dialing. The
bastard.
He'd gotten his way. What did he care if she was in a turmoil?
She picked up the extension.
“Hang up, Lucy. I'm better at this than you are.”
“The kids could listen in,” she said.
“Not and get away with it. Hang up.”
She heard a voice say, “Senator Swift's office.”
Sebastian disconnected without a word. Lucy watched him toss the phone into the flower bed like one of her dead blossoms, then he was coming toward her, taking long strides that put her at a disadvantage.
She was alone in the barn. J.T. was playing Nintendo in his room, Madison was confined to quarters, and it was Sunday, so her staff had the day off.
He was there.
“I was thinking about hiding under a canoe,” she said, “but I figure you're the expert. You'd just find me and it'd only reinforce the big, bad wolf ideas you have about yourself.”
“Lucy. Damn it.”
His voice was ragged, his gray eyes flinty. He caught her around the middle, paused just long enough for her to tell him to go to hellâbut she didn'tâand his mouth found hers. His hands splayed on her back. She could feel the imprint of his palms and each finger like a hot spike as he drew her against him. He was fully aroused. She could feel him straining, pressing as his kiss deepened, his tongue probing erotically, telling her, in ways that words couldn't, just what he wanted.
He lifted her shirt and slid one hand down her pants, squeezing gently, then easing around the front, between her legs, where she could hide nothing from him. “Don't stop,” she whispered. “Don't stop.”
“I have no intention of stopping.”
And he didn't, until she was quaking against his fingers. It happened so fast, so explosively, she was stunned. But she wasn't embarrassed. He pulled back, let her sink into her chair. She licked her lips, still tasting him. “What about you?”
“I'll wait.”
“I don't usuallyâI haven'tâ” She cleared her throat; it would take a while before she could think properly. “I'm not usually that reckless.”
“That wasn't reckless.” He grinned, kissed her softly. “One day I'll show you reckless.”
Impossibly, desire spurted through her again, just as searing and furious. He winked, as if he knew, and headed back toward the door. “Where are you going?” she asked.
He smiled. “To make my phone call.”
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Jack Swift refused to talk details. “I told Plato all you need to know. As it was, I took a huge risk. You know Darren Mowery. You know he'll do exactly what he's threatened to do if I don't cooperate.”
“Which is?” Sebastian asked.
“Reveal his lies and filth.”
Lies and filth. They were making progress. “Senator, my advice is for you to take everything you have to the Capitol Police. Let them do their job. They can put a round-the-clock security detail on you. Mowery doesn't have to know.”
“But he will,” Jack Swift said.
Sebastian felt fatigue tug at his eyes, settle into the small of his back. He'd done too much today. Kissing Lucy at dawn, chasing after her daughter, damn near making love to Lucy in the barn. He stood in the shade of one of the big old maples in the front yard, her portable phone almost out of range. She was right. He should have brought his cell phone.
The senator went on. “You know I'm right.”
“Yes,” Sebastian acknowledged. “I know.”
“I'm not in any physical danger.”
“Did you pay him?”
Jack Swift hesitated. This, too, was more than he wanted to admit. “Two installments.”
“How much?”
“Ten thousand each.”
Sebastian gripped the phone hard. “Twenty thousand total? Senator, Darren Mowery tried to steal millions last year. He's not planning to settle for twenty grand.”
No answer.
“But you already know that,” Sebastian said.
“I don't know what he wants. I only know what he'll do if I don't cooperate, and I've already decided that's intolerable.” Swift sighed deeply and added, “And now that I've already cooperated twice, the bastard knows he's got me by the short hairs. There's no going back.”
“Then what do you want from me?”
“I want you to stop him.”
“No, Senator,” Sebastian said. “You want me to kill him.”
He disconnected while Swift was still gasping. The senator, Sebastian decided, needed a little more time to think over his situation. It was damn cruel to exacerbate his already acute sense of isolation, but from hard experience, Sebastian knew that blackmail victims never liked to divulge what their tormenters had on them. They just wanted all the unpleasantness to go away by itself. Usually, it didn't.
Madison joined him on the porch and sat down next to him with a cardboard box. “I found this in the attic. It's what I do when I'm under house arrestâI poke around in the attic. Look.” She opened the lid. “It's quilting pieces. Hexagons. Do you think they were your grandmother's?”
Sebastian lifted out a stack of the hexagons. He nodded, recognizing the soft, worn fabric of his grandfather's old shirts. He remembered Daisy cutting them up years after he'd died. Waste not, want not. But she'd never made the quilt.
“Yes,” he said. “They were Daisy's.”
“I guess she never got around to piecing the quilt.”
“I guess not.”
“I was thinking about asking Mom to help meâI've never sewn a quilt before. You wouldn't mind?”
“Why would I mind? Your mother bought the house. She owns everything in it.”
“But⦔ She gave an exaggerated shrug. “If it was my grandmother's, I'd want it.”
He smiled. “Consider yourself Daisy's honorary great-granddaughter.”
She laughed, delighted. “Of course,” she amended, “this is just because I'm bored out of my mind. If I were in Washington this summer, I wouldn't have to resort to sewing a quilt.”
“People in Washington sew quilts.”
“Only because they
want
to, not because they
have
to because there's nothing else to do.”
“Madison, if you could, tell me everything you and Barbara Allen talked about. Just pretend you're a reporter and recorded your conversation.”
“Why?”
“Because I don't trust her,” he said, giving it to her straight.
“You don't trust anyone.”
“I trusted Daisy.”
“What about my mother?”
“Your mother?” He leaned back against a step and looked out at shaded lawn. “Well, Madison, I've loved your mother for a very long time. I don't know as I trust her.”
The girl gaped at him. Sebastian was unrepentant. The kid needed to learn that if she asked impertinent questions, she'd better be prepared for impertinent answers. Let her figure out if he was serious.
“Barbara Allen,” he said.
“Oh. Right.” And she told him what she and Barbara had talked about. It wasn't much.
“That's everything?”
She nodded.
“Good report. Thanks.”
“You don't think she's the one bugging Mom, do you?”
“I don't know. I like to keep an open mind.” He glanced at her. “I suggest you do, too.”
She jumped up with her box of fabric pieces. “I've known Barbara
forever.
She's worked for my grandfather since before I was even born. She
couldn't
do those things to Mom.”
“Look, under the right set of circumstances, people can do just about anything.”
She shook her head, adamant. “Not me.”
Sebastian hated arguing with a fifteen-year-old. “Good. Okay. Not you.”
She stomped off. She knew when she was being patronized. He considered going after her to apologize, but decided against it. He'd been nice enough until she started talking about forever. What the hell did a kid her age know about forever?
But he liked her. She was humiliated, annoyed, grounded, probably at least a little scared, and still she was trying to make the best of it. Quilting. The kid had guts. Like both her parents.
He thought of Colin and smiled. His dead friend would have been proud of his family and the way they were carrying on without him.
Lucy found him on the steps. She sat down next to him, folded her hands in her lap. “Looks as if Madison and I will be sewing the quilt Daisy pieced. Madison's at that age where she pushes me away and then pulls me to her, until I don't know what to do. Take it a day at a time and keep loving her, I suppose.” She smiled suddenly. “Teenagers really are wonderful.”
“You have great kids, Lucy. You've done well.”
“So far. Fingers crossed.”
“I want to go up and talk to Barbara Allen,” he said. “It should only take thirty minutes or so.”
“Are you asking me if I'll be okay here by myself? If so, the answer's yes. I'll be fine.”
He stretched his legs down over the steps. “I don't know. When Daisy left me here alone, I'd get spooked, especially during a thunderstorm. That thunder would echo in the hills. I'd hide under a pillow.”
“You were just a kid.”
“Hell, I was scared of thunderstorms until I was eighteen.”
She laughed and placed a hand on his thigh. “Sebastian, about earlierâI'm not embarrassed, and I have no regrets, except that we didn't have more time. I knew when I went to see you in Wyoming that inviting you into my life was a risk. I've never been neutral about you. I'll say that much.”
She started to remove her hand, but he covered it with his, keeping it in place. “After my mother died, Daisy said it was a cruel fate to lose both her husband and only child. She was angry, and she thought it would only add insult to injury if she lived a long life. But she was all I had, and she knew it, and she made the best of it. And after a while, she stopped being angry and started living again.”
“I was never angry,” Lucy said.
“Yes, you were.”
She was silent, her hand still under his. She could have slipped it out, but she didn't.
“Colin left you with two small children and a life you didn't want to lead. Then your parents retired to Costa Rica when you needed them most. And Jack Swift was no good to you, wrapped up in his own grief, his work, his ideas about how you should raise his grandchildren.” Sebastian paused, but Lucy didn't jump in to correct him, agree, tell him to go to hell. “If I'd shown up for the funeral or had seen you afterwards, I would have wanted to take that anger on.”
“I wish you had,” she said quietly. “I would have loved to have dumped it on someone else. I guess in a way I did dump some of it on you, in absentia.”
“Cursed me to the rafters, did you?”
She smiled. “Pretty much.” She wiggled her hand free and gave him another pat. “You're right. I was angry. I didn't know it at the timeâI had so much to do, so many emotions to sort out. Anger seemed like the least of my worries. And I felt so guilty. I still do.”
“I know.”
“Yes. You do, don't you?” She got to her feet, and as he looked up at her, he noticed her slim body, the muscles from her paddling and hiking. She took a deep breath. “It's a gorgeous day. Well, off to Barbara's with you. If you find any dead animals tucked away, you have my permission to haul her to the police station.”