They're Watching (2010) (7 page)

Ariana's voice startled me. "You're not gonna believe this." She cradled her silver laptop, open. "Look at this." She tried to play the loaded DVD. Blank. "I dragged the icons to my desktop, but when I went to burn them, the disc drive made this sound"--she demonstrated--"and then I double-clicked on the icons, and they all vanished."

"DVDs don't erase themselves," I said.

Her stare hardened. "Well, these ones do."

I looked at the two other DVDs, in a Ziploc bag. "And you dragged them all to the desktop before burning. So you're saying they're all blank now."

She nodded. "I guess they were designed to erase as soon as someone tried to copy them."

I gritted my teeth, shoved the heels of my hands into my eyes.

The doorbell rang.

I swallowed, trying to moisten my throat. "Ari, let me handle the detectives. Pretend you went to bed." She started to say something, but I cut her off. "Just please trust me on this."

She ejected the last disc, carefully put it in the Ziploc with the others, and handed it to me without a word. Tense, I jogged down the stairs and opened the front door.

Sally said, "Come in?"

"Of course. How 'bout Valentine?"

He was sitting in the passenger seat of the Crown Vic, jotting notes. Sally shrugged. "As I said, he's less social."

We went inside. I said, "Make you a cup of tea or something?"

"You have that chai stuff?"

I zapped two mugs in the microwave and brought them over. She shook a packet of Sweet'N Low into hers, and then another. She curled her hands around the mug. "You're lonely, Patrick."

"Yeah. You?"

She shrugged--it was something of a tic. "Sure. Single parent. Female detective. It's a lot of time with people who don't talk back. Or do. You know?" She pulled off her plastic-frame glasses, buffed a lens on her shirt. "Don was out of town last night and this morning, when--according to you--the second and third DVDs were shot. He was attending a due-diligence meeting for a mutual fund in Des Moines. Sounds too soul-destroying to make up."

"He doesn't have the imagination to do this."

That same shrug. "I'm not a child psychologist. So I asked him to show me the boarding passes. Plus, he's right-handed." She took a sip. "Maybe the wife was in on it."

"No, she's a sweetheart. Harmless."

"Yeah, I don't see her tottering up on your roof in spikes."

I laid the Ziploc full of discs on the table between us. "I just tried to copy these. They deleted themselves."

"Did they, now?"

"I know what it looks like. Don't start."

Through the steam of her tea, her eyes held steady on me. Yellowish brown, dull, not particularly keen. As deceiving as the rest of her.

"And guess what else?" I asked.

"What else?"

"I'm thinking the only fingerprints on those DVDs will be mine and my wife's. And?" I waved her on.

"And now, all of a sudden, the footage no longer exists." Her fingertips tapped the jewel cases. "Because these are magical self-erasing DVDs."

"Like I said, I know what this looks like. But someone broke in to my house, took my camcorder, my DVDs, videoed me sleeping in my own family room. You and your partner both saw the videos."

"Yes, but we didn't have the opportunity to analyze them, did we?" She offered an affable frown, as if we were two scientists puzzling over the same theorem. "I'll add that it didn't look like the intruder broke in. Looked like he turned a knob that was unlocked and came into your and your wife's house. But okay. So let's think about the next question: Why?"

"How do I know?"

"Aren't you a screenwriter or something? Why would someone do this in a movie?"

"To show that they can."

"Or to show you and your wife that they can." She matched my frustrated expression. "I don't have the answers. Valentine and I read signs. The signs here all say the same thing: domestic. Now, I don't mean that makes it simple, but we know not to waste a lot of time once a couple closes ranks."

"Here's the part where you tell me there's not much you can do."

"There's not much we can do."

"That I should contact you if anything else out of the ordinary happens."

"You should contact us if anything else out of the ordinary happens."

"I like you, Sally."

"Hey, I like you, too. How 'bout that." She stood, gulped the last of the chai, and shook her head. "Needs real sugar."

She set her mug gently on the counter. Outside, she stopped on the walk, Valentine waiting in the car. "Here's what I'm saying, Patrick. If you wanna dig, we're ready to come back here with a backhoe, compliments of the county. But you gotta make up your mind if you wanna know what we might turn up."

Chapter
9

In the family room, I plugged in my camcorder to recharge. A creak on the stairs startled me, but it was Ariana, descending.

"Well, that went just like you predicted," she said. "So there's nothing we can do but wait for the next installment?"

"I don't want to wait," I said, "because we don't know what's coming next."

Ariana tugged at her hair in the back, then realized she was doing it and stopped. Her hands tapped her hips nervously. "They questioned Don. So now he's officially pulled into it. If he tries to talk to me about this, what do I say?"

"I don't like setting rules."

"Implication: You should just be able to trust me."

"Ariana. Someone is menacing us. Do you think I give a shit whether you talk to Don?"

She made an exasperated noise and went into the kitchen. As she filled a glass with slow-filtering water from the fridge, I watched her back. The smooth skin of her shoulders, framed by the tank top she slept in.

For a brief stretch there, Ariana and I had been a team again. The familiar closeness, forced to the forefront by crisis. But now the detectives had gone, and there was just us with all the old problems and a handful of new ones.

Ariana sat at the dining table, fingers around her glass, facing away. Her shoulders, hunched, looked frail and bony. Without turning, she said, "In the movies the guy cheats. Before a wedding, whatever. He feels awful, sleeps outside her door, humiliates himself in romantic fashion, and is forgiven. But never the woman. Never the woman."

I said, "Ulysses."

"Yeah, but it didn't do box office." She sipped her water, set it down on the table. I walked over, sat across from her. She didn't look up at me. Her lips were trembling. "Why didn't you ever yell?"

"At who?"

"Anyone. Me, him."

"He's not worth it," I said.

"I thought maybe I was."

"You want me to yell?"

"No, but maybe you could figure out some other way to show you give a fuck." She laughed. One bitter note, and then she wiped her nose with the back of her hand. "Look, I make overpriced furniture and sell it to people who mostly don't appreciate it. They gonna carve that on my gravestone? I'm thirty-five. Most of my friends are busy with car pools and play dates, and the ones who aren't have developed exercise disorders or stay on vacation. It's a weird age, and I'm not handling it so well. The world closed in on me in a hurry, and my life doesn't have a lot of what I hoped it would. The one thing I have that feels special is you." Her voice cracked. She chewed her lip, trying to recapture the thread of her thoughts. "Is it the end of the world you don't feel that way about me? No. But it still sucks. So when I talked to Keith, and he told me you were with Sasha . . ." She pulled a tissue from her pocket and blew into it heartily. "And then Don came over, and maybe I thought I could still surprise myself, surprise you. To jar us out of whatever shitty place we'd gotten ourselves into. I don't know." She shook her head. "The sex was miserable, if it's any consolation."

"Some." I'd fought every instinct in my body not to ask about what happened, not to torture through the beads one by one--who wore what, who put whose hand where. I was at least smart enough to know that the more I knew, the more I'd want to know, and the worse it would get.

I reached a hand awkwardly toward her on the table. "I neglected you. I get that. Keith hit you when you were vulnerable. When you were primed to believe it. But what I can't get past is that you didn't talk to me first."

"I'd been trying to talk to you for days, Patrick."

"I was barely holding it together. I couldn't cut it. Keith was just my excuse to bail out." I couldn't manage to meet her eye. "The notes--the stupid rewrite notes morning after night." I stopped myself. "I know, you've heard it all already. But I was . . ."

She sensed the change in my tone. "What?"

I looked at my hands. "I made so many compromises and still wound up a failure."

She looked at me silently, her dark eyes mournful.

"I never knew that," she said. "That you felt that way."

I said, "So I wasn't there for you. Fine. A marriage should grant you the right to be uselessly self-absorbed for a period, like, say, nine days before your spouse goes jumping in the sack with someone. It's not as if I didn't have opportunities. I was on a movie set, for Christ's sake."

"Yeah, as the writer."

I had to laugh.

She bit her lip, tipped her head. Smoothed a hand across the varnish. "Look at this walnut, Patrick. Chocolate brown, open-grained, even-textured. We quartersawed it to pick up a prettier angle on the annular rings. You know how hard it is to get wood this fine? Problems everywhere. Splits. Shakes. Decay. Pitch pockets. Honeycombing. Blue stain from fungi." She knocked it with her knuckles, hard. "But not here. I chose the best."

"But?"

"Give me your hand." She ran my palm slowly across the tabletop. I sensed the faintest bulge toward the center. "Feel that? That's warp. Look overhead."

I did. The heating vent, breathing from the cornice down onto the table.

Her eyes were waiting for mine when I lowered my head. "Seam of stored moisture in the wood, maybe. You can't catch everything."

I said, "I'd never noticed it."

"It catches the light differently, bends the sheen. I see it every time I come down the stairs. And here"--she traced my fingertips across the slight bump of a dark circle--"we varnished over a knot. It was smooth here just three months ago. Having a knot in there's a risk, too, but some defects make it more beautiful. You want uniform, go to IKEA." She took my other hand, too. "You can't see all the flaws. But it's a good goddamned table, Patrick. So why throw it away?"

"I'm still here, aren't I?"

"Technically." She pressed my hands together, like I was praying, except hers were clasped over mine, gentle across my bruised knuckles. As she leaned forward, her dark hair curved to crowd her face. "This isn't good for either of us. Whatever steps we have to take, I'm willing to take them with you. But I'm not doing this anymore. Whatever that means for you, I'll have to find a way to live with."

She shoved out her chair, stretched across the lacquered surface, and kissed me on the forehead. Her footsteps moved up the stairs, and the bedroom door closed quietly.

Chapter
10

I had an excess of energy, the kind that tends to overtake me the morning after a wakeful night. Desultory, slightly frantic, edged with desperation. For four dizzy hours, I'd fussed under a twist of blankets on the couch, distracted by stairway creaks, bobbing tree-branch shadows, the dark yard beyond the semi-sheer curtains. Ariana's last words to me had left me with plenty more to gnaw on in my more lucid moments of unsleep. She'd called me out on the inevitable: Stay or leave, but do one properly. Even in those brief spells where I'd drifted off, I'd dreamed of myself lying on the uncomfortable couch, frustrated and unable to sleep. Several times I'd gotten up to peer out the windows and check the yard. Just after 6:00 A.M., when the L.A. Times landed, I'd searched it anxiously but found no DVD lurking inside.

Now I positioned my camcorder by the front window of our tiny living room, angling the lens out onto the porch and walk. I'd tucked the tripod behind a potted palm so the camera was lost among the blunt-tipped leaves. The strategically drawn curtains left only the necessary slice of view. Slurping my third cup of coffee, I checked the setup yet again and pressed the green button, recording onto the well-advertised 120-hour digital memory.

Ariana's voice startled me. "Is that what you've been doing down here?"

"I woke you?"

"I was up already, but I sure heard you thunking around." She yawned, finishing it with a feminine roar, then nodded at the hidden camcorder. "Giving them a taste of their own medicine?"

"I hope so."

"I'll call the alarm guys today."

"That doesn't sound like a vote of confidence."

She shrugged.

I went up to my office, where I shuffled my lecture notes into the soft leather briefcase I'd bought to look more professorial. When I came back down, Ariana was leaning against the sink, a desert mariposa behind her ear. Vibrant orange. I contemplated this. The color of lily she wore in her hair gave away her mood. Pink was playful, red angry, and lavender, lavender she saved for when she was feeling particularly in love. So . . . not in a very long time. In fact, for months she hadn't gone with anything but white, her safety color. I'd forgotten which mood orange broadcast, which ceded my advantage.