Thief: A Bad Boy Romance (19 page)

“No guns?”

Declan’s still grinning at me, like he’s won.

And he has.

“No guns. One guard who’ll probably be sleeping. Two locked doors me and the boys can take care of, and one dial safe I need you for.”

He knocks his knuckles against the car door.

“Ten minutes of your life, Silas. Ten lousy minutes and you’ll walk with five mil and you can go do whatever you fucking want with the good Reverend’s daughter.”

Ivy
.

I can’t just go do this. I can’t just leave her again without an explanation. Last time that cost me eight years and the only love in this world I’ve ever known, and I’ll be damned if I let that happen again. And even if every single cell in my body is screaming no, and screaming for me to run away from this and never look back, I know I can’t do that.

Not when it’s their safety on the line.

“I need to swing by my place first,” I say quietly.

Declan laughs. “So you can spill it to your little girlfriend?” He snorts. “Not happening.”

I shake my head. “No, I just need to change,” I lie, pulling at the grungy t-shirt I threw on before coming over.

Declan eyes me. “Fine. We’ll swing by on the way.”

He grins. “Now come have a fucking drink while we wait for John and the van.”

I step from the truck in slow motion, like I’m watching my actions from outside my own body. The light starts to break across the harbor, the sun chasing away the creeping chill of the New England night.

Except I can’t shake it.

I’m still cold.

Because something tells me, I’m about to make the biggest mistake of me life,
again
.

And there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

I
t’s lighter
out the second time I wake up, this time in an empty bed.

Silas’s bed, where I spent the night.

For a moment, there’s that initial hit of panic at having stayed here. The “now what” and “what does this mean” questions coming roaring up from inside.

But only for a second this time. This time, I breathe, I exhale, and then I smile as I sink back into his bed, and I’m not scared anymore.

This is freeing.

This is home.

I sink my face into his pillow, inhaling his scent and wrapping myself in it as I burrow under the sheets. This is exactly where I belong.

Of course, it would be better if Silas himself were back here
in
this bed with me. I reach over and check my phone, grumping at the lack of messages or calls from him. I have no idea what time he left after getting the phone-call from Declan’s wife, but the sun is certainly a little brighter out now.

And I miss him.

The phone buzzes in my hand, startling me, and for a second my heart jumps thinking it’s him before I look at it.

It’s Lori.

Wonderful
.

I squeeze my eyes shut for a second, centering myself and getting myself ready for this conversation before I finally answer.

“Hi, Lor-”

“You
left
the event?!”

Lori’s voice is tight and shrill.

I shake my head, frowning. “Lori, I left because of
Blaine
.”

“Ivy, for Christ’s sake, I thought we understood each other!”

“He’s fucking
Ainsley
, Lori. He’s been cheating on me with my damn assistant!”

Lori sighs exasperatedly into the phone. “Ivy, I
don’t
honestly care
who
Blaine sleeps with. Or you, for that matter, so long as you do what you’re
supposed to do
when it matters.”

“Lori-”

“No, Ivy, you listen. Image is important, and I
thought
you grasped that. This event was important, and you left a
lot
of important people in the lurch last night with your little disappearing act.”

I scowl into the phone, the anger rising up. “Do you even
care
that Blaine wasn’t honoring his side of the contract?”

“He was
there
, Ivy! As I said, I
do not care
whom either of you sleeps with! I don’t care if you hate each other, so long as you smile for the
fucking
cameras, engage the audiences, and play the damn roles you’re supposed to play! That’s it!”

I swear under my breath. “This is insane.”

“No,” Lori says sharply. She sighs. “Actually, Ivy, this is breach of contract.”

I freeze.

“Excuse me?”

“Ivy, I thought I was clear about your terms with us, and what was expected of you last night.”

“But Blaine-”

“I
do not
care, Ivy. I apologize if that sounds cold, but that’s the way this works. You are a product, and we sell you.
That’s
what this relationship is, and I thought it was fairly mutually generous until you pulled this stunt.”

I grit my teeth. “
Fine
, we’ll do some damage control. Look, are the vendors and brand reps still in town?”

I can’t believe I’m actuality doing this.

“I’ll come into the city right now. We can set up some brunch meetings, play it off like I was feeling ill last night and still-”

“No, Ivy,” Lori says quietly and firmly. “I
told you
to go to that gala last night. I
told you
it was important.”

“Lori, will you just listen to-”

“This is going to have big consequences, Ivy,” she says icily.

I narrow my eyes, sitting up in the bed.

“And just what does that mean?”

She sighs. “It means, Ivy, that you might want to get a lawyer.”

I freeze, my stomach sinking in my gut.

“
What?
”

Lori sighs again. “I’m sorry it’s come to this, but a breach of contract is a breach of contract.”

“This is ridiculous, Lori. You can’t actually be serious about this.”

“I’m going to hang up now, Ivy,” she says sharply. “We’ll be in touch.”

The line goes dead.

What the hell just happened.

Did I just get fired?

Maybe you should get a lawyer.

My head reels as I slide out of the bed and slip back into the dress from last night. A hundred thoughts stagger through my head - who I should call, what I should do, where I even begin to find a lawyer for this.

I whirl, pacing the small room as it rocks gently on the waves. The panic starts to clutch at me, my breath coming fast ands my pulse pounding in my ear as the sick feeling from the conversation starts to wash over me.

And all I want is for Silas to be here.

I need my lighthouse.

As if on cue, I hear the sound of footsteps coming down the docks towards me. My heart jumps a little, the pure need to feel his arms around me right now leaving me breathless as I duck out of his room and run for the door to the main deck.

“Silas, I-”

His face is grim, white, and drawn.

And he’s not alone.

“Well hello there, sweetness.”

Declan stands a foot behind him flanked by three men in mostly black, a cigarette in his mouth and a smug grin on his face. He winks at me.

“Damn, do I love being right about these things.” He chuckles, and I can see Silas’s face tighten.

Declan gesturers at the two of us with his cigarette. “Knew I was right about you two kids.” He grins. “Dirty old habits, huh, Ms. Hammond?”

Silas whirls on him. “You don’t talk to her, understand?”

Declan grins and throws his hands up. “Whatever you say, kid.”

Silas turns back to me, his eyes darting across my face.

“Ivy-”

“What is this?” I whisper, stepping towards him. “What’s he doing here?”

Silas starts to say something, but Declan cuts him off.

“Tick-tock, kid. Time waits for no man and all that. Let’s go.”

“Silas-”

“I have to go do something, Ivy,” he says quietly, his voice tight and his eyes searching mine.

No.

Oh God, no.

And suddenly, I know exactly why Declan’s here. I know exactly what this is.

I know what’s about to happen, because it’s like a horrible, horrible deja-vu from eight years ago.

I’m right back to being in his arms, shaking my head with tears in my eyes as I look up at him, begging him not to go. I’m eighteen again, a ring on my finger and a choking grip on my heart as I plead with him to stay with me.

“No,” I whisper, my eyes going wide as the realization of what this is washes over me horribly.

I start to shake my head, my voice feeling like it’s drowning inside.

“Silas,
no
, please-”

“Ivy,” his voice almost breaks and he swallows thickly. “Ivy, I have to, you don’t understand.”

I’m still shaking my head, may hand moving to grab his shirt.

“No, you don’t. Just come home with me. Come back to the house with me, and we can tell them everything.”

His eyes go wide for a second, as I realize I’ve just said out loud what I wasn’t even aware I was thinking.

“I want to tell them about us. I want them to know, and to hear it from the both of us. Just please-”

“Let’s go, kid.”

Silas’s jaw tightens at the sound of Declan’s voice behind him. His eyes search mine as his hands come up to hold mine.

“I- I have to, Ivy,” he says, his voice like sandpaper. “It’s going to be okay though, after this, it’s all going to be-”

“It’s not,” I say pleadingly, feeling my heart start to crack. “You know it’s not.”

“Ivy, I have to-”

“I asked you once before not to do this, and you did,” I pull him closer to me, my hand moving up to touch his cheek.

“And I lost you.” The tears start to trickle down my face as I bite my lip, gripping at him.

“I don’t know if I’ll get you back this time.”

“You will,” he says fiercely. “I swear to you-”

“
Now
, kid.”

Silas looks at me, his eyes burning right into mine.

“I’m coming back, because I love you, Ivy.”

I shake my head, crying now.

“Please don’t say that.”

“It’s true.”

I press my face into his chest, my breath hitching.

“If it’s true, then just
stay
.”

I look up into his face, and for half a second, I think he might. For one flash of a moment, I think he’s going to stay, and come back to my parents’ house with me and tell them everything, and love me like I know he can.

But then the moment passes.

“I
have
to go.”

He pulls away, and my heart shatters.

“I’ll come back, Ivy-”

But I don’t hear him. Instead, I’m pulling the necklace out of my dress and slipping it over my head.

His face breaks.

“No-”

“I’m done, Silas,” I say quickly, shoving it into his hands.

“I’ve carried it too long, and I’m done.”

I push past him, push past Declan and his goons, and go running down the docks, the salt air cooling the tears streaming down my cheeks.

I
’m blinded
by tears as I run down the dock, so much so that I don’t even see my sister until I literally run right into her.

“Whoa! Hey!”

I collapse into Sierra, shaking my head from side to side as I bury it into her shoulder. She throws her arms around me, pulling me close and stroking my back.

“Hey now, hey…” She soothes into my ear, and the dynamic switch of my little sister comforting
me
almost makes me smile.

“Thought I might find you here.”

I sniff as I look up at her. “What are you doing here?” I mumble, pulling away and wiping my eyes dry with the back of my hand.

“You weren’t answering your phone-” Her face tenses as she drags her teeth across her bottom lip.

Something’s up.

“What-”

“There’s, uh…” She trails off and wrings her hands. “You should probably come home.”

I frown. “Sierra-“

“An FBI agent stopped by the house, Ivy.”

What?

Her face falls and she looks away from me.

“You okay?”

She turns back to me, a hurt look on her face. “Ivy, you’re
married?
”

And that’s when the floor drops out. That’s when it suddenly feels like I’m floating in free-fall, flailing at dead air as the bottom rushes up to meet me.

Oh my God
.

The wind goes out of my lungs and I stagger, turning to gasp for air as I stare out at the harbor, trying to focus.

I turn back to my sister, shaking my head. “Sierra-”

“Look, I’m not
mad
that you didn’t tell-” she trails off and looks at the dock beneath our feet.

“Okay, no, I’m mad.” She looks up, a wry look on her face. “I can’t
believe
you didn’t tell me.”

“I was going to,” I say softly, swallowing. “We were both going to, before…”

I look away again, and I feel her hand on my shoulder, squeezing me.

“Hey, I
get
why you didn’t.”

I look up, almost hating to ask the question. “Does Dad…?”

She nods. “Yeah the FBI guy sort of spilled the beans to everyone on that one.”

I cringe, my face going white as I drop my eyes back to my feet.

“It’s going to be okay, you know.”

I can feel my head shaking as my eyes watch the ocean roll beneath the wooden slats of the dock.

No, it’s not.

Because there’s an FBI agent at my parents’ house, telling them the things I should have told them years ago.

Because history is repeating itself.

Because the man I love is about to break my heart all over again.

And now it’s time to face the music.

* * *

“
S
it
.”

I nod slowly in the doorway to the living room.

They’re all here - Dad, Mom, Rowan, and Stella. Sierra rubs my back gently as I swallow and slowly move into the room, still wearing my ridiculous evening gown. I sit at the far end of the sofa, Sierra sitting between Stella and I. Mom and Dad are in their favorite chairs by the fireplace, and Rowan’s pacing the floor by the windows looking almost more furious than my dad looks.

Almost.

“Why.”

It’s barely phrased as question. I look up at my father, his eyes hard and focused as his hand strokes his silvered beard. It’s the only word he says, but it’s the only one that matters. I know it’s the only thing they’re all thinking anyways.

Why.

Why didn’t I tell them? Why did I marry the boy I shouldn’t have been with in the first place? And I want to say I don’t know the answer to either, but I do.

Because I was scared.

To the first question, I was scared about what they’d say. I was scared to have the conversation I’m going to have with them right now anyways.

But it’s the answer to the second question, too. I was
scared
- scared of
not
taking that leap with the one who meant the world to me. I was scared of what it meant to
not
be with the one who held my heart.

“Why didn’t you tell us honey?” Mom says quietly. She worries her hands in her lap, her brow wrinkling before she looks back up at me.

“You’ve been
married
for eight years and we didn’t know?”

“I was scared.” I swallow. “I was scared of what you’d say.”

“Well you
damn well
should have been!” My dad erupts.

Stella reaches over from her end of the couch and puts a hand on his arm.

Rowan stops his pacing and glowers at me. “You
married
Silas.” He growls.

I nod.

“I’m going to fucking murder him.”

Stella sighs loudly and glares at him. “Okay, everyone needs to calm down. And stop
pacing
while you’re at it.” She shoots a look at Rowan. “Sit.”

Dad is still shaking his head, refusing to meet my eyes.

“I just don’t understand, Ivy,” he mutters, still stroking his beard as if giving a Sunday sermon.

“Dating the boy was one thing, but marriage?” He finally looks up at me. “Marriage is a serious thing, Ivy. I thought you understood that.”

“I do.”

But we were young, we were crazy, and it seemed like the only way to hold onto each other.

I’m looking at my wringing hands in my lap, chewing on my lip as my dad sighs heavily again.

“Ivy, I just
do not
understand why you’d
tie
yourself to a boy like Silas Ha-”

“Because I love him!”

The words burst from my lips like water from a broken damn. The words I’ve kept bottled up and held back, even from myself.

I love him.

Not past-tense, and not timidly.

Fully, fiercely, and very much in the now.

“I love him.”

My family is silent, their eyes all fixed on me.

My mother clears her throat. “You mean back then, right? When you were both too young to know what that means?”

I can feel my heart pounding in my chest, my breath coming in heavy gulps as I face the music I should have faced eight years ago. It’s the music I should have faced before I let him walk out of my life.

“No, that’s not what I mean.”

My dad’s eyes flash as he looks at me, his brow knitting. “What was that?”

“I said that’s not what I meant. Not past tense, not ‘back when I was young’.”

I look up, looking right into my dad’s eyes.

“Dad, I
love
him. I loved him back then, and I love him now, and
that’s
why we got married. It’s why we’ve
been
married for eight stupid years.”

My dad glowers at me as he turns away. “You
knew
how I felt about you seeing him, Ivy. We gave that boy everything, but there’s no changing some people from doing what they were always going to do, or from becoming who they were always going to become.”

“That’s not true,” I say through gritted teeth.

“I
beg
to disagree!” Dad says heatedly, his face going red.

Rowan is still glaring at me, his face tight, but I look at him pleadingly. He looks away, running his hand across his stubbled chin before dropping it to the knee of his bad leg and rubbing it.

The leg from
that
night.

Finally, he looks up at our dad.

“Dad, you
know
it was me who went that night,” he says gruffly. “As much as you want to blame Silas instead of me for it.”

Dad’s eyes narrow as he shakes his head at my brother. “Oh I blame you
both
for that night, but I also know you were only there
because
of him.”

“No, Dad.” He shakes his head. “
I
went.
My
actions. Silas was there to stop me, and you know that.”

“Ivy,” Dad exhales slowly, bringing a hand up to pinch the bridge of his nose before looking up at me.

“You know I thought of Silas as another son of mine. And I
want
to believe he’s everything you want him to be.”

He takes a deep breath, reaching for our mother’s hand before looking up at me. “But if he’s such a changed man, where is he now?”

I look away.

“Exactly my point,” he says softly.

“We know where he is,” Rowan mutters from the chair by the window, still staring at he floor and rubbing his leg.

He looks up at me with a strained look on his face. “And so does Agent Riley.”

My heart lurches into my chest as the color suddenly drains from my face.

No.

No-no-no…

I stand suddenly, stumbling, not knowing where I’m even going. I can feel the panic rising inside, clawing at my throat as the room starts to swim around me.

And then suddenly, my dad’s there - his large arms holding me, hugging me close before I fall completely.

“
I’m sorry
…”

“I’ve
never
been mad at you for following your heart, honey,” he says quietly, rocking me as I start to cry.

“I just never wanted to lose you because you did.”

My mom comes over and hugs me as well, and then the tears really start to fall.

“What can we do, honey?” Mom says, pulling me into her and stroking my back.

I shake my head. “I think I’m just ready to go home,” I say quietly.

“I think it’s time for me to leave.”