Three Harlan Coben Novels (44 page)

I jammed the leather planner between my knees and put the ceiling panel back in place. I grabbed the datebook and climbed down from the dryer. I considered waiting until I got upstairs into better light, but, uh-uh, no way. The datebook had a zipper. Despite the dust it opened smoothly.

A CD fell out and landed on the floor.

It glittered in the low light like a jewel. I picked it up by the edges. There was no label on it. Memorex had manufactured it. “CD-R,” it said, “80 Minutes.”

What the hell is this?

One way to find out. I hurried upstairs and booted up my computer.

When I put
the disk into the CD drive, the following screen appeared:

Password: _ _ _ _ _ _

MVD

Newark, NJ

Six-digit password. I typed in her birthday. No go. I tried Tara’s birthday. No go. I put in our anniversary and then my birthday. I tried the code for our ATM. Nothing worked.

I sat back. So now what?

I debated calling Detective Regan. By now it was closing in on midnight, and even if I could reach him, what exactly would I say? “Hi, I found a CD hidden in my basement, rush over”? No. Hysterics would not work here. Better to show calm, to feign rationality. Patience was key. Think it through. I could call Regan in the morning. Nothing he could or would do tonight anyway. Sleep on it.

Fine, but I was not about to give up quite yet. I logged on to the Internet and brought up a search engine. I typed in MVD in Newark. A listing popped up.

“MVD—Most Valuable Detection.”

Detection?

There was a link to a Web site. I clicked it, and the MVD Web site came up. My eyes did a quick scan. MVD was a “group of professional private investigators” who “provided confidential services.” They offered online background checks for less than a hundred dollars. Their ads exclaimed, “Find out if that new boyfriend has a criminal record!”
and “Where is your old sweetheart? Maybe she’s still pining for you!” Stuff like that. They also did more “intense, discreet investigations” for those who required such things. They were, per the top banner, a “full-service investigative entity.”

So, I asked myself, what had Monica needed investigated?

I picked up the phone and dialed MVD’s 800 number. A machine picked up—no surprise considering the hour—and told me how much they appreciated my call and that their office opened at nine in the morning. Okay. I’d call back then.

I hung up the phone and pressed the e: drive’s eject button. The CD slid into view. I lifted up by the edges and checked for, I don’t know, clues, I guess. Nothing new. Time to think here. It seemed pretty clear that Monica had hired MVD to investigate something and that this CD contained whatever it was she wanted investigated. Not exactly a brilliant deduction on my part, but it was a start.

Let’s go back then. Fact is, I had no idea what Monica wanted investigated or why or any of that. But if I was right, if this CD did indeed belong to Monica, if she had hired a private investigator for whatever reason, it would naturally follow that she would have had to pay MVD for said services.

I nodded. Okay, a better start.

But—and here is where confusion immediately set in—the police had thoroughly combed through our bank accounts and financial records. They had scrutinized every transaction, every Visa purchase, every written check, every ATM withdrawal. Had they seen one to MVD? If so, they decided not to tell me. Of course, I had not been a potted plant here. My daughter was gone. I, too, had examined those financial statements. There was nothing to any detective agency nor were there any cash withdrawals out of the ordinary.

So what did that mean?

Maybe this CD was old.

That was a possibility. I don’t think any of us checked transactions going back more than six months before the attack. Maybe her relationship with Most Valuable Detection predated that. I could probably check through the old statements.

But I wasn’t buying it.

This CD was not old. I was fairly certain of that. And it didn’t matter much anyway. Time frame, when I thought about it, was irrelevant.
Recent or otherwise, the key questions remained: Why would Monica hire a private investigator? What was password protected on that damn CD? Why had she hidden it in that creepy space in the basement? What, if anything, did Dina Levinsky have to do with any of this? And most important, did it have anything to do with the attack—or was this all a big exercise in wishful thinking on my part?

I looked out the window. The street was clear and silent. Suburbia sleeps. No more answers would come tonight. In the morning, I would take my father for our weekly walk and then I would call MVD and maybe even Regan.

I climbed into bed and waited for sleep.

The phone next to Edgar Portman’s bed rang at four-thirty in the morning. Edgar jerked awake, pulled out in middream, and fumbled with the phone.

“What?” he barked.

“You said to call as soon as I knew.”

Edgar rubbed his face. “You have the results.”

“I do.”

“And?”

“It’s a match.”

Edgar closed his eyes. “How certain are you?”

“It’s preliminary. If I were taking it to court, I’d need a few more weeks to line up all the arrows. But that would just be following proper protocol.”

Edgar could not stop shaking. He thanked the man, put the phone back in its cradle, and began to prepare.

At six the
next morning, I left my house and walked down the block. Using a key I’ve had since college, I unlocked the door and slipped into my childhood home.

The years had not been a friend to this dwelling, but then again, it hadn’t been featured in
House and Garden
(except maybe as one of their “before” photos) to begin with. We’d replaced the shag carpet four years ago—the blue-white speck had been so faded and threadbare, it practically replaced itself—and went with close-cropped office-gray so that my father’s wheelchair could move with ease. Other than that, nothing had been changed. The overvarnished side tables still held Lladró porcelain knickknacks from a long-ago trip to Spain. Holiday Inn–like oils of violins and fruit—none of us are the least bit musical or, uh, fruity—still adorned the white-painted wood paneling.

There were photos on the fireplace mantel. I always stopped and looked at the ones of my sister, Stacy. I don’t know what I was looking for. Or maybe I do. I was searching for clues, for foreshadowing. I was searching for any hint that this young, fragile, damaged woman would one day buy a gun off the street, shoot me, harm my daughter.

“Marc?” It was Mom. She knew what I was doing. “Come help me, okay?”

I nodded and headed toward the back bedroom. Dad slept on the ground floor now—easier than trying to get up the stairs with a wheelchair. We dressed him, which was a bit like dressing wet sand. My father lolls from side to side. His weight has a tendency toward sudden shifts. My mother and I were used to that, but it doesn’t make the task less arduous.

When my mother kissed me good-bye, the faint and familiar whiff of breath mint and cigarette smoke came off her. I had urged her to quit. She kept promising, but I knew that it would never happen. I noticed how loose the skin on her neck was getting, her gold chains almost embedded in their folds. She leaned down and kissed my father on the cheek, holding her lips to him a few seconds too long.

“Be careful,” she told us. Then again, that was what she always told us.

We began our journey. I pushed Dad past the train station. We live in a commuter town. Mostly men but yes, women, too, were lined up in long coats, briefcase in one hand, coffee cup in the other. This might sound odd, but even before 9/11, these people were heroes to me. They board that damn train five times a week. They take it to Hoboken and switch to the PATH. That train takes them into New York City. Some will head up to Thirty-third Street and change to hit midtown. Others will take it to the financial center, now that it’s opened up again. They make the everyday sacrifice, stifling their own wants and dreams in order to provide for those they love.

I could be doing cosmetic plastic surgery and making a mint. My parents would be able to afford better care for my dad. They could move someplace nice, get that full-time nurse, find a place that could cater more to their needs. But I don’t do that. I don’t help them by taking the more traveled route because, frankly, working such a job would bore me. So I choose to do something more exciting, something I love to do. For that, people think I’m the heroic one, that I am the one making the sacrifice. Here’s the truth. The person who works with the poor? They are usually more selfish. We are not willing to sacrifice our needs. Working a job that provides for our families is not enough for us. Supporting those we love is secondary. We need personal satisfaction, even if our own family is made to do without. Those suits I now watch numbingly board the NJ Transit train? They often hate where they are going and what they are doing, but they do it anyway. They do it to take care of their families, to provide a better life for their spouses, their children, and maybe, just maybe, their aging and ill parents.

So, really, which one of us is to be admired?

Dad and I followed the same route every Thursday. We took the path around the park behind the library. The park was chockful—and you’ll notice a suburban theme here—of soccer fields. How much
quality real estate was tied up in this supposedly second-tier foreign sport? My father seemed comforted by the playground, by the sights and sounds of children at play. We stopped and took deep breaths. I glanced to my left. Several healthy women jogged by clad in your finest, sheer-clingy Lycra. Dad seemed very still. I smiled. Maybe Dad’s liking this spot had nothing to do with soccer.

I no longer remember what my father used to be like. When I try to think back that far, my memories are snapshots, flashes—a man’s deep laugh, a little boy clinging to his bicep, dangling off the ground. That was pretty much it. I remember that I loved him deeply, and I guess that has always been enough.

After his second stroke sixteen years ago, Dad’s speech became extremely labored. He’d get stuck midsentence. He’d drop words. He’d go silent for hours and sometimes days. You’d forget that he was there. No one really knew for sure if he understood, if he had classic “expressive aphasia”—you understand but you can’t really communicate—or something even more sinister.

But on a hot June day during my senior year of high school, my father suddenly reached out and grabbed hold of my sleeve with an eagle-talon grip. I’d been heading out to a party at the time. Lenny was waiting for me by the door. My father’s surprisingly strong grasp stopped me cold. I looked down. His face was pure white, the tendons of his neck taut, and more than anything, what I saw was naked fear. That look on his face haunted my sleep for years afterward. I slid into the chair next to him, his hand still clutching my arm.

“Dad?”

“I understand,” he pleaded. His grip on my sleeve tightened. “Please.” Every word was a struggle. “I still understand.”

That was all he said. But it was enough. What I took it to mean was this: “Even though I can’t speak or respond, I comprehend. Please don’t shut me out.” For a while, the doctors agreed. He had expressive aphasia. Then he had another stroke, and the doctors became less sure of what he did and did not understand. I don’t know if I apply my own version of Pascal’s Wager here—if he understands me, then I should talk to him, if he doesn’t, what’s the harm?—but I figure that I owe him that. So I talk to him. I tell him everything. And right now, I was telling him about Dina Levinsky’s visit—“Do you remember her, Dad?”—and the hidden CD.

Dad’s face was locked, immobile, the left side of his mouth turned down in an angry slash-hook. I often wished that he and I never had that “I understand” conversation. I don’t know which is worse: to be beyond comprehension, or to understand how trapped you really are. Or maybe I do know.

I was making the second turn, the one by the new skateboard run, when I spotted my former father-in-law. Edgar Portman sat on a bench, splendid in his casual best, his legs crossed, his pants crease sharp enough to slice tomatoes. After the shootings, Edgar and I tried to keep up a relationship that had never existed when his daughter was alive. We had hired a detective agency together—Edgar, of course, knew the best—but they came up with nothing. After a while, Edgar and I both grew weary of the pretense. The only bond between us was one that conjured up the worst moment of my life.

Edgar’s being here could, of course, have been a coincidence. We live in the same town. It would only be natural to bump into one another from time to time. But that wasn’t the case. I knew that. Edgar was not one for casual park visits. He was here for me.

Our eyes met, and I wasn’t sure I liked what I saw. I wheeled the chair toward the bench. Edgar kept his eyes on me, never glancing down at my father. I might as well have been pushing a shopping cart.

“Your mother told me I’d find you here,” Edgar said.

I stopped a few feet away from him. “What’s up?”

“Sit with me.”

I set my father’s chair on my left. I lowered the brake. My father stared straight out. His head lolled toward his right shoulder, the way it does when he gets tired. I turned and faced Edgar. He uncrossed his legs.

“I’ve been wondering how to tell you this,” he began.

I gave him a little space. He looked off. “Edgar?”

“Hmm.”

“Just tell me.”

He nodded, appreciating my directness. Edgar was that kind of man. Without preamble, he said, “I got another ransom demand.”

I reeled back. I don’t know what I had expected to hear—maybe that Tara had been found dead—but what he was saying . . . I couldn’t quite comprehend it. I was about to ask a follow-up question when I saw that
he now had a satchel in his lap. He opened it and pulled something into view. It was in a plastic bag—just like the last time we went through this. I squinted. He handed it to me. Something ballooned in my chest. I blinked and looked at the bag.

Hairs. There were hairs inside it.

“This is their proof,” Edgar said.

I could not speak. I just looked at the hairs. I laid the bag gently on my lap.

“They understood that we would be skeptical,” Edgar said.

“Who understood?”

“The kidnappers. They said they’d give us a few days. I immediately brought the hairs to a DNA laboratory.”

I looked up at him and then back at the hairs.

“The preliminary results came in two hours ago,” Edgar said. “Nothing they could use in court, but it’s still pretty conclusive. The hairs match the ones sent to us a year and a half ago.” He stopped and swallowed. “The hairs belong to Tara.”

I heard the words. I didn’t understand them. For some reason, I shook my head no. “Maybe they just saved them from before. . . .”

“No. They have aging tests too. Those hairs came from a child around two years old.”

I guess that I knew that already. I could look and see that these were not my daughter’s wispy baby hairs. She wouldn’t have them anymore. Her hair would have darkened and thickened. . . .

Edgar handed me a note. Still in a fog, I took it from him. The font was the same as from the note we’d gotten eighteen months before. The top line over the fold said:

WANT ONE LAST CHANCE?

I felt the thud deep in my chest. Edgar’s voice seemed suddenly far away. “I probably should have told you immediately, but it seemed an obvious hoax. Carson and I didn’t want to get your hopes up unnecessarily. I have friends. They were able to rush through the DNA results. We still had hairs from the last mailing.” He put a hand on my shoulder. I did not move.

“She’s alive, Marc. I don’t know how or where, but Tara is alive.”

My eyes stayed on the hairs. Tara. They belonged to Tara. The sheen, that golden-wheat hue. I petted them through the plastic. I wanted to reach inside the bag, to touch my daughter, but I thought my heart would burst.

“They want another two million dollars. The note warns us again about calling the police—they claim to have an inside source. They sent another cell phone for you. I have the money in the car. We have another twenty-four hours maybe. That was the window they gave us for the DNA testing. You’ll have to be ready.”

I finally read the note. Then I looked over at my father in his wheelchair. He still stared straight ahead.

Edgar said, “I know you think I’m rich. I am, I guess. But not like you’d think. I’m leveraged and . . .”

I turned toward him. His eyes were wide. His hands shook.

“What I mean to say is that I don’t really have that many liquid assets left. I’m not made of money. This is it.”

“I’m surprised you’re doing this at all,” I said.

The words, I could see immediately, wounded him. I wanted to take them back, but for some reason I didn’t. I let my eyes drift back toward my father. Dad’s face remained frozen, but—I looked closer—there was a tear on his cheek. That didn’t mean anything. Dad has teared up before, usually with no apparent provocation. I did not take this as any kind of sign.

And then, I don’t know why, I followed his gaze. I looked across the soccer field, past the goalposts, past two women with Baby Joggers, all the way to the street nearly a hundred yards away. My stomach dropped. There, standing on the sidewalk, looking back at me with his hands in his pockets, was a man wearing a flannel shirt and black jeans and a Yankee cap.

I couldn’t say for sure that it was the same man from the ransom drop. Red-and-black flannel is hardly an uncommon pattern. And maybe it was my imagination—I was pretty far away—but I think he was smiling at me. I felt my whole body jerk.

Edgar said, “Marc?”

I barely heard him. I rose and kept my eyes up. At first, the man in the flannel stayed perfectly still. I ran toward him.

“Marc?”

But I knew that it was no mistake. You don’t forget. You close your
eyes and you still see him. He never leaves you. You wish for moments like this. I knew that. And I knew what wishes could bring. But I ran straight toward him. Because there was no mistake. I knew who it was.

When I was still a good distance away, the man lifted his hand and waved to me. I kept moving, but I could already see that it was futile. I was only halfway across the park when a white van drove up. The man in flannel snapped a salute in my direction before disappearing into the back.

The van was out of sight before I reached the street.