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“What would you have done? I didn’t find out until the end of November. By then I was a little more than three months along. And I did call your parents’ house to talk to you. I had no idea what I should do when your brother said you’d be out of touch until the following summer.”

He scowled. “You talked to Kane?”

“Briefly. I wasn’t comfortable having him pass on the message about your impending fatherhood.”

“So you kept the information to yourself?”

“What other choice did I have?”

“What choice did
you
have? Jesus, Sky, that’s the problem. You seem to think you get to make all the choices and keep all the control in this relationship. You have since day one.” Kade shoved a hand through his hair. “I’ll admit I made a mistake in not tellin’

you I wasn’t Kane. But you cut me off without lettin’ me explain my side of things.”

She bristled. “You pretended to be someone else. I slept with you thinking you were Kane. How is that my fault?”

“It isn’t.”

“At least we agree on that point.”

Kade sighed. “Skylar. I don’t wanna fight with you.”

When it occurred to her he’d used the word
relationship,
she looked at him oddly.

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He stared right back, completely nonplussed. “Does anyone ever mix you up with your sister?”

“No. Even before India became the tattooed woman we weren’t hard to tell apart.

Different eye color, facial structure, body type.” India was lean and muscular and sometimes Skylar resented that she’d been cursed with a rounder, womanly physique, but they were easily distinguishable from one another.

“This ain’t an excuse, but you don’t have any idea how that feels. Not only am I saddled with an identical twin, but we also look just like our other McKay cousins in three counties. Some folks act as if we’re all interchangeable. So I’ve heard ‘one of them McKay twins’ or ‘one of those wild McKay boys’ my whole life. Seems I don’t have an identity beyond my last name.

“Might sound stupid, but I’d convinced myself that for once, the name I had, the name you knew me by, didn’t matter, because you were interested in the man inside.

Yeah, I realize it was dumb. But I didn’t have any idea on how to go about making it right back then.”

She waited, unsure of where he was going with this and unsure of how she’d respond.

Kade reached for her hand. “Except I can make it right now. Let’s start over.”

“It’s too late.”

“It’s never too late. Come on. I’ll go first.” He formally shook her hand. “Howdy, little lady. I’m Kade McKay.”

Skylar laughed.

“You shore are purty. Anyone ever told you that you have a beautiful laugh? Like bluebells in springtime.”

“Kade.”

“You maybe wanna go out with me sometime?” He grinned and gave her an exaggerated wiggle of his eyebrows. “Or do you just wanna skip all that normal datin’

stuff and have my baby?”

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She laughed again. It’d been a long time since she’d made that carefree sound. She’d forgotten how Kade had tried to cajole her out of a mood during their dates, if she’d had a stressful day at the office. Not only was he sweet, he was the rare person who could make her laugh. She squeezed their joined hands. “You goof-ball.”

“C’mere.” He tugged her until she fell across his lap. His arms came around her, keeping her close. “You looked like you could use a hug.”

She twisted her neck to gape at him. “You remember that?”

“I remember everything. I had nothin’ but time to think about it. All of it.”

Even when her mouth said, “This isn’t a good idea,” Sky’s attempt to squirm away was half-hearted at best.

“Relax. I ain’t gonna maul you. We’ll be less apt to argue if we’re close like this.

Plus, if I have hold of your hand, you won’t be tempted to take a swing at me, since rumor has it you’re a fighter.”

She wondered where he’d heard that. Did she have a reputation around town as a hard-nosed business woman? Cold, efficient and emotionless? No matter, for now, she’d let him soothe her with simple human contact, just for a minute or two.

“You take Eliza to work with you every day?”

“Yeah. She’s usually pretty good and it helps I can set my own hours. I try to keep us both on a daily schedule. If I have to be on a conference call, or meet with salespeople and distributors, I can leave her with the onsite daycare.”

“You have onsite daycare at Sky Blue?”

“It’s the one thing I insisted on. The women working for me all have kids. Since a large chunk of their paychecks would go for childcare, I set up an area onsite and have them care for each other’s children so they can keep every penny they earn.”

“Smart. But how’s that work?”

“I opted to have all employees rotate all positions. It cuts down on training time, since they are trained on every job. Every six days they rotate from the factory into the daycare. So even if someone is sick, we won’t get behind on production because another employee can step in and do her job. Plus, it is a load off their minds that their kids are 46

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close by, and well-cared for, which in the long run means steady productivity and happier employees.”

“How many people work for you?”

“I have six full-time employees in the factory. One woman who helps me with office work.”

“I’ll bet you have a waitin’ list a mile long for potential employees, if any one of those women would be foolish enough to quit workin’ for you.”

“Now that I’m a mother, I know I made the right decision in setting up the business the way I did.”

Kade was quiet. “So when it rolls around to quittin’ time, you drive up the road and spend your nights carin’ for Eliza? After bein’ with her all day?”

“Eliza isn’t a burden, Kade, she’s everything to me. I never knew I could…love someone that much.” Her voice dropped. “Sometimes I’m so overwhelmed by her, by what a perfect little being she is and how much she’s become my life…” Sky was still stunned every day by how much Eliza’s birth changed her as a person. Now Kade was here, giving her the opportunity to bare all the emotions she’d kept inside about how their miracle “oops” was the best thing that’d ever happened to her.

Would he understand? Or did it just make her seem pathetic that she had no one else to talk to? Especially when she knew he had support from his huge family?

Sure, Sky could spill her guts to India; God knew she’d listened to India’s issues for years. But India had already provided tons of emotional support during Sky’s pregnancy and Eliza’s birth. It seemed cruel to wax poetic about the sheer joys of motherhood and her beautiful baby considering the heartbreak India had suffered through a few years back. As much as Sky appreciated and genuinely liked her employees, there was a line of propriety between worker and boss she didn’t feel comfortable crossing. Between setting up her business and birthing Eliza, she hadn’t had much opportunity to get to know other women in the community or to make friends.

Did she just want friendship from Kade McKay?

“Skylar? What’s goin’ on in that pretty head?” he murmured.

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Emotional soup. Wanna bite? Sometimes it’s hot; sometimes it’s cold.

Kade turned her around to face him. “Hey.”

“It’s not like I had a choice.”

“You do now.” He caressed her cheek. “I’ll be here every night as soon as I finish up on the ranch. I ain’t gonna let you do this alone any more.”

Might make her a fool, but she wanted to believe him. She wanted to throw herself in his arms and weep with gratitude. But blind faith had caused more problems in her life than self-reliance, so she kept her shield of skepticism intact. “Just like that? No arguing?

You’re just accepting this? Accepting her?”

“Yeah.” His thumb traced the dark circles she knew were visible beneath her eyes.

“No doubt Eliza is my child. She’s my responsibility. In my mind, that means you are, too. Believe me, that isn’t a burden either.”

Rational thought vanished when he touched her. His sweetly spoken heartfelt words, his gentle caress, the warmth in his eyes packed an emotional punch and she didn’t attempt to dodge the blow.

Then the look in Kade’s eyes changed from comfort to pure male sexual power. His thumb moved down and swept across her bottom lip. Over and over. Making it softer.

Wetter. He didn’t say a word; he didn’t have to.

Her mind screamed retreat. She felt the shift in him and tried to stop her body from answering in kind. His breath fanned across her cheek in an erotic stroke of heat. No man had ever looked at her the way he did. It scared the living crap out of her; it always had.

She tried to scramble away, but he clamped his hand around her upper thigh.

“Let me speak my piece before you run off. This isn’t what I came here for. But there’s been a hot spark between us since the day we met. I’ll be damned if I’m gonna deny it’s happenin’ again.”

“Denial would be easier.”

“Maybe for you. Not for me. Never for me. I pretended with you once. I won’t do it again. Ever.” Then he released her, and walked out of the room.

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Nice going, McKay. Tell her you’re not going to maul her and what’s the first thing
you do?

Growl and go all Big Bad Wolf on her.

Christ. He was an idiot. One touch, one hopeful, coquettish look from Sky and he morphed into a horny toad. Kade inhaled several deep breaths and stared out the window above the sink.

His feelings for Skylar hadn’t changed. Things had gone to hell between them last summer before he’d mustered up the guts to confess he’d fallen for her. Hard. And judging by the way she was acting, she wouldn’t welcome any declaration of his feelings or his intent. At least not right now. Seemed he had no choice but to hang back and let this play out at her pace, not his. Luckily he was a patient man.

Calmer, Kade grabbed a bottle from the refrigerator. Eliza would be up soon, he may as well get ready to feed her.

Soft footsteps stopped behind him.

Kade spun around. “Look. I’m sorry. I touched you like I had a right to. I don’t. The last thing I want is to make you uncomfortable in your own house.”

“Let’s forget it, okay? Chalk it up to being a stressful day. I’m going upstairs to get your room ready. Eliza is still down here in the bassinet. Will you listen for her to wake up?”

“Sure. Where am I sleepin’?”

“In the guest bedroom.”

“Where does Eliza usually sleep?”

“In my room.”

“That’s gonna be a problem when I get up with her in the middle of the night.”

“No it won’t be. I’ll just deal with the night feedings and get up with her like I always do.”

“The hell you will. I’m here to care for our child. That means day and night. If she sleeps in your room, so do I.”

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Skylar looked petrified for a moment before she regained her composure. “Funny, McKay. You had me going there for a second.”

“I ain’t kiddin’.” He crossed his arms over his chest, knew it looked belligerent and didn’t care. “I’d be fine if you moved her crib into the guest bedroom with me.”

“But all her stuff is in my room. I hadn’t planned to decorate and put her into her own room for at least another month.”

“Then it’d be smart to keep her right where she is, wouldn’t it?”

She blinked with the same owl-eyed expression Eliza had earlier. “So what you’re saying, is…”

“It appears you and I are gonna be roomies, darlin’.”

“Oh no.”

“Oh
yes
. You stay on your side of the bed. I’ll stay on mine.”

“So we’re sharing a bed strictly as parenting partners?”

“Yep.”

“You’ll be a perfect gentleman?”

“If that’s what you want. Besides, you’ll probably be so glad to get a full night’s sleep that you won’t even notice I’m there.”

“But—”

“But, it’s only for a few weeks, until you put her in her own room, right?”

“Ah. Right.”

“So, how hard can it be?”

The look on Skylar’s face was priceless. He knew she wasn’t convinced it’d be no big deal having him in her bed.

And that’s exactly what Kade was counting on.

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Two weeks later…

“Wah. Wah. Wah.” Pause. “Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.”

Skylar groaned and rolled toward the edge of the bed. “Hang on, baby. I’m coming.”

Kade placed his hand on her shoulder. “Stay put. I’ll get her. Go back to sleep.”

She mumbled, “Thanks.” The minute he was out of bed, she sprawled in the middle of the mattress and snagged his pillow.

What a bed hog.

“Wah. Wah. Wah.”

“Good Lord, child. Them lungs work fine at four in the mornin’, don’t they?” Kade murmured, scooping Eliza out of her crib. He skirted the footboard and snuck out of the room.

Downstairs in the kitchen, he kept the lights dimmed as he reheated a bottle. Eliza rooted against his chest, making angry snuffing sounds. He brushed his lips across the top of her head, inhaling her sweet baby scent, rocking her back and forth. “I know. Poor starvin’ girl.”

The timer dinged. Kade plucked the bottle from the pan, tested the temperature, shifted Eliza into the crook of his arm and popped the nipple in her mouth. Greedy sucking noises echoed in the quiet house as he headed for the rocking chair in the dark living room.

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After he set the rocker in motion, he closed his eyes. He was tired. The third time he’d been up with their fussy baby in so many hours. Usually he and Sky took turns, but the last two nights Eliza hadn’t slept for more than an hour at a stretch. Didn’t help Sky said Eliza wasn’t napping during the day. She screamed bloody murder any time Skylar wasn’t holding her, so Skylar had fallen behind at work.