To John (6 page)

"Don't push yourself too much.
Night."

3
^rd
Week December 2014

15 Dec 2014

"2.08%, $57.81. Good morning
~~;"

"Is anybody still using Michigan?
If yes, forget it. 5 min ahead preorders? It won't work anymore.
Michigan received 2 million a year from Reuter. Quite cheap deal,
don't you think? That price indicates the impact of the news which
Michigan provides. 2 million a year. A price of gum."

"IEA expects the 230,000bpd
decrease of crude oil demand(from KCIC): $40 is not a joke. OPEC
started earning more by investment rather than selling. That's why
they don't care about petrodollars. They will not take them either.
So how can US pay for oil? A mystery."

"If anybody knows the answer,
please let me know * *:"

"FOMC 'law interest rate for a
considerable time'(from KCIC): so cautious about inflation because
it's about to be burst. Early redemption of US 10yr bonds. Check
who asked first. Jinping or Qatar."

"...John, do you know where
Christine is nowadays? She has been so quiet. It's about seasonal
time for her to appear to break that spaded pigeon's wings, no?
Ana."

"Alert from KCIC. The sovereign
default."

'Was that your problem? You
cannot understand passion, or in other words, obsession. Why do you
think apathy is higher intelligence?'

Ana asked herself.

"I took a nice and long nap as
I have neither kids nor housekeeping works. Did you take a nice and
long nap too, John?"

The day is darker than usual.
When Ana woke up from her nap, she did not know where she was. Very
quiet. A few noises from the street. Empty house. Messy garden. She
had nothing to do, so she went back to bed again.

'What a sad creature I am.'

She wanted to pull all her
hairs out. She is synchronized with the chart physically. She
thought if there is another credit crunch, she will become
clinically depressed according to the chart. She knew quite a few
committed suicide 2008. Not a kind place.

"John, is there a memorial
service today?"

"Ana, back to bed. It's just a
dish washing."

"By the way, do you like pork
cutlet in Jap style called Don Kass? Or are you playing
physiological game with me? I don't mind being a guinea pig as far
as you give some pleasure. Otherwise I will bite you as a
genetically modified chimp."

Ana was a first generation IVF
baby. She thought she was adopted. But her mum gave her a natural
birth. Egg and sperm unknown. She had identity crisis all the time.
Who am I? Where did I come from? Biologically? Shitty questions but
they never left her mind.

16 Dec 2014

"Monin, Monin :::"

"Putin's favorite game is Candy.
Level 17. Not happy with rubbles."

"AE is ready for 40 soldiers."

"SS has reached 30 mile port."

Ana's little summary:

'I did not know Petrodollars is
included in the 1tn budget. At this rate, they cannot make 1tn for
inverting government shutdown. OPEC wants to crush US government
with oil money. Very natural as a revenge. US almost destroyed the
whole Middle-East for oil money.'

"John, Let us see who is happy
today. I am not happy. And you?"

"Still in the subway."

"i tink im tik."

"Spell them properly."

"Ok. I think I am thick."

Ana thought,

'Why am I the last one always? Why
am I the last one to know that all these terror shits are American
jobs. They even killed their own people. 911. So obvious. Give us
oil or we kill you as terrorists. The actual reason behind this is
that OPEC refused and will refuse dollars as payment. Petrodollar
is the back bone of Texans, ie, Republicans. No money, no power.
Their back will be bend backwards. That American Shit! Back to
Colorado! You are making me have bleeding piles. When I had
internal hemorrhage, there was Fukushima accident 311. I do not
know what will happen if I have external hemorrhage.'

The reason. US tried to open a
route to get their troops out from Afghanistan. Pakistan asked a
lot of money. Syria is blocked. Iran, no way. During last 10 years.
10 years ago, Saudi Arabia first refused dollars as payment for
oil. What a coincidental timing.

"Usual. No selling today. Too
tight."

Ana's lazy afternoon note:

'I nearlly escaped the death by a
skin of my teeth. The emotion which saved me was anger. Anger moved
my fingers. My fingers moved my almost frozen heart. At near death,
I felt a surge of hormone, different from Endolphine. Almost like
morphin. I guess, when the heart stops providing oxygen to the
brain, the brain start shooting something. Orphine? I knew the
name. I can not remember. Anyway, that's why people who died
naturally without trauma look so peaceful and even happy. That time
bomb like hormone relaxes the muscle. With technique of
medidtation, you can bring down your brain activity almost level of
zero. Is that what Buddha called Nirvana? Shit, I almost died. I
had better no do that shit again. I was almost choked to death.
Really scary...'

She had a cup of coffee.

"So, who had fun with Roubles
today? Good for you. He will come back with other shockings, I
bet."

"My brain is dead. Only fingers
are alive. And you, John?"

"My fingers are dead. My brain is
still ok, Ana."

"Putin is at level 17. We are at
level 109. A bit different level, no? Putin needs more friends. Or
lots of gold or oil."

Ana and Carl, both loved online
games like Lineage. One day Ana asked,

'Carl, why are you watching me
playing all the time? Am I so pretty?'

'No. Ha ha... You are rather good.
I think you might save me one day, baby sis.'

'Not bad today. Look... I went
through all the way. Homework done. Ta Ta.'

That night, Ana was winging all
night.

'My back hurts... my head hurts...
my fingers are numb...'

Her mum said,

‘
You had better
not play that boyish fighting game.’

Ana started hiccupping and shut
her mouth up.

"Do you fancy squid stir fry? I
will get some onions first."

"Ana, shall we close down our shop
as I ate quite a bit today."

"Yes, why not. I am just watching.
I have six sense about my brother. He might pop in tonight for his
lunch. As the 40 mention was quite something. I am waiting for his
offensive and deffensive battle. He is very offensive and very
deffensive, you know. By the way, where are you?"

"Still in the office. Logging
jobs, you know."

"I cooked some oden soup and sent
a text to Carl that I am cooking oden soup. He said whatever. He
knows the meaning of oden. Oden means 'Your magesty Sky' in
Japanese. Ha ha..."

"John, John, here he comes...
don't go near there... shit... he is gone now... wait..."

"The way he is getting in is
always so sneaky. He drops it down first. Hard. Then he pulls it
up. Sharp. Drop it. Pull it up again. Such a bastard, isn't he? I
tried to copy his style, but it's too fast for me. I almost broke
my fingers. At least I had developed arthritis on my wrist.
Paganini. He composed a piece to break other player's fingers."

"If you sell now, you are hooked.
You know what I mean..."

"I remember his unhappy face when
I finally bit him up. His tight mouth, grinding his molar teeth.
All old days when I was a child. I wonder he changed his habits by
now."

"Anyway, good night, John. Long
day..."

She pickep up another mobile.

"Sofia, how much is your margin
level?"

"952"

"Me too. Shall we hit the Fez
club?"

"Dress code?"

"Black tights and boots. No
make-up. Curly hair. Lip gloss, no sticks."

"Got you. What time?"

"Normal time."

"Bingo."

"See you then, darling. X"

Ana's little note before
dinner

'Oil price drops. Americans
started doing their usual stuff. Because Pakistan did not let them
to go through their country. What dirty pigs to kill those
children! Do I make myself clear about my pathological hatred of
Americans! They kill people, other people and their own people for
the oil.'

'If you are a normal American, I
have to ask you whether it makes sense to you. In order to make
money, do you have to constantly kill people? Of course not. You
make money, you make money. You don't have to kill people. So, why
do these Americans kill people? Because, they do not know other
way. Dumb heads? Old and stuck. Will you follow them for your
future and your kids? Hell, no. If then, you have to prepare
yourself. Dollar will collapse. US bonds will be dishonored. Come
on. You moved already. Move faster for taxation, ie, better
financial system. Very organic, is not it? If you feel choked, you
move for fresher air. If you feel sterile, you move for more
sunlight. Phototaxis.'

17 Dec 2014

"55.93 Another sharp drop. Another
crack."

Ana got really upset when she saw
the obvious US attack to Pakistan. It was well known that US could
not pay the sum Pakistan asked for the route. Now look...

'US cannnot use Taliban Insurgency
to open the route from Afghanistan. Iran has long distance nuclear
missiles. OPEC versus US only. Time has changed. No Israel, no UK,
no France, no any other EU country. US has no alley. Syria proved
it. US backstabbed their alleies too much. Get the Guantanamo
details published. Most of them, after interrogation, started
working for US. Terrorists made in USA shit. The apprearance of Jeb
Bush and this terror was timed by Texan based Republicans. How
sick! I like to throw up on theirs knees. One of Bushes had a heart
attack, rececntly? Another heart attack for you then. How many
children did you kill this time? I cannot calm down. OPEC cannot
calm down. $40 for sure. You will be grinded into bread crumbs. You
will bend down your knees as beggers to pick up the oily
crumbs.'

She came back from her part time
job and wrote:

'I am not scared of my anger any
more. There is an anger. I will express it. I will make it
realized. Otherwise it is physically too painful. The problem with
my nerve system has a limit for a patience.'

Ana had a terrible headache. She
sweat like a hell. Her whole body was buzzing with fast and sharp
pains. She felt as if thousands arrows penetrating her. She started
watching one by one. Once any pain go through, there is nothing
with sweet after effect. She felt refreshed. Neuralgia? What a
funny name. It means unknown, various pain. She named it as
Wednesday Blue. As it was Wednesday, those pain looked like blue
lightening. A bit green too. Rather illuminating colors, they have.
Brighter than turquoise. When she opened her eyes, that color was
tinting certain places. Then she saw thousands of white, short
arrows not in her body, outside. They almost looked like very fast
snow falls. It was so real. Anyway...

"Focus on your feet. Feel me. We
are moving together. We are connected technically and partly
physically as we are using five senses here."

"Toe ring time."

Ana's mindless note:

'You say I am cute. You might say
differently when you have the pain which I had... Or if you get a
few million out of nowhere within a day... Or you grow up, get
married and lose your child like that, you might say differently.
Taste the hell and come back.'

"Sofia, I am going to a party. I
will wear teardrops of pink diamond. Rather plain clothes as we all
are lamenting."

“
John, Iran
started nuclear talking. Good subject, don’t you think? Right
timing. Or they just had enough. I felt the same. We had enough of
that terror shit.”

'Personnally I think it's their
turn to taste the air strikes and see their decapitated 2 year
daughter. Otherwise they will not stop their dirty habit.
Destinations will follow...'

Ana remembered something and wrote
it down:

'It feels like long time ago but
it was recent. US asked Iran to help them to punish Iraq. Rouhani
said,

"We would like to. But US has
problem with informations. They do not know where to strike."

Then a general in Pentagon said
the same thing.

"We need more information."'

The conclusion is that US wants to
strike anywhere in Middle East.

The reason is oil and weapon. It
sounds simple but how many people has been killed. Did that
mindless airstrike make US rich? No. The opposite. Apparently their
financial system turned out to be a real crap. Traders hate it.
There is no bank who was not fined to a choking level. Even BNP
Pribas, who shifted the whole shit from America to Europe, got
fined severly. Israel got bankrupted. Something very wrong... Two
near sovereign default, one government shutdown, one more sovereing
default.

The weapon, which they can not
sell in Middle East, was sold or dumped to their domestic policy
called national guard. Now the policy started shooting their own
people. All this has to be ended by force. Otherwise there will be
a nuclear war, which will destroy the earth by 9/11. What a number.
It is like a well-laid plan. But actually what is worrying me is
the KP pipeline. They are so desperate for oil. They are trying so
hard to get that pipeline to draw oil from Alaska and Canada. But
the structure has problem. They dig too deep or too shallow.
Earthquake is like cancer. If you cut an inch wrong, everything
starts spreading. Ok... The real problem is GE faulty reactors mark
1 are aligned with the line. Before nuclear war, they might have
nuclear explosions first. Oh my god...'

"John, John, I met a Texan John.
Can you believe it? He said he has been building up aircrafts
called Ego. He said you need a lot of patience in England. They
don't deliver food instantly. But they don't chuck out us
neither."