Authors: Vicki Green
“UNGH!” Cassie sits up quickly and is pushing again. After Jesse hands his son to the nurse, he’s back by Cassie’s side wiping her brow again and holding her hand. A few minutes pass, and their baby girl is wailing as the doctor helps her out of the womb. Cassie lays back down, smiling and softly whispering her ‘I love you’s’ to Jesse. He is kissing her head and giving her his love back. So sweet!
I am tugging on my hand to get it out of Cassie’s grip when she turns her head my way and releases my hand. “Oh, sorry, Allie. I guess you were my lifeline.” She smiles apologetically to me. I put my other hand on her arm and smile. “It’s ok. It’s been an honor to be your lifeline. I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.”
I am flexing my hand trying to get the blood to flow back to my fingers when the nurse rolls two bassinets over to the other side of Cassie’s bed. Jesse reaches in, picks up his daughter, who they named Hannah and hands her to Cassie. He looks at her, pride clearly on his face. I walk over to them bending over to look at my nephew Harley. This is making me want a baby so bad. Someone to love and cherish, who would love me back unconditionally. I wish I had enough guts to tell Shane how I feel about him, to take our friendship to the next level.
“Go on, Aunt Allie. Pick up your nephew,” Jesse grins, bringing me out of my thoughts. My smile couldn’t be any bigger as I pick him up and cradle him. “Hi, little guy. I’m your Aunt Allie.” I take his little hand with my fingers. He proceeds to grab a hold of one. I turn to Cassie and smirk. “Hmmm, I see he has his mother’s grip.”
She laughs at me. “Ha! Very funny. Just wait until the day YOU go through this. You’ll be glad that I am there for you to squeeze the life out of MY hand.”
I laugh, “Oh, don’t worry, IF I ever go through this, you will definitely be right there next to me and your hand will need an ice pack afterwards.”
Once I hand my nephew back to Jesse I watch them coo and cuddle with their babies. Jesse is sitting on the bed next to Cassie as she kisses on Hannah. I sigh. Maybe someday. Oh, who am I kidding? I don’t think that’s in the cards for me. Maybe Shane doesn’t want me that way. Maybe I’m just fooling myself into thinking he does. Why would he? I certainly don’t have the best track record. Anytime I’ve ever gotten serious with a guy, they dump me immediately and run away as fast as they can. There must be something wrong with me.
It wasn’t too long after the birth’s that Stella and the whole crew from the Café came to visit. The room seems too small with everyone there. “I’m just going to go take a walk to get some fresh air. I’ll be right back.” I announce and turn to leave.
“Allie! It’s freezing outside! It is December you know.” Cassie yells as I put my coat on. I turn to her and laugh. “Uh, duh! I know that, silly. I won’t be long.” And with that I leave the room to head outside.
I walk out the front entrance of the hospital and literally run smack into a strong and hard chest. “Oomph,” my yell muffled. His arms around me, steadying me as I teeter to stay upright. I automatically wrap my arms around his waist.
“Sorry, love. I guess I wasn’t watching where I was going,” Shane says breathing into my hair. He seems to be sniffing me. I’d like to sniff and touch all over his body right now. He makes me want to do things I’ve never done before. He makes me want him so badly.
Shane and I haven’t really talked about our friendship or whatever this is. We do hold hands, a lot, and we love to sit on my couch and neck while pretending to watch TV. I know we have deep feelings for each other. I’m just not sure how deep they go, yet. Well, I know how deep mine go, it’s his I’m unsure of.
He finally lets me go and I step back. “Where are you off to in such a hurry?” He asks.
“I was just getting some much needed fresh air. The gangs all in Cassie’s room and it was getting stuffy,” I smirk. “I’ve been here all day without many breaks so I’m entitled,” I say as I cross my arms. And I needed a smoke after all the long hours and anticipation. I know I need to quit but with all the stress in my life, I just can’t do it now.
He mimics my stance and laughs. “You’re coming out here to sneak a durry. Aren’t you?” He says, shaking his head at me.
“Shane, didn’t you say a durry was a rolled cigarette?” He nods. “I don’t roll them. I buy them. I just smoke one occasionally and now is a great occasion. Hannah and Harley were just born.” I look at him sternly. “You’re a fine one to talk. You smoke all the time.”
Looking down, he kicks the ground with his foot and clears his throat. “Well, yes, I know I smoke too much, and I’m gonna try to cut down— I mean, quit. Soon, I swear!” He looks back up and gazes into my eyes. Grinning like a Cheshire cat, the dimple in his cheek grows deeper the wider his smile gets. Ugh! I can’t even stay mad at him when he looks at me like that. He’s just too gorgeous and takes my breath away! I want to embed my tongue in that dimple while I am doing other things to his body. Is it wrong of me to want to push him down right here and ravage his body? Ok, maybe a public showing isn’t such a good idea. But, I can dream!
I grab his hand pulling him with me towards the bench I was sitting on earlier. We sit close, his fingers intertwining with mine. Looking down at our hands my eyes shift to him, and I smile.
“What time are you going home? I think we need some quiet time, don’t you?” He says as he cups my face with his other hand. He starts rubbing his thumb over my cheek, and my heart starts to speed up. That familiar ache in my body, the heat rising within me. Oh, he isn’t helping my public display thoughts one bit! He better be careful or I will end up pouncing on him right here!
I shake my head and try to wake myself from my lust filled mind, pulling back from his grasp slowly. I look around to see if we are drawing any attention. Once satisfied that we aren’t, I turn back to him and take his hand back into mine. “Shane, you’re so bad. Stop that! Not here!” I giggle out of nervousness. “I’m just going to go up say my goodbyes and get Lana to drive me home.”
He looks at me questioningly. “You didn’t drive yourself?” I shake my head. “I’ll take you home. Then we can we can have our quiet time. It’s been too long,” he says waggling his eyebrows. He has no idea! The ache in my pussy just flared even further. I try not to be noticeable as I clench my thighs together to try and quench the fire there.
I pull on his hand as I stand up, laughing. “Ok, big guy. Let’s go say our goodbyes.” We walk back hand in hand into the hospital. Once in the room, I watch Shane look at the twins and give Jessie and Cassie his congratulations. We hug everyone goodbye. I kiss the twins again along with Jesse and Cassie and tell them I will be back tomorrow.
Once we get to my condo we relax on the couch, still holding hands from the drive. Shane takes his other hand and lifts my chin, forcing me to look into his dark eyes. “Allie, I think we need to talk.” I swallow, hard. I swear I can feel my heart beating. Oh, no! Here it comes. I knew it! He doesn’t want to see me anymore. It was just a matter of time. This always happens. When am I going to learn not to give my heart so freely? Damn! I fell too hard for him. He’s the first and only one I’ve really wanted so badly. The only one I’ve truly cared for and who cared for me. I’m never going to be able to get over him. Maybe I should just go back to LA. and hide away at dad’s office and in my romance books, and wallow in my nonexistent life.
“I want more,” he says with caring. I whip my eyes up to his. What? I think to myself. “I want so much more with you. I’m falling in love with you, Allie.” I close my eyes and can’t hold back the tears that instantly formed in my eyes. Is this really happening? Maybe he’s drunk. I don’t remember smelling any alcohol on him. As I look back into his eyes, I see a look of concern. “I hope those are happy tears, love.” He smiles, wiping them away. “I know it’s only been months, but I can’t help the way I feel about you. I’ve never felt this way before. I can’t stop thinking about you, every single minute of the day. I miss you when we’re not together. I can’t stand not being with you all the time anymore. I mean it, Allie. I want you, so much. I need you.”
I begin stroking his hand, giving a small smile. “Oh, Shane. They are happy tears but I have to tell you, I’m really nervous and scared. I’ve— I’ve never had a real relationship before, really. I mean—There’s just so much you don’t know about me or my past.” I look down at our hands. “I’m afraid you’ll change your mind,” I whisper.
He pulls me into a hug and whispers in my hair, “Allie. I don’t care about your past. I only care about you, and our future, together. Give me a chance. Give us a chance.” I pull back, slightly, searching his eyes and nod. He lifts me up until I am sitting on his lap, straddling him.
Instantly, his lips press to mine. One of his hands holding the back of my head, I dig my fingers into his hair, and don’t hesitate when his tongue licks my lower lip asking for entrance. When I open for him his tongue plunges into my mouth, greedily, hungrily, searching for mine. I can feel my moan release from deep inside me, his mouth muffling the sound. His other hand moves to my shirt, his fingers unfastening the buttons. I let go of his hair, and move my hand down his chest until I find his hard erection through his jeans. I rub up and down and squeeze, which causes him to moan into my mouth. Sexiest sound ever!
“You’re killing me, love,” he says onto my lips. Before I know what’s happening, he picks me up in his arms, our lips never separating. He walks us up to my room and lays me on my bed, his body hovering over mine. We release our kiss with a smack and I look up at him, as he stares at me from above. He releases the rest of the buttons on my shirt and slowly opens each side. “You look so hot in that black bra,” he says, licking his lips, his eyes full of desire.
I sit up, making him sit on his knees, in between my legs. I remove my shirt, slowly and toss it on the floor. He leans forward reaching around me and unhooks my bra, looking into my eyes the entire time. He tosses it over his shoulder, his eyes never losing contact.
As I lay back I can see the need and want in his eyes, making my heart rate intensify. He lays down over me, propped up on one elbow by my side. His mouth captures one of my nipples and sucks hungrily. I instantly arch my back, causing my breast to push into his mouth further. I can’t stop the moans coming out of me. His mouth moves over to my other breast, nipping and tugging on it until I feel I might scream. My nipples are so hard and peaked now, the flame of desire rising within me, quickly.
He sits back again, his chest moving up and down rapidly with his heavy breathing. He unfastens the button on my jeans and slides the zipper down. His hands move to my waist and begin pulling my jeans and underwear down together. I lift my hips, to make it easier for him.
Once they are off, I lay there in all my glory. I’m not embarrassed in the least, in fact, I am so ready to be with him in every way. He slides down the bed, his mouth finding my clit and begins sucking. My body has a mind of its own, my hips bucking and wiggling below him, unable to keep still. My muscles squeeze as I feel the impending climax begin. He inserts one finger in me, then another. They curl inside me hitting my sweet spot as he moves them. “OH!” I moan loudly, closing my eyes as I see spots forming. I start soaring as the orgasm takes me to a higher plain that I don’t want to ever come down from.
I slowly come back to reality, feeling his breath in my hair. He whispers, “I want to make love to you, Allie. Let me make love to you. Let me show you the love I feel for you.” I open my eyes, my mouth finding his, and I kiss him with everything I have. He quickly removes his clothes and returns to his place over my body. I move my hand down his body to his glorious cock. Taking it in my hand, I squeeze feeling the soft skin and how hard he is for me. My hand doesn’t even cover the hugeness of it. His sexy moan comes out deep from inside him, making my body flush even more.
Sitting up, he reaches to the floor and removes a condom from his jeans pocket. I watch with half closed eyes as he strokes his cock before sheathing it. Shit, I want my mouth on that, lucky condom. He crawls back over me, settling between my legs. His large cock in hand, he moves it up and down my folds, coating it with my juices. “Fuck, I love how you’re so wet for me. How much your beautiful body reacts to my touch.”
I love when he talks sexy and dirty to me, it makes my body respond even more. His shaft then proceeds to move into me, slowly. I put my legs around his waist, locking my ankles. As he bends down my arms go around his neck, my fingers back into their favorite place, wrapped in his hair. His mouth claims mine as his hand kneads my breast. He squeezes it, pinching my nipple. I am on the verge of another orgasm, my body heating up like an inferno. He’s killing me here, I don’t think I can take much more.
He begins to thrust faster, his thumb rubbing my clit, and I lose it. My mind and body ascend high above me. “Ung!” I scream, my head bending back into the pillow, moving from side to side. The muscles around his cock squeeze, causing a loud moan from him as his climax is reached. I watch his body shudder as he rides his release. Sexiest thing I have ever seen.
I am incoherent as he removes his cock from me but feel the bed move as he gets up. I hear the soft sounds on the carpet of him leaving the room. As I lay there in my blissed out state, I jump when I feel something wiping me of the liquid between my legs and down my thighs. I half open my eyes and watch him diligently work on me. So tender and so sweet my sexy man is. Yes, he’s my sexy man!
Once he leaves again, I start to fall asleep until my body is being gently pulled into his, an arm slides around me, a hand placing my arm around his waist. He kisses my head, whispering sweet nothing’s against it. “I love you, Allie, my love. Go to sleep. Have sweet dreams.”
The next morning, I awake feeling a hand covering my breast, and something hard pressed against the back of my thigh. I turn my head slightly and there is my sexy man, looking gorgeous as he sleeps. I try to move to get up but his arm tightens around me, making it impossible. “Where do ya think you’re going, love?” He says into my hair. I lay back against him and squirm. I want to stay here, cuddling with him, but he has no idea how badly I have to go to the bathroom! How embarrassing.