Authors: Rachel Howzell Hall
“It's okay, Reggie,” Alberta said, patting her daughter's back. “Nita ain't in no more pain. She takin' pictures of the angels now.”
“I need to search her room,” I whispered, search warrant in my hand. “Just to see if there's anything that will tell us if she went to meet someone orâ”
Regina stared at the court order. “Do I have to stay here?”
“No. I'll also need Nita's phone number to see who she called.”
Alberta rambled off her granddaughter's phone number.
“It's Moriaga,” Regina announced. “He shouldn't even be around here. Why y'all even let him out of jail? He's a predator.” She shuffled to the door, but stopped in her step. “Y'all see us and only look at the outside.
They poor, so we don't need to do nothing.
Y'all thought she hung out and smoked weed and slept with bangers like Ontrel and that's all she was about. But we ain't all the same up in here.”
Regina peered at me with granite eyes, determined to make me understand, to make me
remember
. “Chanita watched
Big Bang Theory
and took pictures and she was on the honor roll. Sometimes, she made me get up at the crack of dawn so we could see the sunrise. She was my Nita.” She swallowed and crumpled the search warrant into a ball. “And she was better than what I would've ever been.”
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Colin and I found nothing strange in those drawers. No inappropriate pictures or diaries or love letters. Just lots of photos. Still, we shot pictures and then confiscated a yearbook, three birthday cards, and a notebook.
“Ready?” Colin held seven evidence bags filled with Chanita's things.
I glanced around the room one last time.
That.
I took a picture with my phone, then walked to the window. Above the bed's headboard hung a framed photograph: a vine of dusty-purple, star-shaped flowers. I lifted the frame from its hook.
“Why do you wanna take
that
?” Colin asked.
I stared at those flowersâyellow beaks, bent-back petalsâuntil spots swirled before me. Finally, I shrugged.
I didn't know why I wanted that pictureâI didn't believe in voodoo or premonitions. But this picture ⦠There was something about this picture.
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It was almost eleven o'clock by the time Colin and I reached our desks in the Detectives' Bureau of the Southwest Division Community Station.
Pepe stood at the copier, watching
INFORMATION WANTED
flyers with Chanita's picture whoosh into the tray. Luke, goofy grin in place, held court with formerly sexy secretary Ruthie, who loved cops and all things leopard print. Her thick hip butted against the arm of Luke's chairâand Luke didn't mind that hip or her obnoxious perfume.
Someone had appropriated a whiteboard and had gridded names of basketball teams in the NCAA Championship: Duke, UCLA, Kentucky, and on and on. The handcuffed suspects seated here and there talked smack with detectivesânot about their arrests but about the teams that would make it to the Final Four.
The red voice-mail light on my phone blinked. Neither of the two messages had been left by Brooks or Zucca, but I could save fifty dollars on my family phone plan or make another donation to the Los Angeles Police Memorial Foundation. My iPhone chimedâan e-mail from Dr. Zach.
Good morning! Just wanted you to have my email and a picture. It really was great meeting you yesterday. Hope your wrist is better. You followed doctor's orders right?
He had attached a selfie, taken at a nurse's station.
My stomach gurgled and pulled my attention away from the e-mailâAlberta Jackson had gifted Colin and me with a plate of corn muffins. I had gobbled my six on the drive back to the station, and now, corn meal, butter, and PCP sat in my stomach like cement.
“I've never seen anybody eat corn muffins like that,” Colin said, chuckling.
“I've never eaten muffins like that.” I sniffed the vase of red-and-yellow-striped roses placed near my computer monitor. Yesterday, before our lunch date, Sam had sent me these roses, and this morning they still looked fresh and young. Simple beauty in my jacked-up world.
Colin took a long gulp from a near-empty DayQuil bottle, then shivered.
“Your poor liver.” I reached into my coat pocket and pulled out the figurine.
He blew his nose, and it sounded like fluid between his ears was being vacuumed. “What's that?”
“No clue.”
“Why do you have it?”
I placed the piece on top of my monitor. “Someone put it on my car this morning.”
“Why?”
“Don't know. It was just ⦠sitting there.”
Colin grunted.
“Let's see.” I took a picture of the figurine with my phone, then used Google image search. “Here she is.”
Colin rolled over to my desk and stared at my monitor.
“Melpomene,” I said. “The Muse of tragedy.”
Colin chuckled and pointed to her feet. “Those boots look like yours.”
I pointed at the head she clutched. “Mask of tragedy.”
He pointed to the knife. “And a deadly weapon. She
is
you.” He rolled back to his desk.
“Melpomene.” I tore my eyes away from the Greek gods Web site and held up the list of Regina's ex-boyfriends. “I'll start on this.”
“Have at it,” he said. “What the hell's up with that family? No men, too many men, but not the right man. Nobody married? Nobody living ⦠normal?”
“Tell me, Detective Cleaver, what is ânormal'?”
“C'mon, Lou.” He rolled his eyes. “Okay, I'll play. What is ânormal'? Mom, dad, kids. Or mom, mom, kids. Dad, dad, kids. Everybody together for dinner. Church and parks and bikes and chores and shit. One parent tucks you in at night; the other makes you waffles in the morning. Or quinoa or flax or whatever the fuck you all eat out here for breakfast. That progressive enough for you?”
“Your father wasn't around much to make you waffles or take you bike riding.”
“He's air force.”
“He tuck you in at night? He go to church with you on Sundays?”
Colin twisted his lips.
I said nothing and let silence complete my argument.
He said, “Fine.”
“We need to find out where Chanita was stolen on Friday,” I said.
“ID a place that may have video? Which can be anywhere.”
I nodded. “And⦔ I pulled the case file from my bag and found Chanita's missing person report. “Murder bookâI started completing reports last night, and Gwen probably has a few things that can go in.”
Colin rolled his chair over to my desk. “Is she working the other missing girl?”
“Let's see.” I typed “Trina Porter” into our database. “Gwen Zapata listed as lead.” I skimmed Trina's report. “Wow.”
“What?”
“Trina lives on Santo Tomas. A few blocks west of Chanita.”
“Connected?”
“Too early in the case for such dramatic statements.”
He opened his binder, flipped pages, then jabbed the numbers on my phone. After three rings, the voice-mail lady announced that the mailbox for this numberâChanita'sâwas full.
“Probably Regina and Alberta calling her all night,” Colin said.
My turn: I punched in a number I now knew by heart.
Ringing ⦠ringing ⦠The voice-mail man told me to leave a message.
“Hi, Vanessa,” I said. “This is Detective Norton again. I really need to talk with you.” I left my number, then ended the call.
Pepe came over and held up a flyer he'd created. “I'll get a few cadets to pass these out. Oh, I e-mailed you the shots Luke took of the crowds yesterday.”
I peered at the flyer. “Only ten thousand dollars for a reward? That's stingy.”
“Lot of missing girls,” Pepe said with a shrug. “And they just upped the reward for the Porter girl to fifteen K.”
I turned back to my computer. Along with the missing person report, the database also contained pictures of Trina Porter. She was a brown-skinned girl, pretty, long braids in one picture, and a short, slick bob in the second. Missing since Friday, March 7.
“Gone thirteen days,” I said. “Taken on a Friday, just like Chanita.”
“And she lives in the same area as Chanita,” Colin told Pepe.
“Get the map,” I said, my gaze still on Trina's picture. “The big, wipeable one.”
According to the information we had, Trina had been last seen at the bookstore down in Leimert Park. She wore a pink hoodie, purple jeans, and purple Nikes.
Colin pinned the wall map that showed our policing area.
“Where was Chanita last seen?” Pepe asked.
“School,” I said, “except she wasn'tâ”
Laughter interrupted our conversation. Luke and Ruth.
“He still work here?” Colin asked.
Pepe and I gave each other looks.
“He's finding himself right now,” Pepe said.
I returned my attention to the map. At Nicolet and Hillcrest, I pushed in a blue pin. “Any other girls we want to include?”
Pepe sat at my desk and clicked around on the computer. “Maybe, but these two dates are a little older. Bethany Wilson, fourteen, missing since November seventeenth, lives on Parthenon.”
I push-pinned Parthenon Street.
“Tawanna McFuller,” Pepe continued, “thirteen, went missing on November twenty-fifth. Lives on Gelber Place.”
“Same neighborhood?” Pepe asked.
I nodded.
“Connected?” Colin wondered.
I stared at the map, at the proximity of each blue pushpin to another. So close. Too close. In age. In race. In residence. Still, I said, “Too soon.”
“So now what?” Colin asked.
I turned to him. “
Now,
we take a field trip.”
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The field trip was down the hall, to the left, and into the tiny corner cubicle of a baggy-eyed lady detective who had been working missing persons cases for too long. Gwen Zapata, pewter-skinned and hunched, had already been slumped and defeated when she transferred from Seventy-seventh to Southwest six years ago. And, now, she blinked at me from behind her desk. “You're fuckin' joking, right?”
I gaped at Colin, who stood in Gwen's cubicle entryway. Then, I looked back at Gwen. “Missing people
do
get found. Elizabeth Smart, those three women in Cleveland, and⦔ My words caught in my throat as I took in the walls of her little officeâevery space had been covered in rainbow-colored flyers.
HAVE YOU SEEN HER?
Gwen snatched her blue LAPD stress ball from the desktop and squeezed as she swiveled in her chair. “Those girls you named? Exceptions to the rule. You know and I know that every hour that passes, the chances of finding any of these girlsâ”
“Especially brown-eyed girls with melanin issues?” I snarked.
She snorted, then waved to the flyers. “Black, white, plaid. The chances are slim to none. And I'd put my money on none every time. Speaking of which”âshe turned her attention to Colinâ“are you the one collecting?” She opened a desk drawer and grabbed her wallet.
“Lou is,” Colin said.
Gwen handed me a twenty-dollar bill. “Michigan State.”
I pocketed the money. “So when Chanita's folks calledâ”
She raised a hand. “Hold on. If you've come over here to blame meâ”
“Why would I do that? You do something or
not
do something?”
Gwen rolled her eyes. “They were holding out on me, okay? I did the best I could.”
Detective Peet had thought the same of my motherâ
she's holding out
âand so he hadn't searched for Tori as hard as he should have. “Girls do shit” had been his philosophy. And, now, I wanted to scream at Gwen,
Bullshit on you doing your best
. But I couldn't isolate herâwe needed as many helping hands as possible.
“So no one knows
where
Chanita was taken?” I asked.
“A Mrs. Watson,” Gwen said, “who lives on King, not far from the school, says she saw Chanita at the bus stop in front of Krispy Kreme. But we haven't been able to confirm that yet.”
“You talk to anybody in Eighteenth Street?” Colin asked.
Gwen smirked. “Why would I talk to
them
?”
“Because they're one of the most violent gangs in the city,” I said, my voice tight. “Because rumors abound that they did it.”
“Says who?”
“Says everybody we've talked to.”
She waved her hand. “Bah.”
“Well,” I said, “we'll talk to them since, you know, we wanna solve the case and all.”
“I did question Ontrel Shaw,” Gwen said. “He sometimes beats the girls he dates.”
“Says who?” I asked.
“Rumors abound,” Gwen cracked.
“He been arrested for a domestic?” I asked.
“Bunch of other misdemeanors but not that one,” Gwen said. “Give him time, though.”
“What about Trina?” Colin asked.
Gwen's ears reddened as she tossed the stress ball back onto her desk. “I don't appreciate you two comin' at me like I'm sitting here cuttin' coupons all fucking day.”
“I see no coupons,” I said. “So Trinaâany similarity to Chanita?”
“Trina's just like Nita,” Gwen said. “She ain't your typical missing girl. Neither kid did drugs. Neither were runaways, nor did they trick. They got good grades in school. Hell: they
went
to school. Trina's family, though. They're very different from Nita's.”
“How?” I asked.
Gwen shrugged. “For starters, Regina got out on the Tuesday or Wednesday beforeâ”
“Got out?” Colin said. “As in got out of
jail
?”
“You surprised?” Gwen asked. “The woman's got sticky fingers and a quick pen. Chanita was tired of her fuck-ups, and they fought, Chanita and Regina, up until that Friday morning when Regina gave in about those tight-ass jeans.”