Authors: Chris Jordan
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With love to my wife, Lynn Harnett,
who gave me the stor y, and to my cousin
FBI Special Agent James McCar ty,
who could be Randall Shane
Thanks to Sandra Aitken and Peggy Ruggieri,
two of the best gown-makers in the
known universe, for helping Jane Garner
establish her business.
PROLOGUE
Kids Like Balloons
Ricky Lang dreams of his three children. Sometimes they
are dressed in white cotton nightshirts emblazoned with
cartoons from the Magic Kingdom. Goofy and Mickey and
various ducks. Sometimes the children appear to be wearing
garments made of light, glowing with an intensity that makes
his eyes hurt. Sometimes the two girls float above the ground,
grinning like mischievous angels while his son, four-year-old
Tyler, tugs at his sisters as if they are wayward balloons. Mak-
ing a game of pulling them down.
Sleeping or waking, it does not matter, he dreams of the
children. For instance at this very moment he’s wide-awake,
lounging in the hot, hushed shade of his tiki hut, staring at
the glistening blue water in his brand-new swimming pool.
Sipping on a tall iced tea and wondering why the water looks
like Ty-D-bowl, the same bright color, and all the while his
three children stand in a row on the far side of the pool.
Dressed in their bathing suits, of course. All three of them
waiting for his signal. His permission to enter the water. Wait-
ing so patiently.
The children can’t be there, he knows that.
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“Myla!” he bellows. “Get out here!”
Myla hurries out of the house. Slim brown legs, wears
little white shorts low on her slender hips and a Victoria’s
Secret cami top he purchased online. She’s barefoot, balanc-
ing a tray laden with sandwiches and salsa chips.
They’ve been together for two months, more or less, and she
wants to please him. Nothing pleases Ricky, but she keeps
trying.
“Hurry up, woman!”
Myla is barely twenty, has little experience with powerful
men. Her big eyes always register a little fear at the sound of
his voice, which is just the way he likes it.
“Never mind the food,” he says. “Hit the pool.”
“Pool?”
“Swim,” Ricky says. “In the water.”
“We’re going to swim?” asks Myla, confused. A few min -
utes ago he was demanding lunch at ten in the morning, not
exactly lunchtime.
“Not me. You. Go change.”
Myla carefully sets down the tray. Smiles at Ricky and then
licks a tiny daub of mayonnaise from the side of her hand, de-
licately, like a cat tonguing its pretty paw. “What should I wear?”
“Whatever,” Ricky says. “Use the cabana. Hurry.”
Without a word, Myla hurries away, heading for the
striped cabana. She looks pleased and hopeful, as if of the
true belief that obeying his command, this particular
command, will make him happy.
Ricky stares at the plate of sandwiches. Normally he’s a
man of vast appetites, but not this morning. The faintly salty
odor of albacore tuna and finely chopped celery makes him
feel slightly queasy.
“Myla!”
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“Coming, Ricky!”
A few minutes later she emerges from the cabana wearing
the latest itsy-bitsy-teeny bikini. Juicy, that’s what it says on her
butt, in big white letters. Ricky likes the idea that he gets to read
her ass—that’s why he selected this particular item—but at the
moment sex is the furthest thing from his mind. Normally he
can’t be around Myla for ten minutes without getting the urge,
but today he has other things rattling around inside his head.
Myla executes a lithe pirouette, showing off her new
swimsuit.
“You like?”
“Yeah, baby. Get in the pool. Swim.”
Myla lowers herself to the edge of the swimming pool,
gingerly, because the tiles are hot. She’s not much of a
swimmer, and this is how she enters the pool, by slipping cau-
tiously into the chemical-blue water, no splashing. Ricky
likes to dive, belly flop, get things wet. Not Myla.
Very careful girl. Ricky isn’t sure if he really likes careful,
not for the long term, but for the moment she’ll do.
“Go on,” he urges. “Swim.”
She smiles, bright and nervous, and then begins to dog-
paddle. Carefully, so as not to wet her hair. Ricky waits until
she’s halfway through the first lap before checking to see if
the children have gone.
He sighs. The muscles in his shoulders and his gut unclench.
“Like this, Ricky?” Myla calls from the pool.
“Yeah, yeah,” he says. “Good.”
It worked. Myla pushed his children back into the dream.
Wherever dreams are supposed to go when you’re awake,
that’s where the children went. Which is good, because
seeing them there all in a row, ready to jump in the pool at
his command, it made him want to scream.
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He picks up a triangle of sandwich, eats. Delicious. The
sense of relief pervades every fiber of his body. He begins to
think clearly, and among the thoughts is the nugget of a plan.
A plan of action. Something that must be done. Something
long overdue.
After a while Myla calls out from the pool. “Ricky? Can
I stop now, Ricky?”
“Nah,” he says, not looking. “Keep swimming.”
Part I
Island Girls
1. The Girl On The Crotch Rocket
It all starts to go wrong one perfect, early summer evening
on the Hempstead Turnpike. That’s when something pulls on
the secret thread that holds my life together, and starts the
great unraveling.
I don’t know it at the time, of course. I think all is well,
that I’m holding things together, as always. Okay, Kelly and
I have been fighting a lot lately, but that’s what happens with
teenagers, right? All I have to do is stick to my guns, keep
on being an involved parent, paying attention to my willful
daughter, and everything will come out fine. Right?
I couldn’t have been more wrong.
Normally I try to avoid the turnpike at peak traffic hours,
but this time there’d been no choice. Mrs. Haley Tanner
wanted a third fitting for the wedding party, and when Haley
calls, you drop whatever and respond. She and her new hus-
band are hosting her stepdaughter’s very lavish wedding—
nine tents, two bands, three caterers—at their Oyster Bay
estate, and she’s worried the bridesmaids may have put on a
pound or two. Despite her obnoxious habit of summoning
people at the very last possible moment, Haley is actually sort
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of likable, in a nervous, insecure, please-help-me way. So
worried she’s going to do the wrong thing, make a mistake,
and demonstrate to Stanley J. Tanner that he chose the wrong
trophy wife. Turns out she’s his second trophy wife. Stanley,
CEO of Tanner Holdings, ditched the original trophy wife not
long after Haley served him broiled cashew halibut at Scali-
cious, a trendy little fish café in Montauk. At the time Haley
was “staying with friends” while she waited tables, which
meant she was paying two hundred a week to sleep on the
floor. So nabbing Stanley Tanner was a very big deal. Haven’t
had the pleasure of meeting Mr. Tanner in person myself—
he seems to live in his Lear—but just looking at Haley, you
know he’s a breast man. Which is fine. A man has to focus
on something, right? Why not something that reminds him,
however unconsciously, of his mother? As my friend Fern
always says, what’s the harm?
Anyhow, poor Haley was melting down about the gowns
not fitting and had summoned all five bridesmaids. Turns out
two of them had actually lost weight and the very slight al-
terations were, to everyone’s relief, no problem. An hour
later I’m thinking, as traffic inches along, that for all that
money I wouldn’t trade places with Haley Tanner. I’d rather
work my butt off as a single mom with a mortgage. Don’t
get me wrong, it’s gorgeous, the newest Tanner mansion,
tastefully furnished—one of five homes they own, by the
way—but Haley never seems to have an unnervous moment
or a peaceful thought. And no children, not yet. Maybe never,
unless Stanley gets DNA approval.
Second trophy wives aren’t about kids, they’re about
decorating.
Nope, I’ll stay plain Jane Garner, Kelly’s mom, the wed-
ding lady. The go-to woman for custom gowns. The one driv-
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ing the very nicely detailed, seven-year-old Mercedes station
wagon. Classy but reasonably priced, if you let the first owner
take the depreciation. Anyhow, I’m cool with being a
working mom who balances her own checkbook, who is
socking college money away for her daughter, and who
thinks she has, at this precise moment, no regrets, no regrets
at all.
Lying to myself, of course. Lying big-time. I’ve been lying
for sixteen years, not that I’m counting.
Thing about living a lie, if you do it really well, you sort
of forget you’re lying.
I forgot.
That’s when the crotch rocket went by, scudding dirt and
pebbles in the brake-down lane. Actually beyond the brake-
down lane, right up on the grass. I know it’s the type of sleek
Japanese motorcycle called a “crotch rocket” because Kelly
told me. Pointed one out as it shot by us in, where was it,
somewhere around Greenwich? Greenwich or Westport, one
of those towns.
See how they bend low over the fuel tank,
Mom? That’s to reduce air resistance.
And how did my dar-
ling daughter know this, exactly?
Everybody knows, Mom.
That’s her answer lately. Everybody always knows but you,
Mom.
It’s not like I’m ancient. I’m thirty-four. Kelly thinks I’m
thirty-four going on fifty or sixty. Which drives me nuts, but
there it is.
What catches my eye isn’t the motorcycle—motorcycles
cut and weave through traffic all the time—it’s the girl on the
back, barely hanging on. One hand clutching the waist of the
slim-hipped driver, the other hand waving like she’s riding a
bucking bronco in the rodeo, showing off her balance. The
girl on the back has no helmet, which is against the law in
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