Twinsequences (A Twisted Twin Series) (15 page)

She
 didn’t
 write
 in
 her
 diary
 for
 a
 whole
 month.
 
 
May7th
 
I
 can’t
 be
 sure,
 but
 Stosh
 says
 he
 ended
 things
 with
 that
 business
 associate.
 He’s
 
been
 coming
 home
 on
 time
 every
 night
 and
 attending
 church
 with
 me
 on
 Sunday’s.
 
Maybe
 I’m
 trying
 too
 hard,
 but
 it
 can’t
 hurt.
 I
 just
 want
 what
 we
 had
 back.
 I
 don’t
 want
 
to
 lose
 him.
 
 
I
 skipped
 through
 the
 amazing
 sex
 they
 shared
 together.
 That
 was
 nothing
 
that
 I
 wanted
 to
 read
 about.
 
 
Sept
 1
^st
 
I
 took
 Stosh’s
 phone
 when
 he
 was
 asleep.
 I
 found
 a
 video
 of
 him
 and
 that
 women
 
he’d
 had
 the
 affair
 with.
 They
 were
 naked
 in
 the
 shower.
 Doesn’t
 he
 realize
 that
 I
 
depend
 on
 him?
 I
 have
 nothing
 without
 him.
 How
 can
 I
 stay
 in
 a
 marriage
 if
 I
 can’t
 
trust
 him?
 I
 don’t
 know
 what
 to
 do.
 
 
 
Sept
 4
^th
 
I
 slept
 with
 my
 boss
 last
 night.
 He
 bought
 me
 a
 necklace
 and
 told
 me
 he
 would
 
give
 me
 the
 world
 if
 he
 could.
 He’d
 been
 begging
 me
 for
 months.
 I
 only
 did
 it
 to
 get
 
back
 at
 Stosh.
 When
 I
 came
 home
 the
 next
 morning
 and
 told
 him,
 he
 begged
 me
 for
 
another
 chance.
 Maybe
 the
 video
 on
 his
 phone
 was
 old?
 
Now
 I
 know
 how
 to
 get
 him
 to
 love
 me.
 
 
 
I
 skipped
 through
 more
 pages.
 
 
Jan
 19
^th
 
Stosh
 made
 me
 quit
 my
 job.
 He
 said
 he
 would
 buy
 me
 a
 new
 car
 if
 I
 stayed
 home
 
and
 focused
 on
 becoming
 a
 mother.
 I
 went
 to
 the
 doctor
 and
 he
 told
 me
 that
 I’m
 never
 
going
 to
 be
 able
 to
 carry
 a
 baby
 full
 term.
 What
 am
 I
 going
 to
 do?
 How
 do
 I
 tell
 him
 
that?
 He’s
 going
 to
 want
 to
 leave
 me.
 I
 have
 nothing
 to
 offer.
 
 
She
 never
 talked
 about
 anything
 for
 two
 more
 months.
 
 
March
 9
^th
 
I’ve
 devised
 a
 plan
 to
 have
 a
 baby
 with
 my
 husband.
 It’s
 going
 to
 take
 a
 couple
 
months
 to
 put
 together,
 but
 we’ll
 have
 a
 baby.
 I’m
 still
 not
 sure
 of
 the
 details,
 but
 
hopefully
 things
 will
 work
 out.
 I’m
 going
 to
 have
 my
 happily
 ever
 after,
 no
 matter
 what
 
I
 have
 to
 do
 to
 get
 it.
 
 
That
 was
 the
 last
 entry.
 I’d
 skipped
 many
 other
 entries,
 but
 those
 weren’t
 
pivotal.
 My
 sister
 was
 sick.
 She
 needed
 help.
 
 
It
 took
 a
 while
 for
 me
 to
 take
 in
 everything
 I’d
 read.
 Stosh
 was
 no
 longer
 the
 
innocent
 man
 that
 I’d
 fallen
 in
 love
 with.
 He
 was
 flawed.
 He’d
 cheated
 and
 had
 an
 
affair.
 He’d
 told
 lies
 and
 lived
 a
 secret
 life.
 
 
It
 was
 hard
 to
 think
 about.
 
 
I
 had
 no
 choice,
 but
 to
 find
 him
 and
 talk
 about
 things.
 We
 still
 didn’t
 know
 
what
 my
 sister
 was
 up
 to.
 I
 had
 to
 know
 how
 he
 felt
 about
 her.
 Was
 he
 just
 with
 me
 
to
 get
 back
 at
 her?
 All
 these
 questions
 filled
 my
 mind.
 I
 was
 so
 confused.
 
 
 
 
Chapter
 9
 
A
 large
 pizza
 and
 a
 slap
 in
 the
 face.
 
 
We
 didn’t
 get
 home
 until
 dinner
 time.
 
 I
 refused
 to
 talk
 to
 Stosh
 about
 the
 
things
 that
 I
 read,
 until
 I
 had
 time
 to
 think
 about
 how
 I
 felt.
 Parts
 of
 his
 past
 hurt
 
worse
 than
 others.
 He
 was
 only
 doing
 what
 he
 felt
 was
 right
 by
 my
 sister.
 I
 didn’t
 
blame
 him
 for
 having
 an
 affair,
 but
 I
 didn’t
 like
 that
 he’d
 said
 the
 same
 things
 to
 both
 
girls.
 It
 made
 me
 question
 his
 feelings
 for
 me,
 even
 though
 I
 felt
 like
 he
 was
 being
 
sincere.
 
 
By
 the
 time
 we
 pulled
 up
 at
 his
 place,
 he
 couldn’t
 take
 my
 silence
 anymore.
 
“Last
 night
 was
 the
 best
 night
 of
 my
 life,
 Willow.
 I’ve
 waited
 so
 long
 to
 be
 with
 you.
 I
 
know
 you’re
 disappointed
 in
 me.
 I
 don’t
 blame
 you.
 Please,
 just
 don’t
 shut
 me
 out.”
 
He
 grabbed
 my
 hand
 and
 waited
 for
 me
 to
 respond.
 
“I’m
 a
 grown
 woman,
 not
 a
 child.
 I
 don’t
 regret
 anything
 we’ve
 done.
 Last
 
night
 was
 perfect.
 I
 just
 need
 to
 know…do
 you
 still
 love
 Ivy?”
 
He
 put
 his
 hands
 on
 the
 steering
 wheel.
 “I
 never
 loved
 her
 like
 I
 love
 you.
 I
 
swear
 to
 God!”
 
“It’s
 not
 a
 competition.
 Obviously,
 she’s
 in
 love
 with
 you.
 We
 have
 no
 idea
 
what
 she’s
 up
 to.
 I
 just
 want
 to
 be
 prepared.”
 I
 felt
 like
 I
 was
 in
 the
 wrong
 place
 at
 
the
 wrong
 time.
 They
 needed
 therapy
 and
 divorce
 papers.
 
“I
 have
 no
 idea
 what
 she’s
 up
 to.
 I
 can’t
 believe
 you
 asked
 me
 that.
 Do
 you
 
really
 think
 I’d
 love
 someone
 that
 lied
 and
 cheated
 and
 kept
 me
 away
 from
 you?
 I
 
tried
 to
 be
 married,
 to
 do
 the
 right
 thing.
 It
 didn’t
 work.
 I
 slept
 with
 that
 other
 chick
 
to
 get
 caught.
 I
 figured
 it
 would
 get
 me
 out
 of
 my
 marriage.
 Instead,
 it
 made
 her
 try
 
harder.”
 
“How
 did
 you
 get
 this
 diary?”
 I
 held
 it
 up.
 
“I
 paid
 some
 kid
 to
 break
 into
 her
 car
 when
 I
 took
 her
 to
 the
 mall.
 We
 came
 
out
 and
 everything
 was
 missing,
 including
 her
 hidden
 things
 in
 the
 trunk.
 She
 has
 no
 
clue
 I
 have
 it.”
 
I
 couldn’t
 help
 but
 laugh.
 “What
 happened
 to
 the
 innocent
 man
 I
 fell
 in
 love
 
with?”
 
“He
 grew
 balls.
 I
 want
 out,
 Will.
 I
 need
 to
 get
 away
 from
 her.
 Why
 do
 you
 
think
 I
 never
 bought
 a
 house?
 I
 don’t
 want
 her
 name
 on
 anything.”
 
“I
 read
 the
 entries
 about
 when
 you
 were
 happy
 together.”
 
He
 looked
 down,
 like
 he
 felt
 ashamed.
 “There
 was
 a
 time,
 briefly,
 when
 I
 
developed
 strong
 feelings
 for
 her.
 It’s
 true.
 I
 got
 to
 a
 point
 where
 I
 just
 wanted
 to
 
move
 forward
 with
 my
 life.
 She
 loved
 me
 and
 wanted
 to
 be
 with
 me.
 It
 just
 made
 
sense
 since
 we
 were
 already
 married.”
 
I
 held
 up
 my
 hand.
 “You
 don’t
 have
 to
 explain.
 I
 said
 I
 got
 it
 and
 I
 do.
 I’m
 sure
 
it
 hurt
 to
 read
 all
 the
 shitty
 things
 she
 wrote
 about
 you.
 I
 don’t
 blame
 you
 for
 hating
 
her.
 As
 mad
 as
 I
 am,
 it’s
 hard
 to
 imagine
 hating
 my
 sister.
 I
 mean,
 I’m
 in
 shock,
 but
 
I’m
 not
 a
 fool.
 I
 see
 what
 she’s
 capable
 of.
 I
 just
 feel
 like
 when
 I
 was
 reading
 the
 parts
 
about
 her
 falling
 in
 love
 with
 you,
 they
 seemed
 real.
 It
 just
 proved
 that
 she
 still
 has
 a
 
heart.”
 
He
 gave
 me
 a
 strange
 look.
 “What
 are
 you
 saying?”
 
“As
 much
 as
 I
 want
 to
 be
 with
 you,
 I
 think
 we
 should
 wait.
 Who
 knows
 what
 
she
 has
 up
 her
 sleeve.
 Each
 time
 she
 calls,
 she
 begs
 me
 to
 do
 whatever
 it
 takes
 to
 
keep
 you
 happy.
 Why
 else
 would
 she
 want
 me
 to
 go
 to
 extremes?”
 
He
 took
 the
 keys
 out
 of
 the
 ignition
 and
 looked
 around,
 before
 opening
 his
 
driver’s
 side
 door.
 “Let’s
 finish
 this
 inside.”
 
I
 carried
 in
 my
 own
 bag
 and
 sat
 it
 down
 by
 the
 door,
 while
 I
 watched
 him
 
head
 into
 the
 bedroom.
 The
 sound
 of
 the
 shower
 running
 let
 me
 know
 what
 he
 was
 
doing.
 I
 thought
 about
 joining
 him
 and
 feeling
 his
 warm
 body
 making
 me
 forget
 
everything
 again.
 
 
I
 just
 couldn’t
 shake
 the
 feeling
 that
 something
 bad
 was
 going
 to
 happen.
 
 
While
 Stosh
 showered,
 I
 ordered
 us
 a
 pizza.
 I
 knew
 he’d
 be
 done
 before
 the
 
delivery
 man
 showed
 up,
 but
 I
 sat
 in
 the
 living
 room
 anyway,
 just
 in
 case
 he
 drove
 at
 
the
 speed
 of
 light.
 
Stosh
 came
 out
 of
 the
 bedroom
 in
 a
 pair
 of
 shorts
 and
 nothing
 else.
 He
 still
 
had
 a
 couple
 drops
 of
 water
 on
 his
 chest.
 “We
 should
 order
 a
 pizza
 or
 something.”
 
“I
 already
 did.”
 
He
 liked
 the
 way
 I
 was
 looking
 at
 him.
 He
 looked
 down
 at
 his
 chest
 and
 then
 
back
 up
 to
 me.
 “See
 something
 you
 like?”
 
“I
 do.”
 
He
 sat
 down
 beside
 me
 and
 played
 with
 the
 collar
 to
 my
 shirt.
 “You
 should
 
have
 joined
 me
 in
 the
 shower.”
 His
 lips
 were
 cold
 and
 wet
 and
 I
 could
 taste
 the
 
water
 from
 his
 shower.
 I
 pulled
 away
 before
 I
 lost
 control.
 “What’s
 wrong?”
 
“We
 need
 to
 chill
 out
 until
 I
 can
 figure
 out
 what
 she’s
 up
 to.
 She
 asked
 me
 
here
 for
 a
 reason.
 What
 was
 your
 schedule
 like
 before
 you
 knew
 I
 was
 here?”
 
He
 shrugged.
 “I
 play
 cards
 with
 the
 guys
 and
 I
 always
 go
 out
 of
 town
 for
 work
 
the
 next
 morning.
 Why?”
 
“She
 said
 that,
 but
 when
 she
 called
 and
 found
 out
 you
 stayed,
 she
 changed
 
things.
 She
 told
 me
 to
 do
 whatever
 I
 had
 to
 do
 to
 keep
 you
 happy.
 She
 told
 me
 to
 
sleep
 with
 you
 if
 I
 had
 to.”
 
He
 leaned
 in
 and
 kissed
 me
 again.
 “That
 can
 be
 arranged.”