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Authors: Tracy Brown

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She sighed. “I just want to get away from all this shit, Rah-lo. I want to live without all the constant drama, all the bullshit. But you can't leave your wife—”
“Don't say that,” he interrupted. “I
can
leave Asia. And I
will
leave Asia. I just have to make sure that my kids are old enough to understand that I'm not leaving them, too. It's not about Asia. As far as I'm concerned,
you
are my wife.”
She shook her head. “But I'm not.”
“Not yet.” He kissed her, silencing her. His hands wandered to all of her hot spots, and Celeste acquiesced.
As she lay beside him, Celeste knew that there was no turning back now. She had started the process of withdrawing from Rah-lo. As they made love she reminded herself that no matter how perfect it felt, Rah-lo's sex wasn't hers alone. His sweet words and strong hands weren't hers alone. He was married to another woman, and Celeste was finally determined to walk away.
That night, as he lay beside her, Rah-lo watched Celeste sleep. He loved her so intensely that he wished he could protect her always. It killed him to think of her hurting in any way. As she snored ever so softly, he stroked her hair. Rah-lo wondered who had burned her shop down. In his heart of hearts he believed that Asia may have had something to do with it. Now that she knew about Celeste, Asia was borderline obsessed with getting revenge against her husband's mistress. He knew that Asia hadn't done it personally. After all, he had been at home with her and his daughters when he got Celeste's urgent messages. But he wondered if Asia had arranged to have Dime Piece destroyed. To Rah-lo it didn't matter. No matter what Asia did, nothing would come between him and Celeste. He wouldn't let it.
His thoughts drifted to Ishmael. Rah-lo wondered why he felt so jealous of Ishmael's friendship with Celeste. He believed that neither of them would ever cross that line and take their friendship further. Still, it killed him to think that any man—especially his best friend—had eyes for the woman he loved. Rah-lo was insanely jealous over her and would
kill to keep her all to himself. As he drifted off to sleep he wondered if she had any idea just how much he loved her.
 
 
As the next several weeks passed, Celeste secretly began to pack her things. She got the insurance money and knew that this was her ticket to freedom. On a warm and sunny Sunday afternoon, Rah-lo walked into the house, hoping to surprise Celeste, and noticed immediately how quiet it was. “Baby girl!” he called out, his voice echoing off the walls. He headed up the stairs, calling her name. He got no response. “Celeste,” he called out, wondering if she could still be asleep. She was typically an early riser. So if she were still asleep at this point in the afternoon it would be quite unusual. When he reached the bedroom, he stopped calling her. He knew immediately that she was gone. All of Celeste's clothes, shoes, and personal items were gone. The closet was empty except for the hangers. The pictures of the two of them, which had once adorned the nightstands, were also gone. All that remained was the king-sized bed in the center of the room. Celeste had left him.
Rah-lo's heart sank. Lately, Celeste had been talking about bowing out of his life. She was tired of being his mistress, and told him that she wasn't going to wait forever. Her patience had been wearing thin for a long time. The truth was Rah-lo never really thought she would find the courage to leave him. He thought she would wait for as long as he
needed her to. He had afforded Celeste a very comfortable lifestyle—money, cars, clothes, trips, and expensive gifts. He had housed her in a lovely home with all the amenities any woman would wish for. He thought it was enough to keep her waiting contently. And now he realized how wrong he was.
 
 
The Truth Hurts
Four years later …
 
R
ah-lo walked into his house, and wasn't surprised to find it empty. He assumed that Asia must be out somewhere with her good-for-nothing friends. Their daughters were older now—fourteen, eleven, and nine. The teenager—Rasheeda—was always out with her friends, and the two younger ones took a dance class three days a week. He went in the kitchen and looked around for something quick to eat. True to form, Asia hadn't gone shopping, so there was nothing in the fridge for him to snack on. He sighed and shut the refrigerator and wondered what type of mother Asia really thought she was. Did she think she was doing her
best and that their daughters were learning good habits from her? This type of shit was the reason he sought shelter in the arms of other women. Although he loved his family and wanted to keep it intact, he wasn't getting what he needed from his wife. Rah-lo wondered for the thousandth time if he should walk away.
Instinctively, his mind drifted to thoughts of Celeste. Even after four years, his love for her had never waned. And try as he might, Rah-lo couldn't get over her. He walked over to the bookcase in the living room and pulled out the Bible on the second shelf. It was the only place in the house that he never worried about Asia searching. He pulled out the letter Celeste had left behind when she had walked out of his life four years ago. Rah-lo sat down on the couch and read the worn and folded page.
Raheem,
 
I love you so much. I always have and I always will. But I can't live like this anymore. Life is short and I don't want to look back on mine with any regrets. I don't wish I had done anything differently. Everything in life is a lesson. You taught me so much, and I want you to know that the love I have for you can never be replaced or duplicated. But it's time for me to move on and start treating myself the way I deserve to be treated.
I want to get my own mansion, my own diamonds and
furs, put myself through college. I want to start a new business for myself. I wish you and Asia all the best and hope that you forgive me for walking away. I had no choice. I was suffocating.
I will never stop loving you. Never.
 
Celeste
He folded the note once again and put it in his pocket, sighing. When he first discovered that Celeste had left town, Rah-lo had put his heart on the shelf and tried to tough it out.
Fuck it
, he had told himself. If she could leave him, she wasn't worth the heartache. He had even tried to put his all into his marriage at that point. One week after Celeste left town, Rah-lo had taken Asia and the girls on vacation to the Disney resort in Florida. His intention was to see if he could reconnect with his wife to salvage what remained of their marriage. Asia had been surprised by this spontaneous gesture and their daughters had been thrilled, surrounded by fun, sun, and their parents. Rah-lo had tried to make his time with his family fun enough to satisfy his longing for Celeste. But throughout their vacation, he and Asia had constantly argued. About the simplest things. They argued over what they would do each day, which rides they would get on, what the girls would wear, what they all would eat for dinner, how they would spend their evenings. It was ridiculous, and both Rah-lo and Asia were disgusted with each other by the end of their vacation.
But the girls had had a blast. Rasheeda, Raleigh, and Raven had been on cloud nine. The trip, to them, had been one big adventure. Granted, their parents were at each other's throats as usual. The kids were accustomed to the arguing and fighting that went on between Rah-lo and Asia. It was nothing new to them. But they were excited to have the luxury of a hotel suite and a rental car, room service, and the excitement of being someplace new and thrilling. They seemed oblivious to the tension surrounding them, and for that Rah-lo was grateful. At least the trip hadn't been a total waste. The girls had enjoyed themselves and Rah-lo was satisfied with that.
But it had only highlighted the fact that his relationship with Asia was unsalvageable. Even with the sun and beaches, the absence of Celeste or any other distractions, and the joy of giving their daughters a vacation they would never forget, Rah-lo and Asia failed to reconnect. Even though Asia still looked good, considering her age and the fact that she had had three children, Rah-lo wasn't attracted to her anymore. Seeing his wife in a revealing bathing suit and watching her ass jiggle as she walked around sweating sexily in the heat and humidity had done nothing to entice him. He had found himself counting the days to when he could get home and get back to the block. It was the first time he genuinely accepted that he no longer loved Asia. In fact, he no longer even liked the woman.
Every day after that had been difficult for him. Staying in his marriage for the sake of his kids was a noble gesture. But
it caused him to neglect his own happiness. Each time he came home after a day of grinding in New York City's mean streets, Rah-lo wished that he could have the love of his daughters and the routine of tucking them in each night, without having to deal with their mother. It was wishful thinking, though. Asia wasn't going anywhere. He felt like he was stuck with her.
As he sat on the couch lost in thought, Asia came home. She was returning from a smoke session at her friend Kim's house. High off marijuana, eyes hanging low, Asia walked in the door and looked at Rah-lo. He looked back at his wife, trying to recall if he had ever been more disgusted by her. He was so sick of seeing her this way—coming home twisted with no dinner ready for her family and no intentions of doing anything productive.
“What?” she asked, looking confused.
Rah-lo just kept staring at her. “Where were you?”
She grinned. “You're jealous? I was just over at Kim's—”
“What are the kids supposed to eat when they get home?” he demanded. Rah-lo was seething.
Asia looked taken aback but still high. “Well, if you're so worried about it, why don't you go cook something for them?”
Rah-lo was amazed. “What's wrong with you? You think I should do it all—cooking, cleaning up, and the whole nine—and you don't do shit all day but go out and get high with your friends? What the fuck do I need
you
for then?”
“Who the fuck are you talking to like that?” Asia was outraged that her husband, whom she was used to having her way with, was challenging her this way as soon as she walked in the door. She looked around and saw no sign of her rambunctious children. “The kids ain't even home yet!”
“What about me, Asia? Don't I need to eat, too?”
She sucked her teeth. “You're a grown-ass man, Rah-lo. And the kids ain't babies no more. They can make themselves something to eat when they get home.”
“But why should they have to?” Rah-lo was growing increasingly frustrated. “You're their mother. You don't work; you don't go to school; there's more than enough money for you to go shopping. But instead you sit around here all day and do nothing. I'm tired of that shit. I'm out there working my ass off and—”
“You work
, Rah-lo? Is that what they call it now?” The expression on Asia's face was saying
Oh, please!
He stopped talking and looked at her. Asia stared right back at him. She was frowning at him, seemingly amazed by his audacity. Rah-lo tried to reason with her. He figured he would lay it all on the line, stop beating around the bush, and really tell his wife what he was feeling. “I'm your husband, Asia. That's not just a title. There's supposed to be benefits that come with that shit. You know how being my wife affords you certain luxuries? Why can't you take care of me the same way I take care of you?”
“Please!” she shouted. “You always gotta bring up money.
So what, you give me money, Rah-lo! I'm tired of you reminding me that you pay for everything. So the fuck what?”
“I'm not just talking about the money. I'm talking about the things I do to make life easier in this house. Not just for you, for everybody. I'm around here cooking, doing laundry, picking the kids up, dropping them off. And where are you?”
“I do all of that shit, too, Rah-lo. And those are things you're
supposed
to do. You don't get a pat on the back or a damn medal of honor because you take care of your kids. That's what good fathers do. And I never told you I was gonna be a boring fucking housewife. Who wants to sit around all day cleaning and cooking and never having fun? I'm more than just the maid and the cook.”
“What are you then?” he asked.
Asia looked hurt. “Fuck you!”
Rah-lo couldn't stand it anymore. He hated being in this mockery of a marriage. Neither of them was happy anymore. He and Asia never talked anymore, they rarely had sex, and they seldom even laughed in each other's presence anymore. Asia turned him off, and Rah-lo was sick of living in an unhappy home. Plus, something she had just said was echoing in his head. “You know what? You're right. The kids ain't babies no more. Why should we keep playing games like this is where we want to be?”
Asia put her hands on her hips. “What the fuck is that supposed to mean?”
Rah-lo watched her. Even her mannerisms at that moment
were typical. Asia looked ready for a confrontation. Her eyes glared right through him. She was impossible to talk to, she had a terrible attitude, and she was in denial about the state of their marriage. “I don't want to keep fighting with you, Asia. Word. This shit ain't working out. You got your own life and me and the kids have ours.”
“So what are you, Father of the Year now? Rasheeda's failing two subjects and I don't see
you
going over her homework with her. But
I
gotta do it?”
Rah-lo shook his head. When he talked to Asia it felt like the two of them were speaking completely different languages. She wasn't hearing what he was saying, and he was tired of trying to make her hear it.
He walked away, and went to the living room. He sat down on the couch and grabbed the remote. Asia stood there for a few moments, replaying their conversation and becoming more and more pissed that he had ambushed her that way. As she stood there, Rasheeda came in and greeted her mother.
“Hi, Ma. Why are you just standing there like that?” Rasheeda asked.
Asia heard her daughter but ignored the question. Instead of answering, Asia stormed off to the living room and stood in front of the TV
“What the hell is your problem?”
He looked up at Asia and wished he could make her disappear. “I'm fed up.”
Asia laughed mockingly. “You're fed up, huh? Since when?”
Rah-lo shrugged his shoulders. “I've felt that way for years. I don't blame you, really, because you only did what I allowed you to do. The weed, the liquor, the partying, not taking care of the kids, the house being left a mess, I let you do that. I didn't complain because I didn't feel like fighting with you all the time.”
“No, you didn't complain. You just replaced me with that bitch Celeste!” Asia yelled.
Rah-lo went back to ignoring her. This was part of the reason that he couldn't forget about Celeste. Asia brought her name up every time they had an argument.
“Now you ain't got nothing to say, huh? What, did I hit a nerve or something, Raheem?”
He shook his head at her. “You don't care about me and what makes me happy. You seem like you don't even care about your kids.”
Asia had heard enough. Just as Rasheeda came into the living room to see what all the fuss was about, Asia let loose with a verbal tirade. “Let me tell you something, Rah-lo,” she began. “I'm sick of some shit, too. You know what I'm sick of?” she asked rhetorically. “I'm fuckin' sick of you walking around here like King Tut, acting like everybody in here owes you something because you pay the bills. That's what any man is supposed to do. A man is
supposed
to pay the bills, and take care of his kids. And a real man is supposed to be faithful to
his wife.” Asia's words lingered in the air and Rasheeda soaked it all up. “Yeah, you ain't got nothing to say now, right? All these years I put up with you fucking somebody else. Then you went and got arrested with that
bitch
! Do you know how fuckin' embarrassing that shit was? All my friends finding out that my man is cheating on me. All that money you took out of this household so you could keep her living the good life, buying hair salons, cars, houses, and all that shit! How do you think that made me feel? But did I come in here accusing you of being a fucked-up father or husband?”
Rah-lo looked over and saw Rasheeda standing in the entranceway and he wished he could slap Asia for being so careless with her mouth. “Rasheeda, go upstairs,” he said calmly.
“No! Why should she go upstairs? You don't want your daughter to know what kind of man you really are?” Asia's high was blown. Instead she was completely furious. “You wanted to call me out as a bad mother, but look in the mirror, Rah-lo!”

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