But never was I overwhelmingly proud to be at their side anywhere like I was right
then with Raiden.
We were seated at a two top with Raiden at my side rather than across from me. We
also ordered drinks, got them and ordered our meals, all this without incident.
So my nerves were again smoothing out as I took a sip of red wine and felt Raiden’s
eyes on me.
I looked at him and the instant my eyes hit his, he asked, “You know my name?”
That was such a strange question
,
I felt my head give a slight jerk and I asked back, “Do I know your name?”
“Yeah, honey. Been around you now a few times, you’ve not once said my name.”
“You’re Raiden Miller, Rachelle’s big brother,” I told him and, for some bizarre reason,
that made him burst out laughing.
It was gorgeous, lush
. I
t warmed me through and through, and I smiled while he did it
,
but I didn’t understand it.
When it started waning, I said, “I don’t get it. Why are you laughing?”
He trained his amazing eyes on me. “Rache would love that. She’s always been Raiden’s
little sister.”
My smile died and I leaned toward him. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to be offensive.”
He leaned toward me. “Me laughin’, baby, how could you mistake that for me takin’
offense?”
Again, I was an idiot.
“I can sometimes be an idiot,” I offered as an understatement.
“Don’t know about an idiot. Do know you can more than sometimes be all kinds of cute.”
I bit my lip.
I liked that.
His eyes dropped to my mouth and he rumbled, “Like now.”
I liked that
,
too.
I let my lip go.
“Girls prefer to be sexy and hot and, maybe, mysterious,” I informed him
,
and his eyes came back to mine.
“You got the first two down, Hanna. And I don’t know about other men
,
but I’ve played games
,
and in the end found out what I won wasn’t worth the trouble of winning. Prefer to
be with a woman who’s cute and shy and obviously into me. Means I can save time and
get straight to shit that matters.”
What he said was nice, way nice, especially the first part
,
but still, I felt heat hit my face
. M
y head jerked down and I adjusted
my napkin in my lap, murmuring,
“This is kind of embarrassing.”
“What?” he asked
,
and I forced myself to look at him.
“You knowing I’m into you. That’s embarrassing. I suppose it’s obvious
,
but it’s still embarrassing.”
He reached toward my hand, engulfed it in his big one and brought them up to rest
our clasped hands on the table.
“Honey, get me,” he said gently, his eyes moving over my face, my hair, my chest then
back to mine when he finished, “I wouldn’t have said it if I thought you’d be embarrassed
about it
,
but bottom line, you got not one thing to be embarrassed about.”
I hoped he was right.
“Okay,” I whispered.
“Afghans,” he stated and I blinked.
“Sorry?”
“Those things were gorgeous, I did not lie, but Hanna, how the fuck do you make a
living outta knittin’ afghans?”
He was changing the subject.
That was nice.
Yes, he got better and better.
“I sell in two hundred and twenty-three shops all over the US and export to some boutiques
in Canada.”
His brows went up before he asked, “No shit?”
I shook my head.
“Fucking hell,” he muttered.
I nodded my head and continued.
“It was less
,
but earlier this year I stepped things up. Now I have a girl
.
I think you might know her, Heather. She helps me out, packs them for shipping. I
used to do it
,
but with the new shops I need more time to make them
,
so she does it for me. I have a kind of warehouse slash kitchen over the gift shop
in town. My inventory is there, she does the packing there
,
and when fruit is in season I make my preserves there. She hasn’t been with me very
long
,
but she says she’s going to help with the preserves when I do them. They’re kind
of…” I struggled for a word that wouldn’t make me sound like I was bragging and settled
on, “
exclusive.
I only do them when fruit is in season so they aren’t on the shelves all the time.
It ratchets up the prices and they don’t stay in stock for long seeing as most people
buy them in bulk so they have them all year.”
His face got a strange funny look when I mentioned Heather
,
but he quickly rearranged it. He sat back while I kept talking
,
but did it continuing to hold my hand.
“Impressive,” he remarked when I went quiet.
“It’s preserves and blankets,” I replied.
“You live in a cute house, drive a sweet ride, ride a cute bike and wear great clothes.
You do all that outta preserves and blankets, over two hundred shops in two countries.
Honey, that’s impressive.”
“Okay,” I decided to agree
,
and he grinned at me.
The waiter came with bread. Raiden unfortunately let my hand go and reached for the
basket.
He offered it to me (totally getting better and better, I mean, hot, cool and a gentleman!).
I took a roll as he asked, “Why did you step things up?”
I shrugged, broke my roll to butter it
,
and explained evasively (because I certainly wasn’t going to tell him the real reason
)
, “I don’t know. Just one day it hit me
. M
y life was kind of narrow. I enjoyed it
,
but I wanted more.” I spread butter on my bread and looked at him. “To get more,
go on vacation, learn to snowboard, you need money. I was doing okay
,
but I needed to do better. So I worked harder.” I tipped my head to the side. “Now
I do better.”
“So your girl, she does all your shipping for you?”
I nodded. “I haven’t been to my place in town in, gosh, I don’t know. Weeks now, at
least. She even comes out to the house to pick up the afghans I’ve done and takes
them into town. She’s a huge help. Especially with more orders, helping out Grams
and all.”
I took a bite of my buttered roll.
Delicious.
I chewed, swallowed and watched Raiden take a sip from his beer. I liked how his throat
worked when he did that
,
so I decided more conversation was in order so I didn’t obsess about how beautiful
his throat was
,
or more accurately what that throat might taste like.
I just didn’t know what conversation to make.
I wanted to ask what he did for a living
,
but I was too nervous. It seemed pushy and intrusive, regardless of the fact he asked
about my business. I just felt that for a man, and a man like him especially, it was
something he needed to share in his way at his time.
I also wanted to ask about something else that had been kind of bugging me since he
mentioned it. I didn’t think it was a safer topic
,
but I did think it was the safer of the two.
Still, I went in cautiously.
“Can I ask you something?”
He put his beer down and trained his eyes to me. “Yeah.”
I put my roll on my bread plate and looked at him. “I’m guessing you know Heather
and Bodhi since you mentioned them.”
“Small town and two characters like that don’t go unnoticed,” he replied.
I nodded, thinking his statement was a little weird of the not-good variety
,
but I pushed myself to keep going.
“If I’m not wrong, you were referring to them when you called them potheads.”
“You’re not wrong because they are potheads,” Raiden responded.
They were.
Still.
“That’s kind of, uh…” I cast my mind for a word, couldn’t find one so I went for it,
“
mean.
”
He leaned into me and wrapped his hand around mine that was sitting on the table.
“Pot is legal in Colorado,” he stated and I tilted my head.
“It is?”
He stared at me a second then grinned. “Yeah, baby, it is.”
God, I liked it when he called me baby.
“Don’t you vote?” he asked.
“Well, yeah,” I answered.
“Straight ticket?” he guessed.
“Well, no,” I told him. “But all the referendums freak me out. I used to try to understand
them
,
then one year I voted for one and found out after that I voted the wrong way because
they made the language purposefully confusing so you thought you were voting for one
thing and you weren’t. I went back and read and reread it and there was no way I knew
what I was voting for. That’s dirty business
,
so I decided that I should vote only on things I totally understood instead of making
another mistake like that because, well, you know, these things affect people’s lives
and you shouldn’t screw up something that important. As none of the referendums make
a lick of sense to me, I concentrate on the candidates and hope they’ll take care
of the referendums.”
“Makes sense
. W
hacked sense but it makes it,” he murmured.
“What does pot being legal have to do with Bodhi and Heather?” I asked
,
though I had to admit, this was good news and nice to know why the Sherriff didn’t
get into Bodhi’s business.
“I voted against legalizing pot,” Raiden declared
,
and I got it.
“Oh,” I replied.
“I’m good with live and let live
,
but shit like that bleeds into bigger shit
,
and no one needs that.”
“I don’t smoke it
,
but I know both Bodhi and Heather and they’re really nice people. And I’m not sure
something like that bleeds. It’s a personal choice and it isn’t like crystal meth
or stuff like that that destroys lives.”
“It
is when it bleeds,” he returned.
His
eyes
were
now weirdly sharp, so much so it was uncomfortable
, and
I squirmed in my chair.
“Okay,” I gave in. “I’m guessing you know more about this than I do.”
“Unfortunately, I do,” Raiden replied.
I bit my lip again, intrigued if a little frightened.
I carefully tugged my hand from his and looked to the corner of the table.
“Hanna,” he called and I turned my gaze to him.
“Bodhi and Heather are my friends,” I told him.
“I know,” he replied.
“Well, I, uh… spend time with them.”
“I know.”
“How do you know?” I asked.
“Saw you with the guy. Wasn’t hard to read you were tight. And, again, small town.
A couple of questions, links you to the girl too.”
Links me to the girl?
What a weird way to put it.
I shook that off and pressed on, “Well, this is a, um,
date
,
and if this goes, uh…
well
,
then…”
“This goes further, I will not hang with them,” he declared firmly
,
and I stared.
“You don’t like people that much who smoke pot?” I asked.
“Not that. Got friends who smoke. Don’t give a shit. Don’t like it
,
but it doesn’t say anything about them except they’re into something I’m not into.
Just don’t got a good feeling about those two.”
“They’re kind and funny.”
He leaned toward me. “They give me a bad feeling, Hanna. They don’t give you that
same feeling, cool. But this date goes well, we go further, I will not hang with them.
Straight up. No bullshit. You’re into me, I’m into you
,
but that does not mean I gotta be into all your friends and the same goes for you.”
I had to admit, that was fair.
“Okay,” I agreed.
“And I’m not sayin’ that shit knowin’ how into me you are, layin’ down the law. I
mean it. You connect with my people, you aren’t into them, same goes for you.”