Until Lilly (25 page)

“My girl misses my touch?”

“Yes,” I agree. Since we have been in Alaska, we haven’t had sex. Being in my parents’ house isn’t really conducive. Their walls are like paper, and the kids have ended up in bed with us every night since we got here.

“Tell me what you want
, baby.” He pulls my head forward, and I can feel the slight sting of his fist in my hair.

“Anything
,” I say; I just need to feel his hands on me.

“
Anything?” he asks, looking me over. His hand goes under the seat, and we slide back suddenly. “Don’t forget that you just said anything.” His hands go to my waist, where he turns me so that I’m straddling him. “Wait, take off your pants,” he says, helping me move so I can get my shoes and pants off. Once I get them off, he pulls me back over on top of him. I’m so turned on that the feel of the denim of his jeans rubbing against my inner thighs has me moaning out loud. “Put your hands on the steering wheel behind you.” My hands go behind me automatically, grabbing onto the steering wheel. This position causes my breasts to thrust out and my back to arch. I watch as Cash’s hand comes up and wraps around my neck before traveling down, and I hear the distinct sound of the zipper of my hoodie being pulled down. Once he has it open, his hands come up, palming my breasts through the thin tank top I’m wearing.  My eyes close and I feel him tug the tank top and my bra down until my breasts are free. “You have beautiful tits,” he says, pulling on each nipple. “But you know I love your ass,” he says, his hands going to my behind, squeezing and pulling me hard against him. I cry out against the friction. “You’re really wet, baby.” I can hear the hunger in his voice; my eyes open and he is looking down between my thighs. His fingers run over the center of the thin material covering me. My body jerks, and his eyes come up to meet mine. Then I feel his finger move the material aside, the tip of his finger sliding over my clit. “Jesus, baby, what the fuck?” he growls before I’m flying through the air. I land on my back in the seat. I don’t even have time to react before my legs are thrust open, my panties ripped to the side, and Cash’s mouth is devouring me.

“Yes
!” I cry, my hands going to his hair, holding him to me. My leg that is on the floorboard of the truck comes up to wrap around his shoulder. “Oh, God, don’t stop.” My head thrashes back and forth against the seat, and the minute I feel two fingers fill me, I come hard and fast. The force of it takes my breath away, and my hands in his hair fist and pull, trying to get him away from me. My eyes open when he stops; his eyes are on me as he wipes his mouth on the inside of my thigh. He sits up on his knees, still between my open legs, his hands go to the button of his jeans, and he unbuttons and unzips them quickly. His hard cock springs free when he pulls down his boxers, and his hands go back to my thighs, then under. He pulls me up, then leans his big body over me, filling me full in one long stroke.

“So fucking tight.” His words are said against my mouth. I can taste myself on him
, his hands at my ass pulling me up to meet each stroke. My hands go up the back of his shirt, my nails digging into his skin. My foot goes to the steering wheel, getting leverage. “Fuck me, baby,” he rumbles, his body arching so he can bend his head to pull my nipple into his mouth.

“Yes
,” I hiss, my head going back to push my breast deeper into his mouth. His pace picks up, his hips slamming into me so hard that my head starts to bang against the door until he puts his hand at the top of my head to cushion it.

“I love this pussy
,” he groans, and I know he’s close when I feel him get even bigger inside me.

“I’m close
,” I tell him, my mouth going to his shoulder and my legs tightening around him. His free hand comes between us, zeroing in on my clit. I thrust up against him and break apart, biting down hard. I feel myself convulse, and I know that my orgasm has caused his to set off. His hips jerk a few more times before his strokes slow and then stop. His forehead comes to rest on my shoulder. He is breathing heavily, the skin of his back wet with sweat.

“I missed being inside you.”

“I missed you too,” I breathe, my limbs squeezing him more tightly against me. His forehead comes off my shoulder. His eyes meet mine and he smiles.

“Are you okay?” His hand rubs the top of my head
; it feels tender from being banged into the door of the truck.

“Yeah.” I smile then start to laugh
, shoving my face into his throat.

“What’s so funny?” He chuckles
, kissing the top of my head.

“Nothing.” I smile
, feeling happy.

“You ready to take me to the glacier now that you
’ve had your way with me?” he asks.

“No
, I think we should stay here for the rest of the day,” I tell him, pulling my face out of his neck and my hand out from under his shirt so that I can run my fingers down his jaw.

“This is a good place to be.” He smirks
, rotating his hips and making me bite the inside of my cheek. “But we only have two more days in Alaska, and I really want to see this place that you have been telling me about since I met you.” He gently touches his mouth to mine, and his hips pull away so he can slide out of me. He bends forward, kissing my belly, then helps me sit up. I watch, fascinated as his hips lift off the seat and he tucks himself back into his jeans. “Babe, seriously, get dressed.” I nod and look away, picking my jeans up off the truck floor. I pull them on, then my socks and boots. Once I have straightened out my clothes and hair, I put my seatbelt back on and he puts the truck in drive. It takes twenty minutes to get out to the glacier. Once we reach the Million-Dollar Bridge, better known as ‘The Bridge to Nowhere’, I know we’re close. “So you’re telling me that that bridge goes to absolutely nowhere, and that the state of Alaska paid a million dollars to have it built just so they could get rid of the money so it wouldn’t go back to the government?”

‘That’s what I’m telling you.” I smile. “Well
, that’s what I have always been told about the bridge, anyway.” I shrug. We pull off the road and get out of the truck so we can walk across the bridge. It is in much better shape than it used to be in. About fifteen years ago, you would have to walk or drive across wooden planks; now that it’s refinished, you don’t have to worry about plummeting to your death. We stand in the middle of the bridge. Cash’s arms wrap around me from behind, and we look down at the water below and at the glacier off in the distance. I feel him kiss the back of my head. I always wanted to share this place with someone. It really is beautiful. I snuggle into his embrace, just enjoying the feeling of having him here with me. I miss the simple life of Alaska; everything is so different here. In the winter, you know every person in town since there are no tourists. And if something ever happens to one of the residents, everyone comes together to offer any support needed. I guess the town where I now live in Tennessee is similar. You just have to multiply the number of residents by a few thousand.

“You ready to show me the glacier?”

“Yeah.” I smile, looking over my shoulder. He leans in and places a kiss on my forehead before taking my hand and leading me back to the truck. Once we’re both buckled in, he drives the next few minutes to the bridge leading to the perfect spot to see the giant body of dense ice. We both get out and meet at the front of the truck. Cash takes my hand again, and I pull him down the long dirt path to the glacier and the viewing area. You can’t see anything until you climb to the top, then you see nothing but a beach area, a giant river, and Childs Glacier sitting on the other side.

“Holy shit
,” Cash says, making me smile. I know it’s one thing to talk about seeing a glacier, but it’s another thing completely to see it for yourself. The air near the glacier is so much colder, but it is also so much cleaner.

“I told you it was awesome.” I tug on his hand
, dragging him behind me to the edge of the river. “You would think just by looking at it that it’s close, but it’s actually miles away,” I tell him, looking across the river at the giant white wall of the glacier in front of us. The colors of turquoise and blue that run through it are so vibrant that the whole thing looks like a painting.

“It really is the perfect place
,” he says, standing behind me. One of his arms wraps around my waist, the other around my chest, his chin resting on the top of my head.

“I love coming out here.” I put my hands on his arm at my chest. “This is the one place where you really are apart from all the stresses of normal life. I know
, standing here, just how small I am in the giant scheme of things.”

“You may be small in terms of the whole world
, but to me and my kids, you make up our world,” he says softly against my ear. My tummy flips over, and I can’t help the tears I feel filling my eyes. I feel his hand leave my waist, and he reaches into his pocket. I think he is going to pull out his cell phone so he can take a picture, so when his hand comes around in front of me, it takes a second to realize what he is holding.

“Holy shit
,” I breathe, my nails digging into his arm. In between his fingers is the most beautiful ring I’ve ever seen.

“I have been carrying this thing around for a
while now, waiting for the right time to ask you to marry me.” My brain slowly registers the words. It starts screaming ‘yes, yes, yes!’ but I can’t make anything come out except, “What?”

My eyes are glued to the ring
; it’s absolutely perfect. I feel myself being turned, but my eyes are locked on the design of the ring—three diamonds, and two smaller stones in-between. I don’t really notice the change in position until Cash is kneeling in front of me.

“Lil
, I need you to look at me.” I shake my head before taking my eyes off the ring and meeting his. “I kept telling myself that when the time was right, I would know it, and this is the moment.” I watch him take a breath, his hand grabbing mine. “This is the moment I have been waiting for. This is the moment we start our forever. This is the moment you tell me you will marry me and make me the luckiest fucking man on this planet.”

“Yes.” I cover my mouth and drop to my knees in front of him
, burying my face in his chest. I start to cry immediately. If someone would have told me a year ago that I would be with Cash at my favorite place in the world, with him on his knee asking me to marry him, I would have laughed in their face. I never would have believed that this was a possibility for me. 

“Baby
, you’re freaking me the fuck out right now.” His arms are wrapped tightly around me, his mouth close to my ear.

“I…I
’m…s-so…h-happy,” I say on a sob, and laugh because I sound like an idiot.

“I would feel like you
are telling me the truth if my shirt wasn’t soaked with your tears, baby.”

“Sorry.” I take a deep breath and pull my face back so I can look at him. His hands
go to the hair at the side of my head, pulling it away from my face.

“What do you say we see how the ring fits?” His eyes search my face and I smile
, looking at his hand. He leans forward and places a light kiss on my lips before taking his right hand away from my face, pulling the ring off his finger, and pulling my hand towards him. I feel the cool metal slide along my finger and over my knuckle. The fit is just right.

“It
’s perfect.” I put my hand against his chest, looking at the ring there.

“I had it made to represent our family
, and all of us coming together as one.”

“I love you
,” I say, looking up from the ring on my hand and into his handsome face.

“You are my world
, baby. I never thought I would be this happy again. Now, having you back, and having Ashlyn and Jax, I have surpassed happiness.” He smiles, showing off both dimples.

“I feel the same. I didn’t think I would ever feel like this again.” I wrap my arms around his waist
, laying my head against his chest. We’re turned to the side so that we can both look out at the glacier. “Thank you for giving this to me.”

“There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you.” His arms give me a squeeze. “There is no way for you to know what you have given me
,” he says softly, kissing the top of my head. I don’t say anything, just hold him a little tighter. I know what I have given him, because he has given me the same thing.

“We
’re getting married,” I blurt after a few minutes. I feel Cash shaking with laughter. I know it’s dumb, but the realization that he just proposed to me and what that means hits me hard.

“Yeah
, baby, that’s usually what happens when someone asks someone else to marry them.”

“Whatever.” I roll my eyes
, even though he can’t see me do it. We stand there watching as a large piece of ice falls off the glacier, crashing into the water below, the sound echoing around us sounding like thunder.

“Where is everyone?”
he asks, looking around. The whole area is completely empty.

“There are guided trips out here a couple times a week
, but for the most part, the only people who come out here are residents.” I shrug. “It’s a long drive, and not too many people want to make the trip.”