Kami had picked Ash.
* * *
Kami and Rusty had been practicing throws for half an hour while Holly and Angela tried and failed to complete any sort of self-defense move.
“How about you attack me,” Angela suggested in exasperation. “And I’ll show you how it’s done.” She turned around, presenting her back to Holly, and Holly hesitated, her eyes a little wild.
“Just put your arm around my neck,” Angela began.
“You don’t have to say it like—” Holly started.
Angela turned on her. “Or how about this?” she asked. “How about you stop acting as if I’m contagious?” She wheeled around and picked her sunglasses and her bag up off the floor, then stormed out in a whirl of black hair and red silk.
Kami noticed Jared and Ash at the door of the next room, watching Angela go and looking baffled. They seemed even more puzzled when Holly covered her mouth with her hand and rushed out as well.
“Good practice, everyone,” Rusty said at last. “Light on the actual learning, heavy on the emotional catharsis, and thanks to Jared I think I need a rabies shot, but them’s the breaks.” He started stacking the mats in one corner of the room.
Kami picked up her bag and made her way out the door and down the stairs, where Ash caught up with her.
“What was all that?” Ash asked.
“None of your business,” Kami said firmly.
“It sounded like—” Ash stopped, and glanced over his shoulder up the stairs.
Kami followed his gaze to Jared, coming after them. Jared gave a tiny nod, confirming that it had sounded like that to him too.
“Wow, Angela and Holly,” Ash said, sounding awed. “Hot.”
“Excuse me, what is wrong with you?” Kami demanded. “Other people’s sexuality is not your spectator sport.”
Ash paused. “Of course,” he said. “But—”
“No!” Kami exclaimed. “No buts. That’s my best friend you’re talking about. Your first reaction should not be ‘Hot.’ ”
“It’s not an insult,” Ash protested.
“Oh, okay,” Kami said. “In that case, you’re going to give me a minute. I’m picturing you and Jared. Naked. Entwined.”
There was a pause.
Then Jared said, “He is probably my half brother, you know.”
“I don’t care,” Kami informed him. “All you are to me are sex objects that I choose to imagine bashing together at random. Oh, there you go again, look at that, nothing but Lynburn skin as far as the mind’s eye can see. Masculine groans fill the air, husky and—”
“Stop it,” Ash said in a faint voice. “That isn’t fair.”
Behind them, Jared was laughing. Kami glanced back at him and caught his eye: for once, it made her smile, as if amusement could still travel back and forth like a spark between them.
“Ash is right, this is totally unfair,” Jared told her. “If you insist on this—”
“Oh, I do,” Kami assured him.
“Then I insist on hooking up with Rusty instead of Ash. It’s the least you can do.”
“Ugh,” Ash protested. “You guys, stop.”
“She’s making a point,” Jared said blandly. “I recognize her right to do that. But considering the alternative, I want Rusty.”
Ash gave this some thought. “Okay, I’ll have Rusty too.”
The sound of the door opening behind them made them all look up the stairs to where Rusty stood, with one eyebrow raised.
“Don’t fight, boys,” he remarked mildly. “There’s plenty of Rusty to go around.”
Ash looked mortified. Kami burst out laughing.
“So,” said Ash. “Can I walk home with you? Sorry if you’d rather I asked Rusty.”
Kami glanced at Jared. He seemed unaffected by the question, as if he hadn’t even heard it. She appreciated that Ash had asked if he could walk with her, rather than if he could walk her, like she was a poodle. And it had been so simple for her today, being able to look at Ash and smile at him. There was no pain in this: surely it was healthier.
She reached the bottom of the stairs. Ash held out his arm, and Kami took it.
* * *
It was evening, and there was a bite in the air that sank down to the bone. The dying light overlaid the fields with silver, as if it had already snowed. Kami was sure it was going to.
Ash offered Kami his leather jacket as they walked. She accepted because it seemed only sensible: all she was wearing was a short-sleeved black knit T-shirt with a red heart pierced by an arrow on it. As she put the jacket on she thought of trying to climb inside it while she kissed him. She held the collar of the jacket closed, high, to hide her burning cheeks.
Kami wondered if he was going to try to kiss her again. Did she want him to kiss her? Maybe she did. Maybe it was just about comfort in a time when her town and her home were falling apart.
She was concentrating so hard on looking away that she didn’t see much until she felt Ash tense. Then she focused on the street in front of her, the row of homes, with their windows squares of silver and on their doors . . . streaks of blackness, gleaming darkly.
“What’s going on?” Kami demanded.
Before Ash could answer, she remembered, and then she was running faster than Ash could follow her, down that winter-pale street and onto her own road lined with the silvery skeletons of trees.
Her gate stood before her, sturdy-looking and familiar and sweet, and before the gate she saw a dark figure stooping.
Kami stepped forward, and the shadowy figure looked up at the sound of her coming. In the moonlight her mother’s face shone, and her mother’s hands gleamed with the same darkness that had touched every door in Kami’s town.
I trust you’re all going to be sensible,
Rob had said.
I’ll be watching for the signs.
Blood marking their homes, the sign of submission Rob had asked for. The sign that the town would cooperate with the sorcerers’ demands.
“Don’t,” Mum said, her voice shaking. “Don’t look at me like that. This is for your brothers.”
Kami’s voice tore, as if it was a piece of paper in her mother’s shaking hands. “You think this is the way to protect them?”
“I don’t know any other way,” her mother whispered. Her mother had already sacrificed one child to a sorcerer. A little blood on the gate should not have been a surprise.
Kami opened the gate, shoving past her mother and running inside the house and up to her room as if nightmares were chasing her. She felt as if she had been marked instead of her home: she felt weak for wanting something from magic, for not being able to stop wanting. She lay in bed until house and night were still around her, and then she crept softly downstairs and began to fill a bucket with water. The moonlight alchemized the water from the faucet into a bright white stream.
Kami looked out the window and saw someone at her gate. Fear touched her for a moment, but then she recognized the face.
Her father.
She turned off the taps and walked out of her house, carrying the bucket in both her hands so it would not spill. Silently they washed the blood away from their gate together.
Chapter Thirteen
At Your Gate
Sorry-in-the-Vale was a frequent tourist destination in the summer, which meant Kami knew the places in town where strangers were likely to go. And nobody could be invisible if they wanted to buy milk or stamps.
After school on Friday, Kami made sure everyone was in position. Angela kept sending her text messages of bitter complaint from the gift shop.
Kami herself was turning loitering into a fine art at the post office. “I always wondered what it would be like to work behind the counter here,” she told Mrs. Jeffries, being energetically charming while keeping one eye out the door. “I want to write an article about it, in fact.”
Mrs. Jeffries patted her dark hair. “I do like that paper of yours.”
“I would call it . . . ‘The Secret Lives of Postmistresses,’ ” Kami said.
“I don’t know about that,” Mrs. Jeffries told her doubtfully. “Sounds a little saucy to me.”
“Oh no,” Kami assured her. “Mine is a worthy publication. Completely lacking in sauce.” She spotted her quarry coming down the High Street, letters in hand, and texted a group message requesting immediate assistance. “So could I possibly come behind the counter?” she asked.
“Weeeeeell,” said Mrs. Jeffries.
Kami jiggled the gate invitingly, and Mrs. Jeffries swung it open. At the precise moment Kami slipped inside, the phone in the back rang. Mrs. Jeffries gave Kami a questioning glance, and Kami nodded encouragement.
Mrs. Jeffries went to answer the phone, while Kami spared a moment to hope Holly could keep her occupied long enough. Then the door of the post office swung open, and the stranger came in. She was tall, with hair so red it was almost vermilion. She had clear green eyes and Kami decided as soon as she saw her that her name must be Carmen or Veronica. Some classic evil name.
Carmen/Veronica gave Kami a skeptical look. Kami drew herself up and tried to look like a youthful but dedicated postmistress. “New here, are you? Welcome to Sorry-in-the-Vale,” Kami said. “I’m Mabel Jeffries.”
“Indeed?” said Carmen or Veronica.
“And you are?”
“Ruth Sherman,” said the woman, handing over her letters. Kami was tempted to keep them, but Ruth Sherman—shame about the name, possibly her evil sorceress title was Ruth the Ruthless—had propped her handbag up on the counter and was watching her carefully.
Kami stuck on stamps and deposited the letters in the postbag with an innocent smile, resolving to fetch them out when Ruth was gone. The door jangled and Kami was relieved to see Jared burst into the room. Ruth turned at the sound, and obviously recognized him. Or rather, recognized a Lynburn when she saw one.
“Staying with friends, are we?” Kami asked loudly, to attract her attention. “Enjoying yourself?”
Jared sidled up. He was not very good at sidling; he was more of a loomer.
“I plan to,” said Ruth.
Kami gave up on conveying messages to Jared with her eyebrows at the same time Jared gave up on subtlety. Instead he just knocked Ruth’s handbag onto the floor.
“Oh no,” he exclaimed. “Clumsy me.”
Kami clicked her tongue against her teeth. “I am so sorry,” she said. “What must you think of us? Those stamps are on the house. I mean the post office.” She spoke very fast, because she’d just heard the click of Mrs. Jeffries hanging up the phone. Jared rapidly stuffed the contents of Ruth’s bag back inside and thrust the bag into her arms.
Then they both stared at her intently and expectantly.
Ruth Sherman raised her eyebrows at them and backed out of the post office.
“Who was that?” Mrs. Jeffries asked, bustling out from the back just as the door swung shut after Ruth Sherman. She started at the sight of Jared, still crouched on the floor. Then she did a rapid scan of her post office. She instantly caught sight of the lone lipstick rolling on the floor.
“The poor lady must have dropped that,” she said, and undid the gate, stepping out to get it.
Jared put his hand on it. “No.”
Mrs. Jeffries stared down at him. “What do you mean . . . no?”
Jared and Mrs. Jeffries stared at each other, neither breaking eye contact, in a perfect deadlock.
Then Jared smiled at her. “I mean,” he said with conviction, “it’s mine.”
“It’s what?”
Jared stood up, pocketing the lipstick. “I know,” he responded. “Everyone tells me I’m more of a summer.”
Mrs. Jeffries continued to stare.
Jared continued to speak. “I’m going to go now. Me . . . and my lipstick.”
Since the gate was already open, Kami seized her chance to escape. “I too will leave. I have soaked up so much post office ambiance today already!”
Mrs. Jeffries visibly gave up on the youth of today with their random comings and goings, and even more random cosmetics.
Kami and Jared escaped out into the chilly brightness of the wintry air, sunlight pouring on them clear and cold as if through a crystal.
“Good save,” Kami told him. “I mean, it’s going to be all over town by nightfall, your reputation is ruined, but it was a noble sacrifice.”
“That’s me,” said Jared, and tossed her the lipstick. Kami caught it in both hands. “Chivalrous.”
“Oh, chivalry,” Kami said. “You get it from those old books of yours. Alice Duer Miller said chivalry was ‘treating a woman politely / As long as she isn’t a fright / It’s guarding the girls who act rightly / If you can be judge of what’s right.’ ”
“You be the judge of what’s right,” Jared said. “If you like. I wouldn’t know.”
Kami glanced over at him. “You do okay.”
“However, you’re not allowed to judge my books,” said Jared. “I am not the one who has actually read a book actually called
The Bride of the Cursed Emerald.
”
“Quality literature,” Kami told him, used to defending her mystery novels. “Turned out the butler did it. With the cursed emerald as a murder weapon. But the bride still loved it. The emerald, I mean, not the butler. Nobody loves a butler.”
It was ridiculous how simple it was to talk to him now that they had something to laugh about and an adventure behind them. It was such a relief to have him with her, and not to hurt any longer.
Kami could not help resenting him in the midst of happiness: that he could take it all away.
“Do you hate me?” Kami asked, without planning to. “I mean—do you?”
She forced herself to look at him as punishment; he had stopped walking and was facing her. He looked stricken, as if she was the one who had hurt him.
“Sometimes,” he said in a low voice.
“All right,” Kami said, and clenched her hand around the stupid lipstick. “Well—I have to go home now. Thanks for all your help.”
* * *
Kami was taking her time walking home. This morning she had seen her father come out of his office again, his door open enough to show a mess of blankets on the sofa, and her mother was already gone. Maybe to the bakery. Maybe somewhere else.
For the first time, Kami could almost understand her mother’s fear. If the truth didn’t help anyone, and love didn’t last, what was there left to struggle toward?
The path home was a gentle curve. Kami followed it, and did not look up to Aurimere. She looked at the woods lining one side of the way instead, and thought of warnings passed down in the form of stories about never straying into the woods.