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Maybe he was just telling her what she wanted to hear. But it was what she wanted to hear, she found, exactly what she wanted.

She leaned forward and kissed him again. She let go of his collar and touched his shoulders because she couldn’t seem to stop touching him long enough to complete a simple task like undoing her own coat.

“Let me,” Jared asked, voice hushed, and drew back a little, kissed a place just above the corner of her mouth as he slid the zipper of her coat open. She could feel his hands shaking; the zipper snagged a couple of times, and her breath caught. “Why are you wearing this?” Jared asked in a fraught whisper.

“Golly, I don’t know, a winter coat on a lovely December night, what was I thinking?” Kami twined her fingers in his hair, felt it soft and curling loosely at the ends around her fingertips, as if trying to hang on to her.
Yes,
she thought, and wished he could hear it.
Don’t let me go.

Jared laughed, the sound barely louder than a breath in the hushed bright space between them. “Golly,” he repeated softly, sliding his hands inside her coat. She felt the warm touch of his fingers through her thin jumper, at the small of her back, pressing her closer. “I’m not used to your English dirty talk.”

Kami almost laughed back, but his mouth touched hers, and the laugh was lost.

“Actually,” Jared said, and kissed her again, featherlight, “I’m not used to any of this.” He caught her open mouth with his, less careful now. “I haven’t done it a lot,” he added, the whisper scraping his throat and a hint of teeth touching her lower lip, the faint sting sending a shiver coursing through her body. “And I want to get it right.”

She did not know her lips had parted with the shiver until the kiss turned deep and her breathing shallow. Every time he touched her, the touch felt new, like something they had just invented together. It never stopped being a shock, that this was Jared. It was always a little scary, even something as small as his fingers stroking the nape of her neck.

He started back slightly, making a low sound that was half hunger, half distress. She looked up at his eyes, almost black, darkness swallowing all but a vanishingly faint ring of silver.

“Jared,” she said, and reached out to have him back.

Her fingers trailed light along the line of his collarbone, nails tracing the dip at the base of his throat, and she felt the shudder run through his body. She curled her fingers in under the collar of his shirt and used her hold to pull him in again.

She kissed him and he made another low sound, this one deeper in his throat. Touching him would have been unthinkable a few months ago. She felt almost dangerously happy, afraid at any moment that it was all going to be taken away from her, dashed into pieces before her eyes, that it would turn out to be a horrible mistake.

She felt dizzy and shuddered a little, pulling away from him, but even as she leaned away she could not stop the shivers coursing through her, could not stop kissing him back. A point of cold touched her neck, causing another shiver, and she looked up and realized it was snowing, bright white-feather points against the dark curtain of the night and the spotlight of their streetlamp. Kami felt a brush of warmth against her face and looked down to see Jared brushing a snowflake from her hair. She smiled and closed her eyes against the dancing glints of snow, the melting icy kiss against her skin, and met his warm mouth. They kissed and kissed, shivering and shaking apart, neither of them daring to touch each other anywhere risky, both scared and trying not to scare the other off.

Kami linked her arms behind his back, felt the breadth of his shoulders and the reality of skin and muscle and bone, and thought again,
Don’t let me go.

Chapter Twenty-One

Her Legacy

Kami swung open her gate, and the sound of its creak tore the cool peace of a very silent, very early morning. She followed the crazy paving, gray in the ghost-gray light, to the door of her house. When she walked through to her kitchen, she found her mother there, already swinging her bag onto her shoulder, ready to go out.

Mum looked up. “Kami,” she said in a low voice, “where have you been? I thought something might have happened.”

Mum’s voice sank on the word
something,
as if she had not been able to even imagine what might have happened to Kami, only able to nurse dark and insubstantial fears. Kami looked at her mother, her mother’s always-beautiful face above a zipped-up black hoodie and jeans. Her gray eyes looked huge: she looked younger than she usually did, and terrified.

Kami had been so angry with her mother, but looking at her now, she felt the fierce urge to shield her from everything that was making her so scared.

It was strange to feel protective of your own mother.

“I’m sorry,” Kami began.

Her mother interrupted: her voice as sharp as one of her culinary knives. “Were you with that Lynburn boy?”

Kami shrugged off her coat and dropped it on a chair. “Yes,” she answered, sympathy draining away. “Actually, I was making out with him all night. Tell me, are you going to the bakery or are you going to Rob Lynburn? My Lynburn doesn’t have half the body count yours does.”

Her mother went even paler. “I’d never betray your father,” she said, her voice very low.

“Then what are you doing, Mum?” Kami demanded.

“The Lynburns are mad!” Mum snapped. “They all want a show of submission; they want you to act like their servants. And I’ll do it, I’ll play the humble villager, if that’s a way to keep my family safe. That’s all I want, for you all to be safe. That’s all I’m trying to accomplish. And you’re scaring me, Kami. You’re breaking my heart. You have to be more careful.”

“We can’t let him win,” Kami said.

Her mother’s eyes traveled over her. Kami knew her hair was tangled and her mouth was swollen, and she knew that her mother thought she was a fool.

“You don’t get it,” Mum told her. “He’s already won. The other Lynburns will accept that. All that really matters to a Lynburn is another Lynburn. It’s the others who stand against him Rob will crush. And if this boy doesn’t have a use for you anymore, he’ll stand by and let you be crushed.”

Kami laughed. “You have no idea who he is. He doesn’t ever stand by for anything. And he loves me.”

She believed it, believed every word, but she felt herself flush as she said it. She’d always known he loved her, it had been the one certainty above all others that had never changed, but she had never said the words aloud and she had never meant them quite this way before. She had said it to him, and she hardly knew what she had meant. They were terrifying words, words to encompass a world.

Her mother looked at her sadly, her mother who men only had to look at to love. She might know better than Kami did.

But all she said was, “I have to go.” She pulled up her dark hood, covering her shining-gilt hair and shadowing her pale face. Kami shuddered in the cold air that ran through the open door as her mother went out.

Kami went upstairs and had a stinging hot shower to warm herself and wake herself up. She stood under the water and was terribly, newly aware of her own body, of the paths the drops of hot water were following.

Her old boyfriend Claud had touched a lot more of her body than Jared had tonight, but she had not felt made new because of him. Jared knew her, knew almost all the thoughts she had ever had, every dark fear and bright hope. When he touched her, he knew exactly who he was touching. There was a weight to their touches that made her body seem like a newly found land, with discoveries possible she had not dreamt of. Kami closed her eyes and let the drops of water drum on her eyelids.

She didn’t know how much of it was about the link, but he liked her. He loved her: he’d said so, though she would never again be able to know precisely and completely what he meant when he spoke. She just had to trust him, like every other couple in the world.

If they were a couple.

Kami shook her head at herself in the mirror, and the water-black locks of her hair came unstuck from her face and waved around her head.

Kami tried calling Henry Thornton again, but his phone just rang and rang. She chose her outfit more carefully than usual: a royal-blue dress with long sleeves, purple tights, and swinging plastic purple earrings. When she looked in the mirror, she had to shake her head at herself again, bothering about how she looked to a guy at a time like this, but her reflection smiled at her and seemed to regret nothing.

Her father was in the kitchen when she came back downstairs. Coffee was brewing and he was reading
The Nosy Parker.

“My daughter, reporter of all the evil magical news of the day,” he said. “The boys told me you’d written an article that explained some things. I have to say, it makes a lot more sense than what I’ve been able to come up with on my own.”

Kami was aware she should have responded to what he was saying with a smile and a joke, but instead she stood stricken.

He looked so completely normal, her dad, his black hair sticking up from a shower, wearing a shirt that said
BABY, I
’
D DESIGN YOUR GRAPHIC
. She could not put the sight of him together with the desperate man she’d seen in the graveyard.

“I—I can tell you things,” she offered at last. “Whatever you want to know.”

“Your mum thinks it’d be best to lay low and let these . . . sorcerer types work it out,” Dad said. “She seemed pretty worried about how much you’re involved.”

Kami was glad to hear they’d been talking about anything in what seemed to be a civil fashion, but she didn’t know what to say. “Yes, I am heavily involved with deadly magical danger” did not seem the kind of thing a concerned parent would wish to hear. She looked over at him and saw he was pouring three cups of coffee. “Is Mum still here?” she asked, hoping this meant something good for them, when the doorbell jangled.

“No,” said Dad. “But I am expecting a guest.”

He made to slide off his stool, but then the kitchen door swung wide and Lillian Lynburn walked in. She did not bother to close it.

Dad raised his eyebrows. “The front door wasn’t open.”

“I find things are usually the way I want them to be,” Lillian said. “Because I can do magic.”

“Can you do
manners
?” Dad inquired. “It’s customary to wait for someone to answer the door.”

Lillian did not look impressed by the customs of ordinary mortals. She did not look impressed by the kitchen of ordinary mortals either. Rob had been in Kami’s kitchen once, and had looked friendly and comfortable enough. Lillian looked as out of place as a character in a fairy tale. Possibly an evil queen, if evil queens had really fancy tweed coats.

“Let me tell you about customs, James,” said Lillian. “I am not accustomed to being summoned to someone else’s home. You’re very fortunate that I came.”

“I am indeed blessed,” Dad told her. “I am also, by the way, called Jon.”

Lillian looked faintly surprised. “Are you?”

“Really?” Dad asked. “Really? I was the only Asian guy who went to our school. I kind of stood out. While you are an identical twin, and I still managed to know your name.”

“I’m afraid I don’t take your point,” Lillian told him. “I am also afraid that you called me down here to waste my time.”

Kami patted Dad on the arm to console him for Lillian

Lynburn’s entire personality.

“All right, Lucinda,” said Dad. “I’ll get right to it. I’ve absorbed that there’s a conflict going on between you and your husband, and that you’re on the side that doesn’t want to hurt anyone.”

“I would not go that far,” Lillian observed. “Shall we say I don’t approve of ritual human sacrifice and leave it there?”

“At last some common ground between us, Leslie,” said Dad.

Kami could not quite believe that her father was getting sassy with a sorcerer. She hastily picked up her coffee and hid a smile behind the cup.

“I’ve also gathered that
my
family has some kind of ability your family might find useful.”

“Your family members are sometimes born sources,” Lillian clarified.

“Sure, whatever,” Dad said. “Lana.”

Lillian rested her hands on the belt of her coat. Its ornate gold buckle was in the shape of a woman’s face, surrounded by snakelike locks of hair. Lillian’s fingers twitched slightly.

“I admit that it has occurred to me that the power a source can lend a sorcerer might prove useful in the battle ahead. Your daughter—”

“We’ll leave my daughter out of it, thanks,” said Dad. He closed a hand over Kami’s when Kami opened her mouth to protest. “But I want to protect my family and my home just as much as you do, Linda. If there is a way that I can help you, I will. How can you tell if you’re one of those . . . sources?” He ended the sentence in a questioning voice, as if unsure if he’d gotten the word right.

Lillian gave a brief nod. “I can tell,” she said. “If I concentrate.” Lillian walked into every room as if she owned it. She walked across this one as if she owned it but was slightly horrified to find herself there, like a queen in a basement. Lillian reached the table that bore their coffee cups and reached over it, framing Jon Glass’s face between two fingertips. Her nails were bloodred. She looked into his eyes for a long moment. Kami’s father did not flinch, but met her gaze steadily, while Kami held on to his hand. Then Lillian stepped back with a dismissive disdainful gesture that said it all before she spoke: “Seems like being useful skipped a generation.”

“So—”

“So you’re not a source, and I’m done here,” Lillian announced.

“Wait a minute,” Dad said. “So I’m not a source, whatever you mean by that. What else can I do? There has to be
something.
”

Lillian considered. “Keep out of my way.” She headed for the door. Dad abandoned his coffee cup and followed her out, Kami at his heels. “Look. My kids are in trouble, and I want to—”

“Kids?” Lillian repeated. Her ringing tone must have pierced through the walls. As if in answer to a summons, Ten and Tomo were on the stairs, both wearing pajamas and peering down at her.