“I've been thinking,” he said awkwardly. “Iâ”
She crossed her arms, and waited for him to continue. He straightened his back and lifted his chin. “Tarma shena Taleâsedrin,” he said, with all the earnest solemnity of a high priest, “Have I your permission to pay my court to your oathsister?”
She raised an eyebrow. “Can you give me a good reason why I should?”
Her question wilted him. He sat down abruptly, obviously struggling for words. “IâTarma, I
love
her, I really do. I love her too much to just play with her, I want something formal binding us, somethingâin keeping with her honor. She's lovely, you know that as well as I do, but it isn't just her exterior I care for, it's her
mind.
She challenges me, like nobody I've ever known before. We're equalsâI want to be her partner, notânot aâI don't know, I want to have something like Mertis and Stefan have, and I
know
we'll give each other that! I want to help you with your schools, too. I think it's a wonderful dream and I want to make it real, and work alongside of both of you to make it more than a dream.”
“We're something more than partners, she and I,” Tarma reminded him. “There's certain things between us that will affect any children Kethry may have.”
“I took the liberty of asking Warrl about that,” he said, blushing. “I don't have any problem withâchildren. With them being raised Taleâsedrin. Everything I know about the Shin'aâin, everything I've learned in working with youâI would be very, very proud if you considered my blood good enough to flow into the Clans. Tarma, this is probably going to sound stupid, but I've come toâloveâyou. You've done so much
for
me, more than you guess. What I
really
want is that what we've built with the three of us in the last few months should endureâthe friendship, the love, the partnership. I never had that beforeâand I'd do anything right now to prevent losing either of you.”
Tarma looked into his pleading eyesâand much to his evident shock
and
delight, she took both his hands, pulled him up out of his chair into her arms, hugged him just short of breaking his ribs, and planted a kiss squarely in the middle of his forehead before letting him go again.
“Well, outClan
brother,”
she laughed, “while I can't speak for the lady, I would suggest you trot next door and ask her for her hand yourselfâbecause I do know that if you donât, you're going to find yourself trussed hand and foot and lying over Hellsbane's rump like so much baggage. You see,
we
happen to be barbarians, and we
will
do anything to prevent losing
you.
He
shala?”
His mouth worked for a moment, as he stared at her, his eyes brightening with what Tarma suspected were tears of joy. Then he took her face in both his hands, kissed
her,
and ran out her door as if joy had put wings on his back.
“Better get Stefan to pick your successor,” she called after him. “Because we're going to keep you
much
too busy to putter about in his Archives.”
And so they did.
Appendix One
Dictionary of Shinâa'in Terms
PRONUNCIATION:
â : glottal stop, a pause, but not quite as long a pause as between two words
ai: as in air
ay: long “a” as in way
ah: soft “a” as in ah
ee: long “e” as in feet
ear: as in fear
e: as in fend
i: long “i” as in violent
oh: long “o” as in moat
oo: as in boot
Â
corthu
: (cohr-thoo)âone being
desterâedre:
(destair ay-dhray)âwind(born) sibling
dhon
: (dthohn)âvery much
duâdera:
(doo dearah)â(I) give (you) comfort
forâshava:
(fohr shahvah)âvery, very good
getâke:
(get kay)â(could you) explain
gestena
: (gestaynah)âthank you
hai
: (hi)âyes
hai shala:
(hi shahlah)âdo you understand?
haiâshe'li:
(hi she lee)âsurprised “yes,” literally “yes, I swear!”
haiâvetha:
(hi vethah)âyes, (be) running
herây:
(hear ee)â(is this not) the truth
isda:
(eesdah)âhave you (ever) seen (such)
jelâenedra:
(jel enaydrah)âlittle sister
jel' sutho' edrin
: (jel soothoh aydthrin)â“forever younger siblings,” usually refers to horses
jostumal:
(johstoomahl)âenemy, literally, “one desiring (your) blood”
kadessa:
(kahdessah)ârodent of the Dhorisha Plains
Kalâenedral: (kahlenaydhrahl)âHer sword-brothers or Her swordchildren
Kalâenel: (kahl enel)âthe Warrior aspect of the four-faced Goddess, literally, “Sword of the Stars.” Also called Enelve'astre (Star-Eyed) and Daâgretha (Warrior).
kathal
: (kahthahl)âgo gently
kele:
(kaylay)â(go) onward
kestra
: (kestrah)âa casual friend
krethes:
(kraythes)âspeculation
kulath:
(koolahth)âgo find
leshyaâe:
(layshee-ah ee)âspirit;
not
a vengeful, earthbound ghost, but a helpful spirit
Lihaâirden: (leehah eardhren)âdeer-footed
liâha'eer
: (lee hah eeahr)âexclamation, literally, “by the gods”
liâsa'eer:
(lee sah eeahr)âexclamation of extreme surprise, literally “by the highest gods!”
nes:
(nes)âbad
nos:
(nohs)âit is
pretera
: (praytearah)âgrasscat
sadullos:
(sahdoolohs)âsafer
se:
(sy)âis/are
sheâchorne
: (shay chornah)âhomosexual; does not have negative connotations among the Shin'aâin.
sheâenedra
: (shay enaydrah)âsister by blood-oathing
sheka
: (shaykah)âhorse droppings
shena
: (shaynah)âof the Clan, literally âof the brotherhood'
shesti:
(shestee)ânonsense
Shinâa'in:
(shin ay in)âthe people of the plains
soâtrekoth:
(soh traykoth)âfool who will believe anything, literally, “gape-mouthed hatchling”
staven
: (stahven)âwater
Taleâedras
: (tahle aydhrahs)âHawkbrothers, a race who may or may not be related to the Shin'aâin, living in the Pelagiris Forest
Taleâsedrin
: (tahle saydhrin)âchildren of the hawk
teâsorthene:
(tay sohrthayne)âheart-friend, spirit-friend
Vai datha
: (vi dahthah)âexpression of resignation or agreement, literally “there are many ways.”
varâathanda
: (vahr ahthahndah)âto be forgetful of
vesâtacha
: (ves tahchah)âbeloved one
vysaka
: (visahkah)âthe spiritual bond between the Kalâenedral and the Warrior; its presence can actually be detected by an Adept, another Kalen- edral, and the Kal'enedral him/herself. It is this bond which creates the “shielding” that makes Kalâenedral celibate/neuter and somewhat immune to magic.
vyusher
: (vi-ooshear)âwolf
yai
: (yi)âtwo
yuthiâso'coro
: (yoothee soh cohr-oh)âroad courtesy; the rules Shinâa'in follow when traveling on a public road.
Appendix Two
Songs and Poems
SUFFER THE CHILDREN
(Tarma:
Oathbreakers
)
These are the hands that wield a sword
With trained and practiced skill;
These are the hands, and this the mind,
Both honed and backed by will.
Death is my partner, blood my trade,
And war my passion wildâ
But these are the hands that also ache
To hold a tiny child.
Â
CH: Suffer, they suffer, the children,
When I see them, gods, how my heart breaks!
It is ever and always the children
Who will pay for their parents' mistakes.
Â
Somehow they know that I'm a friendâ
I see it in their eyes,
Somehow they sense a kindly heartâ
So young, so very wise.
Mine are the hands that maim and killâ
But children never care.
They only know my hands are strong
And comfort is found there.
Â
Little enough that I can do
To shield the young from painâ
Not while their parents fight and die
For land, or goods, or gain.
All I can do is give them loveâ
All I can do is strive
To teach them enough of my poor skill
To help them stay alive.
OATHBREAKERS
CH: Cursed Oathbreakers, your honor's in pawn
And worthless the vows you have madeâ
Justice shall see you where others have gone,
Delivered to those you betrayed!
Â
These are the signs of a mage that's forswornâ
The True Gifts gone dead in his hand,
Magic corrupted and discipline torn,
Shifting heart like shifting sand;
Swift to allow any passion to run,
Given to hatred and rage.
Give him wide berth and his company shunâ
For darkness devours the Dark Mage.
Â
These are the signs of a traitor in warâ
Wealth from no visible source,
Shunning old comrades he welcomed before,
Holding to no steady course.
If you uncover the one who'd betray,
Heed not his words nor his pen.
Give him no second chanceâdrive him awayâ
False once will prove false again.
Â
These are the signs of the treacherous priestâ
Pleasure in anyone's pain,
Abuse or degrading of man or of beast,
Duty as second to gain,
Preaching belief but with none of his own,
Twisting all that he controls.
Fear him and never face him all alone,
He corrupts innocent souls.
Â
These are the signs of the king honor-brokeâ
Pride coming first over all,
Treading the backs and the necks of his folk
That he alone might stand tall,
Giving himself to desires that are base,
Tyrannous, cunning, and cruel.
Bring him downâset someone else in his place.
Such men are not fit to rule.
ADVICE TO YOUNG MAGICIANS
(Kethry)
The firebird knows your anger
And the firebird feels your fear,
For your passions will attract her
And your feelings draw her near.
But the negative emotions
Only make her flame and fly.
You must rule your heart, magician,
Or by her bright wings you die.
Â
Now the cold-drake lives in silence
And he feeds on dark despair
Where the shadows fall the bleakest
You will find the cold-drake there.
For he seeks to chill your spirit
And to lure you down to death.
Learn to rule your soul, magician,
Ere you dare the cold-drake's breath.
Â
And the griffon is a proud beast
He's the master of the sky.
And no one forgets the sight
Who has seen the griffon fly.
But his will is formed in magic
And not mortal flesh and bone
And if you would rule the griffon
You must first control your own.
Â
The
kyree
is a creature
With a soul both old and wise
You must never think to fool him
For he sees through all disguise.
If you seek to call a kyree
All your secrets he shall plumbâ
So be certain you are worthy
Or the
kyreeâ
will not come.
Â
For your own heart you must conquer
If the firebird you would call
You must know the dark within you
Ere you seek the cold-drake's hall
Here is better rede, magician
Than those books upon your shelfâ
If you seek to master others
You must master first yourself.
OATHBOUND
(T
he Oathbound
, Tarma & Kethry)
Â
CH: Bonds of blood and bonds of steel
Bonds of god-fire and of need,
Bonds that only we two feel
Bonds of word and bonds of deed,
Bonds we tookâand knew the cost
Bonds we swore without mistake
Bonds that give more than we lost,
Bonds that grant more than they take.
Â
Tarma:
Â
Kalâenedral, Sword-Sworn, I,
To my Star-Eyed Goddess bound,
With my pledge would vengeance buy
But far more than vengeance found.
Now with steel and iron will
Serve my Lady and my Clan
All my pleasure in my skillâ
Nevermore with any man.
Â
Kethry:
Â
Bound am I by my own will
Never to misuse my powerâ
Never to pervert my skill
To the pleasures of an hour.
With this blade that I now wear
Came another bond indeedâ
While her arcane gifts I share
I am bound to woman's Need.
Â
Tarma:
Â
And by blood-oath we are bound
Held by more than mortal bands
For the vow we swore was crowned
By god-fires upon our hands.
Â
Kethry:
Â
You are more than shield-sib now
We are bound, and yet are free
So I make one final vowâ
That your Clan shall live through me.
ADVICE TO WOULD-BE HEROES
(Tarma)
Â
So you want to go earning your keep with your
sword
And you think it cannot be too hardâ
And you dream of becoming a hero or lord
With your praises sung out by some bard.
Well now, let me then venture to give you advice
And when all of my lecture is done
We will see if my words have not made you
think twice
About whether adventuring's “fun!”