Van, Becca - Her Norland Warriors (Siren Publishing Ménage Everlasting) (10 page)

“Do you have any idea of the hell you put us through? No, you couldn’t have, you slept through it all. That bastard was still in your mind, downloading information from your memories. You didn’t move the whole time he was in there. I can’t believe you let a stranger into your head, and yet you have built a mental barrier to keep us, your bond mates, out. Why, Jessamine? Why would you do that?” Hakon asked.

Jess could hear the pain in his voice and knew she had hurt Hakon and his brothers with her actions. She closed her eyes to shut him out. She wanted to explain why she felt more comfortable with a stranger in her mind rather than the three men whom she had bonded with. But to do so would let them see how much they were coming to mean to her. She didn’t want them to know she was already falling in love with them. She’d only known them for such a short period of time. How the hell could she explain that she felt vulnerable at the thought of them having access to her emotions and thoughts? They wouldn’t understand.

She’d always felt insecure, never fitting in, and because her mom hadn’t had the money to have her DNA adjusted like her acquaintances, she had always felt like she was standing on the outside looking in. She’d never felt good enough to participate with the other girls as they whispered and giggled over boys, swapping clothes because they were all the same petite size. She had always felt left out since she was too different with her fiery red hair and voluptuous hourglass figure. She opened her eyes to see Hakon and Dagr staring down at her and slid her gaze down to Loki to see a sad smile on his face. She felt like such a bitch, but she didn’t want to open up to them yet. She felt too raw, too needy, and didn’t know how to deal with her feelings. She’d never felt this way in her life, and to open herself up to the three Sigmund brothers now, so soon, when she’d really only just met them, wasn’t something she was willing to do.

“I’m sorry if I’ve hurt you,” Jess began, looking at Hakon. “That was never my intention. I don’t know you very well either, so how can you expect me to just accept you and let you into my mind?”

“Jessamine, it works both ways. We don’t know you very well either, but we can learn together. You have access to our minds anytime you wish. All you have to do is reach out, touch our minds with your own, and you will see and feel what you are to us. Please, will you remove the mental barrier? We don’t want you becoming ill with the bond-mating fever,” Dagr said, anguish in his voice.

“I’m sorry, I have no wish to hurt any of you, but I can’t. It’s too soon,” Jess replied quietly. “I just need a little more time to come to terms with everything. I’m not like you. You’ve had these abilities since you were born. The thought of you in my head…it scares me.”

Jess watched warily as the three men rose from the bed, totally unconcerned with their nudity or the fact they had large erections. They pulled on their pants and vests, then left the room. Not once did they look back at her.

Jess curled up on her side into the fetal position and sobbed her heart out. She felt like she had betrayed their trust. Depression set in. She’d never have them look at her the way they had the night they claimed her. She had pushed them too far, and she was afraid the three men would want to have nothing to do with her.
Oh God. What have I done?

She’d lived her whole life comparing herself to others when she should have been looking at what she had to offer. Now she had ruined it all. They had been willing to take her unconditionally, not questioning her appearance. No, they had embraced the fact she was so different from all the other females. They had accepted her for who she was. And what had she done? She had thrown their acceptance back in their faces. She wanted to be able to turn back time and start over, but even she knew that wasn’t possible. She was going to have to work at getting their trust back. She had betrayed them in their eyes, by letting a stranger into her mind and not them. She was going to have to figure out something, a way to show her bond mates that she did trust them and accept them for who they were, abilities and all.

Jess sat up and wiped the tears from her face. She was glad her men weren’t here right now. She knew she’d never been a pretty crier. She knew her eyes would be bloodshot, her nose and cheeks red and blotchy. She hated to cry and usually was strong enough not to, but the despair at her own actions and the thought of hurting her bond mates had been too much to bear. She rose from the bed, intending to head for the bathing room to clean up, but a knock on the door had her grabbing the sheet from the bed, wrapping it around herself and changing direction. She opened the door to find three elderly men looking at her with concern.

“Can I help you?” Jess asked, her voice rough from her tears.

“I am Elder, one of the healers, and these are my brothers. We would like to examine your mind to make sure the Gorian has left no traces of himself or any damage to your brain, if you will permit us to enter?”

“Sure, come on in,” Jess replied, stepping to the side of the entrance. She closed the door quietly and followed the healers back into the room.

“If you will please take a seat, Lady Jessamine, we will begin the examination,” Elder suggested.

Jess sat down on the edge of the bed and watched the healers scrutinizing her. She shifted uncomfortably, but then froze as she felt a brush to her mind. She held still but lowered her eyes, not wanting to see any censure from the healers in case they knew what she had done. It was only a matter of moments before the flutters in her brain ceased, and the healers stepped back.

“You are well. The Gorian has gone. We will leave you now, Lady,” Elder stated, then turned and headed toward the door, his brothers following. Jess saw him hesitate, his hand on the door handle. “Your mates accept all of you, Lady Jessamine. Will you be brave enough to do the same?”

Jess didn’t get the chance to answer. They were gone before she even opened her mouth. She sighed and stood up, heading to the bathing room. Hopefully she would feel more like herself when she was clean and dressed.

She showered and dressed and even though she knew she should, she didn’t feel like eating. She replenished her body fluids from the jug of juice which seemed to be permanently full on a table off to the side of the bedroom, near the glass doors. She stepped out into the garden, breathing deeply, inhaling the scents of flowers blooming. She found herself back at the fountain in the center of the garden, trying to come up with a way to gain her bond mates’ trust back. She knew the only real option was to demolish the wall she had built in her mind and reach out to them, but she didn’t know if she was quite ready or brave enough to do it. How long she sat there gathering her courage, she didn’t know. The sun had moved across the sky, and it looked to be in the middle of the afternoon. Surely she hadn’t been sitting there that long.

Chapter Ten

Jess felt her body heating and presumed it was the effect of the sun’s rays, as they were now beating down upon her. But then she didn’t remember feeling so hot yesterday out in the sun. She squirmed in her seat, her thighs wet from the juices leaking from her pussy. The heat ratcheted up a notch and almost became too much to bear. She stood up and moved into the shade of a blue tree, the scent of its bloom calming her for a moment. A wave of heat swept through her body, and it was so intense she doubled over with the pain from it. Oh fuck, she had the bond-mating fever.
Her mates had warned her of it, but she had thought they were only trying to get into her pants on a regular basis. She should have known better. Her mates had not lied to her once. She had betrayed their trust on so many levels. She didn’t know if she would be able to repair the damage.

Jess stumbled to her feet, heading back to their room. She was so hot now, she felt as if her insides were on fire. She made it to the room and flopped down onto the bed, curling into herself to try and alleviate the pain. It didn’t do her a lick of good. She was in agony. She was writhing on the bed, the sheet beneath her and the material of her dress abrading her sensitive skin. She managed to pull the dress from her body and collapsed back onto the mattress. She could feel the perspiration rolling off her body and wanted to find a cold pool of water to immerse herself in. She sobbed out as a wave of heat rolled over her, making her bow off the bed in pain. She had no idea what to do. She needed help, and she needed it now.

Jess turned within her own mind, trying to block out the excruciating fire so she could concentrate on removing her mental barrier. She began to demolish the wall one brick at a time, then gave up as pain shot through her organs. That way was taking way too long. She envisaged a sledge hammer slamming into the wall again and again, until all that was left was a pile of rubble. She thought of her three mates and projected her pain and fear out to them, having no idea if she’d succeeded in contacting them, in too much pain to follow the connection and keep it in place.

She felt her body arch off the bed once more, then slam back down to the blessedly soft mattress beneath her. She cried out as she curled into herself, her body being consumed by sightless flames. She was so intent on riding out the waves of pain that she didn’t hear the door open and was totally unaware of her mates’ presence in the room until she felt the mattress dip. She was in agony.

* * * *

Hakon reached the bed before his brothers and looked on with despair as their mate’s body convulsed with pain as he stripped his clothes from his body. Jess in so much pain, was more than he could bear, and once he and his brothers were naked, they climbed onto the bed as one. Hakon reached for Jess’s legs and pulled them out straight then spread them wide. His brothers got onto the bed beside their mate and straightened out the rest of Jess’s body, Dagr pinning her arms above her head.

Hakon slid down onto his belly and dove down to Jess’s pussy. The heat radiating off of her wet flesh was nearly enough to singe his tongue. He swept his tongue through her wet folds from top to bottom and back again, gathering her cream, and he began to lave her clit. He wasn’t so gentle with her this time. He had to get Jess to her peak, and quickly. He thrust a finger into her cunt and flicked his tongue over her distended bundle of nerves as he pumped his finger in and out of her wet sheath. He had her body clamping down on his digit within moments and was thankful he had sent his mate into a climax so fast. He opened his eyes to see Loki devouring her mouth with his own and pinching one of her nipples between his finger and thumb. Dagr was sucking on her other hard peak and smoothing a hand over the skin of her belly. Jess was still trying to writhe from the hold they had her in, and Hakon knew they had barely taken the edge off of the bond-mating fever.

Hakon lowered his head and got back to work. He devoured her cunt with his mouth, sucking on her folds as he added another finger to her sheath. He thrust his fingers into her body, faster, harder, and deeper every time he penetrated her. He slid his tongue up into her folds and sucked her clit into his mouth. He caged the little nubbin between his teeth and flicked the tip of his tongue over the sensitive nerve endings, until he felt her cunt rippling along the length of his fingers. He sucked on her clit and sent her screaming over the edge once more.

Hakon sat up between Jess’s splayed thighs, aimed his hard, aching cock at her entrance, and thrust in balls-deep. He grasped her hips between his hands and began to pound in and out of her tight, wet cunt. He didn’t hold back, and their flesh slapping together rang through the room as he thrust fast and hard. He released his hold on her hips with one of his hands and began to massage her clit, his hips thrusting quickly, gliding the length of his cock in and out of her tight body. He could feel his balls tightening, drawing up closer to his body, and knew he was about to go over. He pinched her clit between his thumb and finger and roared out his release as his mate’s muscles clamped down on his hard shaft. He held her hips in a tight grip as she milked every drop of cum from his cock and balls. Once the last ripple and pulse of his cock and his mate’s pussy ceased, he pulled from her body and moved off to the side. His legs were weak and shaking, his breath rasping in and out of his mouth, and he didn’t think he would be able to move again for quite some time. He turned his head to Loki and gave his brother a nod to let him know it was his turn to love their mate.

* * * *

Loki moved between Jess’s thighs and plunged into her depths without any preliminary. He knew he didn’t hurt her as her cunt was dripping with the combination of her and his brother’s cream. He set up a slow, steady rhythm now their mate’s writhing had diminished to a lesser level. He knew they were indeed winning the battle against the bond-mating fever, and since this was his first time inside of his mate’s body other than her mouth, he wanted to savor the experience.

He wrapped his arms around Jess’s thighs, lifted her legs up and out wide, and began to thrust into her tight, wet pussy with slow, measured thrusts. Her sheath rippling around his hard cock was pure nirvana. He’d never felt anything so exquisite before and knew he would be connected to his mate both spiritually and physically forever more.

Loki kept his hips pumping in a slow, even rhythm, his eyes closed as he relished his mate’s cunt gripping around his hard flesh. He could spend hours buried in Jess’s body now that he knew what it felt like. He never wanted to leave her tight, wet heat. He reached around her thigh and slid the tip of his finger into the top of her slit and began to massage her protruding little button. He groaned as her muscles rippled along his length, drenching him with her cream. He couldn’t help the way his body responded, his cock jerking and pulsing inside her. He began to speed up his thrusting hips. He did it in increments with each penetration of her body, until he was pounding in and out of her, lost to the sensations of bliss her body gave to him. He wanted to stay buried in her body for the rest of his life.