Vows of Deception: Something old, new, borrowed, and BLUE... (2 page)

Sometimes she thought maybe that was the reason why she wanted to have a baby so bad. So she wouldn’t feel so lonely when Lamont was working late, out of town on business, or just too stuck in his ways to try new things. She loved her husband no doubt but she was beginning to get bored. The one time she tried to explain her boredom to him, he took it in the wrong context. He assumed she was sick of him not just their situation. They were still young and if he wasn’t going to make her a mother at least they could be more adventurous. Take more trips, do more outdoorsy things, or at least spice up their sex life. At the mere mention of spicing up their sex life, he accused her of saying he wasn’t good enough. To smother the argument he was picking she in turn did something she hadn’t done in a while as a form of submission. Although he hadn’t reciprocated in the oral department in a long time she dropped and gave him a happy ending to sooth his fears that she wasn’t happy. Vowing she would have to try another way to get to him she let her boredom and anxious feelings subside to keep the peace.

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Lamont was straining so hard he was almost fearful that he would burst a blood vessel. The oral pleasure he was receiving was beyond magnificent. She hadn’t gone down on him like that in a while. He wasn’t complaining by a long shot because it had his toes curling. Bursting in her mouth, he was ready to put in some serious overtime. Standing to his feet, he helped her assume the position bending at the waist, hands planted on the bed for leverage. Lamont slid his chemically induced hard-on past her swollen nether lips, deep within her tunnel until he was in completely. The moan from his willing participant let him know she was more than ready. Seductively swaying her ass against his front letting him further no she was anticipating further action. He didn’t need any further coercion as he started to forcefully pump in and at.

“OH DADDY!”

“What did I tell you about that shit?” He rammed over and over.

“Daddy, I’m sorry…. Ahhh…” She always did this to get a rise out of him knowing he hated to be called daddy. Most men got off on being called by that name but not him, he became infuriated. Knowing full well she would get exactly the sexual beat down that she so desperately wanted. “Yes!”

“What’s my name?” He demanded. She mentally rolled her eyes at his tired ass attempt at being forceful. “I said… WHAT’S. MY. NAME!”

“Da… Lamont!”

“You like the way I do you? Huh?”

“Yes, I love the way you do me Daddy.” She let that daddy slip again because she wanted him to shut up and beat it down. Getting the desired rise from him he put in the work she needed to climax. He neared his release as well she could tell. After all they have been together for so many years now. Every little move he made she had memorized. Pulling out in just enough time to ejaculate all over her backside with a groan of frustration.

“Seems like you had some pent up today. What’s going on?”

“Nothing you should worry about.” He answered evasively.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, I’m sure.” Lamont reached for his phone to check the time.

“How much time do we have?”

“We have just enough time for another. You know what you need to do.”

“I always know what you need baby.”

“I know you do girl.” Lamont assumed the position for her to take him passed her lips and tongue for the second time that night. He needed to release some stress before returning to his more tedious life. “Lay back let me send you home with something to think about.”

“And what would that be?”

“Well…” She dragged out easing down on his now hardened member. “You could have this waiting for you morning… noon… night… and anytime in between.” Peppering kisses on his bare chest at each pause.

“Shit, I got that now.”

“Wouldn’t it be nice to have me spread out on that huge dining room table of yours as you take me from behind?”

“I’ve already done that.” He groaned from the pleasure he was receiving from her. It was true, she has had his member lodged deep inside her all over his home.

“Not just on occasion though.”

“What are you getting at?” He forced the question out.

“Has it never crossed your mind?”

“Has what every crossed my mind?” He tried to concentrate through the fog of lust.

“You know?” She chose that moment to increase her riding pace while squeezing her internal muscle. “Me as a permanent fixture in your home. In your bed? Every night?” When he went to withdraw. The sneaky devil started pulling tricks from her hat hopping on Lamont like a pogo stick taking him to new heights. The sex was mind-blowing and she knew how to get what she wanted she had to pull a rabbit from a hat. Right now she wanted his wife’s life. She didn’t deserve it. Obviously she wasn’t keeping him satisfied so why was he with her? Why did he love her so much?

“Just think about it. I could be everything she isn’t and so much more. Let me take care of your every need, not just sexually.”

“Oh shit… raise up! Raise up!”

“Hold it just a minute longer. Let me at least get…” She moaned while increased her rock chasing the only thing she would be able to force out of him. He tensed up letting her know he couldn’t hold it any longer. Shooting a powerful stream into her core knocking her own climax through the ceiling. Milking him for every single drop, trying to regulate her breathing.

Removing her limp body from his, Lamont got started cleaning himself up. He needed to get a move on if he was going to get home at a reasonable hour. Danielle had asked earlier in the day what time he would arrive for dinner so she could have it ready. Checking his phone let him know he had just enough time to make it in. Busying himself with the task at hand he didn’t spare his companion another glance. The things she was spouting were beyond reckless. There was no way in hell he would leave his cushy life with his docile wife. She was everything any man could dream of in a wife; he just desired many other hidden things that kept him seeking other women. He had trained Danielle to be his perfect, almost trophy wife. She still had some personal appearance things she needed to work on and that’s why he signed them up for a gym membership to rectify that.

“I think we should call it quits.” Lamont stated coldly.

“What…what the hell do you mean call it quits?”

“Obviously you have gotten in your feelings.”

“How many years have we been together?”

“Not together. Seeing each other. There’s a difference.”

“That’s bullshit. You can’t do this to me.”

“Either you accept what we are or we end it. I’m dead ass right now.”

“But why? You can’t really love her.”

“I love my wife very much.”

“Not enough to remain faithful.”

“I am assuming that’s your answer.”

“No. No. Wait. Fine.”

“Fine what? I need to hear you say the words.”

“I accept what we are.”

“Good girl. I’ll talk to you later.” Lamont was oblivious to the scheming look on her face while exiting the room. He didn’t know it yet but he was in for a rude awakening.

If he were to be honest, even if Danielle ever found out about his infidelities he believed she wouldn’t leave him. She would be angry and then beg him to go to counseling. That was her job, to suggest therapy. Even if she only counseled troubled children, she still believed in the therapy system. Anything and everything can be healed in a therapy session. Plus he had her trained, she knew he loved her and no one would ever love her as much as he did. Add that to the fact that she was madly in love with him and had been since they were in college further backs up his argument.

One day maybe he will stop his unfaithful ways and think about starting a family. So far that time hasn’t come, he enjoys the company of different women. Danielle is trained to let him lead, making love to only her. The other women are his slam partners in crime. They get the beast that he refuses to show his timid wife. He always wants her to forever be his upstanding lady in every aspect and that’s the way it will remain until death, says their vows. Deception is just an added perk to satisfy his other cravings. His father did it and still does it until this day. If ever caught, she will get over it just like his mother has. She has no other choice.

Danielle had just arrived at her job where she has been in the same office since she started. Besides a few decorations, pictures, and office furniture everything is just how it was the first day she arrived. The one thing that had changed was her pay-grade, thankfully. Her excellent rapporteur with the staff and her supervisors helped her score great numbers on the grading scale. Unfortunately for her, she had topped out when she got her last raise a year ago. Now when the time comes she gets a small bonus in addition to her check, with more vacation days but that’s about it. Most people would be happy with that but she knows she deserves so much more. Danielle’s goal is to put her doctorate’s degree to good use by becoming a full-fledged therapist.

Currently she was working as just a counselor, also known as a social worker, even though she was officially a licensed psychotherapist. That title was not going to cut it for too much longer. At other establishments, with her degrees she could make up to six figures in some states. The hospital she worked in was a nice establishment with a comfortable environment but there wasn’t any room for growth. The saying ‘nowhere to go but up’ didn’t apply there unless the people that was already there retired. Once some got a hold of the top jobs, there was no leaving. So Danielle is faced with the tough decision to leave the hospital or stick it out until something better comes along. It would be even better if she could open up her own practice and she posed such an idea to Lamont. He thought it was very outgoing of her to dream that idea up but he quickly shot it down.

Lamont wasn’t a negative person as he was a realist. A realist who believed that all good things came to those who worked hard at making it to the top. His theory was that she should be grateful at where she is and just wait her turn to take over for the more seasoned folks in the building. However much logic as he made, Danielle found it hard to do just that. Always in the back of her mind she is trying to see a better a way. A clearer path for her to take to get to where she wants to be. In his face she agrees, when he isn’t looking she is applying for better. So far no bites have even tickled her resume. She prayed that she wasn’t being black-balled by the very people she thought were on the up and up. Amongst some of Lamont’s most influential clients is the owner of one the top psychotherapy offices in the state but alas she has yet to get a call back.

Oftentimes she just gives up thinking maybe this is all there is to life. Being a wife of a top executive at a financial firm because technically that’s all she is. Maybe that’s all she will ever be if she never becomes a mother. That could be another reason why she is so desperate to have a baby. By now her goals were to have about two kids, the job she wanted, and maybe even a puppy. Danielle giggled to herself at her wayward thoughts. Who was she fooling? Lamont simply adored her and she should be happy with that. Some women don’t even have that much going on in their lives and here she was complaining.

“Knock, knock…”

“Come in. Hey.” Danielle spoke to one of the therapist’s that works in their department. He was the only person of color that held that title so far.

“Hey sweetie. How are you?” Beejay spoke giving her a side hug.

“I’m doing pretty well. Another day, another dollar.”

“I know that’s right.”

“What’s going on with you? How was your weekend?”

“Not as good as your time off I’m sure but it was good. We missed you around here.”

“I wish I could say the same. I enjoyed my time off.”

“I bet you did. Y’all didn’t come back with any babies did you?”

“Nah, none of that. Anyway, what brings you by?” Danielle changed the subject in a hurry in order to keep her mood high.

“Besides to see my bucket of sunshine? I need a favor.”

“Figures.” She rolled her eyes in mock disappointment. “Seriously, what’s going on?”

“I have this patient that needs a softer approach type of treatment. She will be admitted in about an hour.”

“Why are you asking me? Just curious.”

“Well…”

“Quit beating around the bush.”

“She is already treated through the outpatient program but she’s had a setback of sorts.”

“What type of setback?”

“It would probably be best if you assessed her yourself. I brought her chart down with me if you wanted to take a peak.”

“That’s fine I will take a look at it. How bad is it?”

“I was making some progress with her but now… I don’t know what has happened honestly.”

“It won’t be until tomorrow that I will be allowed to see her but I will see what I can do.”

“Thanks honey bun. Do you want to do lunch? Are we doing our usual for lunch?”

“Of course.”

“Alright I’ll save you a seat young lady.”

“You better. Don’t work too hard.”

“I’ll try not to.” Beejay blew her a kiss before exiting. He was one of her well kept secrets. Beejay was a colleague who was a bit older than she was therefore seasoned in the business. No matter how cool he was, she still never brought him up to her husband. They were good friends but mainly in the workplace only. Beejay understood that Lamont didn’t trust many people and knew for a fact he wouldn’t trust a male as his wife’s friend.

Sadly everyone who was acquainted with Beejay personally knew Danielle or any other female was nowhere near his type. He preferred the male persuasion but he wasn’t the flamboyant type. One who is all out, flaunting his sexuality around so many judgmental people would be quick to judge. If one male comes in complaining he had been touched inappropriately, it would be a wrap for an openly gay worker. The first finger pointing would start in his direction.

Danielle had been on vacation for their anniversary and just as other promises he made to her about spending more time together he magically had to rush back to work in the middle. The mythical vacation, romantic getaway they were supposed to go on turned out to be some time away for her to enjoy the spa while he golfed with some business associates. During dinner hours instead of wining and dining her, he was wooing other CEO’s of other companies. Returning to their room at night, it was filled with his grunts and wasted lingerie that he admired for a few minutes, then demanding that she remove it. Claiming they were too slutty looking. She blamed herself for not knowing how to spice up her marriage and bring out the animal she so desired.

Suddenly an email arrived in her incredibly full inbox jarring her from her off-handed thoughts. She had been working hard since lunch to clean it out. Reading, responding, deleting, and printing some off for later retrieval left enough room for more to come through. The sender was an anonymous one and normally she wouldn’t even dare to open it for fear of it being some spam or virus. That is all she needs, having her computer crash because of some cyber worm or Trojan virus. Something was nagging her to open it so she did against her better judgment. The title of the email simply stated FYI. Clicking the link to expand it, there were several attachments in picture form and one video. In the body of the text was one sentence.

EVERYTHING ISN’T ALWAYS AS IT SEEMS!

Danielle quickly closed the message not prepared to deal with anything of that magnitude. The message seemed to have a hidden meaning and she didn’t want to find out just what it was so she stored it in a locked file. Choosing to deal with it at another time. Although she should have just deleted it, she saved it so that she could return to it another day. She had more taxing things to deal with than cryptic messages. Work was calling her name and she was going to answer happily.

The week had come to an end rather quickly with constant appointments, catching up on paperwork, and Lamont’s constant absence. Her family was throwing a barbeque. She was looking forward to spending some much needed time with her husband. The family was an added bonus but her husband was her main concern. With his late nights in the office, they hadn’t really had time to talk about anything. When he finally makes it home, she is normally laying down for the night. He jumps in the shower and they sleep, only to repeat the cycle the next day.

“That party last week was fabulous.” Her Aunt Ruby gushed.

“Thank you. I enjoyed myself.”

“Girl that man certainly loves you.”

“Yeah, I love him as well.”

“You better. I know so many women out here would kill to have a man like that.”

“Mhm.” All the women nodded their heads in agreement. Danni was always thankful that she had such a thoughtful, compassionate, and loving husband. At least that was the front she had been getting when prying eyes and ears were around. Lately she had been feeling neglected when there wasn’t an audience but she didn’t want to be a nag.

“What’s going on girl? You seem to be in another world.” Her god sister spoke lowly to her shaking her from her unruly thoughts. “Trouble in paradise?”

“Huh?” Danni pretended to not know where she was coming from.

“You and brother-in-law having issues?”

“Girl no. He has just been extremely busy with work. Honestly so have I. As soon as our caseloads lessen we will have more time.”

“Well that’s good.” The distant look on her face caused Danni to look at her with a question of her own.

“What’s going on with you and Thomas?”

“Girl he is old news. I’m done with him.”

“How do you feel about that?”

“Girl if you don’t go ahead on with that therapy babble.” The sisters laughed it off because it just came natural for Danni to ask questions like those sometimes.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to sound like a therapist.”

“I already know, it’s your job. You can’t help yourself.”

“What are you ladies going on about?” Lamont popped up out of thin air.

“Oh nothing honey. Do you want me to fix you a plate?”

“Yes please. Thank you honey.” Lamont kissed her so tenderly that put a bright smile on her face.

“You’re welcome.” She walked away feeling thankful for her husband even if he never had time for her. Reminding herself that she could have a bum for a husband and then what would she complain about?

*****

Returning home from the barbeque, Danni had planned on seducing her husband. Her own needs hadn’t been met since their anniversary. Only a fragment of it was met then, now she craved a man’s touch. Her hormone level was atrocious. She was like a humping frou-frou dog. All she wanted was for her kitty to be petted. Lamont stated he had some business calls to return in his office so Danni went to their room to turn up her seduction.

Like so many times before she was soon doused with a cold bucket of reality. A bucket of ice cold water was dumped on her plans when Lamont came in claiming he had a business trip he needed to attend to. For the first time in a very long time, Danni blew up. She had been holding in her loneliness for far too long. He was going to feel her frustration, this she was sure of. How he reacted was not what she expected.

“Lamont this is bullshit!” Danni exclaimed.

“Who are you yelling at?” Lamont stopped what he was doing to face off with Danni.

“You are the only one in this room. I am sick and tired of you neglecting me.”

“Neglecting you. Woman I have work to do.”

“That’s all you ever do is work. Hell, work me for a change.” Danni countered. “Make love to me. Lick me. Fuck me. Screw me. Anything!”

“You know how much I despise that vulgar language. What has gotten into you? I can’t believe you are throwing a temper tantrum because I have business to handle. We have the rest of our lives to make love. I need to be on the road soon, we can make love when I return.”

“Making love sounds all fine and dandy but how long does it take to fuck me? We used to grab quickies all of the time. Are you not attracted to me anymore? What is it? You couldn’t keep your hands off of me in the beginning.”

“That’s what this is about. That I won’t screw you like some common whore?” Danni remained silent. “Are you a common whore?”

“Of course not.”

“Why would I screw you like one?” Lamont didn’t even give her a chance to reply as he was steadily packing as they bickered. “I don’t have time for this. I have a plane to catch.”

“You’re just going to leave in the middle of this.”

“Yes because this is silly. I love you. Committed to you. Most women would be overjoyed to have a hard working man like me and here you are complaining.”

“Lamont…”

“Save it. Use this time to think about the mess you have caused.” He left Danni questioning herself on whether she was being too hard on him. Now she was confused about what her true argument really was.

****

Currently she was finishing up with a client when she got another anonymous email. Choosing to ignore it for the time being and focus on the little girl in her presence. It was the same girl that Beejay wanted her to counsel. In the beginning she came off as a hard case. Angry with everyone that got near her but she was slowly warming up to Danielle. By allowing the little girl to call her Danni it seemed to get her to come around a little better. It didn’t go unnoticed the sympathetic look that crossed her baby face when Beejay stuck his head in to let her know he was around. Even the mention of her father sparked some emotions that Danni hoped to delve into over a period of time.