Wet Graves (24 page)

“I turned eighteen in 1944. I'd done cadet training at school and was keen to join up. Father wouldn't let me. He said he needed me to look after him. I pleaded with him but he wouldn't relent. I tried to enlist under a false name but they found me out Father said he'd used his influence with the military authorities to stop me. I couldn't understand his attitude and we had terrible fights over it. But he
did
need me. He seemed to get more frail by the day.”

His voice was bitter now and his shoulders even more hunched. I wondered which pocket his iron bar was in.

“I tried to enlist for Korea. They rejected me on medical grounds—a burst eardrum, a heart murmur, they found a lot of things wrong with me. I suspected Father of fixing things again and he didn't deny it. After that things got worse. He began to taunt me for not having served my country. Over and over again.”

We got to the end of the path and both automatically turned to walk back.

“I had a nervous breakdown. I was institutionalised for a time. Then I went back to take care of Father again and so we went on, for years and years. It wasn't a real life. No friends, no women. While I was … in hospital, I learned to build boats. There were boatyards around Rozelle and Balmain in those days. I have great talent for it. I'm a very successful yacht builder and restorer. I have a small works in Drummoyne.”

Never left home
, I thought.
And what was it about that photograph of Ms father?

“I don't want to bore you. I looked after Father until he died three years ago. He was in his late eighties and he'd lived in a wheelchair for over sixty years. I hated him but I couldn't help admiring his spirit. He was as nasty to me the day before he died as he had been the day the army rejected me. In a way, a sick way I suppose, that was what kept us together. Anyway, he died and I got used to being alone and I continued to work. But after a time some questions began to occur to me. What about the service pension? I never got any correspondence about it. And when the numbers of Gallipoli survivors started to get down to a handful, I wondered why Father's name had never come up. Why the journalists hadn't ever got onto him.

“I went into his room and dug out all the papers and things of his I'd never looked at, that he'd never let me look at. The only thing from his past he'd ever let me see was the photograph. The one you saw in my room in the Rocks.”

“The ribbons!” I said.

Ballantine shook his head angrily. “Let me tell it. I dug through the papers and found that there never had been any inheritance. He'd won a lottery in 1934, bought the house and invested the rest in other property. We lived well on the dividends all those years until my business brought in more than enough for us. But the worst thing was this—he'd never served in the army at all. Never!”

He was barely moving now and seemed unable to continue. I spoke softly, hoping to soothe him. “I was in the army. Did officer training and all that. We were supposed to know about the service ribbons, what they signified. Some of those ribbons in the photograph aren't Australian. It's been nagging at me ever since I saw the picture.”

Ballantine nodded and began to speak quickly. “You're right. They're Canadian and New Zealand. It was all a fake, a fantasy. He worked on the bridge as a labourer from the late 1920s. He was injured in the fabrication workshop when a girder fell on him. He invented the war hero story, and I suffered because of it every day of my life. He was an evil man.”

We were past the halfway point now, going south. I wondered how much longer the story would take and whether another crossing would be needed. Ballantine wasn't moving any more quickly, but the words were tumbling out.

“I met Barclay by accident. He came to me for some work on his boat. We talked. He told me about his father and the bridge. He was so pleased with himself in every way. His life had worked out so perfectly. His father had given him everything he'd ever wanted. And mine had taken everything away from me. I got into a rage and I … I killed him. I couldn't believe that I'd done it at first, and then I couldn't believe how wonderful it made me feel. I tried to resist the impulse, but it was too strong for me. I searched out the others and killed them too. I know it was wrong, but I couldn't help it.”

“What about Glover?” I said.

“He was the worst. The most horrible person I ever met. The others weren't so bad, just so … so comfortable and self-satisfied. They were dead when I put them in the water, but Glover wasn't. I wanted him to be alive and aware of what was happening, so I didn't wrap him. It seems I didn't chain him properly either.”

I didn't know what to do. He seemed calm, but there was a pent-up energy in him and I knew how strong he was. He'd killed several fit, healthy men, and he said he had an iron bar in his pocket. I took a grip on the .38 in my pocket and plodded on.

“I got in touch with Stan Livermore as a way of finding the people I wanted. Old Stan knew everything about everyone connected with the bridge. I thought I might be able to help some of the veterans, too. But I didn't do anything for them. I'm sorry about old Stan. I didn't mean to kill him, just to frighten him so that he wouldn't say anything about me to you or anyone else. But I'd exhausted myself getting there before you and there wasn't much time. I was a little panicked and too rough. He was very old and frail.”

We were getting towards the south end of the bridge, and Ballantine suddenly speeded up.

“I knew it was coming to an end. The feeling wasn't the same. The old woman was an awful creature, but I'm sorry about what happened to her.”

I was almost trotting now to keep up with him. Suddenly he thrust his shoulder at me and sent me spinning, crashing into the metal barrier on my left. He swept my feet out from under me with a kick and broke into a run. I shouted and struggled up on a twisted ankle; I hobbled on, but he'd gained ten metres on me. He stopped and his arm swung up. I ducked but he wasn't offering a threat. He was reaching up for something above him, something attached to the metal superstructure arching above us. Then he was climbing rapidly, hands and feet, clear of the walkway. A rope ladder. I limped forward but before I could reach the spot, the ladder had been twitched up, up and away.

Ballantine climbed along a wide metal strut that intersected with a complex of girders and wires that reached up to a dizzying height. I stood rooted to the spot and watched him climb. He slid and slithered but clung on; he used his rope ladder to get over tricky parts and he went up very high, very quickly. I got a look at the ladder; it was made of something light and slick, like nylon. A man came running towards me. “What're you doing?”

I pointed skywards. Ballantine had emerged from behind a pillar and was swarming up his ladder.

“Jesus,” the man said, “should I get an ambulance or what?”

“You could use the emergency phone. Tell them there's a man climbing the bridge.”

“Right.” He dashed off and I propped myself against the railing and stared up at the mass of grey metal. The man crawling and scrambling up it shrank to the size of a toy soldier. He was more than halfway to the top of the arch and still moving when I heard the sirens. They drew nearer and the flashing lights started to lend a chaotic drama to the scene. The traffic slowed and snarled as drivers watched the crowd form. I was joined on the walkway by a policeman and other people who'd appeared from nowhere. A train roared along the tracks and drowned out the honking horns and screaming sirens. Unconsciously, we shuffled back along the walkway towards the middle of the bridge, following the progress of the man above.

“My God,” a woman said, “he's going to jump.”

Ballantine reached a point where a strut ran out horizontally just below the centre of the arch. He stood, balanced himself with both hands outstretched and stepped out into the void. A whoosh of sound escaped the throats of the people watching as he plummeted. A fierce gust of wind twisted and turned him in the air and threw him against the railway overhead that juttted out beyond the arch not far above us. We heard the body hit with a soggy thump, and we gasped again as the impact flicked it back into space and it fell, fluttering and broken, into the dark water.

22

David John Ballantine, 66, of 21 Banksia Street, Drummoyne, had told me most of the truth about his life in our walk across the bridge. He'd omitted the fact that he'd been institutionalised several times for mental disorders. He had offered violence to himself and others over the years, but he was mostly in control and ran, as he'd said, a successful business as a boatbuilder and restorer. The police pieced his life together in the days after his battered body was taken from the harbour. They found ample evidence of his methods of killing and disposing of his victims. They found photographs and notes which showed how thoroughly he'd planned and executed the abductions and waylayings.

“The man got around Sydney using the waterways,” Loomis told me. “He must've known the harbour like the back of his hand. And he was immensely strong. He killed those men with his bare hands, quickly and efficiently. He actually threw one of them over a high fence and into some bushes as a temporary hiding place. Handling them was no problem.”

“Tell me, when they fished him out, did he have an iron bar in his pocket?”

“No. Funny thing was, he had a bunch of military medals and ribbons, all crammed together in the pocket of his coat.”

“He'd have done better to have snuffed his father early on,” I said.

Loomis nodded. “The father must have been a monster, but make no mistake, Ballantine was very strange himself. Paranoid to an immense degree. He really thought the whole world was out to screw him. Beautiful craftsman, though. You should see some of the model boats he made. Beautiful.”

“Did you find his boat?”

“Sort of. He'd holed and sunk it in the water near his slipway. They tell me it was a butcher's boat. Appropriate, eh?”

“A butcher's boat,” I said. “What's that?”

“Apparently the butchers used to race each other out to the ships in the old days. First aboard got the provisioning order. They had these light, fast boats. Lithgow had restored his down to the last nail. Ideal for dumping bodies. He was saying goodbye when he sank it, poor bastard.”

“How's Lloyd Meredith?”

“Mending. We would have got Ballantine outselves, Hardy. You realise that.”

“Sure,” I said. “While on the subject of getting people, what about Tobin?”

“Conspiracy to commit murder, attempted murder, he's going inside for a long, long time.”

“Good,” I said. “Moody?”

“Resigned. Pissed off about something or other. It's not a perfect world, Hardy.”

Louise Madden buried her father in the cemetery at Blackheath in the Blue Mountains. I drove up there for the occasion. It was a fine, cold day in the mountains and there were a lot of people present—Brian Madden's former colleagues, some of his ex-students, a number of Louise's friends, people from the golf club. I looked around for Dell Burton, the other woman who grieved for Madden, but she wasn't there. We all stood in the small space available between other graves and watched the quiet, dignified ceremony. Louise held the handful of earth a long time before dropping it in on the box.

Later, back at her rambling weatherboard house in Leura, she thanked me for giving her the chance to say goodbye to her father properly.

I sipped my drink and didn't say anything.

She was almost smiling. “Cheer up, it means a lot to me, all this. Having people around. Do any of your cases have a really happy ending, Cliff?”

“Not lately,” I said. “But I keep hoping.”