Authors: James Jones
“A petition? In the Army?” Winch said. “And whose idea was this?” He swung on Landers. “Yours?”
“No,” Landers said. “It was Prell’s own idea, I guess.” He moved his head. “He gave it to Johnny Stranger.”
It was the first time Winch had ever heard his former clerk use Strange’s personal nickname out in the open like that, and he stared at the younger wartime-only soldier. Well, we were all changing. And fast. It was only to be expected. When the situation changes, the juxtapositions and orbits of the relative bodies within the situation change. All except Prell.
“I should have guessed it,” he said in a low, iron-edged voice. “That stupid, dumbass son of a bitch. The hero-chaser. If there was any way for him to mess some damn thing up, and damage himself in the process, that hero-chaser would find the way to do it. And they’d give him a medal for it. We don’t even know whether the doctors are wrong or not, do we?”
“No,” Strange said, “we don’t. But if it’s going to kill him, and he wants to take the chance,
I
think they ought to let him do it.”
“Does anybody know why it isn’t healing?”
“No, they don’t,” Strange said. “Tell me something, Top. Did you come all this way down here just because of Prell?”
Winch swung his head to glare at Strange. “Are you out of your skull? You think I’d come here? I go where I’m sent, like all the rest of you meat-wagon candidates. Now, you men clear out of this and let me get myself shaped up. I’ve got a medical appointment.”
“Do you think there’s anything you can do to help?” Strange said.
“Me? What?” Winch said. “I don’t carry any more weight here than you do. This aint the old regiment.”
“We’d like to ask you to do what you can,” Landers said suddenly, and loudly.
Winch did not answer him. He simply stared at them expressionlessly.
As they left, he turned back to his bed. After a moment, he began to straighten his bathrobe.
Jack Alexander was a different proposition from old T.D. Hoggenbeck.
His office was equally impressive, and he was careful to take as good care of his creature comforts, but there the resemblance ended. And Winch knew it.
And Winch had never served with Alexander and didn’t know him, as he did old T.D. Alexander the Great—“The Emperor”—was just finishing his reign and shipping home with his loot he’d collected as number-one fighter in the Department, when Winch was just first arriving in Wahoo as a lowly corporal. Alexander had been a legend in the Army, even then.
Now he was old. And he looked it. In fact, he resembled nothing so much as a huge, ancient, bait-wise old sea turtle. With his totally bald head and thick-wrinkled face, his only slightly flattened beak and big jaw and lipless mouth like a razor blade, bleak as the edge of an ice floe. With his faded, pale, flat, blue eyes which had seen just about everything the earth had to offer, and neither liked nor hated it all that much. An old turtle who had swum the oceans of his planet for two centuries, avoiding the traps laid by men and wearing the scars to prove it, until now he was so huge there wasn’t anything for him to fear any more. And Alexander was huge. He had always been a big man, even back in the old days, but then he had been relatively lean. Now he carried a huge hard paunch that stuck out in front of him two feet, and meat packed the skin of his head and neck to bursting. And it wasn’t fat. It was meat. How or why he had chosen to wind up his days here at Kilrainey General in Luxor was anybody’s guess.
Winch, with his new experience, couldn’t help wondering fleetingly what Alexander’s blood pressure must be.
With his thick fingers he pulled out a bottle of bourbon and sat it upon the desk and gestured. Winch nodded and grinned. He wasn’t supposed to, he said; but he could smell it. Alexander poured two shots and sat down and motioned to the chair across from him. So far he hadn’t said a single word.
Winch wet his lips only, with the whiskey, and collected his thoughts.
“So far I can’t figure out, or find out, whether this man Prell of mine ought to have his leg off or not,” he said.
Alexander nodded.
“You understand, I just happen to be here.”
The huge Alexander nodded again.
“If it ought to come off, it ought to come off,” Winch said. “Naturally, I’d like to see him save it. But he seems to feel that at least one of these damned civilian doctors would give him more time if he had the authority.”
“That’s Curran,” Alexander said. His voice was a deep rasp from down in the middle of his paunch, which flowed past a voice box covered with the scar tissue of many years of punches.
“Curran,” Winch said.
“It’s got Col Stevens upset,” Alexander said. “He’s up for brigadier the next promotions list. A scandal could scotch him.”
It was Winch’s turn to nod.
“Even getting noticed could,” Alexander said.
“What’s this Baker like?”
“He’s a hardhead. He’s in love with himself. He’s good,” Alexander said.
“And Curran?”
“The same,” Alexander said. “Younger.”
“So there’s no choice. What’s wrong with stalling it?” Winch said.
“Nothing,” Alexander said. “But Prell could die.”
“Don’t other men die here?”
Alexander’s huge shoulders moved ever so slightly in the expensive swivel chair. “Sure.”
“So?” Winch said. He was playing it all by ear now, a response at a time.
“There’s been so much notoriety,” Alexander said. “Publicity. He might have relatives.” He moved in the chair, an enormous bulk. “I’m telling you how the Old Man, how Col Stevens is thinking.”
“He hasn’t got any relatives,” Winch said.
“He’s got a lot of friends,” Alexander said. “Apparently.”
“I can promise the friends won’t say anything. About anything,” Winch said. “They all want the surgeons to wait.”
“I guess the Old Man—if I was the Old Man, that is—would sure like to be sure of that,” Alexander said.
Winch paused, as an idea hit him. “As a matter of fact,” he said finally, “I’ve got a—” his throat choked itself off at the word
petition
, “a paper,” he said instead, “that’s signed by all the former members of his outfit here, which asks that Prell’s leg not be amputated.”
“I’d sure like to have a copy of that paper,” Alexander said.
“Would you show it to Col Stevens?”
“No,” Alexander said. “I couldn’t do that.”
“I can get you a copy of it,” Winch said.
“Signed?”
“Sure, signed.”
“I would like to have it,” Alexander said.
“Then there’s another thing,” Winch said. “This man Prell’s been recommended for a Congressional Medal by our Division commander. Did you know that? It ought to be in his 201 File, hadn’t it?”
Alexander nodded his enormous head. “It is. The Old Man’s seen it. There’s an interesting bit on that. When the man first got here, I got a letter on him. From Washington. They wanted to know how he was getting along. I had to write back not so good. They didn’t answer. Later I wrote two follow-ups on that medal. We got decorations lists here, you see. And every so often the Old Man makes some presentations. I got answers on all the others. But I didn’t get an answer on that Prell medal. Now what does that sound like to you?”
“Where was the inquiry letter from?” Winch said, his mind racing around.
“From AGO.”
“Where do the medal responses come from?”
“The Medals Division.”
“So?” Winch asked. He answered himself, “So. It looks like they don’t want a one-legged Medal of Honor winner right now. At least, not from Luxor.”
The big head nodded slowly. “That was what it looked like to me.”
“Wouldn’t Col Stevens like to have a Medal of Honor winner here?” Winch asked. “Make the presentation?”
“Not a dead one,” Alexander said. “With no relatives.”
“The regiment would like to have that medal,” Winch said.
“You can’t speak officially for the regiment, though,” Alexander said. His turtle-horn mouth cracked a mirthless grin. “And I think it’s live Medal of Honor winners, with all their arms and legs, that they’re looking for, right now.”
“There’s a very good chance that he’ll live, I seem to feel,” Winch said. “Better than even, I’d say. But this Col Curran hasn’t any authority.”
“The Old Man couldn’t take a patient away from Col Baker and give him to Col Curran,” Alexander croaked mildly. “But he does have an awful lot of work right now. Awful busy.”
“And he could stay busy awhile,” Winch said.
“I would like to have that paper,” Alexander said.
“I can have it for you this afternoon.”
“Naturally, I wouldn’t show it to Col Stevens. It might look too much like some kind of a petition. You can imagine what that would do to Col Stevens. Like a red flag to a bull. But he might hear about the men, huh?”
“You’ll have it today,” Winch said.
“Much obliged,” Alexander said. For the first time since they’d started, he picked up his shot glass of bourbon. He gestured a salute with it and tossed it off. He put the bottle away.
“Of course, I can’t speak for Col Stevens, you understand,” Alexander said with massive modesty in the flat turtle eyes.
“Of course not,” Winch said.
When Winch had his hand already on the stainless steel doorknob, the chief w/o grunted behind his desk. Winch turned around.
“It’s nice to do business with you, Sgt Winch,” Alexander said. “Old T.D. Hoggenbeck wasn’t wrong about you.”
“Well, it’s nice to do business with you, sir,” Winch said.
“Maybe we’ll do more,” Alexander said from behind the desk, without even a crack of a smile.
“Maybe,” Winch said. “It’s possible.” Old T.D. must have told him about that, too.
“I know everybody at and Army,” Alexander said.
Winch nodded. So old T.D. had told him. He shut the door behind him.
There was no difficulty in getting hold of the petition. Strange turned it over to him immediately. After the noon meal Winch read it, rewrote it in a less formal petition style, and took it with him to the snack bar where he was to meet with and say hello to the other men, and had them all re-sign it. Then he sat and talked with them awhile.
It was not much of a reunion. At least, not for Winch. Without knowing it about Landers, Winch had the same reaction to all of them that Landers had had. They did not seem to be the same men. Their faces were all different. He remembered them as the men they had been when they left Guadalcanal back in January or February on the big planes or the Navy ships, when their faces had been skeletal and hollow-eyed and haunted, and full of fear and terror and a boyish relief. Different men. More like his perpetually dehydrated platoons, who were still out there.
When he left them, he took the paper up to Jack Alexander’s office and presented it, and had another ritual shot glass of Alexander’s bourbon, which he tasted but did not drink.
Then he went back down and lay down on his bed. He was totally exhausted. He was so exhausted he could hardly place one foot in front of the other. He was so physically worn out he did not bother to get up when the evening meal was served, and missed supper.
Later, when he went to bed for the night, he couldn’t sleep. As on so many other nights since his recovery, he was haunted by that impression he had had of another him, that night when he had almost passed out back at Letterman. Another him, outside there somewhere. Where could it be? What was it?
He had never had another sensation like it, not even during his wildest drunken debauch.
He lay listening to the breathing of the other sleeping men on the ward (there were only two others in the heart ward) and thought about Prell, and that he would have to meet him, go see him. Since he had to do it, he might as well do it tomorrow and not put it off.
W
INCH HAD NO IDEA
what he was going to say to Prell. Nor did he have any idea what to expect from Prell when he saw him. He tried to brief himself before going, not only by talks with Landers and Strange, but also by talking to Corello and Drake and the others from the company. Corello and Drake and the rest were no help at all. Strange and Landers were almost no help.
Landers kept hemming and hawing, and saying Prell looked bad. “Well, naturally he looks bad,” Winch said, “you dumbass clerk. That doesn’t help me any.”
After a lot of haranguing him, and some considerable but useless soul-searching on Landers’ part, Landers finally looked up with widened eyes and said, “Well, he just looks like he’s run out of gas.”
“What does that mean?”
“Well, you know. No gas, no steam. Just what the hell do you want to find out, Top?” He was beginning to get angry. “I’m trying to tell you all I can.”
“You’re supposed to be a goddamned college boy,” Winch sneered. “Can’t you express yourself any better than that? If you can’t, you ought to pack it in and shoot yourself.”
“I’m trying, damn you.”
It was the first time Winch could ever remember Landers cursing him directly. Usually he would curse all around him, indirectly, but never head-on, face to face. Well, the little bucks grew up in the herd, and wanted to try their antlers, and take on the big bucks. “What the hell do you mean, no gas?” he bellowed. “No heart? No will?”
“No,” Landers said. “No, he’s got heart. And will. You wouldn’t believe how much. I guess it’s energy I mean. He’s run out of energy.”
This brought Winch up short. He had learned, lately, what it was to run out of energy. He had never used to.
“Well, why the fuck don’t you say what you mean?”
“You can have all the heart in the world. And all the will,” Landers said. “It doesn’t help you a bit when you finally run out of energy.”
Strange was not much better, though it was a calmer discussion. Strange talked about despair.
“I’ve been watching him for just that, you know, Top. Ever since Efate. And on the ship. He’s made this same fight, what now? Twice? This is the third time. I’ve been afraid all along it was going to hit him. That he was going to get full of despair. I thought long before now. He’s really a front-runner, you know.”
“You can say that again,” Winch said thinly.