White Wolves MC: A BWWM Interracial Romance (6 page)

“So, why are you turning on them?” I asked, meeting his steely glare. “We should be enemies, but you’re welcoming me into your home.”

Honestly, ‘welcoming’ was a stretch. But here we were.

Viper’s hand shot out, grabbed me by my collar and forced me close. I gasped, feeling his strength, the way he moved me through the air as if I weighed nothing.

“What…” I started to say but he cut me off.

“You want to know why I’m selling out those sons of bitches?” he growled. I could smell his breath, smell the cigarettes and whiskey that clung to his lips. He wanted me to flinch, to fear him, but I had already stared death in the eyes only a few days ago, and nothing could make me flinch.

“That’s right,” I whispered, letting the words slip out of my lips like water whipping along over pebbles in a stream. “I want to know why you’re selling out those sons of bitches. Actually, I don’t give a damn. But what I want to know is this: if you’re the type to sell our your sworn brothers in crime, what’s to keep you from fucking me over at the last minute?”

He snarled, rage barely contained. I thought for a moment he was going to throw me across the kitchen, but he controlled himself.

“Because I don’t want to die with those bastards. I’m tired of this life, but I don’t want to give up on living. I just want a different life.”

“So, why don’t you leave?”

The look in his eyes all but broke my heart—the look of a boxer, cornered in the ring and weathering blow after blow. A bead of sweat formed over his eyebrow and I saw the tendons in his well-muscled shoulders tense.

“Because they’d kill me. The only way you get out of the White Wolves is in a body bag or a coffin. You die in a shoot out with another gang or some coked up addicts or the cops—or you’ll die when the other White Wolves murder you for looking at condo prices.”

“So, your life is in our hands,” I concluded, still holding his unblinking gaze. He nodded curtly.

“Looks that way.”

“So, I guess you’d better be nicer to me.”

He let me go and I felt like I was descending back to earth. My head felt whoozy and I wanted to sit down, but I couldn’t let myself look weak or fragile in front of Viper.

The fact was… I was kind of turned on. It seemed so wrong, so terrible and unprofessional and even—unfaithful. But if I were being honest, in my heart of hearts, I could have torn that wife beater off Viper’s chiseled flesh and used my lips to catalog every single turn and flourish of the tattoo artist’s needle.

“You’ll sleep in my bed,” he murmured, breaking my reverie.

“You don’t have to do that. I’m happy to take the couch.”

“Couch is more comfortable. I sleep on the couch all the time myself,” he said with a wry grin. I could tell he was lying. I liked the way his face moved, twisted, and contorted when he smiled.

I unpacked the small backpack of things I had brought with me, setting them in the bathroom and on the nightstand next to his bed. It was made, but the sheets hadn’t been washed for a while. They smelled like a man—the scent of sweat, tobacco, and strength clung to them, entered deep into the fibers and I couldn’t help but take it in.

It was a scent I hadn’t experienced since Fred died. Since before, in fact. Since he had gone, since he had been deployed the last time.

God, but I missed him.

I was aware, suddenly, of someone watching me. I turned to face Viper.

“Well, I guess this is goodnight,” I said, starting to take my shirt off without another thought.

He had already stripped off his wife beater and stood before me, shirtless, his powerful torso covered in more tattoos, more scars, and a light smattering of chest hair that blended in with his natural tan. The hair led down his rippling belly to his boxers, just visible over his belt and the waist of his worn blue jeans.

“If you need anything in the night…” he began, trailing off as I tossed my shirt on his bed, standing before him with just a bra. This was the most skin I had shown a man since Fred died.

But this was a job. This was work. Viper was bound to see more of me in the coming weeks anyway.

And I wanted to see how far he would go.

Truth be told… I wanted to see how far I would go. Would I allow myself to be seen half-naked in front of him?

“I’ll just find you in the living room on the couch, right?” I confirmed, beginning to undo my own jeans. I lowered them and daintily stepped out of them, like a mare stepping over a creek.

“That’s exactly right,” he grunted. “On the couch. In the living room.”

I allowed him a smile.

“Sounds good, then. Good night.”

And I turned my back to him, bending over, letting him see my butt. I can’t help but be proud of my ass—the upside to being an FBI agent, of course, is the physical activity. I have to stay in great shape, and that means evenings at the gym, squats and deadlifts, boxing, jiu-jitsu, kettle bell swings—the works. I played volleyball in high school and college and I’ve never been in as good of shape as I am now.

I felt powerful, felt like I was toying with Viper as I showed him my butt, teased him with my otherwise boring and unremarkable Target panties. I glanced over my shoulder, back at him.

“Anything else you need from me?”

That seemed to wake him up, made him realize he was staring. He shook his head.

“No. No, I’m good. Good night.”

And he stalked out of the room. I heard him turn on the TV, crack open a can of beer, and plop down on the couch. I took off my bra and imagined him coming back into the room, seeing me just about naked, throwing me down on the bed…

He would pounce on me like a wild animal, tear into me, and I would squeal in delight, writhing in pleasure beneath him as he tore me apart.

No. This was a job. I had a job to do.

Even if I had to do it with… Him.

I climbed into bed and pulled out a book to read, trying to calm my nerves after the strange, stressful last few days. I had grabbed a copy of Gunther Grass’s
The Tin Drum
off my bookshelf. Fred had given it to me years ago; it was his favorite book. I had started it many times over the year, and never managed to keep up with it.

And now, I couldn’t bring myself to concentrate on the complex layers of plot and character. All I wanted was to know more about Viper.

More than that, the last few days had brought amazing, profound changes in my life. I had lost one partner and gained a new one. I hadn’t taken any time at all to mourn Winston, unless you counted hitting the gym hard and beating my personal deadlift record mourning.

Which, to be honest… I did. The horror of death came to me and it terrified me, and I felt I needed to do… Something. Anything. Anything to prove to myself that I was alive.

Maybe that’s what terrified me the most about the deaths of those I love. The feeling that I must be next.

But if that were so, then why didn’t I given two shits about my own life, about my own safety? Why could I charge into a salvo of gunfire, squeezing my eyes shut, and unloading my own gun, without even a thought to my own vulnerability, the fragility of my flesh facing down the blazing guns?

I was lost in reflection and only returned to reality when I heard the television in the other room click off. I heard Viper yawn. The light turned off and he must have gone to bed, because I heard the rustling of skin on fabric.

I sat in my own bed for a while, letting the night overcome me, letting the night take me, but holding out against sleep. My mind was still racing.

What did Viper want? Could I even trust him? I remembered back to a conversation I had had with Doug before accepting the assignment. Of course, I had already informally accepted the assignment that evening in Doug’s car on the way back from the scene of the shootout with Bolo’s men. But then, back then, I had yet to officially accept the assignment.

That came later, in Doug’s office, when I sat across from him, as he read out the details and I signed my name to the official paperwork that placed me on the case.

“We don’t know if we can trust MacKinnon,” Doug said as I signed my name. “That’s half the reason you’re there—to figure out if he’s been truthful. We’ve sunk a lot of resources into this case and it’s on the basis of his word, a lot of it is. If it turns out he’s been lying or feeding us false information…”

“Then we’re sunk, and we’re out the money we spent on it.”

“Bingo,” my boss said grimly. “So, if you smell something rotten, tell me before this goes any further.”

Rotten. Was Viper rotten?

When I was sure that he was asleep, I rose from my bed and began to wander through the apartment. A veritable bachelor’s pad, as I first had judged it, but not without it’s charm—it’s own surprising traces of humanity.

Too often, we assume that criminals and gangsters live in their crimes, in their lives of criminality. But so much of their waking consciousness is taken up by the same banal thoughts and petty worries as anyone else. It’s just that, when they go to work, they commit crimes, and when most of us go to work, we don’t.

I found Viper’s shopping list scribbled on a white board affixed with magnets to the fridge. Eggs, cereal, toilet paper (of course), bacon, milk, rice, canned soup… So, these were the things that powered a biker.

As I passed through his kitchen, I found myself drawn to the fridge. I opened it, and found what I would have expected—beer, some left over chili in a pot, and… Hot sauces. Dozens of them. All in colorful bottles, emblazoned with flames, dragons, sharks, devils, fire-breathing goats, angels lit on fire, chili peppers, and more.

So, this was something I hadn’t known about Viper. He likes spicy food.

I glided out of the kitchen and into the living room, where he slept. I noticed a series of pictures, all framed, on the bookshelf, but the blinds were drawn and I couldn’t see what they depicted in the dark. A slight sliver of moon light came in under the blinds and fell on Blade’s face, passed out and slightly sweaty in the darkness. His snores passed in and out of his lips easily, like waves crashing on the beach.

I took a step closer to him, peering over him, taking in the powerful image of his tattooed flesh at rest, watching his chest rise and fall with each crash of the waves. I was tempted to kiss those lips, just to see what would happen, but I refrained.

No. Job. Work.

I stepped back from the couch and went back to my room. I hadn’t learned anything more about Viper. Anything except that he, apparently, was a hot sauce nut.

And that I wanted to jump his bones.

That realization made my cheeks flush but there was no point in denying it. After all, he was the first man I had really been attracted to, since my husband died.

It had been years. And still, even looking at Viper, even imagining him, imagining his body beneath those worn out, tarnished blue jeans—it felt like I was cheating.

But Fred wasn’t around anymore. He was just a memory.

I felt a sob bubble up in my throat at that thought. My husband. Just a memory. I hated it.

It had been just after I graduated, in May of my last year of law school, when I got the news. I had been coming home from brunch with friends when my phone rang. I didn’t recognize the number, and, although when Fred was deployed, I usually jumped on the phone whenever it rang, even if it was an unfamiliar number, this time I didn’t answer. This time I ignored it. I was buzzed from one or two too many mimosas at brunch and the inevitable marathon of Real Housewives episodes with my girlfriends seemed way more important.